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[Ecrofirt]

I've decided that it's definitely some kind of problem.

I just don't really care about anything at all. All the time.

I even have to push myself to do things that I know are interesting, because I just don't care.

I almost feel like not waking up most days, because I don't really feel like I have a purpose. I just wake up, and do mindless shit until it's time to go to bed, just to repeat the cycle again. I fucking hate it.

Is it some kind of depression or something?

Yea, yea, I know. GAF isn't a doctor. I've seen enough threads where that's been said. It's probably gonig to be said in here, but I don't care. I just needed somewhere to vent, and I need ideas about what to do to get over this.

 

[Zaptruder]

You obviously care enough to post.

Problem solved! Your first step is your last step!

 

[Boogie]

It seems GAF is apathetic to your apathy problem.

 

[Ecrofirt]

it seems that way.

 

[SlickWilly223]

Women, goals, and contraband will cure what ales you.

 

[Ecrofirt]

I think the woman is part of the cause.

 

[Ecrofirt]

I kinda feel like offing myself a lot.

I always try to shake the feeling off. Just now, for instance, I was thinking about going into the basement and, well nevermind about that.

 

[Hitokage]

Yeah, talk to either a doctor or psychologist about depression.

 

[CajoleJuice]

The past three weeks I was like Ecrofirt...only thing it was really bad because I didn't do to class or anything. And people would call me and I wouldn't pick up. I didn't go on AIM on my new screen name. People thought I was dead. Well, except for all my friends from high school. I just can't get over that I decided to make the next 4 years of my life miserable and go to MIT. That's what made me a depressed fuck the past three weeks. I think I might be over it. I can't bring myself to go see a psychologist though. I'm a stubborn bastard.

 

[Brian Fellows]

I think the woman is part of the cause.

Well then go find yourself a good lookin dude

 

[Fifty]

I just can't get over that I decided to make the next 4 years of my life miserable and go to MIT.

Why not? You do know that MIT stands for Mighty Interesting Time, don't you?

 

[Mumbles]

Who gives a shit?

I kinda feel like offing myself a lot.

Okay, all jokes aside, it's time for you to seek professional help. Or at least, someone close to you. Ys, you're right, GAF can't do much to help you here. Yes, you've got a problem, and it's beyond the ability of anyone to fix it over the internet.

 

[demon]

Seeking professional help won't necessarily solve shit. Didn't for me. Although I don't knwo if apathy was exactly my problem ever......actually I'd say I've had an incredibly apathetic attitude torwards academics and that kind of stuff, while my social/"love"-life has been the cause of depression. ok sorry off topic, just ina crappy mood....

seeing a psychologist is probably a better idea than seeing a psychiatrist, though. Gettin you hopped up on zoloft or some shit isn't necessarily what you want.

 

[Eminem]

i've lived basically the last year and a half like that.
except, i viewed the week as useless and i never cared. friday and saturday night i had fun and did shit...but i always knew in the scope of things it was worthless.
fun for a few hours doesn't make up for an entire week of nothingness.
it was terrible.

luckily shit tilted in my favor for once and i found a reason to take interest in things. seriosly.

my advice is to wait it out for another month or so and see what happens.

 

[Ned Flanders]

I too have this problem. I basically live on a chain of consecutive short-term indulgences.

It reminds me of animals. It's like once you strip life of all its human-concocted trappings (religion, love, etc), you're basically just spending time going through routines of sustainance and perpetuation, and trying to do so with as minimal a suffering as possible.

I have no answers.

 

[Bristow]

I used to be like that when I was younger. As cliche as it is, life is what you make of it. Set goals, meet new people, start a family, etc. Sitting around the house playing video games and/or watching TV every day will skew your perspective on life (I've been guilty of this in the past.) Don't let monotony seep in, maintain a positive attitude, and try to accomplish something that will bring that meaning you seek into your life. For me, it was having a son with my wife. No matter how much I might think life sucks, I have a son to look out for and assure his won't.

 

[rs7k]

Ecrofirt, the way you're describing your problem is exactly how I would have liked to describe the one I had two weeks ago to my friends and family. I find that my apathy stems from being tired most of the time. I won't have energy to give a crap about thinking about my life (I don't know how much sense that made, sry). I'm trying to maintain a regular sleep schedule with at least 7 hours of sleep a night, and I have to say it's helping quite a bit. I stopped doing drugs, and I have to say that made the biggest difference.

