NeOak
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Oomi, you help people here. You should let them help you once in a bit, you know?
And you don't have to apologize. Sharing with others is the tempo of this thread. Just let it out because you aren't alone in here.
Depression
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Oomi, you help people here. You should let them help you once in a bit, you know?
And you don't have to apologize. Sharing with others is the tempo of this thread. Just let it out because you aren't alone in here.
Yeah I know which makes me believe I am better off dead than alive
I wish I was addicted to drugs or something so I don't have to feel and think this way all the time
I'm a loser, not good at anything
Bel Marduk
Banned
So why not start using drugs? You couldn't feel any worse than you do now.
Dude, don't be evil. Don't give him bad advice on purpose :/
Don't feel too bad, I'm undoubtedly worse looking than you.
I'm in this non situation now where when I talk to this woman, I feel as if she is answering just to be nice but looking for an escape route. So next time I see her I try to be very brief, to A). not annoy her or be "that guy" or B). see if she tries to talk to me as that could show she's somewhat interested. Note, this is not necessarily about a relationship, I don't talk to anyone and I like talking to her.
Told my therapist about this, he suggested maybe its my low self esteem that makes me so doubtful. I believe this makes sense, and I start thinking about this a lot at home, building myself up, convincing myself that maybe she does care. That maybe I'm actually being an asshole, giving her the silent treatment, maybe she thinks I'm being manipulative, etc.
Then I go and talk to her again; it's awkward, and it always feels like she's trying to split. Note, this could be because this is right before a class we share, but to me, it just seems like she's disinterested, and it shows to some of her responses to what I say.
Rinse-repeat. Don't talk to her as much. Go home, think "but wait!", come back, look like a jackass and potentially create an "i dread being around him" type situation.
I'm angry that I'm 20 but still interact with females pretty much the same as when I was 5. The more I think about it, the more I realize that she's probably aware of this. Not the anger, the ineptitude. She has had sociable, attractive guys talk to her, so she knows the difference between someone who can talk to girls and someone who can't.
I am "that guy". I am the man in a #1reasonwhy story. I am a 20 year old, worrying about if this woman "likes" me and "what does it mean?", even though I know in reality that it means nothing. It never has. And I am angry at myself for getting back into this shit because I thought I was passed that, and I considered myself "progressive" enough to not (potentially) harass women in this way. But this is just the cycle, and now im depressed (lol), and want to avoid that class, because im embarassed and dont want to see her, just like id do when i was 10.
Also while I dont have a problem with all your posts, I could see why someone could see that response to someone else's trouble as being in bad form.
Right. So one of these days, we have to tackle your 'self-critiquing' module. It's faulty. Needs replacing.
Otherwise, you're just going to keep digging into the hole you have put your self into. So deep in fact, that you might not be able climb out of it.
How does it feel to hear your self so vehemently criticise yourself?
Prax
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My interpretation:
"Depression Gaf, what I found helps me sometimes is when people make vids to multiple people up on the internet
(Just spitballing)"
I am not quite sure!
iRAWRasaurus
Banned
You guys know that feeling when depression is slowly creeping up? Just gonna lie in bed for awhile :/
ClassyPenguin
Banned
I think he's lost it.
We're beyond the looking glass people.
We're beyond the looking glass people.
User 100115
Banned
Bagels hon, do what you need to do to get your head straight, we will be fine without you for a little while. I will still talk to you everyday (unless you don't want me to). Go get some sleep, and drink a lot of water okay? Be kind to yourself and come back to us.
User 100115
Banned
You can get through this, you are stronger than you realize right now. You have fought so hard for so long, you can do this.
You have been more help than you'll ever know. But yes, take some time if you need to, but don't do anything that would make me cry myself to sleep okay?
RatskyWatsky
Hunky Nostradamus
Don't do it Bagels you have so much to live for!
Collete
Member
I can't get through this...not anymore...I'm strong because I try to make myself look like that...I stumbled and tripped, i never fought...I can't do this...
ClassyPenguin
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Relax Bagels. Get some sleep.
We'll be here in the morning.
We'll be here in the morning.
NeOak
Member
You can get through this. You're strong because you are strong, not an appearance.
You stumbled and tripped, but you haven't given up. You are still here.
Stand up!
SpartanForce
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Wtf happened to Bagels? His posts looks really weird. Is he considering suicide? He as a son and is even considering such a thing?
Been a while since I have been on this thread, and man I'm fine. 3 weeks without depression, mostly easy to deal anxiety, thoughts on the spot most of the time. If I were to complain, I would about my weight and libido, but hey, I can live with that. Blessed be my meds.
Been a while since I have been on this thread, and man I'm fine. 3 weeks without depression, mostly easy to deal anxiety, thoughts on the spot most of the time. If I were to complain, I would about my weight and libido, but hey, I can live with that. Blessed be my meds.
No, he is just going through a rough time right now. He is having a hard time keeping his head straight. He is having trouble sleeping? He is taking a break from this thread? I somewhat understood his posts.
Oomi keep fighting. You are strong. You have to be to have survived this long.
Seeing Bags like this... I'm scared man. Please, oh please take care of yourself. Take some time to gather yourself, have some proper rest, clear your mind. You sre strong and smart, and you'll get through this, I know you can. Don't give up, big dude.
You can't even imagine how helpful you've been, all the time. If there's anything you need, just ask. I'll be glad to help however I can.
And Oomi, the same goes to you. Is there something you wish to talk about? Need to vent, or scream/curse at someone? Any way I could help?
