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[falconzss]

Been on fluoxetine 20mg for a month now.

Been on Citalopram 10mg (which is nothing and did nothing) for three weeks now to ease me in. Upped to 20mg last friday. My doc told me that it takes time for changes to happen and you'll have better and worse days. I have appointments with my doc every 3 weeks for now to see if the AD's are taking effect. If you don't notice any changes at all, tell your doc. These things take time though, at least that's what I've heard.

Edit: I have a friend who also suffers from depression far longer than I have and has been in medical care for more than two years. He told me that he is now down to 30mg (not sure what he's on though). It affects everyone differently and I'm glad that my doc is easing me in rather than giving me some potent dose of medication at the beginning. It's nothing you can cure with taking a few highly dosed pills and everything is suddenly better.

 

[scar tissue]

this fucking thread

 

[BadTaste]

Been on Citalopram 10mg (which is nothing and did nothing) for three weeks now to ease me in. Upped to 20mg last friday. My doc told me that it takes time for changes to happen and you'll have better and worse days. I have appointments with my doc every 3 weeks for now to see if the AD's are taking effect. If you don't notice any changes at all, tell your doc. These things take time though, at least that's what I've heard.

Edit: I have a friend who also suffers from depression far longer than I have and has been in medical care for more than two years. He told me that he is now down to 30mg (not sure what he's on though). It affects everyone differently and I'm glad that my doc is easing me in rather than giving me some potent dose of medication at the beginning. It's nothing you can cure with taking a few highly dosed pills and everything is suddenly better.

There has been differences since being on this medication. I'm absolutely not as depressed as I used to be. Just one of those days.

 

[falconzss]

There has been differences since being on this medication. I'm absolutely not as depressed as I used to be. Just one of those days.

It's normal in that sense. If you feel better since you first took the medication it's the first step. You'll still have those days though.

Edit: At least you'e seeing some progress, which is great.

 

[Deleted member 77995]

Finished Steins;Gate and now I don't know what to do with my life

 

[Charoncaori]

I'm sorry about your situation as I don't know what advice to give without sounding ignorant.
If you like anime, may I suggest Lucky Star? That always made me laugh and it's lighthearted.

Thank you. I'm feeling better today, I think I just needed to vent. It's pretty easy to get trapped in a spiral of negativity.
I've seen lucky star, thank you, though. I started watching some of hidamari sketch the other day, it's pretty cute. It's kind of funny, I couldn't really stand slice of life shows until my mom passed away, but now I find them kind of relaxing.

Finished Steins;Gate and now I don't know what to do with my life

Heh, I don't want to turn this into the anime thread but you could always ask around for recommendations. Maybe poke into the anime thread? I haven't seen steins;gate but maybe Darker than Black or Eden of the East would be good to start with?

 

[BadTaste]

It's normal in that sense. If you feel better since you first took the medication it's the first step. You'll still have those days though.

Edit: At least you'e seeing some progress, which is great.

I hope you notice good results from your medication. Sorry to hear that it's been doing nothing for you so far :/

 

[SpartanForce]

My new cocktail so far:

Saphris 5mg (2x), Artane 5mg (2x), Seroquel 25mg and Clonazepam 0,2mg (2x).

Besides the huge weight gain I have been feeling good.

 

[Lord Ghirahim]

Finished Steins;Gate and now I don't know what to do with my life

Play Bravely Default Flying Fairy, written by the same guy. I hope you speak the language. And own a jp 3DS :/

 

[falconzss]

I hope you notice good results from your medication. Sorry to hear that it's been doing nothing for you so far :/

Thanks. Don't be discouraged. Even my Doc told me that this dosis was so low that she didn't expect big results. It helped at least a bit with my anxiety issues so I don't feel bad about it. When I took the first step and told my doc about my issues I had the expectation that the medication would solve my issues even though I knew this couldn't be that case.

My biggest step forward was really talking to a doc in the first place. I'm just trying to keep up the hope that things will get better eventually. If your medication doesn't seem to take effect after several weeks, go and see your doctor, talk to him and he will eventually give you a higher dose. Just don't lose hope. It's what keeps me on top even though everything seems to be hopeless.

