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It is impossible on the internet to tell apart the clinically depressed (brain problems that cascade into depression) from the psychological depressed (lack of perspective, loneliness, etc), but damn, Neogaf sure have a huge gathering.

For both cases though: seek help. Be it family, friends, or psychiatrists.
 
Cubsfan23 said:
People get addicted to being the victim and learned helplessness

Oh come on. Seriously, do you not know anything about how depression really works?

If anyone here is having suicidal ideations please seek professional help as soon as possible and don't listen to ignorant crap like this. There is help out there and some can be had for free or at a reduced rate. Please seek help and know that these fucks are absolutely wrong about you.
 
disappeared said:
Bullshit.

Unless you have been exactly where I was, you're an armchair critic.

It's all willpower. Having a belief in yourself strong enough to carry on.

Bullshit on your bullshit.

You don't have to be an armchair critic to know you're not supposed to just stop taking meds abruptly.
 
I try to see the side of people that seriously attempt suicide but it is very difficult. What with all the treatment options and help available, there's really no excuse. Can't believe people can compare our 'first world problems' to real problems like hunger and economic despair.

That said, I believe that if you don't have any dependents, and after going through a lengthy cooldown period, you should be able to choose if you want to terminate your life or not. I know it's not a popular or PC viewpoint but, it's your life so it's really your choice. I mean people die for nothing all the time (e.g. Iraq War). Not condoning it in any sense mind you.
 
go out and help poor people. build house for them make food for them. go to different country and start helping people. If not people start helping animal. There is too much to do in life.
 
scar tissue said:
Having meaningful relationships changes EVERYTHING.
How often have you heard people say "Without my wife/husband/boyfriend/girlfriend/kids/family I wouldn't have made it?"
ALL THE DAMN TIME.
Knowing there is someone who has your back makes all the difference. Being desired as a man/woman doesn't hurt either.

This is so true. I've learnt I can get down and be a real sort of 'glass half empty' kind of person, yet when I met my last GF last year everything changed. I gave a fuck about stuff again. It gives you a reason to bother to get up and try to do stuff when you have someone at your side. Without that, whats the point. For me, relationships are a HUGE part of life (and no I dont just mean hur hur i want sex hurrr), I loved having a woman in every aspect of my life who totally understood me and who was my partner in everything I did. Someone at your side to get through life together. To talk things over. Without her, everything is shit again. I dont give a fuck about aspiring in my job or anything like that. No point. I'm miserable at home and even more pissed off at work where I'm under appreciated and under utilised. Infact I think I'd be better qualified to do my bosses job than they are. Infact I doubt my boss could even spell qualification. Anyway, you could be a manager of a company and be able to buy whatever the fuck you want... But if you go home to sit on your ass on your own every night, why bother.
 
Yes I did but I googled something and it told me to stop with a nice essay and I my contemplations stopped.
 
i think everyone has the right to end their life if they so choose, but i think it's also a choice that is extremely hard to understand and accept (except if you're in serious pain with a terminal illness).

can a person REALLY just want to quit existing? i don't get it. is there nothing interesting about this magnificently complex and mysterious world? don't you want to see what things are like when you're old? don't you want to breathe, to sleep, to eat..?

the fact that you exist is beyond a miracle, it's incomprehensibly lucky for a sentient creature to exist. in my mind it's impossible, yet here we are. don't throw it all away because you believe that the rest of your days will be shit and not worth experiencing. you don't know that! don't trust your brain, it's not a perfect organ. you can't perceive your own future accurately. there might be awesome days ahead, maybe it'll take decades or whatever, but it's always possible. just think of life as a ride, and stay on it until it ends, because you really don't have anything to lose, and you won't get the chance to exist ever again. once you're gone, you're gone forever.
 
SMH at this thread and some of the posters here, but probably not for the reasons you might think.

The only thing I'll say is that if you're feeling suicidal and you have a definite plan (i.e. " I'm gonna come home from work/school tomorrow and do it") then go to the nearest ER.
 
I cut my wrists and took pictures of it as art. It was like 10 years ago and I still have scars :(

It wasn't a suicide attempt as much as it was a life test. Let's see how far I can take this shit, sort of thing
 
i don't get it. is there nothing interesting about this magnificently complex and mysterious world?

At some point on a downward spiral, you think you've already seen enough. When I was in the worst shape of my life, I thought very low of other people, especially the successfull ones. The thought of other cultures, viewpoints and ways of lives didn't even cross my mind. The western society is so full of cheap entertainment and distraction, that you really think you've seen something of the world, even though you're just a teen or something.

It's hard to cast away your old beliefs. This doesn't go just for depressed people. It's a problem that plagues us all.
 
Crunched said:
I used to cover the SICU and MICU for dietary at a local hospital, and I hated seeing people in this position. It's why I stopped going to those floors and one of the reasons I hate hospitals.

I was sick for nearly my entire childhood, but never injured to the extent you were. I can't say I understand what you went through, or what you're going through now, but I feel for you.