You can't even imagine how helpful you've been, all the time. If there's anything you need, just ask. I'll be glad to help however I can.
And Oomi, the same goes to you. Is there something you wish to talk about? Need to vent, or scream/curse at someone? Any way I could help?
Don't worry, there are plenty of ways to fix the first thing you said
Best feeling I have had in years, I switched drgs recently to Venlafaxin, an SSRN, I was on SSRI's before. Since i started them Saturday I fell ill, with what I thought was prostatitis, an infection of the prostate gland I have had before. I had all the symptoms, the chief one being I couldnt pass urine, which as you can imagine after a while gets incredibly painful. The thing you also have to take into account is the only remedy for that is to drink huge amounts of water and take hot baths, if the problem persists for 24 hours you have to go to casualty for a catheter. So I started drinking water in huge amounts, litres of it, on the first day and I managed to go, great stuff, I was given antibiotics at this point so I was hopeful it wouldnt last much longer. Next few days the distance between when I can go gets longer, so im holding more in, drinking more and the pressure gets more and more painful, even with Codeine prescribed, the Codein can cut some of the pain but not the pressure. Skip forward to yesterday/today where its been 23 hours since I urinated, and in that time I have consumed ungodly amounts of water, and nothings happening. Im worried so I check the side effects on the new anti-d and it says one of the rare ones is "unable to pass urine", so im thinking...shit, I dont have prostitis its the new drugs (When i had it before the anti biotics worked within a day, this is 3 days later). I call up the docs and they confirm I should stop anit d;s immediately.
Just pissed, you cannot imagine the release, last literally 3 minutes.
My god it feels good.
Just pissed, you cannot imagine the release, last literally 3 minutes.
My god it feels good.
Sidewinder
Member
Take care Bagels, seeing you like that moved me to tears. I sincerely hope you'll be fine soon.
You too Oomi, please reach out to those who're ready to help you in here.
You too Oomi, please reach out to those who're ready to help you in here.
ClassyPenguin
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VanillaCakeIsBurning
Member
Seems that you might be experiencing some troubles Bagels.
Maybe this will cheer you up?
The lyrics plus the imagery of sinking into a deep ocean than rising out of it with the support of others is uplifting to me at times.
Maybe this will cheer you up?
The lyrics plus the imagery of sinking into a deep ocean than rising out of it with the support of others is uplifting to me at times.
NeOak
Member
What's wrong Oomi?
Hi everybody-
I'm trying to put together a bunch of inspirational quotes for a friend of mine. Could you help me out? I'm looking for anything, song lyrics, sayings, personal quotes, famous quotes, etc. She's a teenager struggling through bullying and depression and I know she'd appreciate the support/ words of encouragement..
Feel free to PM me if you want to send some words of encouragement but I'm sure everybody here would appreciate hearing them as well.
One of my favorites: Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind. -Dr Suess
I'm trying to put together a bunch of inspirational quotes for a friend of mine. Could you help me out? I'm looking for anything, song lyrics, sayings, personal quotes, famous quotes, etc. She's a teenager struggling through bullying and depression and I know she'd appreciate the support/ words of encouragement..
Feel free to PM me if you want to send some words of encouragement but I'm sure everybody here would appreciate hearing them as well.
One of my favorites: Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind. -Dr Suess
"Nothing in this world that's worth having comes easy" has been my go-to quote lately. From Scrubs :lol
ClassyPenguin
Banned
"The world is like a ride in an amusement park, and when you choose to go on it you think it's real because that's how powerful our minds are. The ride goes up and down, around and around, it has thrills and chills, and it's very brightly colored, and it's very loud, and it's fun for a while. Many people have been on the ride a long time, and they begin to wonder, "Hey, is this real, or is this just a ride?" And other people have remembered, and they come back to us and say, "Hey, don't worry; don't be afraid, ever, because this is just a ride." - Bill Hicks
That legitimately made me laugh.
Bagels: HMDFIA! sdafdsg lfdd fddfc cherckermonkey iksadfoasfas!
Rastky: Umm, don't do it! You...have so much to live for?
Sorry guys. I'll get desperate enough for sleep that I'll give ambien another try. I was in really, really bad shape, so I took two. I don't remember anything after that. That crap is embarrassing.
ClassyPenguin
Banned
Ambien is a tricky drug. It's the only sleeping aid that actually works without leaving me a groggy zombie the next day but it can be a wild card especially during depression episodes and in combination with other drugs such as alcohol and caffeine.
Also, here is another inspirational video.
DARK SIDE OF THE LENS
Also, here is another inspirational video.
DARK SIDE OF THE LENS
You're in the depression thread. We think the worst first, then everything else follows.
User 100115
Banned
We talked about you in chat, too, don't think I ignored you! :x
I appreciate it, smiley.
RatskyWatsky
Hunky Nostradamus
I'm glad that you're okay dood.
RatskyWatsky
Hunky Nostradamus
There's a Mibbit chat and a Skype room.
RatskyWatsky
Hunky Nostradamus
You first have to meet the depression quota - only severely depressed people are allowed in. Bagels will give you the exam when he feels up to it. After that you'll be granted a temporary depression gaf chat clearance, which will become permanent in 64 days provided you don't earn any demerits.
You can also PM me with your Skype name if you want to be added to the Skype chat. (which is pretty much dead at this point, but it does come to life every now and then and it's always nice to have more Skype friends)
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