So it's been a minute since I've read up on here, I miss you goyels!
Back in march my 5 year relationship ended with my fiancé. Tldr a poly relationship with a toxic couple destroyed us. He fell in love with one of them and after months of trying to do better and fight for the relationship (plus depression) we decided to end things amicably. Our relationship has skyrocketed as friends now, although karma has bitten him pretty hard at this time.
During the last leg of that I went through my stages of grief, atleast I felt like I did. I wasn't hunting for a relationship, but a boy too good to be true came into my life. As far as interests goes we had everything in common. Same games, played fighting games, loved the same shows and music. Every time he mentioned something he enjoyed I couldn't tell if I was falling for him or expecting him to be a skrull. I know now common ground doesnt make a relationship. Over the last three months I came face to face with his crippling depression, not a few weeks ago he admitting that he may have Disassociative Identity Disorder and on top of that his divorce wasn't finalized...there was a lot of things I could get over. I truly felt like I had love and care for him, but no matter how much I tried to be there it wasn't enough. Whenever he was down he essentially would break up with me in so many words. I was put into a category of people he wish he had never met. Add on the fact that if so much of a glass of milk spilled on the counter he would seclude himself for hours if not days.
I couldn't see it lasting long. I had a fear of my love turning into the love of a caregiver and not a partner. So I ended it, and he's not taking it well.
We were open, and while I'm not jumping into anything now and hopefully not anytime soon there's a man I met a few months back and we've developed a pretty good relationship so far. We've spent a lot of time together, had a lot of talks. And we'll keep doing that because both of us are somewhat wary of pulling the trigger or putting a label on something. But maybe something is there, I've never sighed thinking of someone 😂