NeoGAF Anonymous Confessions 2015 - Bare Your Burdens

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Sometimes at work if I think I'm alone and that nobody will be in the same room for a while, I'll just let off a huge fart. The strange thing is that sometimes I even sort of like the smell of my own farts, but never those of anyone else.
 
DarthWoo said:
Sometimes at work if I think I'm alone and that nobody will be in the same room for a while, I'll just let off a huge fart. The strange thing is that sometimes I even sort of like the smell of my own farts, but never those of anyone else.
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I tend to fart a lot if I eat a bunch of carbs. I usually try to fart into my seat, but I can smell them sometimes. I'd like to think I'm the only one who catches a whiff, but I feel bad for my coworkers.
 
Not anonymous, but here's a confession (I guess?):

I'm not sure if this is the right place, because (I guess) getting it off my chest makes it somewhat of a confession, right? Looking for advice, (I guess?) Nothing major.

So, here goes -- I'm a pretty damned happy person. In fact, I go out of my way to make sure I remain that way (as much as I can control). I'm fairly carefree -- I try to stick to the mantra of "what's done is done -- if it's out of my control and I can't do anything about it, don't stress about it." I try my hardest to keep myself out of situations that would cause me unneeded stress and usually make pretty good decisions in life. I understand that there will be bad times, but there will also be good times and that balance keeps me optimistic whenever shitty things occur.

Now here's where it gets weird/confusing for me. I have a few very close friends. These are people that I genuinely care about, so I feel like I have an obligation to at least being an ear to them when they have nobody else to listen. What I'm struggling with is the fact that with 2 of them (actually, 3 now as of late), literally every single time we talk, they're on some sort of downward spiral emotionally/mentally and every conversation is nothing but woe is me, life sucks, the world is over, I've made terrible decisions, why does life have to be this way, etc. You'd seriously think they were homeless, had gone into extreme debt or had some terminal illness, and honestly, the majority of their 'shitty situations' are not morbid or life-threatening, but I can't say they wouldn't be a cause of concern. It sucks because we used to be such good friends and have had awesome times together. Now it's like every time we meet or talk, it's a one-sided venting session.

I try to lend an ear, give a bit of advice when appropriate, (which I'm absolutely terrible at doing), keep my good spirits and steer the conversation to a happy place, but it's gotten so overwhelming at this point that most times I just don't answer when they call. Sometimes I don't respond to their long wall of text of woe because I don't even know where to start. I would love to talk to them, but how we used to before, where everything wasn't so serious and abysmal. I feel like I'm sitting in a therapy session with them every time we do end up talking. Now -- on the one hand, I feel like I should be a friend and try to help wherever possible, which I have been doing. But on the other hand, I feel like the negativity is starting to affect ME, having to take on the burden of listening to, actively thinking about and following up on their problems. Usually they're not asking much of me except to listen, but it's getting to a point I feel extremely awkward just sitting on the other end of the phone listening to so many issues that I don't have and feeling like I should respond with answers I don't have. I simply can't place myself in their shoes. I offer advice which is usually received well, but not actually used...and then the problem compounds and I have to hear about part 9 of the -saga- as a result.

To be honest, it kills me to go from my normally happy mood to such a dark place every single time they want to talk. Sometimes some of the stuff they tell me is just so terrible I literally have no idea how to respond and the fact that they're dealing w/ situations I've never had to deal with means I can't even empathize. I just sit on the other end of the phone, feeling hollow and honestly kind of conflicted. Sometimes it feels like they're looking for a pity party, sometimes I can truly tell they're affected by something that's going on...it's just....a lot for me to take on.

I've had to deal w/ a lot of terrible shit in my life (small potatoes though, compared to some of the stuff I have to hear from my friends and even some of the stuff I've read here) , but I've always been the type of person to keep it as positive as I can. I try to pass that onto them, but it seems to just go in one ear and out the other. I fully understand it's much easier said than done, but as the person on the outside looking in....what else am I supposed to do? It's at the point that I feel like I've lost them as close friends, because I don't even want to reach out to them, for fear of nothing but negative vibes, thoughts, stories, etc. I'd love to be the go-to person for them, but the more it's happening, I'm feeling like I'm the absolute wrong person for it. I'm feeling pressure to either answer and be that friend, while feeling like I'm sacrificing my great mood/spirit, OR feel the guilt of not answering and feeling like a horrible person for ignoring them when they felt like they needed me.