 

[Wazzim]

Eh, better than what I've gotten so far. At least she gave you her number and didn't look at you haven his had leprosy.
I'm not even ugly or overweight, my anxiety just fucks me up big time. I start sweating and/or shaking and my voice fails me, how the fuck is a girl supposed to think "Yeah that guy seems cool, I'll give him a chance"?
I probably wouldn't want to date myself either if I was a girl, at least not based off the first experience I give off. Yeah, I fucking give up too. There is no use pumping my energy into something that makes me feel worse in the end. I am a wreck of a person, but that doesn't mean I have to actively try to make myself even more miserable.

Lol, you want to give up. Sorry to be harsh but you probably haven't done shit yet. No pain, no gain.

Be honest to yourself and step it up.

 

[falconzss]

Lol, you want to give up. Sorry to be harsh but you probably haven't done shit yet. No pain, no gain.

Be honest to yourself and step it up.

That's definitely no help for someone who experiences problems in that regard. Stepping it up is the equivalent to telling someone to try harder even though he simply can't...

 

[shintoki]

Lol, you want to give up. Sorry to be harsh but you probably haven't done shit yet. No pain, no gain.

Be honest to yourself and step it up.

Honestly, I think this is the truth. I've done more in the past 2 months then I did in the past 5 years. While I know I'm not the person I know I can be. I don't really feel afraid of being the person I am. I use to say that I didn't have any friends, which is the truth. I didn't because looking back, I was a shit friend. I never put any effort into it and always expected a result. Now, I actual start to make plans, I call them and ask what is up. I feel like I'm there as an actual friend now rather than being a passive-aggressive cunt.

And its funny how they respond. They have a guy who was largely a shut in for years, crossplays, flamboyant personality, gets really hyper and overzealous at times, can't always understand what people are doing, and still prone to awkwardness. But they are talking to me, inviting me places, and listening to what I have to say. Why? Because when I have to describe myself now, I don't have to think how pathetic and sad I am. I rather think I'm an intelligent, very humorous, hard working(On occasions ), good looking, and charismatic individual.

 

[falconzss]

Since nobody replied when I first asked this, I'll give it a second try.

I'm still quite anxious about telling my family and friends about my depression. How did you guys handle this?

Since my dad just went back to work after working short coupled with medical issues and my mom's working hours being cut back, I just don't want to tell my parents about my condition. I'd feel bad for bringing my situation up right now. Right now only two friends are aware of my depression.

 

[scar tissue]

Lol, you want to give up. Sorry to be harsh but you probably haven't done shit yet. No pain, no gain.

Be honest to yourself and step it up.

Go fuck yourself. Unbelievable that you would get this kind of shitty response here.
"You probably haven't done shit yet"
Wrong. I'm not going to go into detail here yet again, but I've really done more than enough, way more than anyone else with similar problems that I personally know.

I've made the problems with the physical symptoms of my anxiety abundantly clear, and I even posted my experiences talking to girls ITT. I really don't know how I can make this any more clear: unless my symptoms get better through therapy or medication, approaching girls is useless. Did you even read the post you quoted?

I start sweating and/or shaking and my voice fails me

Yeah, I just didn't try not sweating and not shaking hard enough. I'll also inform my voice that it can not fail me ever again, nor is any kind of stuttering allowed to occur.
Or maybe I should just tell the girl that she is not allowed to dismiss me as a potential mate due to these flaws because that would be unfair. Yeah, that'll work.
This kind of "Man up, brah lolol" posts should really be bannable here.
Asshole.

Thanks to all of you folks here who were more compassionate, but I'm fucking done with Depression-GAF. I hope all of you find the help you need, even though we all know the chances are more than slim. Special shout out to Bagels, good luck with your career!

 

[Bagels]

More inane chat! I'll even draw you a platonic valentine if you ask nicely (I'll definitely draw one if you ask me not to!).



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[Wazzim]

Go fuck yourself. Unbelievable that you would get this kind of shitty response here.
"You probably haven't done shit yet"
Wrong. I'm not going to go into detail here yet again, but I've really done more than enough, way more than anyone else with similar problems that I personally know.

I've made the problems with the physical symptoms of my anxiety abundantly clear, and I even posted my experiences talking to girls ITT. I really don't know how I can make this any more clear: unless my symptoms get better through therapy or medication, approaching girls is useless. Did you even read the post you quoted?

