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Well, I think I am slowly beginning to understand why I have the relationship problems I do... Now I just need to discuss these with my therapist next week.
 
relationship issues are something that just makes me want to throw up
boo hoo you were capable of human contact

fuck my life
 
relationship issues are something that just makes me want to throw up
boo hoo you were capable of human contact

fuck my life

Plenty of people in relationships that aren't healthy and filled with regular human contact. Being alone can be so much safer.
 
relationship issues are something that just makes me want to throw up
boo hoo you were capable of human contact

fuck my life
I know how you feel. I'm the same way.

Plenty of people in relationships that aren't healthy and filled with regular human contact. Being alone can be so much safer.

Easy to say when you already experience being in a relationship.
 
Easy to say when you already experience being in a relationship.

My point is that you see the whole relationship thing as something it's not. The moment when you can engage in a relationship with another person does not equal happiness or even that you are able to function normally with other people.
 
I'm in a relationship I don't really want to be in.

I am as well, and the reasons have been documented on GAF.

I can't bring myself to do something about it because I cannot tell if it's for the wrong reasons, such as I want to be lazy, apathetic, and alone again.

I've been slowly reverting back to my depressed self lately, gaining weight and slacking off in my classes... It's not great.

I recently had my dosage of Prozac increased, so hopefully that will help. I just can't seem to consistently stay on track lately.
 
http://m.neogaf.com/showpost.php?p=44823812

What thread has this guy been reading? Is there a competing depression thread?

Guys! I have depression! Oh fuck yes!


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Some people should just shut their trap instead of letting out such idiocy.
 
My point is that you see the whole relationship thing as something it's not. The moment when you can engage in a relationship with another person does not equal happiness or even that you are able to function normally with other people.

It's not only about having a relationship for the moment, but never have had a relationship in your entire life which makes you feel like kind of a freak of nature. It pretty much makes you doubt everything about yourself.
 
Team Fortress 2, obviously!

One of my favorite games of all time, and it's free!

Ah, I also want to add my support on this!
I like to play TF2, but usually don't play by myself.
It's fun to play with friends :)
(And you get to wear awesome hats :D)


^^

He made another post like that in a different thread I saw a week or so ago.

The "my illness is a better grade than yours" is a relatively common trope on Internet support forums sadly.

Edit: Here: http://www.neogaf.com/forum/showpost.php?p=44549717&postcount=182

This just makes me sick...
To be honest, this is my first depression support thread I took part of, so I'm a tad ignorant on the hostility.

lol at you

Oomi, glad you're smiling :)

Cosmic, your cake skills in IronCookOff make me so jealous! You work at a bakery, right? You're intensely talented :)

Really leeness, don't write it off, keep the possibility open at least.
You don't have to look for it because you're keeping the possibility open.
You'll find great stuff if you're open to the world about many stuff.
(I'm such a hypocrite.)

Some people should just shut their trap instead of letting out such idiocy.

Thank you for giving me a good start today.
Made me laugh literally XD

Yo Oomikami, are we friends on steam?

Ah, no we're not.
Talk to me via PM, and I'll tell you my username.
 
http://m.neogaf.com/showpost.php?p=44823812

What thread has this guy been reading? Is there a competing depression thread?

I know what he's referring to, but as asual he does so in the most ass-like way possible.

Meanwhile, he always shows up for medication topics and clearly has a bias towards its application (and does not draw any conclusions from that, whereas he has no problem giving one about others). I do believe he has explained his personal history on that matter at some point though.

Shorter version: he's a cynic.
 
Hey,

Currently I am dealing with depression and lots of anxiety, headaches, sinus pressures, all sorts of shittyness. Its difficult finding out the root of the problems...does the constant headaches cause the depression and anxiety or visa versa. I have a couple benzos, think xanax or something left over from awhile ago. Would it be the worst thing to try taking one of these and seeing it if temporarily relieves the headaches, pressure and everything else? Then I could solely focus on anxiety rather than going to neurologist and such?

Or is that dumb ? lol ...
 
I recently had my dosage of Prozac increased, so hopefully that will help. I just can't seem to consistently stay on track lately.

Have you looked into therapy options? Beyond medication, you might need tools to help manage and/or cope with certain thoughts and feelings. You are either conforming your behavior/productivity to your goals or you aren't on a consistent basis.