No idea how to resolve this. With them or with myself. Halp?
 
NotTheGuyYouKill said:
I'm not even... touching this one.
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Just cut this girl out the of your life. You're not in love, you're in lust.... Which is totally cool if you call it what it is.

I'd move on if I were you and learn how to be honest with women and vulnerable in a way that builds trust and a more genuine attraction rather than this superficial bullshit.
 
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People change. If their woe is me attitude is affecting you to the point that you do not want to talk to them, then cut them out of your life. It sucks, but people like that, essentially balls of negativity that cannot be consoled, are tough to be around. You did a lot to be there for them thus far, but it seems like they don't really appreciate it (if all they do is constantly rant).
 
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Not anonymous, but here's a confession (I guess?):

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No idea how to resolve this. With them or with myself. Halp?
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You gotta be honest and do what's right by you and your mental health. It absolutely sucks that they have problems, but you can't become such a crutch that it detriments your own life, and they have no right to treat you like that.
 
To the confessor with a crush, I get it. Back in the day, given the chance, I'd have totally gotten with Dragona Akehi in a heartbeat. Even though I knew nothing about her at all. Even if she turned out to be hideous.

Something about combative intelligent women just does it for me. Always has.

Of course, there were practical considerations. For one, I was almost certain she didn't live in Australia, which precluded meeting in person. Secondly, she no doubt had a life outside of the Internet, one she may never have talked about online that included a partner. Thirdly, I was just some guy on the Internet posting behind a squirrel avatar. She didn't know me from a bag of cheese.

In the end, I decided to just let it lie, a little like a celebrity crush. Obviously you find yourself attracted to them, but it's so beyond the realm of possibility that you don't let it bother you or grow to become an obsession.

I suggest you do the same.
 
Man, fathers are tough.

So, it's a minor problem, and a problem I'm sure most of your GAFfers will find ridiculous that I care about, but I still want advice, and some feedback on it.

I just came back from Vacation, and my Father purchased an Amazon Fire Stick from our Uncle for $70. I was really confused by that, because the damn thing only cost $25, but whatever, it's my Father's money, not mine.

My Father told me he over-paid because my Uncle pre-installed it with some Apps that let him watch Movies and TV, I assumed that my Uncle just put in his Amazon Prime account on it, allowing my Father to access their insta-video collection for free, and maybe also put in a shared Sling.TV account on it, or something semi-legitimate. I didn't think much of it.

Anyways, we arrive home from Vacation today, and my Father wants me to set-up his new Amazon Fire Stick on his TV for him, so I do. I just plug the device in, and "unbox" it for him. The device already has an account on it with one Application on it, expected. As I start show him how to use it, I start to realize that it is actually just a open-source pirating app, where he can browse "Sub-categories" and pick from a wide range of Television Apps, and "stream" them.

At this point, he notices my body language is getting more and more unfriendly as I'm showing him how to work it, and I go from streaming an Episode of The Simpsons and The Good Dinosaur to teach him. He asks me what's wrong, and I immediately tell him this is illegally streaming and pirating, and I'm not comfortable with him doing this. Telling him I'm worried our ISP will catch on to it, and fine us, cut off our internet, or just straight up jail time. Silly I know, but I'm not challenging Disney lol.

He tells me some statement our Uncle made, about how "The apps and streams come from Chille, they can't track it.", which I immediately explained to him why that's wrong, how if our ISP and the Government wanted they could track everything, and I threw in another few reasons why I'm uncomfortable about it.

A) What if it's torrenting on our network and start slowing down our Internet, because it turns out it's a peer-to-peer software. Not sure if this is possible on a Fire-Stick, but fuck it.
B) The original Content Creators are not getting paid, and that's wrong. Basically this is stealing and stealing is immoral, illegal, and wrong.
C) I'd hate for you to get a massive fine and or even arrested because you were too lazy to turn on our ALREADY EXISTING CABLE and just watch sports there.

Basically he told me he's not going to get caught, it's a victim less crime and to stop worrying.

GAF, am I overreacting or do I have the right to stop my Father from doing something illegal, put my foot down, block his Fire-TV from accessing the Internet I pay for, and tell him I won't support his illegal activities.
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It's television show pirating. He shouldn't do it, but guess what, no one gives a shit. If the ISP gets annoyed, they'll send him a letter telling him to knock it off, and that'll be enough for him to do it.