Yeah, I just didn't try not sweating and not shaking hard enough. I'll also inform my voice that it can not fail me ever again, nor is any kind of stuttering allowed to occur.
Or maybe I should just tell the girl that she is not allowed to dismiss me as a potential mate due to these flaws because that would be unfair. Yeah, that'll work.
This kind of "Man up, brah lolol" posts should really be bannable here.
Asshole.

This is a public forum, not a mental masturbation session. I won't be positive towards your decision to give up on your goals.

I had the same fucking shit happening to me, I couldn't even output sound during my first approach. I began with zero game.
Difference is that didn't stop after a couple of girls, I approached over 100 since the 30th of November last year.

You'll see that you'll enjoy socializing with girls after a while, reducing the pain of rejection. It will even become fun instead of a hellish road to pussy.

Those with a true desire for something will do everything in their reach to make it happen, how hopeless the situation may seem.

 

[Windam]

Since nobody replied when I first asked this, I'll give it a second try.

I'm still quite anxious about telling my family and friends about my depression. How did you guys handle this?

Since my dad just went back to work after working short coupled with medical issues and my mom's working hours being cut back, I just don't want to tell my parents about my condition. I'd feel bad for bringing my situation up right now. Right now only two friends are aware of my depression.

I didn't really tell my parents outright. I made an appointment with my family doctor after a week of non-stop suicidal thoughts and urges. The next day I had to go to the hospital, so really my parents found out after that. They never really knew the scope of it until my social worker at school called my dad into her office (with me in there) and made me explain everything (including the suicidal thoughts). It was really uncomfortable. I just hope your parents/family are more understanding than mine (constantly told I bring it on myself; it's all in my head and I just need to smile etc.).

 

[Charoncaori]

Since nobody replied when I first asked this, I'll give it a second try.

I'm still quite anxious about telling my family and friends about my depression. How did you guys handle this?

Since my dad just went back to work after working short coupled with medical issues and my mom's working hours being cut back, I just don't want to tell my parents about my condition. I'd feel bad for bringing my situation up right now. Right now only two friends are aware of my depression.

I dunno, man, it's pretty hard. My parents still don't really understand. I think it really depends on the person. I hope you get some better advice than just that. =/
Edit: I think maybe it's not always as important to make your parents understand as some of your peers, since you won't always see eye to eye with your parents anyway.

 

[falconzss]

I didn't really tell my parents outright. I made an appointment with my family doctor after a week of non-stop suicidal thoughts and urges. The next day I had to go to the hospital, so really my parents found out after that. They never really knew the scope of it until my social worker at school called my dad into her office (with me in there) and made me explain everything (including the suicidal thoughts). It was really uncomfortable. I just hope your parents/family are more understanding than mine (constantly told I bring it on myself; it's all in my head and I just need to smile etc.).

I dunno, man, it's pretty hard. My parents still don't really understand. I think it really depends on the person. I hope you get some better advice than just that. =/
Edit: I think maybe it's not always as important to make your parents understand as some of your peers, since you won't always see eye to eye with your parents anyway.

First of, thanks for the reply guys, I really appreciate it.

@Charoncaori
Makes sense, especially since I don't see my parents that often. That said, I probably still have to do it sooner or later, which I will do soon.

@Windam
Thanks, awesome to talk to you in the chat btw. I can totally understand that your situation made you uncomfortable. Glad that my situation is easier to handle in that regard.
Going to tell my parents the next time I visit them if I can muster the courge to do it in the end. I know I have to sooner or later. My depression isn't something that will magically disappear over the next few months.

 

[J2d]

Hey depression gaf, I was just wondering if there's any interest in having a sort of gaming anonymous thread? I don't recall seeing one and it's a main reason that I feel is dragging me down.

I'm sorry for venting my feelings at times and never giving back btw, I think about it sometimes, I guess it is like my tinnitus, I just wan't to stay away from it mostly but can't help myself for giving in at times.

 

[Yasae]

you shouldn't give up, you should gather up more balls and talk to some more girls, there's plenty of fish in the pond. Good things in life are hard to get, keep at it.

Yes. I've seen people separate more than stay together by a good margin. Volume is part of the metric.

I don't think Kevin is in the headspace to do this right now, though.

EDIT: So Welbutrin 300mg is working nicely for my depression. I never get dry mouth, but my skin is much drier than before - which means it's normal, because it's typically an oil slick all day long. I've met maybe 2 people with oilier skin.

