Mental Health |OT| Depression & Co.

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Just fuck and get it over with, enough foreplay. :P

On another note, no one has responded to me on the dating site. Maybe if I came out as trans on there at least creepy people might hit on me. :(

I think your first sentence might explain your second. :P

The Bagels experience is all about the smoldering sensuality. Literally ones of women can't all be wrong, right?
 
Seems like socializing does nothing to help loneliness. I hate how even after spending 3 hours with a girl making out and talking about history I still feel totally empty inside. I hate depression so much.
 
I haven't been hitting on anyone on there, if that is what you are getting at. I'm pretty straightforward with my intentions, probably to a fault. Wait, that doesn't sound right.

I was commenting more on your attitude towards foreplay. :P So that joke didn't land...
 
As trying to keep up with every 10 pages, the top post should be filled with random stuff that is positive and that makes you happy. Let's try to do that if we can.
Even though I'm not top post for this every 10 pages, gosh darn it, I'M GONNA MAKE IT RANDOM AND HAPPY LIKE I SAID I WOULD!
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This is what I hope to see someday once in my life time and/or have my own rice paddy field and live off the land.

A Link to the Past - Dark World Acapella

Let's play of Hatoful Boyfriend (It's hilarious...take my word for it)
 
That's a really nice one. You are really improving on your craft!

Thanks!
I borrowed the colors and techniques from a photo.
It was a sunset image on a rice paddy.
It was pretty stunning but no where near as what I did lol

I really like this one.

I seem to say that every time, but I mean it every time.

I believe you when you say it, don't worry!

Thanks for all the compliments everyone, it really does make a difference!
 
A couple of quick things:

1) I love Oomi's idea to inject a little randomness, a little silly fun, into the thread every so often. It might be time for another cartoon week, too!

2) I've heard a few more times that people feel ignored in the thread. I just want to say again that I know I'm not the only one who reads every post in here. I obviously post way too much as it is, so I'm trying to hold back and post sort of bigger picture stuff, or answer things like specific medication questions, where I have a bit more expertise.

Anyway, sometimes people don't know how to answer a post, or they kind of read it, identify with what the poster is talking about, but not really have anything to add beyond, "I read that and I can identify." I'd encourage you to post, even if that's "all" you have to offer, but plenty of people don't feel comfortable doing that. I tell people that I have a lot of visibility in this community, and even I feel like some things I say are completely passed over, as they get no responses. I know there are people reading these posts, but I still get that feeling of, "why am I being ignored?"

We're trying to do a few things about this issue. One is keeping some of the more in-jokey stuff out of the thread and back in IRC. We like the sense of community we have, but people are put off when it seems like some special club. Another is to make a special effort to make sure that new folks get a welcome and know that their posts are read.

I'm going back to sending more PMs to people, reinforcing that the thread is just part of the help this community provides. We've had some great comments here and in the channel about the IRC. People there are so willing to go in-depth on people's issues and questions, and you get to have a more fluid discussion.

As we experiment with the podcast (which is close to 100 listens!), we really want to try taking every other show to have a more free-form discussion, focused on posts in the thread. There are so many posts that really need a bit of discussion, rather than a specific answer. We'll also look at posts and discuss why the way they are written makes them very hard to address. Hopefully it keeps the focus on the community, enhances the discussion on the thread, and ensures that people are being heard.

(If you're interested in helping out by being on the podcast for one of these shows, just let me know! I want more people from the community participating - there are so many of you I've known for so long, and I'd love the chance to get t know you better!)

3) Some amazing reviews of drug therapy for...

Depression
Anxiety
Bipolar disorder
Insomnia

These are very readable papers, packed with consensus information about all of the drugs commonly used for each condition. Go to the depression paper, for example, and look at table 5 - excellent side effect information for every type of drug! These are great places to start if you're thinking about going to a doctor and possibly starting drug therapy, or trying a new medication.

4) I'm always glad to see us rally as a community when people need us. Please, please, please let us know when you need help! We're all so glad that the people who were decidedly not OK are still with us, still fighting. Maybe you still feel like complete shit, but that won't last forever.

We've had some folks leaving the community, or considering leaving, going back a while now. Some people have backed way off, some have quit altogether, and others are thinking of leaving now.

The idea that you're a burden, or it's somehow better for us if we don't have you around, is, to put it nicely, total bullshit, and we all know it. The burden is not being asked to help you out, to lend you whatever help we can, but to know that you're suffering and not being able to do anything. *That's* what hurts.

We're in this together. When some of us are way down, there are others with a bit of strength to lend. You have friends and allies here. Post if you need help, PM us, come to IRC, come to steam. Most of us are here both because we need help, sure, but we're also here to watch out for each other. Many of us help ourselves primarily by helping others. It's easier to combat these problems when you they're not in your own head. I get a lot of perspective on my own problems by talking to people about what they're going through.


Stay As Well As Possible, everyone - SAWAP!
 
