Thanks to everyone messaging me offering their Rosalina. But it's not about not getting Rosalina. I didn't mean for it to come off lik a child throwing a tantrum. Although certainly to a degree my actions are childish.
As you all know, I've been going through a lot emotionally. I spent a year and a half battling cancer. During that time my cousin who was my best friend and only support IRL took her life. This absolutely devastated me and broke my heart. I gave up if I'm being honest. I lost the will to live. My own mother told me I deserved to die. That God gave me cancer to punish me as an atheist. So not even my own family wanted me to live. It was very hard.
I was able to pull through with the love and support from friends on GAF. People on here became my family. But then I struggled with remission. I had PTSD from my cousins death, my cancer ravaging my body. What my own mother did. And I allowed all of this to drive away my best friend. The only person that supported me in real life. The person I really loved more than anything.
So I then spent time rebuilding myself. I was seeing a therapist. I started dating this wonderful person who is supporting me and all my issues. Every day I'm getting better and better. Collecting Amiibos allowed me to keep my mind off the negative emotions I was struggling with. I love Nintendo and collecting these was fun and brought me joy. Being able to look at them made me happy.
Being apart of this community also brought me joy. I had new friends. It was so much fun talking about something I was passionate about with others. Sharing in that joy. It's why I went out of my way to make the Google document and personally help other people complete their collections. I wanted to make others happy. Because it made me happy. I wanted this to be a generous community that looked after each other. I had no issue buying Amiibos and giving them away free. Because I wanted to share my joy with others.
But because collecting these were helping me keep my mind off things, collecting them also meant a lot to me. The way Nintendo is releasing these (lack of info, random pre-order times, scattered release dates, not enough supply, discontinuing figures) has started to make me not feel good. I've been slightly stressed and on edge because I really badly wanted these. Rosalina in particular (my fav character), I spent a week glued to my computer and phone hoping to get a chance. I step away for 5 min with my GF and it goes up on PlayAsia and is gone. This made me feel so shitty and sad.
And I feel like, the way Nintendo is handling this, makes it not as fun as it should be. Now I just feel so sad. And I know that is partly because im more emotional than I normally am because of what im going through. But it feels bad. And I got into this to feel good. That is why I decided to stop. So it wasn't just missing out on Rosalina, it's the way Nintendo is handling this that Im starting to realize is kind of ruining this as a fun hobby. That pre-orders sell out under 5 min and that could mean never getting something...is absolutely insane. Also fuck exclusives. :/
I know this is a long winded rant. I just want to be happy. I'm so sorry that I've let anyone down. Maybe I'm just a terrible person. Maybe I'm weak. I guess the person I am in this moment, isn't worthy of people like you. I'm sorry. I just wish all this Amiibo stuff was better handled.
I'm really sorry. I love you guys so much. Words can't even express how much your friendship has meant to me. How this community and collecting Amiibos allowed me to be happy and not focus so much on the negative things that happened to me.
I'm just so sorry.
As you all know, I've been going through a lot emotionally. I spent a year and a half battling cancer. During that time my cousin who was my best friend and only support IRL took her life. This absolutely devastated me and broke my heart. I gave up if I'm being honest. I lost the will to live. My own mother told me I deserved to die. That God gave me cancer to punish me as an atheist. So not even my own family wanted me to live. It was very hard.
I was able to pull through with the love and support from friends on GAF. People on here became my family. But then I struggled with remission. I had PTSD from my cousins death, my cancer ravaging my body. What my own mother did. And I allowed all of this to drive away my best friend. The only person that supported me in real life. The person I really loved more than anything.
So I then spent time rebuilding myself. I was seeing a therapist. I started dating this wonderful person who is supporting me and all my issues. Every day I'm getting better and better. Collecting Amiibos allowed me to keep my mind off the negative emotions I was struggling with. I love Nintendo and collecting these was fun and brought me joy. Being able to look at them made me happy.
Being apart of this community also brought me joy. I had new friends. It was so much fun talking about something I was passionate about with others. Sharing in that joy. It's why I went out of my way to make the Google document and personally help other people complete their collections. I wanted to make others happy. Because it made me happy. I wanted this to be a generous community that looked after each other. I had no issue buying Amiibos and giving them away free. Because I wanted to share my joy with others.
But because collecting these were helping me keep my mind off things, collecting them also meant a lot to me. The way Nintendo is releasing these (lack of info, random pre-order times, scattered release dates, not enough supply, discontinuing figures) has started to make me not feel good. I've been slightly stressed and on edge because I really badly wanted these. Rosalina in particular (my fav character), I spent a week glued to my computer and phone hoping to get a chance. I step away for 5 min with my GF and it goes up on PlayAsia and is gone. This made me feel so shitty and sad.
And I feel like, the way Nintendo is handling this, makes it not as fun as it should be. Now I just feel so sad. And I know that is partly because im more emotional than I normally am because of what im going through. But it feels bad. And I got into this to feel good. That is why I decided to stop. So it wasn't just missing out on Rosalina, it's the way Nintendo is handling this that Im starting to realize is kind of ruining this as a fun hobby. That pre-orders sell out under 5 min and that could mean never getting something...is absolutely insane. Also fuck exclusives. :/
I know this is a long winded rant. I just want to be happy. I'm so sorry that I've let anyone down. Maybe I'm just a terrible person. Maybe I'm weak. I guess the person I am in this moment, isn't worthy of people like you. I'm sorry. I just wish all this Amiibo stuff was better handled.
I'm really sorry. I love you guys so much. Words can't even express how much your friendship has meant to me. How this community and collecting Amiibos allowed me to be happy and not focus so much on the negative things that happened to me.
I'm just so sorry.