Anyway. Now I'm going to get crow's feet just like Bagels.

 

[Bagels]

Yes. I've seen people separate more than stay together by a good margin. Volume is part of the metric.

I don't think Kevin is in the headspace to do this right now, though.

EDIT: So Welbutrin 300mg is working nicely for my depression. I never get dry mouth, but my skin is much drier than before - which means it's normal, because it's typically an oil slick all day long. I've met maybe 2 people with oilier skin.

Anyway. Now I'm going to get crow's feet just like Bagels.

Botox, man.

 

[ZaCH3000]

I gathered up the balls to ask a girl out while I was banned. The server at a pizza place my dad and I go to a lot.

The result:

I just give up. Even when I finally get someone to say yes, she actually means no.

Ahhhhhh broski! Good job for mustering up the courage to ask her out. You almost had her. Its not over you know.

What happened was you stopped talking to her after she said she would let you know when she gets her schedule. She's dangling the carrot in front of your head!

At that point you got to keep on trying to convince her without coming off as desperate. Follow up with a question like, "where is your favorite place to grab a latte?" Keep it cool and act like your in control.

You can still sway her in your favor if you put yourself wayyy out there. Its probably best you don't though. Befriend her, act nice and let her introduce you to one of her girlfriends.

 

[Bagels]

I wanted to get on this cartoon bandwagon. I had fun drawing valentines for people in chat, so I started drawing one for depression-GAF. But then it became a letter? I dunno. Enjoy?

Yes yes. Lots of scrolling needed. So why not just type it out? Because fuck that, that's why.

If you hate it or it's TOO deranged, let me know.

 

[Cameron122]

I give up :/

 

[RatskyWatsky]

I wanted to get on this cartoon bandwagon. I had fun drawing valentines for people in chat, so I started drawing one for depression-GAF. But then it became a letter? I dunno. Enjoy?

Yes yes. Lots of scrolling needed. So why not just type it out? Because fuck that, that's why.

If you hate it or it's TOO deranged, let me know.

+10 for effort. - 99 for reusing some of the drawings from the Valentines Day cards.

 

[HappyBivouac]

Fuck depression. Feeling ridiculously down today and I honestly could not give a reason why. It's really bad though. Brain chemicals and shit.

 

[Bagels]

Prax refuses to do it, so it's up to me to light the Prax-signal. She's in chat AND paying attention (mostly)!



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[Windam]

I wanted to get on this cartoon bandwagon. I had fun drawing valentines for people in chat, so I started drawing one for depression-GAF. But then it became a letter? I dunno. Enjoy?

Yes yes. Lots of scrolling needed. So why not just type it out? Because fuck that, that's why.

If you hate it or it's TOO deranged, let me know.

Heh, I love the last bit. Cheered me up a bit. Get at us maple-syrup eaters, bro.

 

[Sub_Level]

Good job with that drawing writeup.

 

[EdmondD]

I give up :/

Why? What's wrong?

 

[scar tissue]

This is a public forum, not a mental masturbation session. I won't be positive towards your decision to give up on your goals.

I had the same fucking shit happening to me, I couldn't even output sound during my first approach. I began with zero game.
Difference is that didn't stop after a couple of girls, I approached over 100 since the 30th of November last year.

You'll see that you'll enjoy socializing with girls after a while, reducing the pain of rejection. It will even become fun instead of a hellish road to pussy.

Those with a true desire for something will do everything in their reach to make it happen, how hopeless the situation may seem.

Yes, I'm sure you know exactly how it is to have avoidant personality disorder & social anxiety because you had a few problems talking to girls.

 

[Prodigal]

Man, my life has been going nowhere for the past 7 years. I wish my friends or family would just be like, "Yeah, I think it might be time to kill yourself." Of course that'll never happen, it would just make it so much easier. I'm just tired of trying to get help, I'm tired of people asking me how I'm doing...just tired of it all.

Sorry, just venting here. People always say "It'll get better." Problem is, the only way it will get better is if I try to do something about it and I just don't have the energy to do that anymore. FUCK A DUCK

 

[SpartanForce]

Man, my life has been going nowhere for the past 7 years. I wish my friends or family would just be like, "Yeah, I think it might be time to kill yourself." Of course that'll never happen, it would just make it so much easier. I'm just tired of trying to get help, I'm tired of people asking me how I'm doing...just tired of it all.

