ClassyPenguin
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I keep missing out 
IRC is too troublesome, tinychat or a steam group is a better idea.
IRC is too troublesome, tinychat or a steam group is a better idea.
Depression
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Collete
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To Dream: I think it's admirable you're still able to work as a health care worker in an ambulance helping people.
All while you battle through depression.
I know I'm such a hypocrite when I say this, but I still can't help feel I'm depressed over nothing compared to what hell you went through.
I know you're going to the gym and you're going back to writing, are you seeing any therapist or psychiatrist presently?
I wish I can get back to writing like you did, I have little to no hope on my writing or future any longer.
Edit: I'm glad you love Okami as much as I do.
It's truly one of the greatest game released in the past decade I feel.
The Wii version was fun as well, give it a try when you can!
Thing about this is that no one except for some people craving for attention post anything on their FB about feeling bad or having a shitty life.
The point of FB in this society is to make yourself look as good as you can, creating warped images for people who are for example depressed.
It's like photoshop and models.
Prax
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I did it.. I broke my procrastination cycle--but to the effect of a manic art burst? >_>
I've been up past 24 hours now AND IT IS STILL NOT DONE. Oouf. X____x
I think I might be starting to hallucinate.
Wellp, time to sleep for maybe 5 hours and get back to finishing it. Hopefully all this motivation/initiate doesn't dissipate from sleep.
I would like to thank you all for the inspiration and extra push to get into a healthier mental state. Plus all the other creative people talking about their hobbies made me want to dive back into mine.
And special shoutout to Uchip because his comic-making gave me an extra motivation boost.
To other creative-but-depressed-and/or-stuck people: you too can cultivate and build up enough motivation.
You guys can take a peek at what I did in 11 hours:
44 panel comic in progress
By showing you guys, it makes me feel more obligated and likely to finish it, right? Right!
I've been up past 24 hours now AND IT IS STILL NOT DONE. Oouf. X____x
I think I might be starting to hallucinate.
Wellp, time to sleep for maybe 5 hours and get back to finishing it. Hopefully all this motivation/initiate doesn't dissipate from sleep.
I would like to thank you all for the inspiration and extra push to get into a healthier mental state. Plus all the other creative people talking about their hobbies made me want to dive back into mine.
And special shoutout to Uchip because his comic-making gave me an extra motivation boost.
To other creative-but-depressed-and/or-stuck people: you too can cultivate and build up enough motivation.
You guys can take a peek at what I did in 11 hours:
44 panel comic in progress
By showing you guys, it makes me feel more obligated and likely to finish it, right? Right!
Zeouterlimits
Member
Just got hit by a huge wave of it.
God.
Damn it all.
God.
Damn it all.
User 100115
Banned
Today has been really rough. Husband got frustrated with himself so it turned into a two hour long 'Why Fiction is awful' rant. I am emotionally exhausted and physically exhausted and just...
I keep missing out
IRC is too troublesome, tinychat or a steam group is a better idea.
Yeah, IRC can be a pain if you don't already use it. If tiny chat is better overall, just let me know. I might wait to do anything until a bit later this week.
Been drinking again today even though my therapists said i should stop. I know if i go in on Monday and tell them they may want to commit me. I don't think they are doing any good for me anyways.
One of the therapists asked me a question last week. He asked me if a miracle happened one morning how would i know. If one did i would be taller and and not over weight but that's never going to happen. Even if i lost weight guys i like want taller men than me.
maybe i should stop going to that CBT group and go back to work.
One of the therapists asked me a question last week. He asked me if a miracle happened one morning how would i know. If one did i would be taller and and not over weight but that's never going to happen. Even if i lost weight guys i like want taller men than me.
maybe i should stop going to that CBT group and go back to work.
What's your opinion with regards to that? Positive/Negative?
are you always going to complain about your weight without doing anything about it?
you seem to be entirely fixated on relationships
Always negative
Even if I lose weight it would not make much of a difference and with the way my mood is it is hard for me to stick to a weight loss plan.
There are some days I wish I had the capacity to shut off my emotions. The last few weeks have been filled with depression, sadness, guilt... I feel rejected. I feel angry.
I wish I could cry, but I really don't have the ability to sometimes... On the outside I try to appear happy and upbeat, but on the inside I am hurting, and it's awful...
I wish I could cry, but I really don't have the ability to sometimes... On the outside I try to appear happy and upbeat, but on the inside I am hurting, and it's awful...
Collete
Member
*hugs*
There, there.
Just what ever you do, I doubt it your fault, try not to take it on yourself.
Edit: 100 page anniversary...!
yey?.....
Just got hit by a huge wave of it.
God.
Damn it all.
=(
Did something happen for you to feel like this?
I'm glad this thread has helped you
Which hobbies have you went back into?
The comic looks pretty good
Amazing you did this in 11 hours, I would be so nitpicky on details even if it was a sketch!
I've been like that for me too as of late.
I just can't seem to get out of it and I feel like I'm drowning and can't get up.
Suicide attempts have been frequent I have plenty of scars because of it.
Did something trigger this or did it just come because depression decided to knock at your door?
I wish I could do the same
mental illness: people are afraid of you and want nothing to do with you
physical illness: people feel sorry for you and do everything to help
Collete
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I hate how true this is unfortunately. =|
All we can do really is enlighten people more on mental illnesses.
It's been a slow progress, but it's a start.
all that gets you is shit like "you just want attention", "there are people out there worse off than you" or my personal favourite "depression doesnt exist"
I don't even mention it any more
I've been trying to be more outgoing. Trying to find friends, or maybe potential boyfriends. I try, but I also seem to fail at it. I meet people that I think are nice, but in the end I stop hearing from them, or I begin to feel like I am being such a bother.