Glad you're still enjoying life.


I absolutely hate hospitals as well for obvious reasons. Even going for check ups gives me anxiety! I was actually in CCRU/Critical Care which at Sunnybrook in Toronto is a step up from ICU. I remember each week there was a school program where they would walk kids through the CCRU and I guess I was out of it but one day I wasn't and I could barely see the students' faces but as this one girl looked at me she just started bawling her eyes out! I had a HALO as well and I remember having that drilled into my head with no pain medicine. It was one of the most painful experiences. But even more painful, was taking it out! It felt like the screws were going deeper rather than out as the bone in my skull had formed around the screws!

Another painful memory was hearing this 8yr old boy with a brain injury that kept screaming and hearing his Dad cry beside him. It was worse than hearing a "gang banger" guy next to me gurgle to death on his own blood. He was shot a few times in a gun fight, pathetic.

Then came the rehab hospital which was down the road and just for spinal cord injuries. Quite possibly the most depressing rehab hospital, not the injuries but the hospital itself. It was supposed to be the best hospital for spinal cord injuries in Eastern Canada. It sucked. Large. The equipment was old and outdated and if you didn't show hope of a big recovery (basically not a serious injury) they didn't really give you time on the equipment. Also, one of the main Doctors tried to force me out at two months despite having nowhere to go! I could go on forever about that hospital...


ThisWreckage said:
I found your story inspirational. I'm also happy that you're enjoying life. What kind of accident did you have, exactly? If it conjures up too many bad memories or if you don't feel comfortable sharing then just ignore my question.

I was driving down a country road at night after saying goodbye to some friends before University. It was a windy night and I was driving with my friend. I remember coming up over this crest and then hearing sirens then seeing city lights and feeling wind against my face. I realized I was on the helipad at a smaller hospital. I thought wow, this is shitty, my first time in a helicopter and it's in a stretcher. Then I remember being given patient rights and then waking up I have no idea when. I had to be awake to get the HALO drilled in :( I could go on forever but I'm just glad I'm out and still doing rehab.


EschatonDX said:
Yeah, as somebody who had the same thing almost happen to me(fractured a vertebra, spinal cord damage) and is now walking, in the best shape of my life, and doing better than i ever have i gotta say please value your fucking life. Inadvertently coming to the brink of death like that is the worst shit ever.

That's amazing man, I feel so happy for you! I'm currently doing robotic therapy trying to jumpstart my brain so to speak. Here's a picture:

2ydQC.jpg



Any questions Class? :)
 
greycolumbus said:
The most pain free method of suicide is to keep on living your life until your life ends.

Sometimes I just want to die too, but I just can't bring myself to kill myself. I guess this is the only way for me.

It'll be a long wait.
 
Raiden said:
Hell no, it is the coward way out.

From an outsiders perspective suicide sure seems like cowardice. I encourage you to actually try to understand the (admittedly flawed) perspectives of someone suffering from suicidal depression.
 
mblitek said:
I absolutely hate hospitals as well for obvious reasons. Even going for check ups gives me anxiety! I was actually in CCRU/Critical Care which at Sunnybrook in Toronto is a step up from ICU. I remember each week there was a school program where they would walk kids through the CCRU and I guess I was out of it but one day I wasn't and I could barely see the students' faces but as this one girl looked at me she just started bawling her eyes out! I had a HALO as well and I remember having that drilled into my head with no pain medicine. It was one of the most painful experiences. But even more painful, was taking it out! It felt like the screws were going deeper rather than out as the bone in my skull had formed around the screws!

Another painful memory was hearing this 8yr old boy with a brain injury that kept screaming and hearing his Dad cry beside him. It was worse than hearing a "gang banger" guy next to me gurgle to death on his own blood. He was shot a few times in a gun fight, pathetic.

Then came the rehab hospital which was down the road and just for spinal cord injuries. Quite possibly the most depressing rehab hospital, not the injuries but the hospital itself. It was supposed to be the best hospital for spinal cord injuries in Eastern Canada. It sucked. Large. The equipment was old and outdated and if you didn't show hope of a big recovery (basically not a serious injury) they didn't really give you time on the equipment. Also, one of the main Doctors tried to force me out at two months despite having nowhere to go! I could go on forever about that hospital...




I was driving down a country road at night after saying goodbye to some friends before University. It was a windy night and I was driving with my friend. I remember coming up over this crest and then hearing sirens then seeing city lights and feeling wind against my face. I realized I was on the helipad at a smaller hospital. I thought wow, this is shitty, my first time in a helicopter and it's in a stretcher. Then I remember being given patient rights and then waking up I have no idea when. I had to be awake to get the HALO drilled in :( I could go on forever but I'm just glad I'm out and still doing rehab.




That's amazing man, I feel so happy for you! I'm currently doing robotic therapy trying to jumpstart my brain so to speak. Here's a picture:

Any questions Class? :)

Man alive I just read all that and I was totally there with you. I've never had to endure any lengthy hospital stay or medical treatment (thank goodness) but I was really feeling your story.