Currently I am dealing with depression and lots of anxiety, headaches, sinus pressures, all sorts of shittyness. Its difficult finding out the root of the problems...does the constant headaches cause the depression and anxiety or visa versa. I have a couple benzos, think xanax or something left over from awhile ago. Would it be the worst thing to try taking one of these and seeing it if temporarily relieves the headaches, pressure and everything else? Then I could solely focus on anxiety rather than going to neurologist and such?

How do you know you are depressed? Have you taken a PHQ-9 recently? Are competent at tracking your own symptoms over a period of time? I'm not sure how taking a xanax will help you overcome anxiety problems in the long run. You need diagnostics. Maybe done by a doctor, maybe not. More info.
 
I've been battling with depression for a long time but recently i've losing the battle. i have found i've really lost interest in anything at this point, and i'm slowing becoming disconnected from people around me. I've really lost interest in talking to anybody even my coworkers or friends.

So how do you guys find a psychiatrist? or should do i go see a doctor first (i havent seen my doctor in like 4 years)
 
So how do you guys find a psychiatrist? or should do i go see a doctor first (i havent seen my doctor in like 4 years)

Depending on your health insurance, you might have to see your doctor first for a referral. He or she can recommend someone. If there is an outpatient clinic at a nearby hospital, you can inquire there, too.

1-800-273-TALK (8255) is an invaluable phone number.
 
I've been battling with depression for a long time but recently i've losing the battle. i have found i've really lost interest in anything at this point, and i'm slowing becoming disconnected from people around me. I've really lost interest in talking to anybody even my coworkers or friends.

So how do you guys find a psychiatrist? or should do i go see a doctor first (i havent seen my doctor in like 4 years)

A psychologist is probably someone you should talk to first.
Psychiatrists are the one that prescribe medicine and also talk with you a little. Try not to jump into medicine just yet until you and your psychologist talk about it first.

From my knowledge, medical doctors don't do much except refer you to other people.
(They're not exactly knowledgeable on mental health).

The tricky part is to find a psychologist. I tend to search online for listings of them (unfortunately I get illegal psychologists that want to implement the love of Christ in my life). When I was searching, I went to my campus psychologists and they referred me to other people from there.
If you're a college student can you start there?
 
How do you know you are depressed? Have you taken a PHQ-9 recently? Are competent at tracking your own symptoms over a period of time? I'm not sure how taking a xanax will help you overcome anxiety problems in the long run. You need diagnostics. Maybe done by a doctor, maybe not. More info.

Had basically every symptom of depression for months...Just saying a taking a xanax might show me if everything stems from anxiety or not. Wouldn't solve the problem long term but I would have something to work off of? Already been to pysch/therapist general consensus is depression/anxiety combo. I've been through this in the past as well.
 
Had basically every symptom of depression for months...Just saying a taking a xanax might show me if everything stems from anxiety or not. Wouldn't solve the problem long term but I would have something to work off of? Already been to pysch/therapist general consensus is depression/anxiety combo. I've been through this in the past as well.


Drinking a beer might show you if your current state is an agitated one, but I'm sure you would agree that you aren't going to start drinking to diagnose it everytime you find yourself in a similar situation in the future.

If you lack the insight into your mental illness to the point where you need a xanax to help distinguish symptoms, then taking the xanax will most likely interfere with your ability to accurately assess your mood and/or anxiety anyway.

If you've already been diagnosed (or have been treated in some capacity) then you should be seeking ways to improve your insight into your mental illness. Mental health professionals exist to help you gain this awareness so that you aren't powerless when these persistent issues reoccur.

Complete a PHQ-9 and seek professional assistance.
 
If anyone here wants something to keep their minds off of things or has been wanting to play a game for a while but never had the money for it, I'm giving away a free copy of Max Payne 3 and Batman: Arkham City GOTY (both for steam).

You may either post here or send me a PM, if you don't feel comfortable with it. :) (-crosses fingers it will actually go to people from this thread-)
 
I have anxiety spewing out of every orifice this week. Just leaving a trail of spaghetti and self-loathing everywhere I go. Too much shit on my mind.
 