Everybody is different, and the best advice that I can give you is to think positive. I know hearing stuff like this never helps when you're depressed, but the key here is to force yourself to not think about the negativity of daily life. I would wake up, go on the Internet, and think to myself the entire world is just oblivious to my existence, and that nothing I do matters, and that offing myself wouldn't make any difference.

What helped me the most is the abstinence of drugs, because marijuana does cause amotivational syndrome (that's what you sound like you're experiencing, but I have no idea of your prior substance use/abuse, if any) in some people, and as with all drugs, side effects seem to hit me the hardest among all the people I know. There is no problem with using marijuana once a week or even less often, I just seem to make a unconscious commitment to abusing it as much as I can whenever I "relapse". As a complement to the abstinence, I forced myself to think about the future, and what I can do now to make it as good as I can. Do you feel like you're stuck in the present, and that you have no care for anything you did in the past, and that your future just consists of whatever you're doing now, ad nauseum? I'm no doctor, and most of what I said just stems from personal experience, and I'm not good at expressing myself in English in the first place.

 

[Folder]

I think a start would be to sort that avatar out.
What the fuck is the matter with you?

As to your problem, lots of things can impact on you in this way. Simply go and see a psych. Ask them. They'll talk to you and see what it is in your life that is causing this. If there'sno obvious reason, they'll refer you to a doctor and you'll get something to take. Although presc-meds sound scary, they work very well in some cases.

And please, change your avatar. People have been abused as children, peopleknow people who have been abused. Whether it's meant in toungue in cheek (which I'm sure it is) it's still offensive in the extreme.

Good luck.

 

[Sergenth]

I got depressed in this way a year and a half ago. It started when I looked at my bank account number, and realized fully, that I didn't have enough money to do the things I want to do, and that I'll not have enough money to do those things anytime in the future that I can see, and that there's no way, besides fortune being handed to me that I'd be able to make enough money to do more than sustain myself.

I projected that I would even be too poor to buy the occasional videogame.

I distinctly felt doomed.

I'm smart enough to know how doomed I am, and that's an additional downer.

...and then, over the course of a year, I gave up on some of my dreams, a little bit each time, while still holding on to the notion that I could achieve them. Big-time cognitive dissonance, but that's the terrain I was forced to go through. There is no being positive.

I've started to hate people with money and power to do what they want, but since it doesn't make me feel better to think that way, I don't believe what I feel. But I still do it anyway.

Good luck finding something in your life that you actually have control over. When you do, it will save you from your pit, like a flood of water that leads you to the top rim and out.

Hmm... do find something in your life that you can control... about yourself. That's what you need to do... explore a bit. You'll uncover a lot of lies along the way, which can be kinda fun and self-righteous-izing.

 

[Diablos]

Ecro: You sound like me.

 

[Chipopo]

The Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle.

 

[norinrad21]

Join the club.......


anyway lately the fear of failure is what has sink me into some sort of depression

 

[MoxManiac]

I'm kinda bummed cause my job is monotonous, my mom is still recovering from a major stroke, my social life is nonexistant at the moment, and I fucking died in SMT:N after an hour of going through a huge dungeon and I didn't save.

 

[Ecrofirt]

I really think my girlfriend might be bringing me down.

She's on medication for depression and stuff, but I really think she's the biggest cause. It seems like she just drags me down with her somehow.

 

[slayn]

I'm exactly the same way with the only difference being that I embrace my apathy.

I guess I just lucked out in the fact that I like being alone and like doing nothing.

void of nothingness > *

 

[Fusebox]

>>What can I do about my apathy problem?

I wouldn't worry about it man....

 

[Ned Flanders]

I hate it when people say "have a kid" in response to people dealing with apathy etc. Like people who are rudderless and disaffected with life really need to tack on the responsibility of raising a child to cure their depression or give their life substance. Looking for an excuse to get up in the morning and get a job is not a valid reason for starting a family.

 

[demon]

I hate it when people say "have a kid" in response to people dealing with apathy etc. Like people who are rudderless and disaffected with life really need to tack on the responsibility of raising a child to cure their depression or give their life substance. Looking for an excuse to get up in the morning and get a job is not a valid reason for starting a family.

Definitely agree. My younger sister (who is now 17) has gone through shitloads of clinical depression and problems and whatnot, and while she's better now, about a year ago she was seriously considering having a baby because she felt she had absolutely no other purpose in her life. It was the most retarded thought that ever ran through her head, and I had to slap some serious sense into her.