Sometimes I feel like depression something that makes you feel broken, and even if you aren't actually broken you're still broken for thinking you're broken. You might have opportunities, rational ways of tackling problems, but depression (and all the bad modes it incurs like laziness, apathy, bitterness, hopelessness) tramples all that.

The pain is overwhelming some days. This is why I would love to turn that "depression switch" off. The knowledge, community (that is very discordant), the humbling, the feat and courage, the experiences are not worth it.

I have suffered too much pain, too much effort, too much money, too much health, too much time, too much patience, too much of other people to make it worth it.

I want, no. I desire to be normal. I know even then there are ups and downs, but it is worth than that constant downward spiral. It is as if I am swimming upstream and the current is keeping me in the same place.

Of course, to the rational and scientific (and you know how damn well I align myself that way), I am being a bit melodramatic. But pain is pain and I can not really disregard that I as I cannot disregard the weather.

Have you ever seen A Beautiful Mind? I've always kinda felt that if I ever stopped being at least a little miserable throughout the day I would lose something of my personality, even if that personality was fairly conventional.
 
Does anyone know of a good forum, where I can talk about my issues and such without getting called an attention seeker?

Lots of people talk about their problems here without being called attention seekers. This thread is for people to share their problems, vent, and possibly get advice from other posters :)
 
Does anyone know of a good forum, where I can talk about my issues and such without getting called an attention seeker?

So you'd rather not share here? No one is going to call you an attention seeker for sharing in the thread. We also have the IRC (details in the OP) if you want to talk in a slightly more anonymous, non-GAF place.

I don't know about other forums, tbh. I was looking for some info about dietary restrictions for the drug I take, and I ran across a few forums focused purely on psychiatric problems. More than anything, they made me appreciate the community we have here. It was a tad...grim. :/
 
My theme song. Replace names as needed.

Also, what school do you go to Classy? I'm looking to transfer undergrads and it'd be fun to know somebody.
 
Sick of family, sick of school, sick of everything. When will it end? I feel as though nothing good will come out of any of this, so why should I keep trudging on? What's the benefit to not giving up right now?
 
Bleh the latter half of the week was great in terms of my mood. A little tired, but I felt motivated. Saw Gravity on thursday (fantastic movie), and then friday hit and I just lost everything. Didn't feel like doing anything. Couldn't really do anything, so instead of tackling some homework I have due next week, I just layed down and watched things on netflix from like 8 pm till 4am

ugh.
 
Man... man... man... what am i doing with my life?... what the hell am i doing with my life?... why do i push people away all the time?... shove those cute girls to the side/hurt their feelings and then proceed to regret doing so after i see them with another guy?... why do i prefer to stay home browsing the internet (who am i kidding: NeoGaf) all day long instead of going out to the club that i was invited to?
 
Man... man... man... what am i doing with my life?... what the hell am i doing with my life?... why do i push people away all the time?... shove those cute girls to the side/hurt their feelings and then proceed to regret doing so after i see them with another guy?... why do i prefer to stay home browsing the internet (who am i kidding: NeoGaf) all day long instead of going out to the club that i was invited to?
Because it's easier in the short run and our minds and bodies absolutely hate change.
 
Seems like socializing does nothing to help loneliness. I hate how even after spending 3 hours with a girl making out and talking about history I still feel totally empty inside. I hate depression so much.
You have to be happy with yourself as a person solo before a relationship is fulfilling in the way we desire.

I read through do androids dream of electric sheep while flying today, holy shit did it make me think about things. Why did I wait so long to read it, stupid me. I need to get on more PKD

Edit: collette your happy post pleased me
 
You have to be happy with yourself as a person solo before a relationship is fulfilling in the way we desire.

I read through do androids dream of electric sheep while flying today, holy shit did it make me think about things. Why did I wait so long to read it, stupid me. I need to get on more PKD

Edit: collette your happy post pleased me
I have mixed feelings about PKD. I love his ideas. His execution... not so much. What answer did you get out of the book, I'm curious?
He seemed to be answering "No" to the question but maybe you got something different.
 
Excuse me if it's obvious but I'm still on my way home and have been up for about 24 hours, what question?

I agree about execution, though I found it more gripping than Neuromancer, oddly. Maybe the ideas spoke to me more. Especially te empathy problem because that's what I struggle with, because of depression.
 
Do androids dream of electric sheep! :P
It's funny because it was only until about halfway through that it dawned on me it wasn't the sleepy dream the title refers to.
Overall I don't think so, no. I think they dreamt of their own well being, but not of the well being of an electric animal. There's other ways to look at it, which would take a lot more time to go over, which we can! Just not in this post.
 
It's funny because it was only until about halfway through that it dawned on me it wasn't the sleepy dream the title refers to.
Overall I don't think so, no. I think they dreamt of their own well being, but not of the well being of an electric animal. There's other ways to look at it, which would take a lot more time to go over, which we can! Just not in this post.
Haha, yeah, I meant the implication of the question, not the literal one.
I know it's a bit different because the narrator himself doesn't think androids are human or can be and the narrator is different from the author, but I read this years ago and forget if the narration is a more neutral voice or definitely the voice of the main character.

