I've been balancing my chakras and I feel the best I've ever felt
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http://iso-tones.com/ChakraBalancing.mp3. Better results if you use headphones
The Xtortionist said:Think of everyone else as NPCs.
GalacticAE said:8. Smoke weed everyday
moonspeak said:I think I have a slight social anxiety. Not as extreme as a lot of people but I guess it's mostly just shyness. I get really quiet and awkward around new people. I stutter sometimes, I mumble, I overthink what I'm going to say next, and sometimes talk too fast out of nervousness. I've always been like that ever since I was a kid. Having my first job at a Starbucks in the middle of a busy city a few years ago certainly helped a lot, but I still avoid social interaction whenever I can.
moonspeak said:I think I have a slight social anxiety. Not as extreme as a lot of people but I guess it's mostly just shyness. I get really quiet and awkward around new people. I stutter sometimes, I mumble, I overthink what I'm going to say next, and sometimes talk too fast out of nervousness. I've always been like that ever since I was a kid. Having my first job at a Starbucks in the middle of a busy city a few years ago certainly helped a lot, but I still avoid social interaction whenever I can.
However, since last week I signed up to be a greeter at a San Francisco church I've been visiting with a friend lately. Nothing too big. Just smile, say hi, pass out pamphlets, etc. The first time was a bit weird but I felt a bit better afterwards. The usual crowd is mostly college people so that kinda helps having people my age to talk to. I wanted to give myself a bit of a challenge and to overcome my apprehension of social interaction. Kinda hoping it also helps me meet new people and make some new friends.
Bentendo said:Not a good day today. I created a 10-page phone book for my grandpa that had numbers he wanted all in one handy place. My aunt called me today and told me that it had several typos and that she wanted me to e-mail her the the list so that she could fix them and not me. Once the conversation was done and I hung up, I just started crying my head off. I felt like such a complete failure and there was nothing I could do about it. I know this isn't a normal response but I just try so hard to make people happy but I always seem to fail.
Things like this seem to happen all the time. I just need to know if anyone here has tried therapy for their social anxiety and what the results were. At this point I think I need to do something about it. I went from having several good friends to NONE. I was homeschooled most of my life and I'm terrified of going to college because of the thought of talking in front of class or introducing myself (I've already decided to take a year off from school... I just hope I don't make the same decision next year). I work at my parent's shop but I'm about to find a job elsewhere and the thought of that scares the hell out of me.
My major problem is that I just can't carry on a conversation. After saying one sentence everything after that is a mess. When in a group I always have opinions and thoughts but I'm never able to actually say them.
Where is that thread located? I might want to check it out...Baiano19 said:I like you Stabbie, the "not giving a fuck" thread is great.
Normal people don't understand that our anxiety happens mostly because we care too much what other people will say/think/do if we say something.
Ironically that attitude always backfires...
Well, I basically had to force myself into social situations, which only came through getting a volunteer position/job. In the past I tried going to therapists, but I found I would just lie to them during our sessions. Not a full on WMD lie, but a little white lie with some element of truth, like for instance, "I tried going to the bookstore, but got within sight and had a panic attack. But I tried." The lie consisted of the fact that I never even tried going out, because just thinking about going outside and socializing would be a paralyzing thought. So for many years I did only the bare minimum of what I had to, going to class, getting groceries, etc. Hell, for like a year or two I couldn't even go to the grocery store, I was so crippled with anxiety (I ate all my meals on campus at that point). Anyway, I want to stress that it's a gradual process... I've been working on my social anxiety for years now, and even though it's hard to gauge success in this area there are things I can look back on not being able to do even a year or two ago.
Once I graduated college I guess I realized I had to do something that involved society, so I did volunteer work. That work was really beneficial for me, because I was working at a front desk, greeting people, answering phones, doing things that society requires of normal people. Things that a year or so ago I had no ability to do. Not that I particularly love doing any of these things (in fact I hate answer phones), but at least I can do it. But, as I started out, I had to force myself into this situation. There was really nothing else for me to do but get a job or start volunteering, and the barriers to entry are much lower for the latter. This was the most beneficial thing for me, regular human contact with some kind of purpose. I started out giving myself arbitrary tasks like "Go to a bookstore" or "Go to a new coffee shop, order something you've never had" but I could never meet those goals, I guess because I realized deep down their arbitrary nature. So I would either never do the exposures (and feel guilty) or do them and not feel much accomplishment. And the idea is to eventually "ramp up" your contact, like making your next task to actually talk to a stranger. Of course I never got to that step.