Stay strong brother.
 
Soda said:
What do you have to lose by living?
Imagine the worst emotional grief you've ever been in. Imagine feeling that way for no reason, and not being able to shake it off no matter what you tried. Imagine trying to go through every single day feeling like that. You would eventually consider calling it quits.
 
Piano said:
Imagine the worst emotional grief you've ever been in. Imagine feeling that way for no reason, and not being able to shake it off no matter what you tried. Imagine trying to go through every single day feeling like that. You would eventually consider calling it quits.

This, and I've had about enough.
 
Nah, man, I've been in near death experiences like 3 times though. Man, seriously though just try to stay positive and make the most out of your life.
 
Tguy said:
Nah, man, I've been in near death experiences like 3 times though. Man, seriously though just try to stay positive and make the most out of your life.

A lot harder said than done for people suffering from clinical depression, or any other mental illness.
 
Piano said:
Imagine the worst emotional grief you've ever been in. Imagine feeling that way for no reason, and not being able to shake it off no matter what you tried. Imagine trying to go through every single day feeling like that. You would eventually consider calling it quits.
I understand where you're going with this, but really, just take it one day at a time. It may suck, but the best medicine for feeling like that is completely emptying your mind for a couple years. That's what I did, and I ended up fine. (I think)
 
I have attempted committing suicide twice just this past December/January, once by driving, during a storm into a cement divider on the highway only to pull away at the last second. It was late at night and no one was on the road so when I skid out, nothing actually happened to me. I just went home.

The second time I tried the sleeping pill route with vodka but didn't attempt to research it first before doing it. All it did was make me throw up after a little while.

I was almost committed to a psych ward after I went somewhat catatonic.

I guess if you compare me now to those states, I've improved immeasurably but I would certainly say I'm still very depressed (no motivation, complete lack of self-esteem, lack of interest in a variety of things, no willpower).

I don't know how old you are but all I can say is - GET HELP NOW!

I've been depressed now for about 5 years but only sought out treatment in the past 6 months. Things have gotten a little better, nothing miraculous. I still don't have a great appreciation for life that so many other people have - I spend quite a bit of time wondering what others see that makes them want to continue living and what allows them to live life to the fullest.

But I can't say I would attempt suicide again after the treatment that I've received, at the very least.
 
Well, everything in this life is temporary, so before commiting suicide you should give life a chance...

So I am giving a year, if everything stays as bad as now, I´ll join the 27 club.
 
Don't see the point myself, we're all going to die no matter what so why not stick around, maybe something good will happen

I do think it's justified in cases where you know you're going to die soon and unnaturally and decide to do it on your own terms, like Bruce Lee's sister in Enter the Dragon
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wnHt_cyv-Ac
;_;
 
Baiano19 said:
Well, everything in this life is temporary, so before commiting suicide you should give life a chance...

So I am giving a year, if everything stays as bad as now, I´ll join the 27 club.

Does giving life a chance include seeking professional help and changes in your life, or does it just mean letting things ride for a year? If you're depressed and suicidal, seriously, seek some professional help. It's no guarantee, but it's less radical than killing yourself.
 
If you guys are depressed go do some exercise, I recommend swimming. I just did it today, it's calming, you have to concentrate on the swimming technique so you can't think that much. I did that and 1 hour of power walking (can't run, my back is shit) and I'm feeling better, I still would kill myself and I'm thinking negative stuff but I don't feel "down".

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rR44oOYjvOw&feature=related

That is how I feel, hope it lasts more than a day.
 
The Xtortionist said:
Nope, too many good games coming out.


Nope not really.


I do not even see the point in living, if the last 5 years have taught me i will never marry, never be in a relationship, never contribute anything to anyone or even worth anything to anyone. The next 5 years of my life will exactly be like the last 5 years. crap job, crap living environment, crap everything. I thought about jumping in front of the subway train, probably be the highlight of my existence.
 
Not yet.

Haven't worked up the nerve yet, but I do have an exit plan.

I just need to get my affairs in order. Ensure my sh*t is redistributed properly and corpse disposed of some place that's not cleveland.
 
neojubei said:
Nope not really.

I do not even see the point in living, if the last 5 years have taught me i will never marry, never be in a relationship, never contribute anything to anyone or even worth anything to anyone. The next 5 years of my life will exactly be like the last 5 years. crap job, crap living environment, crap everything. I thought about jumping in front of the subway train, probably be the highlight of my existence.

Quit your job, enlist to the Red Cross (or any salvation army), go to a needing country and help people, hell, help only the kids if you must.
Since you are not satisfied with your life, how about making someone satisfied (or at least hopeful) about theirs?
 
Nope. No matter how low things can get in my life I never thought about doing anything of that sort. Just remember how many children/adults are out there that would give anything for one more day of life as they suffer with disease and illness.
 
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