Hey guys, the kids drug home some horrible disease that only makes them a bit coughy but has knocked me on directly on my ass. I likely won't be around much for the next few days, but as always, if you need me, please pm me. Oomi has my email address as well if it's needed. Ya'll be good yourselves in the mean time.
 
Take Lyrica

I've never heard of that. I have ADHD and GAD. I take Vyvanse for the ADHD and nothing for the GAD. I have some beta blockers for if I get really bad, but that's about it. I don't know about trying this stuff though, as the common side effects include blurred vision, decreased libido, memory impairment, and attention changes. I already have problems with each of those things lol. I really don't want to deal with addiction either, which is why I've stayed away from benzos thus far.
 
So... Does anyone in here have issues with abandonment or being starved for affection? I had a conversation with a friend of mine on Sunday and it got me thinking about a few things... I've been doing a lot of reading on emotional childhood abandonment and abuse and it is a topic I am almost excited to discuss with my therapist as it seems a lot of my problems are being caused by these issues.
 
I may have made a kind of definitive statement earlier in this thread, but I had been drinking when I posted that. It's not necessarily possible to believe that every definitive statement you make is going to hold water and you certainly shouldn't hold onto your fleeting beliefs as though they were gospel, that's immature ego defense.

That being said, I'd like to suggest Sam-E as a potential supplement to people in this thread, and that's coming from personal experience (and I've taken an anti-depressant that was not effective (zoloft) and tried st. johns wort). Sam-E has definitive noticeable effects on my mood and it actually seems quite powerful. Remember, every supplement or pill can not necessarily resolve underlying psychic wounds, but can help to pull you out of certain depths of despair by allowing your state to shift to a more workable one. Highly recommended.
 
So... Does anyone in here have issues with abandonment or being starved for affection? I had a conversation with a friend of mine on Sunday and it got me thinking about a few things... I've been doing a lot of reading on emotional childhood abandonment and abuse and it is a topic I am almost excited to discuss with my therapist as it seems a lot of my problems are being caused by these issues.

Yeah, pretty much in every case I was abandoned. As a result I have issues trusting people and I guess I'm a "people pleaser".
My parents were physically there when I was a kid and growing up, but emotionally they were just non existent and had strict rules on me.
They were always physically but mostly on the emotional side of abuse for me. They still emotionally abuse me to this day.
Still I did what I could for attention growing up, but at the same time I wished to be isolated to not bother people.
It's a mixed bag...
Numerous friends abandoned me over the years that it's been taking it's toll one me.

Still discussing it with your therapist about childhood abandonment issues is a start.



I can't tell if my depression is trying to make me break up with my relationship or is my mind actually logically thinking.
*sigh*
Another day I'm unable to work on school.
 
So... Does anyone in here have issues with abandonment or being starved for affection?... I am almost excited to discuss with my therapist as it seems a lot of my problems are being caused by these issues.

Still discussing it with your therapist about childhood abandonment issues is a start.

While psychoanalysis and introspection can help, knowledge itself is not a complete toolkit for living a healthy, productive and happy life.

CBT style therapy and variants also have their place. Your brain and body have been operating in a sandbox of negative emotions/thoughts and can adapt very efficiently and respond to what threats it judges to be most obvious. This kind of conditioning can be mitigated through training, but it takes work.

Fear is an important way of staying alive, but our brains are stupid when it comes to judging the appropriateness of various perceived threats on the whole. And it doesn't forget. If you brain has been in the habit for scanning for specific threats on a regular basis for a while, it's a problem.

At the end of the day, you are not your thoughts or feelings, so you shouldn't let them sneakily influence your behavior and ultimate happiness. Easier said that done.
 
Terrible jokes are terrible.

Welcome to the Psychiatric Hotline.
If you are obsessive-compulsive, please press 1 repeatedly.
If you are co-dependent, please ask someone to press 2.
If you have multiple personalities, please press 3, 4, 5, and 6.
If you are paranoid-delusional, we know who you are and what you want. Just stay on the line so we can trace the call.
If you are schizophrenic, listen carefully and a little voice will tell you which number to press.
If you are depressed, it doesn't matter which number you press. No one will answer.
If you are delusional and occasionally hallucinate, please be aware that the thing you are holding on the side of your head is alive and about to bite off your ear.

