Hey everyone- I hope you are all doing well!
I know I have a reputation here for having a high level of empathy, and I'm sure some of you may know how draining that can be for some people. It certainly is for me, and really...I have to occasionally take breaks from any extra social interaction at all in order to, well...
recharge, if that makes sense.
Lately, all the increasing discord in and around the trans community, as well as how the world at large perceives and reacts to anything they see in media surrounding these issues, has been increasingly exhausting for me. There are many other transsexuals who feel the same way, and I've seen an increasing amount of us doing the exact opposite of what the social media stories would have you believe.. We are again going into hiding as best as we can, as we don't want to be associated with any of what can be seen as almost a form of narcissism or perhaps even an expressed sense of entitlement.
There are those out there basically demanding empathy and acceptance from others while showing no empathy in return for how their actions may effect the lives of others. Amidst all of this, other people become
angry or amused...making blanket statements or mocking the suffering of anyone they perceive as part of the group.
I can't help but absorb the emotional fallout of everyone involved, and the peacekeeper in me is constantly trying to figure out a way to lessen the suffering of everyone. I pray and help where I can in small amounts, but it's like being on a sinking ship where no amount of fixing leaks is enough to keep from eventually drowning.
I've just got to take a break.
You are all wonderful (as well as those who may no longer be with us), and I pray for only the best for you all and your loved ones.
I love you all, and I'm sure I'll be back posting soon. Please be kind to yourselves and each other.
- Ailynn