It comes from being abandoned a lot. I get close to someone, and I want to always try to be around them or something, and what ends up happening is that they reject me or leave anyway.
It's not so much that people are afraid of me... I try to be open and honest about it, and people seem understanding...
It's just, I don't think a lot of people realize exactly how it feels on the inside. They don't feel the pain, or the burning, or the sadness. They just know what you tell them, and they say stuff "You can control how you feel" or "you can control how you respond to a situation". It's not that easy...
Collete
Member
Maybe, but sharing it with people close to you and realizing their loved ones are possibility deteriorating because of this illness, can cause them to open their eyes a bit and help out in whatever way they can.
Yeah some people just put on a false persona to get to the 1000+ facebook friends on their profile.
But maybe you should try contacting them if they don't respond for awhile?
You have nothing to lose, I believe.
If they don't respond after that, then it's their problem.
I'm actually experiencing problems with being abandoned as well. I got abandoned by more friends than i can remember.
But in the end, they lose out on someone like you.
They're the twisted ones at heart. Not you.
It can be hard to convince yourself of that, it takes time, I understand.
It took me a month or two to get over some friends that abandoned me after 7 and 4 years of friendship. (3 left on the same exact day within the same time frame)
Still there are the good friends out there. It's worth finding the diamond of the rough isn't it?
it wasnt until I was in a catatonic state that anyone did anything to help
when I was able to function again my mother tells me that im ok now and kicks me out
thankfully I had a house full of gamers to live with for a while
Seriously this shit makes my blood boil.
As it turns out I am supposed to turn in this short paper for history tomorrow. Still havent started really and it's 2:19 am. I've been having severe insomnia and I procrastinate on a seriously bad level as of late, it worries me.
Maybe it's the internet but I can go a day without it so idk...
Whaaat? What kind of guys do you like? I don't understand why you assume that a group of people only like taller guys.
i read a lot of profiles online.
not a good barometer for reality
Exactly.
A quote, from Mark Helprin's Winter's Tale:
"It would be vain to imagine we could be favored without effort. Miracles come to those who risk defeat in seeking them. They come to those who have exhausted themselves completely in a struggle to accomplish the impossible."
"It would be vain to imagine we could be favored without effort. Miracles come to those who risk defeat in seeking them. They come to those who have exhausted themselves completely in a struggle to accomplish the impossible."
Zeouterlimits
Member
Not at the time no. Was ordering gifts and talking to my wonderful girlfriend over FaceTime.
Waking up now, it 's back and back hard.
Try doing the opposite. Try not resisting at all, letting the sadness, guilt and anger flow through you. Do it alone so you feel completely honest.
Sometimes that helps tremendously. We have a tendency to try shutting things out at least a little bit when that shit doesn't work at all...
A few people are still on skype if you need to talk!
Surface of Me
I'm not an NPC. And neither are we.
I really know how you feel on this one, it sucks so much. I think it just happened again, too. It sucks, cause I felt like me and this person really clicked, but now they aren't even responding to me.
isnt that the path to the dark side?
AFollowerNotALeader
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Come to the dark side. We're better dressed.
User 100115
Banned
So not only do I have to put my dog down today, they have to charge us 200 dollars to do it. So now I am incredibly depressed and having crying kids and I'm worried about having enough money for groceries.
It's difficult to resist. I've had these feelings for so long, that it is almost a comfort to feel them. I was in bed super early last night because I was feeling so down. There was a huge weight on my chest and I could feel all of the sadness behind my eyes.
My biggest fear is that one day I am just going to blow up or do something irrational. I've held so many things deep inside until they finally just go away instead of letting them out. I've held a lot of anger in and never let it out. I used to say to friends of mine that I am like a sponge. I keep absorbing things and absorbing things and I never let it out or let it go.
I go to therapy and I talk about these things, but everything is still deep within; I know and can still feel it all. When I get down or depressed, it all comes up again and goes through my head. It never really goes away, and I've never really dealt with a lot of the issues I have... It doesn't help that I keep getting into situations that I know hurt and I've been in before...
scar tissue
Banned
Ha, I know that feel. I'm not that good at thinking up clever jokes, so whenever I do, I just have to tell it, even it ends up pissing people off.
Surface of Me
I'm not an NPC. And neither are we.
Anyone ever feel so sad they want to throw up?
Yeah, I'm feeling like that right now.
Fuck this earth.
Yeah, I'm feeling like that right now.
Fuck this earth.
Collete
Member
All the time, because of the stomach acidity that arises from stress from being depressed/suicidal.
Relax and try to lie down if you can. Listen to some calming music.
Take some ginger tea as well, it helps with nauseous feeling.
I'm not saying this will help you, but you should at least try something.
Edit: Now my depression is overwhelming me like I'm drowning.
This really won't end.
Edit1: Did something incredibly stupid. Such a lousy person I grew up to be...
such a great fucking book. might try to re-read that when this quarter is over..
Are you okay?
Today is probably the most depressed I've ever been. I don't feel sad or something like that, but I don't care about anything. I don't care about me, I don't feel like there's anything interesting in life. uhmmm... I'll probably go back to sleep, because I'm literally staring at the screen without knowing what to do.
Collete
Member
Not really no.
Unfortunately I have to go now, but please get help if it's really serious and you did something stupid. Or talk to someone else here. Please.
There really is a GAF for everything.
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