Been lurking the thread for a while. I guess it's my time to confess.
I grew up in a small town so everyone knew each other. In high school there was this "bully". I put it in quotes because he really never messed with me, or most people I knew. But he had a bad reputation with the students and the administrators. He was always in trouble for something.
One time he picked on one of my friends in class and humiliated him. In hindsight my friend was being a bit of an annoying prick and he probably deserved it. But for some reason I got it into my head that this bully needed to be put in his place and I was the person to do it. So that night I vandalized my friends lock and the lockers around it writing stuff like "faggot" all over them and at the bottom I signed it with the "bully"'s name.
The next morning when the principal and teachers saw it they were immediately all over the bully and they made him clean not only all those lockers but every locker in the school and rec-center next door. The weird part is that the guy never protested. He never complained or said he didn't do it, or even point out that only an idiot would've sign his vandalism. He just took it. Even when the other kids in school would make fun of him while he was cleaning the lockers he never said anything. He just took it like a champ, like he had done the crime and was fine doing the time. I thought that I'd get some joy out of watching him get in trouble instead it was just sorta depressing.
A month or so later the bully was expelled from school. There were all kinds of rumors as to why, but I know the locker thing was probably part of the decision to expell him. Then two weeks after he was expelled the bully committed suicide by shooting himself in the head.
I don't believe that the locker thing was a major reason for his suicide but it was obvious that he had a crappy life and I had helped make it crappier at a crucial part of his life so I feel partially responsible. No one knows that it was me that did the vandalism, and I've never told anyone, not even my wife. But it's been more than a decade and I still think about it.
BTW, <3 you ronito!
I wonder if the reason that he didn't say anything was because maybe he wanted people to think he had done it, give him some more reputation, either that or his life was so bad at the time that he just didn't care. But that's even more depressing.
And I love you too, you terrible person you.