He shouldn't do it but you don't have to get so worked up over this one, bud.
 
Everyday villainy.

Hey Gaf,

Just quick "little" confession here to clean up your pallets after the slew of disgusting/depressing tide of incest, debauchery, and general gross behavior of your fellow man.

Anyways, it was Friday morning and I had just finished classes for that day and was about to head home. I went up to the second floor of the parking garage and got in my car.

I was parked just one spot too high up a ramp to where I was forced into the single lane so that you have to drive all the way up to the next floor just to turn around and go back down again.

However, after a combination of laziness, no sleep from the night before, and the three hour drive I took to get back to uni from my home that same morning, I decided to just say "screw it" and back out in the opposite direction. I started to do so, but right when I began to turn my wheel, a Challenger came rather speedily up the adjacent ramp and turned into my lane.

I didn't panic persay, but I twitchily misjudged where I was in relation to the row behind me when I adjusted to go the proper direction, and I backed nice and easy into the car directly behind me.

Since I've never even been in a car accident (plenty of ATV/bike accidents aside) or even a fender bender so I kind of overreacted. A couple walking in front of me pretended not to notice and quickly shuffled away, even though the crunch was pretty loud.

However, ignoring the (understandably) pissed off guy in the Challenger, I got out of my car without parking back into my space to assess the damage. In the darkness of the garage, nothing was noticeable on my car, but looking at the other vehicle, there was a nice 4 to 5 inch scratch perfectly horizontal across their front bumper. By this time however, there was already another car behind the Challenger, and even a third vehicle I could see coming up the ramp and about to turn into the scene.

It was at that moment that I did what is probably the most genuine dick thing I've ever done to a person in my life, so far, and I just got back in my car and quickly drove off.

Some person who I've never met and there's a chance I never will, just was at the receiving end of an unnecessary headache born out of negligence and irresponsible driving that could have already added to the stress of their school life, as well as their wallet.

And what did I do? I said "Eh, screw it. Didn't hurt me." and took off.

When I got to my apartment, I checked my car again in the light of day to properly assess what happened on my end.

Nada.

You could only notice a smidgeon of chipped paint (lucky for me our cars were the same color) from an angle that could only be made with you head underneath my bumper, so in otherwords, nothing.

And that's it GAF :P my self-centered dick move that I made on a relatively chilly morning day that totally ruined someone else's. I'll probably get what's coming to me, but it ain't nothing that $30 or so worth of poxy or filler can't fix.

TL;DR I totally damaged someone else's car and it was totally my fault, but with almost no damage to mine... I took off.
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Limited Edition said:
Confessor, while a dick move it's just a scratch, so unless it happened to be a Shiney new Cobra mustang or some such I wouldn't worry about it to much.
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Doesn't matter if it's just a scratch. Confessor is a cunt!
I had this happen to my car at my work. Came back to it and there was a big scratch on my back bumper. No note or anything. Some incompetent dick ward had obviously backed into it and just left.


Fuck you, Confessor!!
 
Admiral Woofington said:
GAF,

I have a confession. I did something illegal. But you'll never know who I am IRL.

Sincerely,
Notmy Realname
12345 Every American Lane
City, State
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Admiral Woofington said:
Slippery Slope there.

First you're extending it to December 1st. Then the first week of December. Then until New Years. Then you're having relations with your sister.
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At least he wouldn't be the only one here in that situation.
 
Trigger Warning

I've been having some issues with trying put all of this into words, but here goes.
At age five I was molested by my babysitter at least once. I say once because I only remember it happening one time, so it could have been on going, but once was clearly enough. I learned a lot of things I shouldn't have at such a young age and didn't even realize the implications of those actions until a great time later. I wish I would have know what was going on at the time because then maybe I could have avoided what came later.

Later that year we moved and I started kindergarten. There was a girl in the class that I became friends with and she would regularly come over to our house with her sister. My mom would babysit us in the afternoons as kindergarten was only a half day. Over the course of that year I showed this girl all the things I learned from my previous babysitter. Stuff I didn't really understand except it was what boys and girls do together. Thinking back on that now and what happened between us...I want to vomit. I feel like such a shit person for doing to her what was done to me. I wish I knew where she was now. I want to apologize to her for what I did to her, even if I had no clue myself.

