This is where I'm at. Conceptually it doesn't bother me. Existentially it doesn't bother me, but the process of the pain part. Something like a 5/6 hour attack terrifies me. What about these 'peaceful deaths' of methodone OD etc. or euthanasia. It's the unknown I think. If someone said yeah you'll die or be terminally ill but there won;t be any pain, I think I'd genuinely be OK with it. Living in pain is just a no. Thinking back of the worst pain in my life are things liek cutting my finger tip off, dislocated kneecap, broken wrist, broken nose, dislocated ankle. I guess do the things that kill you hurt more than anythign else you will have experienced?