I met this girl about 8 months back, We hooked up one night and that was it. I backed out of a possible relationship at the time because I felt I wasn't ready and good enough for her. I admit I ignored her calls and I hurt her emotionally.
About 3 days later i messaged her on FB telling her I was sorry and such. The message was never read until about a month later and she responded back to me.
I told her that I was sorry and was going through allot of things in my life. I asked if she was willing to give me another shot, I was willing to be in a committed ling term relationship and will give it my all. She eventually agreed and we got together, We were a good match. We told each other every secret, went on dates and were really happy. I was for the first time in my entire life happy and convinced she was the one. We talked marriage even and future plans. I was living with my parents at the time, she owned her own home and we talked about me moving in with her. Her mom was staying there visiting for 3 months at the time so I couldn't move in right away. I thought it was a good enough wait time. I met her mom, would come over, talk to her and her children. Her mom approved of me and even told me that I really hope things work out for us. After those 3 months I moved in.
I finally found the woman of my life. Someone I was compatible with in every aspect. I was in love and did everything for her. Until that one night,,,
One night for the first time in months I got hammered. We both agreed that night to hang out with our friends. She went out and I was so-pose to but decided not to go . I started to drink. I was feeling lonely so I called my friend to hang out and play some retro games at my place. HE came over we played hours on end. Later that night she came home and was in bed. I was so messed up I kept playing games and having fun really. ignoring her.
After he lefted at around 3 am. I decided to message someone on facebook. A family member. An older cousin who I was a little close to at one point in my life. I was looking on advice and I guess approval. She always would tease me and say i'll never find a woman ...ect.. And partly I messaged her was to say I was in a great relationship with a woman who truly loves me. I wanted also some advice on how to keep her and not fuck up.
well, I made an inappropriate joke to her and she ignored it. We use to joke around that way years ago and it didnt fly with her. I guess she matured.
well, I go to bed later that night and my girlfriend gets my phone while im passed out and starts chatting with my cousin. She was pissed and wanted to know why I was talking to her ect.
My girlfriend woke me up telling me that we are done, that I have to move out. I was so hammered I had no idea what was going on. The next morning my girlfriend lectured me, I begged her not to let this event break us, and I was sorry for the stupid joke. It was a joke to a family member who lives 5 states away. Apparently, that was enough to break us apart. For the next 2 months every single day my GF would bring it up. Every single day id apologize and do everything for her, I did everything I could to save this relationship but it wasn't enough.
She made up her mind that night and no matter how hard I tried I couldn't save it. She is stubborn that way. She couldnt let that night go. She couldnt.
I know what I did was wrong but I didnt think it was enough to break us apart. We promised each other to always love each other....ect ect.
So I finally found my own place and I decided that Im done. Im depressed as hell, I feel like complete shit. Im done with dating. I dont know for how long. Also I think women are crazy. All women are crazy and I don't even know if I find them attractive anymore to be honest.
With that said, I spend my free time on xbox 360. I got rid of my ps4, xbox one to help pay for some bills. . It's actually not so bad, cheap games and they still look good.
Games are really just a distraction right now. I actually kinda feel like a loser though. Here I was, sleeping in a big bed with a beautiful woman getting some lovin constantly, and now im in a small empty place, sleeping on the floor playing videogames while she is doing god knows what at night.
About 3 days later i messaged her on FB telling her I was sorry and such. The message was never read until about a month later and she responded back to me.
I told her that I was sorry and was going through allot of things in my life. I asked if she was willing to give me another shot, I was willing to be in a committed ling term relationship and will give it my all. She eventually agreed and we got together, We were a good match. We told each other every secret, went on dates and were really happy. I was for the first time in my entire life happy and convinced she was the one. We talked marriage even and future plans. I was living with my parents at the time, she owned her own home and we talked about me moving in with her. Her mom was staying there visiting for 3 months at the time so I couldn't move in right away. I thought it was a good enough wait time. I met her mom, would come over, talk to her and her children. Her mom approved of me and even told me that I really hope things work out for us. After those 3 months I moved in.
I finally found the woman of my life. Someone I was compatible with in every aspect. I was in love and did everything for her. Until that one night,,,
One night for the first time in months I got hammered. We both agreed that night to hang out with our friends. She went out and I was so-pose to but decided not to go . I started to drink. I was feeling lonely so I called my friend to hang out and play some retro games at my place. HE came over we played hours on end. Later that night she came home and was in bed. I was so messed up I kept playing games and having fun really. ignoring her.
After he lefted at around 3 am. I decided to message someone on facebook. A family member. An older cousin who I was a little close to at one point in my life. I was looking on advice and I guess approval. She always would tease me and say i'll never find a woman ...ect.. And partly I messaged her was to say I was in a great relationship with a woman who truly loves me. I wanted also some advice on how to keep her and not fuck up.
well, I made an inappropriate joke to her and she ignored it. We use to joke around that way years ago and it didnt fly with her. I guess she matured.
well, I go to bed later that night and my girlfriend gets my phone while im passed out and starts chatting with my cousin. She was pissed and wanted to know why I was talking to her ect.
My girlfriend woke me up telling me that we are done, that I have to move out. I was so hammered I had no idea what was going on. The next morning my girlfriend lectured me, I begged her not to let this event break us, and I was sorry for the stupid joke. It was a joke to a family member who lives 5 states away. Apparently, that was enough to break us apart. For the next 2 months every single day my GF would bring it up. Every single day id apologize and do everything for her, I did everything I could to save this relationship but it wasn't enough.
She made up her mind that night and no matter how hard I tried I couldn't save it. She is stubborn that way. She couldnt let that night go. She couldnt.
I know what I did was wrong but I didnt think it was enough to break us apart. We promised each other to always love each other....ect ect.
So I finally found my own place and I decided that Im done. Im depressed as hell, I feel like complete shit. Im done with dating. I dont know for how long. Also I think women are crazy. All women are crazy and I don't even know if I find them attractive anymore to be honest.
With that said, I spend my free time on xbox 360. I got rid of my ps4, xbox one to help pay for some bills. . It's actually not so bad, cheap games and they still look good.
Games are really just a distraction right now. I actually kinda feel like a loser though. Here I was, sleeping in a big bed with a beautiful woman getting some lovin constantly, and now im in a small empty place, sleeping on the floor playing videogames while she is doing god knows what at night.