Sorry, just venting here. People always say "It'll get better." Problem is, the only way it will get better is if I try to do something about it and I just don't have the energy to do that anymore. FUCK A DUCK

Not even meds works?

 

[Prodigal]

Not even meds works?

Been on Paxil, Neurontin, Valium, Xanax, Trazodone, Prozac. Was also forced upon Effexor when I was admitted to a mental hospital against my will which is what I'm currently taking.

 

[The Culture Vulture]

Been on Paxil, Neurontin, Valium, Xanax, Trazodone, Prozac. Was also forced upon Effexor when I was admitted to a mental hospital against my will which is what I'm currently taking.

Sorry to hear that. When you say your life is going nowhere, where do you want it to go and what's preventing you? The depression?

 

[Bagels]

As a general rule, the thread becomes less than helpful really damn fast when people start arguing with each other. If we have people who don't feel welcome here, we're really failing.

This is a thread for people dealing with very serious issues that happen to be very, very hard for people not dealing with those issues to understand. This should be one place where people can always count on finding others who understand. That's the real virtue of having this central place to talk about this stuff, instead of trying to explain an anxiety disorder to dating-age, or trying to get help figuring out how/when/if to disclose your depression to your school in some general thread about university.

And we do a pretty good job, yeah? The regulars in here are phenomenal.

I'm not going to call anyone out because it's not my forum, it's not my thread, and I just plain don't want to. But I will say this - there is a difference between telling someone to "man-up" and encouraging them to push forward a little harder. But it can get really grey - some people need a kick in the ass, whereas others need kindness and support from just one damn place in their lives - they don't need their asses kicked by any more people. And it can take a long time to figure out who needs what, and when.

So, if you're going to respond, treat people's issues seriously, make sure you're not being dismissive, and measure your tone if you think they need a little nudge. Defeatism is certainly annoying, but calling people out for "whining" helps absolutely no one. If you want them to shut up, why are you replying to them?

And if you don't like a response you get, you need to decide if it's a discussion worth having. Bloom (where are you, btw?) and I disagree on a whole lot of stuff, but I like talking to him because we keep it respectful and we're interested in getting at the truth, not at somehow "winning" (for the record, I'm winning big). But it's not worth your time arguing with someone who thinks you just need to try harder to not be depressed, right? Ignore that crap. If it keeps happening, odds are one (or more) of the regulars will tell them to fuck off.

Seem reasonable?

 

[Bagels]

Been on Paxil, Neurontin, Valium, Xanax, Trazodone, Prozac. Was also forced upon Effexor when I was admitted to a mental hospital against my will which is what I'm currently taking.

Kind of a mixed depression/anxiety thing? With pain and insomnia mixed in?

I'd be interested to know what you think of Culture Vulture's questions. Have you tried therapy? Are there issues you feel like you need help with, or do you think this is all biochemistry?

Are you just taking the Effexor now? What specific symptoms are you trying to treat with the meds? And what kind of side effects are you having? I might have a thought or two there, at any rate.

 

[grimshawish]

I am beginning to realise I might have pretty serious depression.
I always think 'am just down' as I think I know what depression is but the more I think about it the more I realise that those states I was in were a mix of anxiety attacks and serious down periods. Instead I spend most of my time day in day out in a state of depression.

It doesn't help however that I am currently very much in a down swing. A strong one.
Going back to Uni and realising that it finishes soon isn't helping. You see I don't have a job and no one really wants to give me one.

Then there is the matter that is me having to apply for jobs in a depressed, passive aggressive and self destructive state. If I feel hard done by an awkward question or form then I just don't fill it in. Not to mention the effort and time it takes to apply for somewhere when I suspect they'll tell me to bugger off anyway.

So yeah a wee rant there:

Am gonna go look through job boards and stare depressed.

 

[Xun]

Watch This: http://youtu.be/2L_cGjQSR80

Try something new, and you will surprise yourself and realise that your ability to achieve will widen.

We are all blind to what is around us at times, and sometimes we have to nudge ourselves around to realise how much space and possibility we have in our previously enclosed wall of fears and hopelessness.

I don't have to know you to love, or care about you. I do so for no religious reason either. You only need to forgive yourself, or give yourself a second chance to realise the possibilities of a better future, Hanging in there is the best way about it.

