Anyone ever try suicide?

Status
Not open for further replies.
Icanplaythat said:
I talk to a psychiatrist every 2 weeks for half an hour; it's difficult to open up to another person and not really a great deal of time for really intensive therapy.
Click to expand...
I don't know the specifics of your case, so I can't guarantee this will work for you, but I've found that having a healthy diet, exercising, and taking certain supplements (probiotics especially) helps a great deal in keeping my mood up. It's not 100%, but it's a big improvement.

I haven't tried prescription pills, never really like taking prescribed medicine or mind/hormone-altering drugs. For you they may be necessary, obviously I can't make that call. But a heads up to what's helped me.
 
Vire said:
Sure but I wouldn't exactly go out and recommend it. I can understand it being an eye opening experience though.
Click to expand...

Of course not. I do not recommend it to anyone. You have to find your strengths, and build off of that.
 
Emily Chu said:
how does a 11" JunGLE KNIFE plunged into heart NOT = PAIN ?

THE MIND IT BOGGLES...
Click to expand...

I had trouble breaking the skin on my chest, so I tried the back of my hand first, that hurt like a bitch. But the chest wound never really hurt, even while healing. It wasn't stitched up either, because the wound was like 6 hours old and a couple inches deep, the docs in the ER decided to leave it alone. They used the term "dirty wound", so I guess they were afraid of sealing in a possible infection.

This part even I think is fucked up, but what the hell. I logged into my Amazon account to look up the knife I used and it's actually 15 inches, I swear it was 11.

http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B001CPM62W?ie=UTF8&redirect=true
 
Mihael Mello Keehl said:
hell no..its selfish as hell my family and friends shouldnt suffer from my selfishness
Click to expand...
I unfortunately forgot which user wrote this but one member here gave a quite good response to that in another suicide related thread:

Sophisticated Gaf-Member said:
It's selfish if you're lucid and fully aware of yourself and your surroundings. People who kill themselves often aren't.

They call depression a "chemical imbalance" because that's what it is. It isn't something you make up for yourself or something you can control. Your brain is physically fucked up. You think the wrong things. You perceive everything differently than every normal person. Are people with brain damage and mental retardation selfish for not being able to control their deficiencies?

Think about it this way. Have you ever felt scared in bed at night, like there's a shadow that's moving that's scaring you, or you think something totally silly like your nightmare you just woke up from is real? Now imagine what an outside observer thinks. "lol look at this idiot, he's fucking afraid of dark shadows on his wall. Dude, it's just a reflection of a tree!" But you're fucking terrified. You're hearing sounds and you think it might be an intruder or even something as ridiculous as thinking there's a ghost, even if just for a few seconds. A person with depression lives like this all the fucking time. It's common to read about people who think there are people or things behind corners waiting to kill them. That's why they don't get out of bed all day. When they say life is a living nightmare all day every day, they're not being hyperbolic or dramatic. Their brain is fucking up their perception of the real world, and they see and feel things that we don't. They can't help it. They need help. They are not selfish.
Click to expand...
 
Think of all the wonderful games, books and art you'll miss out on, the beautiful women you may meet, the places and world you could see. There is adventure in this world to be had, you just have to go and find it.

Please please don't ever consider it again.
 
Vire said:
Think of all the wonderful games, books and art you'll miss out on, the beautiful women you may meet, the places and world you could see. There is adventure in this world to be had, you just have to go and find it.

Please please don't ever consider it again.
Click to expand...

Indeed.
 
No. I fucking love myself too much. That said, I have jumped off both the roof of my house, and the roof of my High School building. The former was because I thought it would be nice to see how much force my knees could absorb. The latter however, jesus christ. I was being chased by some batshit crazy bitches wielding knives, and wanted to see if I could jump off to the nearest flag pole. Mind you, I was 5 floors up.

Needless to say, I made it; shortly after though, I needed to go to the hospital because the skin on my hands had been completely scraped off. Yeah, fuck suicide. Just live like me and you'll have a 50/50 shot of dying anyway.
 
