WhereAreMahDragonz
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I think you're right, but it'smore than just not being alone. Ellie is suffering from severe survivor's guilt and hasn't begun to process it, and on some level absolutely feels like she deserves to die and knows she would have if she wasn't with Joel. Her accepting the lie is accepting the there's some reason she deserves to live even if she can't understand it- and she really can't. She's wise beyond her years but she's still just a goddamn kid.
I could talk about this for hours. I rewatched tons of clips and read script excerpts and shit. It was executed so deftly and with so much subtlety that despite continuous accusations of the story being very simplistic at its core, I found it richer than plenty of books and films broaching the same issues.
Here's an example. So toward the latter quarter of the gameI wish I could just embed this here but for the sake of spoiler stuff I'll just link it: clickhereEllie recounts this dream.
Okay so the plane is humanity. It's all going down, and there's no one who can save us. Except in her subconscious, she knows that somehow she's meant to be the one to do it. But she doesn't understand how. How could she reasonably be expected to fly a plane? She's just a kid. Somehow, the world is counting on her to make everything better. Is that really okay to expect? But what really sealed this moment for me is how she ends the retelling:
"I've never been on a plane. Isn't that weird?"
No kidding, she's never been on a plane. At this moment we're reminded that she didn't just come from a family that didn't get to vacation much. She's never been on a plane because, well, fuck, has a commercial airport even operated anywhere in the country since she was born? She knows about airplanes and how the pilot is in charge of the safety of the passengers from reading about them. Maybe seeing a movie or two. But they might as well be myth to her. It's not just that she hasn't had a full life yet, she hasn't even had a 14-year-old's full life yet, at least not the way with think about it.
This was the moment at which I made my final decision on the one obvious thing everyone who plays will have to ask themselves... should Ellie have been sacrificed to make a cure? You can offer your brain as many permutations as you like- how much of a sure thing is the cure, will it stay in the right hands, if she hadn't been unconscious and could have chosen it would it be okay, etc.- but ultimately you have to decide: if killing an innocent child could stop the spread of a deadly disease, would it be right? And I just come down on the "no" side. She doesn't even yet have the capacity to make the decision herself even if was up to her, even presented with the full truth she doesn't have. She didn't choose to be immune, but she is. She hasn't done anything that means she deserves to die be it for good reasons or bad ones. She deserves the chance to live.
Joel knows that, and she might even know it too, but she can't possibly express it. That's what was contained in her "okay" in response to his lie, as I read it.
Yeah I love this game too. I see some David encounter talk a while back and I could easily nerd out on that too among many other moments...
This is a really, really great post. I think you're right on all accounts.
The other thing that really struck me was Ellie's acceptance of Joel's answer at the end. Up until that point, she has been steadfast in her decision to "be humanity's cure", but as you said, I don't think she fully understood what that could have potentially meant. She will probably never fully understand the weight of Joel's choice and his personal struggle to redeem himself for Sarah's death. And that, I think, is beautiful. They need each other.
If she had known that being the cure meant certain death, would she have gone through with it? I honestly don't know for sure. I think that she wants to help in any way she can; that's shown throughout the game. But when she really has to pay, would she have done it? As you said, she's so young. I do feel that she understands that she deserves to have a life, but at what cost? It's really a tremendous situation ND has put this young girl in. If it were me, I would say no. But that also brings upon feelings of intense guilt. "I could have saved everyone" or "I could have done it for my Riley and Sam". It really is a no win situation.
The first time I played this game, I wasn't expecting such a scenario. I expected
someone to die, probably Joel, as Ellie found her salvation and her place within the new world. Never in a million years would I have expected such a moral dilemma.