Great video, but considering I lack the motivation to do the thing I love doing I have no idea what to do.

I want to get out of my current job, but I lack the motivation to do anything about it.

 

[BadTaste]

My grandmother feels the need to tell other people in my family (aunties, cousins) about my depression. I don't like it one bit, I wish she would stop. It's entirely a personal matter. The only reason I told her in the first place about my situation was because she saw my medication and asked what it was for.

 

[Windam]

Ugh, the general societal ignorance of what depression is has really been getting to me. I'm constantly within earshot of phrases like "Oh I'm so depressed now," or "That idea depresses me greatly," etc. I want to fucking scream at those people because no, the idea does not depress them. It makes them feel sad for a split second (actually, in most cases I'm sure it does nothing for them and so they use the term lightly and jokingly), not depressed. Sometimes I wish I could influence emotions so I could make people feel what I feel (without them knowing what's happening), but then I realize that I probably wouldn't wish this on anyone. But fuck, I swear if someone else says "Depression mode" or "Dude that got me depressed" in the next week, I will snap. (I won't really; no way to stop the uninformed from using the term lightly. After all, ignorance is bliss.)

My grandmother feels the need to tell other people in my family (aunties, cousins) about my depression. I don't like it one bit, I wish she would stop. It's entirely a personal matter. The only reason I told her in the first place about my situation was because she saw my medication and asked what it was for.

Have you told her you don't want anyone else to know? If you have, and she still talks, I'm sorry, man. I know exactly what that's like (my parents feel the need to share our business with the goddamned world). If you haven't told her not to share, then you should if it bothers you.

 

[Bel Marduk]

My grandmother feels the need to tell other people in my family (aunties, cousins) about my depression. I don't like it one bit, I wish she would stop. It's entirely a personal matter. The only reason I told her in the first place about my situation was because she saw my medication and asked what it was for.

Its probably a generational thing. A lot of the time, older people don't take mental health issues seriously. She's probably concerned about you but doesn't know the right way to go about it.

 

[Prodigal]

Kind of a mixed depression/anxiety thing? With pain and insomnia mixed in?

I'd be interested to know what you think of Culture Vulture's questions. Have you tried therapy? Are there issues you feel like you need help with, or do you think this is all biochemistry?

Are you just taking the Effexor now? What specific symptoms are you trying to treat with the meds? And what kind of side effects are you having? I might have a thought or two there, at any rate.

Heavy emphasis on anxiety which in turn causes the depression. And yeah insomnia I guess. I've tried some therapy but nothing for more than 5 or 6 visits a person; the issue is that I know already know what's wrong with me, I just have no desire or impetus to correct it. Right now I'm taking 800mg of Neurontin 4 times a day, Effexor, Xanax/Valium as needed and Trazodone for sleep. The meds help me be more relaxed in public environments because if not for them, I probably would never leave the house. I don't know man, all I do is exercise during the day and play video games at night. Been single for 11 years, and all my friends are in other states. Bleh.

 

[BadTaste]

Have you told her you don't want anyone else to know? If you have, and she still talks, I'm sorry, man. I know exactly what that's like (my parents feel the need to share our business with the goddamned world). If you haven't told her not to share, then you should if it bothers you.

Aye, I told her straight up to stop it. There's always someone that gets way too involved.

 

[Wazzim]

Yes, I'm sure you know exactly how it is to have avoidant personality disorder & social anxiety because you had a few problems talking to girls.

Point is that you can always change but you should understand change is hard and slow, for everybody.

 

[D-Pad]

Seriously do not feel like sitting in class today, but I skipped last week and need to go this week. It's only one day a week and I know I shouldn't complain but I have very little willpower or motivation to sit through class. I just don't see the point of it.

A little rant sorry.

 

[zoukka]

Point is that you can always change but you should understand change is hard and slow, for everybody.

It's even harder/impossible while you are sick.

 

[Corky]

Seriously do not feel like sitting in class today, but I skipped last week and need to go this week. It's only one day a week and I know I shouldn't complain but I have very little willpower or motivation to sit through class. I just don't see the point of it.

A little rant sorry.

It's all good, let me be a shining beacon of aspiration : during the past 2-3 years I've been to university/classes 1/25th of the time.