I'm 37 years of age, and for the last 6 or 7 years, I've been having a hard time with my own mortality. When I was younger I'd get a car/bike loan (for example) and be like, "yeah, I'll have that paid off in 6 years" Now thinking of that, I'm like "Fuck, I'll be 43 by then". Everything felt so far away, and now im feeling like my life is more then half over. Just curious if ya'll have went through this, anything that helped you, and what you felt like once you made it through?
if it hits you hard enough, it never fully goes away. You just have to learn how to make peace with it. Rationalize it however you want.
The one thing that i keep in the back of my mind is that I didn't exist before I was born, so dying is nothing special. And no matter what happens, you won't be able to perceive death.
As for the acceleration of time perception.....this is purely a matter of experience. The more eventful your life is, the slower time will move.
The last 2 years of my life feel like they lasted nearly 5 or 6, it's crazy. Something happened to me in 2017 that makes me feel as though it was 10 years ago.
The only reason time feels slower when you were younger is because literally every year was something completely new and novel as far as you maturing. New grade, new group of people, possibly a new school, your balls drop, you get interested in girls, start jacking off, blah blah blah you know.
When you become an "Adult" is when you fall into a pattern. And patterns usually don't require much conscious thought to carry out......so as a result nothing is memorable. Time starts slipping.
If you were 43, if you were to drop dead at 75, you'd still literally have more time left than i've lived in my whole life. That's a lifetime to me. And if the world doesn't implode on itself, medical technology is only getting better so expectancy is likely to go up.