It shouldn't make you feel bad. Little junior in some backwards part of the world dieing of disease and hunger doesn't automatically invalidate your own problems with depression. Perspective is important, but you need to focus on you and not compare yourself to how sad or happy or successful or failed other people are.
As long as you're not hurting anyone else, making YOU feel happy should be a priority. You say that you're having trouble deciding what to do in school. Who the fuck doesn't these days. I'd recommend just making sure you have money from a job or wherever and just trying out different stuff. Money is what keeps you afloat and is what will allow you to be picky. You'll need to save up but it'll be worth it if it's something you're interested in. But this is just one recommendation, there are a myriad of actions you can take at this juncture.
This. I can't really add much to this but this is great feed back.
Just want to add my two cents worth, always remember, if Canada's universities/community colleges offer financial aid, take advantage for it and apply for it. It helps immensely when getting through college. At the moment I'm only paying around 1,000 dollars this semester because most of my tuition was covered by grants.
(Also, I can agree that not everyone these days knows what they want to do in school, I changed majors myself many times when I thought full sure I wanted to be a web designer...Now I'm aiming to be a writer.)
Unfortunately, I don't even own a guitar. Someone she knew was lending me theirs so I could learn, but she told them not to bother after a while.
And the thing with post-secondary schooling right now is money issues. My family isn't exactly rich, and school costs money. A lot of money. A lot of money for what seems to be really nothing at this point (Bachelor's are becoming worthless in the real world apparently). And to be honest, right now I have no clue what I want to do in university. I mean, I enjoy biology, but the odds of finding a decent paying job with a Bachelor's of Science in bio if you don't make it into grad/professional school? Nada. This saddens me even more (yes I get sad very easily). People tell me I should major in English or literature, since I find writing to be easy, but it doesn't interest me. It seems like nothing really does. I don't know what I want to do.
I really just don't know what to do with my life at this point. I feel as if I'm making a big deal over nothing; it's just something that everyone has to deal with, but it doesn't make me feel better. I feel even worse considering there's people way worse off than me. I really have no sense of self-worth; I don't feel I deserve to live if this is the mentality I have. I honestly do just feel like crawling somewhere and dying.
Is there any way you can scrap up enough money to buy your own guitar?
As I stated above, not everyone really knows what they want to do in a university. I guarantee you, a great portion of high school graduates will not graduate with the same major they say they're going to do.
Don't go to English if you don't want to, just make sure to go into something you actually enjoy. (Salary for a job can be a factor, but ultimately, I think it's best to go to a major you actually enjoy)
Also, let's assume you still want to go through the Bio undergraduate program. If you can't get into graduate school with a Bio major, something my family friends have done was apply to medical schools in India, or go to the Caribbean to complete medical school. I can't give you specifics on either but they are options to consider. And also a point here, it's not the end of line when you think it is.
As Sub Level said, don't feel bad because someone is worse off than you. It rarely can reverse depression/suicidal logic.
While I can only offer you some paths to take, the end is what you decide.
But just know, you have the power to do something at this point in time.
Research on what you can do, what majors you might consider, etc.
Look at that financial aid, just what ever you do, don't just contemplate that you don't know what to do. If that happens, push it out of your mind and do something else.
Act on
something.
Good luck.
Dear Gaf, Think I am beginning to fall back into depression. This happens often around the fall and winter. Currently, I have been studying everyday.. isolating myself for the most part. I dont know..just beginning to feel down alot more these days.. just wanna mention this to someone.
There is a very good chance this is your culprit. Don't overwork yourself. It's very possible to reach your educational goals while getting out, hanging with friends, and doing stuff on the side.
I want to add that this also sounds like a symptom of SAD disorder.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Seasonal_affective_disorder
Just thought I mention it, I'm not sure if that's it, but that's what it reminded me of.