I moved around a few more times after that. In fifth grade I almost did the same thing with my youngest brother. . While I feel like an absolute horrid person, I never went though with anything. I've never told him either. I can't bring myself to bring it up. It makes me physically hurt that I could even think about something like that.

The worst thing is that I didn't even know or understand sexual arousal until into my 8th grade year and I heard about it from friends at school. I didn't even put everything together until I got a bit older and realized what had actually happened and what I had done as a child. Sometimes I just think about it and how much of a shitty person I am for what I did as a kid and the fact I've never spoken up about it ever. I mostly try to push it to the back of my mind, forget about it. Sometimes it's hard to forget.
Sometimes I wish I could go back and just fix it all. Keep that day, that time from happening.
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Did you go see someone for professional help?
 
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Remember! Tomorrow evening, 11:59 PM, PST! Last night to submit confessions!

MattyG said:
I did mine with my real email because it confession wasn't, you know, of the illegal variety.

Also I was just too lazy to make a throwaway or anon email.
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I receive a lot of confessions sent from personal accounts, which is fine.

I'm referring to some of the utterly insane/borderline illegal ones.
 
NotTheGuyYouKill said:
Everyday villainy.



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Hmmm if this person goes to the same school you are bound to run into them again. Also, during this whole ordeal maybe they remembered to see what your plates were.

NotTheGuyYouKill said:
Trigger Warning



Did you go see someone for professional help?
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Wow, how the fuck do so many people have this happen to them?
I'm sorry that happened to you confessor. Like NTGYK said, have you seen help? It seems you are in need of it. Stay strong!
 
Natiko said:
Kinda wonder if mine never made it or if it's just being held back on oddly long time. Not a big deal either way.
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Everything I currently have is from November 29 and 30. Everything prior has been posted, save for three confessions I disposed of as fake. If you haven't seen yours yet, I likely haven't received it. Feel free to send it again, as you have until TUESDAY DECEMBER 1ST, THE YEAR OF OUR LORD 2015, AT 11:59 PM PACIFIC STANDARD TIME. So yeah, no pressure.
 
Also I totally hit a parked car once and drove off. Sometime in high school I was driving my old Ford Maverick in the Shopko parking lot and as I was pulling into the parking spot my front wheel hit a patch of ice and my car proceeded to slide right into the car next to me. I kept going, turning the steering wheel the other way, pulled through the parking spot and continued to park a couple aisles over. It wasn't a hard hit, but I have no idea how much damage I might have caused, all I knew is that nothing was done to my car with it's solid metal bumper.

I'm so ashamed.
 
NotTheGuyYouKill said:
Everything I currently have is from November 29 and 30. Everything prior has been posted, save for three confessions I disposed of as fake. If you haven't seen yours yet, I likely haven't received it. Feel free to send it again, as you have until TUESDAY DECEMBER 1ST, THE YEAR OF OUR LORD 2015, AT 11:59 PM PACIFIC STANDARD TIME. So yeah, no pressure.
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Duly noted, I didn't send it with a normal email address so maybe it bugged out. Also means I don't have a copy of it handy. Not a big deal!
 
Dishwalla said:
Also I totally hit a parked car once and drove off. Sometime in high school I was driving my old Ford Maverick in the Shopko parking lot and as I was pulling into the parking spot my front wheel hit a patch of ice and my car proceeded to slide right into the car next to me. I kept going, turning the steering wheel the other way, pulled through the parking spot and continued to park a couple aisles over. It wasn't a hard hit, but I have no idea how much damage I might have caused, all I knew is that nothing was done to my car with it's solid metal bumper.

I'm so ashamed.
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I hit a parked car and drove away too. I don't consider it my fault though. The car was blocking my driveway, as it has on many past occasions, so it deserves the big scratch I left on it. If anything, that's justice.
 
Love these Statham gifs. I really hope there comes an appropriate reason to post oily go-go dancing Statham soon! Maybe if we hear more from Sisterfucker or Impregnator...

Confessor who got molested as a child, what happened to you is awful. You were given an utterly twisted misunderstanding of sex from somebody who abused your innocence and their position as a guardian. I hope you were able to get help and heal from this experience.
 
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