AcridMeat pls keep reading sci fi so I have someone to geek out with.
 
Haha, yeah, I meant the implication of the question, not the literal one.
I know it's a bit different because the narrator himself doesn't think androids are human or can be and the narrator is different from the author, but I read this years ago and forget if the narration is a more neutral voice or definitely the voice of the main character.

AcridMeat pls keep reading sci fi so I have someone to geek out with.
It gets a bit dicey at the end but for the majority of the book it's definitely the main character.
I've got the hitchhiker anthology sitting here, so :V
 
It gets a bit dicey at the end but for the majority of the book it's definitely the main character.
I've got the hitchhiker anthology sitting here, so :V
Dicey is a good way of describing PKD, I think.

Go read Hitchhiker's Guide so you can start on the master and queen that is Ursula K. Le Guin.
 
Just wanted share my experience with helping my mom out with depression.

Here is a short back story on what happened. My mom had eye surgery back in Dec 12. After the surgery she had complications with eye irritation and took a while longer to heal. She would lose sleep, worrying about her eyes thinking that she might go blind. Then she started to eat less and less. Once the eating problems started it created this endless cycle, I can't sleep because I can eat, I can't eat because I'm worried that I can't sleep.

It progressively got worse where she would only sleep 1 hour a day, sometimes no sleep for 2 days etc. My brother and I would have to keep her company during the night. After several months she was so emotionally broken. It was hard for everybody because everyone has there own families to take care of while at the same time we had to make time to watch over our mother. Also note my mom is single, parents been separated for 20 years

During the whole duration of her condition we did seek treatment, from her normal doctor to a psychiatrist. At first we thought it wasn't bad, we thought she was acting about her "going crazy" to get our attention. My nephew was born about a month after her eye surgery, so a lot of attention when toward the newborn. Unfortunately it took her to when she was at her lowest where we took it very serious. She was diagnosed with anxiety depression then to psychosis. It was so bad we actually had to commit her for a week in the hospital.

Today my mom is doing way better then her lowest point. She is back to work and driving again. We still have to bring her to see the psychiatrist periodically to see how shes doing. She is still on medication.

Hopefully my story is inspiration for others. I've seen someone very close to me hit a really low point, low enough where I thought there was no hope, to back to where she's almost at full strength again. There were days were it was super hard on us, where we wanted to give up. I'm fortunate enough that I have my brother to help me out when it got too much for me and visa versa.
 
I need things to do on the weekend since I don't hang out with people. I tried a youtube channel, but I always get hesitant to upload :/
 
In late May I almost killed myself, and now I'm feeling those feelings again... I think... I'm not sure really.

I just know that "I want to die" is repeating itself in my head over and over again.
 
In late May I almost killed myself, and now I'm feeling those feelings again... I think... I'm not sure really.

I just know that "I want to die" is repeating itself in my head over and over again.

Do you have any "calm down"-rituals you could perform to get "control" back? Stuff like specific breathing exercises, a particular walking/cycling route, a game. Basically a sort of comfort-food-activity. Something where you feel utterly at ease with. Where you can just switch your mind off and continue in blissful ignorance.

Whenever I get those I either take deep breaths where I simulate pushing air in-and-out with my hands or take a hike to a specific spot in the local park. Seems to work most of the time.

Another thing you could try is freewriting down (pen and paper!) why you feel what you feel. The act can work therapeutic and if you look back on it later you might discover key-points you might (easily) improve.
 
I think I've realized why I don't take any steps forward when it comes to improving my skills.

Even if I start I know I'll just stop again once I get into a major depressive mood again from my job. It's exactly what happened before and I haven't done anything since then.
 
Thanks for playing TF2 with me Colette and I think I saw ClassyPenguin in there too and I probably got blasted a few times! Hopefully can play again sometime.
How many of yall play it?
 
book.. six?

"And Another Thing..." by Eoin Colfer (Artemis Fowl). Before his death Adams said he wanted to write a sixth book because the fifth ("Mostly Harmless") was so bleak. His widow / agency asked Colfer to write it. It's an extremely good imitation of Adam's style but the... spark just isn't there.
 
Thanks for playing TF2 with me Colette and I think I saw ClassyPenguin in there too and I probably got blasted a few times! Hopefully can play again sometime.
How many of yall play it?

Last I recall, me and classy are regulars, there's like one or two from here that joins up occasionally like Hop and someone else that's slipping my mind.

No one that really understands what I'm going through.

If you really think that's best, go for it.
But know what you're getting yourself into.
 
I may have given my opinion on mostly harmless somewhere before, but I tend to think it's "bleakness" is a consequence of the material (the iron cage of rationality and the only appropriate response to it: panic) that fuels this "one book too many already".
It's quite clear he wanted to end the series at the end of book four, since that was really the best possible conclusion that a comedy universe could have gotten.

In my opinion, obviously, but I don't think many in-depth readers will fight me on this.
 
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