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I was depressed last night so I called Lifeline. They've got a call center in Pakistan. I told them I was suicidal. They got all excited and asked if I could drive a truck.

There's more here.
 
Don't know why it is such a task to even leave my house. I kept beating myself up to go to the gym today and thankfully i did. i feel better that i did go.
 
why should we strive to be happy?
to be productive?
why should we strive to be productive?
because we are biologically inclined to spread our genetic information?
why should we care about that if we know how insignificant we are?

in conclusion, whats keeping us here?

Don't know why it is such a task to even leave my house. I kept beating myself up to go to the gym today and thankfully i did. i feel better that i did go.

keep it up
 
Don't know why it is such a task to even leave my house. I kept beating myself up to go to the gym today and thankfully i did. i feel better that i did go.

I still wrote another sentence. I'm getting a little better to generate stuff but it's still a hassle sometimes.
It takes so much effort to do even normal stuff but that's depression wanting to make everything much harder.

Good job you went though.
You did well!

why should we strive to be happy?
to be productive?
why should we strive to be productive?
because we are biologically inclined to spread our genetic information?
why should we care about that if we know how insignificant we are?

in conclusion, whats keeping us here?

Why should we strive to be happy?
To feel good about ourselves.
Why should we feel good about ourselves?
To make us functioning and operational in our life.
What's the good in that?
So you can actually live it and follow your goals.

That's how I see it anyways.

I think what's keeping us here is a combination and fear and a desire to live.
It's frustrating but we still need to keep trying in our lives to get better and just live our lives.
 
So... Does anyone in here have issues with abandonment or being starved for affection? I had a conversation with a friend of mine on Sunday and it got me thinking about a few things... I've been doing a lot of reading on emotional childhood abandonment and abuse and it is a topic I am almost excited to discuss with my therapist as it seems a lot of my problems are being caused by these issues.

I think I have... like Oomikami my parents have always been there, but there's no affection at all, it's always as if I don't exist. That's probably the cause of most of my issues.
 
Don't know why it is such a task to even leave my house. I kept beating myself up to go to the gym today and thankfully i did. i feel better that i did go.

Congrats, glad to see good news from you in this thread for a change. Hope you're ready to do it again and again because that's what it takes. Don't look at it as work, look at it as a challenge :)

A challenge that if done right just happens to make you gradually feel less depressed and make you gradually a little sexier! I can't tell you that it will make your life magically good but when you're walking down the street and your shirt feels tight around your muscles you'll get dat confidence.

The hardest part of the workout a lot of the time is starting it. When you're about to throw up from running too much or in the middle of lifting a new weight; that's the easy part.
 
why should we strive to be happy?
to be productive?
why should we strive to be productive?
because we are biologically inclined to spread our genetic information?
why should we care about that if we know how insignificant we are?

in conclusion, whats keeping us here?

Is that your philosophical outlook?
Happiness is hard to define, but I wouldn't list productivity as a reason to strive for it.
 
Hi, I'm new here. Does anyone here by have any experience with lexapro? I was told by my psychiatrist that it would be a great option for me to help me out a little.

Terrible jokes are terrible.



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I was depressed last night so I called Lifeline. They've got a call center in Pakistan. I told them I was suicidal. They got all excited and asked if I could drive a truck.

There's more here.
Oh man I laughed so hard. Thanks for that
 
Is that your philosophical outlook?
Happiness is hard to define, but I wouldn't list productivity as a reason to strive for it.

how the brain functions isnt my area of expertise
but I do know that pleasures have biological function to compel you to eat and have sex
Im wondering if my lack of appetite and sex drive are directly related to my muted ability to feel pleasure.
 
how the brain functions isnt my area of expertise
but I do know that pleasures have biological function to compel you to eat and have sex
Im wondering if my lack of appetite and sex drive are directly related to my muted ability to feel pleasure.

I couldn't argue with that. It might have something to do with it.

Curious. How does this video make you feel?

http://youtu.be/p74VWuBJSS0
 
Hi, I'm new here. Does anyone here by have any experience with lexapro? I was told by my psychiatrist that it would be a great option for me to help me out a little.

Psychiatry is a little bit of a trial-and-error thing at times. Every SSRI is different, and each works different on every patient. They also take a few weeks to start working, not sure what kind of info you are looking for.
 
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