Mother having cancer.
I got a tiny family, dad sister me mom and that's it.
Was in my exam year had to leave at 5:30 in the mornings, came home at 9 in the evening through a brutal internship which i had to travel for insane amounts. It fucking broke me up to see my mother healthy as shit, crumble to a weak child like state with forgetting things, asking constantly if i could help with stuff every 5 minutes she forgot what was going on and i had to put her up in a chair ( couldn't walk anymore ) and then put her 5-10 minutes later down again in bed because her brain kept telling her that she was there all day long. At some point adult diapers where thing also which made it complete undoable alone.
After i couldn't coop with the shit anymore, didn't sleep for 3 straight nights, i ended up loaning and hired some chick to watch her in the night so i could atleast sleep. After that chick stood 10 times in a night next to my bed begging me to help her as she couldnt'deal with it anymore and basically bailed a week after entirely, i got 2 more different people that also bailed. As i couldn't coop with it anymore, i fucking bailed my exam year and basically stated i had a accident with a 2 month period to recoop. Which gave me a option that i could do all the work i had to do in my summer vacation.
After a brutal 2 months period of time, my dad was more home because he finished a project he was busy on and he hired a fucking army worth of helpers after he experienced what i experienced for months on end.
As he had to work again to pay the bills a few weeks later, i moved back into my exam internship and begged to get extra time in the vacation to complete my stuff for my final year. As my motivation was good i got a shot and ended up slaving insane hours at this company to get shit done, once i was done i even bribed a professor to come out of his vacation for a day to visit it as he was going on pension anyway, in order to validate my work and i could pass.
As i was dead broke with a insane high loan, as all the money i got from the company was burned by just travel expenses and nothing else. The guy that was in charge over me there basically asked me to stay 2 more weeks as they had to cover a window. I said to him i can't i have to go to my first day at university today. He basically said when today? 3 hours ago. But then u are to late? yes but i need 2 more hours to complete this officially. Dude was shocked by this and didn't even remotely know what a deadlines i was on and basically gave me free, however i still sat it out as i was already to late and fuck it want to complete it like everybody else without any favors, 2 hours was nothing anyway at this point.
Later on gave my professor that had to judge me after they passed me and i completed my college a extra paper that explained my entire situation.
A week later i got a call from the guy where i worked for and i heard the professor and him where actually buddy's and he told me the story. he basically paid my entire debt off and gave me a job offer, i refused the job offer as i wanted to learn further yet he still paid it off without which was surely appriciated.
3 weeks in my university i bailed because mother was doing far far far worse even now where she couldn't even breath properly anymore. Spend 2 months taking care of her with the extra help and dumped my university entirely as this was her final stage ( best thing i ever did ). Mother died and my world broke down mentally, nothing really mattered much to me anymore. everything felt pointless, ended up isolating myself from everything for multiple years until i got tired of seeing seasons change infront of my window and started to go full ape shit on fitness as my shape was bad, which resulted 6 days 5 hours of muscle training, next week week 200km biking 3 times and repeat. My energy was at such levels at this point, that i could simple not sleep a entire night after 10 hours of working out and not feel tired even remotely. I was eating only healthy food and water practically always the same shit to the point i had no fat on my body almost and muslces where visible everywhere.
After 3 years of going total ape shit on this, i basically had my entire body infected with damaged muscles because i went way overboard with stuff. So i had to chill it down and i picked up my education again to move further on it and ended up finishing that, and from that point on i was doing triathlon which covers all kinds of physical activity's, i winded this down after a crash i had with my bike failing on me while i was going 60+km a hour with put some nice burn wounds on my right arm, looks disgusting. but oh well.
The whole experience basically changed my life and the way i look at things.