But as soon as I did something with a purpose, that involved regular, guaranteed contact (the volunteer position), I found my anxiety started to improve. Now I'm not perfect or anything but I've found a few months of doing this my anxiety has severely decreased. Like I can go to new places regularly, talk to strangers with a little more ease (I still need practice with this though), eat out at a restaurant or cafe by myself. I've always been an introvert and while I don't expect to become an extrovert any time soon, I have been able to either manage my anxiety much better. This all came from within, but it also came because I had very little options left. So there was more external pressure for me to change than my own internal motivation. As I say I was "forced" in a way to finally get out. But it worked better for me than my previous efforts, because I found a way of providing myself purposeful and guaranteed contact.
I don't know if this helps you or not, or if your situation is similar, but this has been my experience. Your experience with therapists, for instance, may vary. For me it ultimately came down to being forced to change... that's just what it takes for some people. Social anxiety is a learned response, so it takes a long time to unlearn it.
Baiano19 said:I like you Stabbie, the "not giving a fuck" thread is great.
Normal people don't understand that our anxiety happens mostly because we care too much what other people will say/think/do if we say something.
Ironically that attitude always backfires...
Stabbie said:I have an important question. Are formal situations much easier than informal situations for some of you? I don't feel anxiety when I'm paying for my groceries, ordering a drink, talking to the doctor, etc. Anxiety kicks in when I face social situations that are a bit more informal/personal, when I should connect to people emotionally (even if it's superficial).
Stabbie said:Hey TekkenMaster, I'm glad it worked well for you! I've tried Wellbutrin a few years ago and it gave me suicidal thoughts.
If you have bad anxiety paying for groceries, you're pretty bad off. Greeting a cashier is a lot easier for me than approaching someone new and greeting them because I have reason to be there and a lot of practice paying for things. Small talk has a lot of anxiety for me with a Cashier tho, while small talk with a new coworker doesn't if you're supposed to work near them. I guess because it's normal/natural for you to leave fast, while it's normal for you to be near the new coworker. Now if it's a work environment where there's no reason for us to ever talk or work near each other, then there's anxiety involved.Stabbie said:I have an important question. Are formal situations much easier than informal situations for some of you? I don't feel anxiety when I'm paying for my groceries, ordering a drink, talking to the doctor, etc. Anxiety kicks in when I face social situations that are a bit more informal/personal, when I should connect to people emotionally (even if it's superficial).
TekkenMaster said:Both bother me, but informal more so.
I hated paying for groceries because I had no idea what to say, do with my hands, where to look, etc.
I hated informal social situations even more because those situations have the potential to really embarrass myself in front of people I actually know and care about.
So yeah, informal situations are worse.
DeathNote said:If you have bad anxiety paying for groceries, you're pretty bad off. Greeting a cashier is a lot easier for me than approaching someone new and greeting them because I have reason to be there and a lot of practice paying for things. Small talk has a lot of anxiety for me with a Cashier tho, while small talk with a new coworker doesn't if you're supposed to work near them. I guess because it's normal/natural for you to leave fast, while it's normal for you to be near the new coworker. Now if it's a work environment where there's no reason for us to ever talk or work near each other, then there's anxiety involved.
There's proof in there that practice eases anxiety.
Stabbie said:I guess the fact that I learned what to say in formal situations might have helped me with that. I have developed some sort of routine for situations such as paying for groceries. Be sure to say good morning or hello, say "here you go" when you hand out money and "thank you" when you receive change and your receipt. That has helped me tremendously as I've noticed most people say nothing which is pretty rude imo. Being polite can help you gain confidence in formal situations.
DeathNote said:If you have bad anxiety paying for groceries, you're pretty bad off. Greeting a cashier is a lot easier for me than approaching someone new and greeting them because I have reason to be there and a lot of practice paying for things. Small talk has a lot of anxiety for me with a Cashier tho, while small talk with a new coworker doesn't if you're supposed to work near them. I guess because it's normal/natural for you to leave fast, while it's normal for you to be near the new coworker. Now if it's a work environment where there's no reason for us to ever talk or work near each other, then there's anxiety involved.
There's proof in there that practice eases anxiety.
Greetings depend on the person for me. If i'm walking past some older woman or man exiting an elevator chances or I'll say a greeting because we look at each other and are near each other.TekkenMaster said:I have no problems with greets...I just don't know what to say next. I just suck at smalltalk in those artificial situations like the grocery line, or talking to the guy/woman at the post office, etc.
It seems like almost every other customer somehow knows the cashier/postman personally, and they share laughs, give updates, etc.
But I don't know them, and everyone is rushed, and the cashier/postman are always obviously tired. But everyone else in line is talking to them, so you feel like you have to as well.
TekkenMaster said:There's always interminable pauses between the initial "hello" and the final "here you go" and "have a good day/night."
It's what to say while he/she is scanning stuff for two minutes.
xelios said:I feel attractive and that I also have a nice body. I like a lot of things about myself (eyes, teeth/smile etc). But without meds I still go into panic mode outside the house.It's nothing to do with what other people think of me but seems to be more like a self-preservation mechanism kicking in.
Could be worse I guess and I could be one of those people where nothing seems to help.