Nix said:
No. I fucking love myself too much. That said, I have jumped off both the roof of my house, and the roof of my High School building. The former was because I thought it would be nice to see how much force my knees could absorb. The latter however, jesus christ. I was being chased by some batshit crazy bitches wielding knives, and wanted to see if I could jump off to the nearest flag pole. Mind you, I was 5 floors up.
Click to expand...
Mario?
 
Crunched said:
I don't know the specifics of your case, so I can't guarantee this will work for you, but I've found that having a healthy diet, exercising, and taking certain supplements (probiotics especially) helps a great deal in keeping my mood up. It's not 100%, but it's a big improvement.

I haven't tried prescription pills, never really like taking prescribed medicine or mind/hormone-altering drugs. For you they may be necessary, obviously I can't make that call. But a heads up to what's helped me.
Click to expand...

I have a horrible diet (I live in NYC and in preparation for the hurricane I purchased 3 gallons of water and 3 boxes of drakes apple pies as my "emergency supplies", it's comical), I don't exercise, but I do take supplements. Everyday I down a Multivitamin, Multi-oil, Calcium-magnesium-vitamin D, CoQ-10, Potassium gluconate and Chromium picolinate.
 
You people, yes, "you" people are f'd. I suffered a C-4/5/6 spinal cord injury the night before I moved into residence at University and as a Quadriplegic I still enjoy life. Granted it is a shit load harder and a lot harder than you can imagine but why be a washed up...nevermind.

There's more to life than you think, and if you're posting here on the internet from a computer device you likely have an education and a computer with a roof over your head. I challenge you to live in Sierra Leone then report back on your view of life.
 
Nix said:
No. I fucking love myself too much. That said, I have jumped off both the roof of my house, and the roof of my High School building. The former was because I thought it would be nice to see how much force my knees could absorb. The latter however, jesus christ. I was being chased by some batshit crazy bitches wielding knives, and wanted to see if I could jump off to the nearest flag pole. Mind you, I was 5 floors up.

Needless to say, I made it; shortly after though, I needed to go to the hospital because the skin on my hands had been completely scraped off. Yeah, fuck suicide. Just live like me and you'll have a 50/50 shot of dying anyway.
Click to expand...
I think this deserves a thread of its own...
 
Nix said:
No. I fucking love myself too much. That said, I have jumped off both the roof of my house, and the roof of my High School building. The former was because I thought it would be nice to see how much force my knees could absorb. The latter however, jesus christ. I was being chased by some batshit crazy bitches wielding knives, and wanted to see if I could jump off to the nearest flag pole. Mind you, I was 5 floors up.

Needless to say, I made it; shortly after though, I needed to go to the hospital because the skin on my hands had been completely scraped off. Yeah, fuck suicide. Just live like me and you'll have a 50/50 shot of dying anyway.
Click to expand...


U need to make a video how u live. Jackass do it and they are rich sure u could do it as well
 
can't say I've ever tried it, no. i dont think i could ever bring myself to do it. Im not suicidal but I've been low since splitting with my gf in December. she found someone else and moved on real quick after moving away. I still think about her every day. i feel either angry, sad or ill. anything else is a front. i feel self loathing for not being 'good enough' to live the life i enjoyed so much. i feel resentment and bitterness to people in happy relationships now, like a pathetic jealous moron. why should they be happy when Im cast aside through no fault of my own. i don't enjoy meeting friends (even though i pretend i do to them) and 90% come up with bullshit to not go out. i feel no motivation to do anything. even games are like a chore most of the time. every girl i ever see doesn't come close to my ex in my sad twisted mind. i sent her a birthday card and a letter for her birthday this month, heard nothing back. not even a text. great. i wasent begging for her back or anything, just small talk and asking how things were going. she has no idea just how broken I've become this year. 2011 has been by far the biggest waste of a year I've ever had the misfortune of living through.

the reason i said all this shit is because i see guys who are suicidal in here who are then discovered by gfs, wtf? dudes ure so lucky to have someone, what could be so bad u wanna end your lives? my life is crap in terms of job prospects and money at the moment.. but that doesn't effect me half as much as losing the love of my life.
 
yeah, i've tried to OD on a few different kind pills before... taking a bunch of different brands of over-the-counter pills at the same time

at one point, my heart was racing really fast and i was extremely weak, and before i passed out, i was seeing all kinds of crazy stuff that absolutely terrified me.

i was doing that to myself in a college dorm with a roommate and she never knew. nobody ever would have known if i hadn't told them
 
Icanplaythat said:
I have a horrible diet (I live in NYC and in preparation for the hurricane I purchased 3 gallons of water and 3 boxes of drakes apple pies as my "emergency supplies", it's comical), I don't exercise, but I do take supplements. Everyday I down a Multivitamin, Multi-oil, Calcium-magnesium-vitamin D, CoQ-10, Potassium gluconate and Chromium picolinate.
Click to expand...


Move out of that shithole. I know it doesn't necessiarly make a diffence, but move anyway. Go to Europe, Go to OZ. Go anywhere. You need a chance. Save iof u have too. Being a US citizen you can get a visa. Experience life somehwere else.

Most likely is tyhis is biochemical, recognise that and do not ever try to take your life agao. Thins can change. Make your change. You have the power.
 
Icanplaythat said:
I have a horrible diet (I live in NYC and in preparation for the hurricane I purchased 3 gallons of water and 3 boxes of drakes apple pies as my "emergency supplies", it's comical), I don't exercise, but I do take supplements. Everyday I down a Multivitamin, Multi-oil, Calcium-magnesium-vitamin D, CoQ-10, Potassium gluconate and Chromium picolinate.
Click to expand...
Try chromium polynicotinate instead of picolinate, and maybe invest in some probiotics like Accuflora or iFlora.

A B vitamin complex might help as well, it'll definitely aid your energy.

3 boxes of apple pies aren't going to do you any favors, there are much better options. I don't want to sound like I'm preaching, but eating healthily, not necessarily all the time but as a general rule, has been an immense help to me.

Contrary to popular opinion, I don't think dedicated exercise is necessary to a healthy life, but personally it's helped me. Even just a couple short workouts a week, 30 minutes to an hour.

I grew up in Astoria on a diet of 90% bagels and 10% donuts, so I know what it's like. It's still possible to eat healthy. Introduce vegetables, practice cooking chicken and fish. Salmon's an easy one, just wrap it in foil and bake it -- it's almost impossible to overcook.
 
I get little impulses, probably at least one a day, but they are more related to my anxiety rather than depression, and thus rarely continue for more than a few seconds.

And I really, really hate it when people say that people who commit suicide are "selfish". People experience mental pain just as intensely as physical pain, and sometimes that pain motivates them to end it when other methods have already been exhausted. Just because the have a family that loves them doesn't mean they have to continue to continue their miserable dance for the rest of their natural life to please someone else.
 
mblitek said:
You people, yes, "you" people are f'd. I suffered a C-4/5/6 spinal cord injury the night before I moved into residence at University and as a Quadriplegic I still enjoy life. Granted it is a shit load harder and a lot harder than you can imagine but why be a washed up...nevermind.

There's more to life than you think, and if you're posting here on the internet from a computer device you likely have an education and a computer with a roof over your head. I challenge you to live in Sierra Leone then report back on your view of life.
Click to expand...

Not really how it works. Would be awesome if that was the be all, end all cure but it isn't for people with deep rooted problems.
 
Crunched said:
Try chromium polynicotinate instead of picolinate, and maybe invest in some probiotics like Accuflora or iFlora.

A B vitamin complex might help as well, it'll definitely aid your energy.

3 boxes of apple pies aren't going to do you any favors, there are much better options. I don't want to sound like I'm preaching, but eating healthily, not necessarily all the time but as a general rule, has been an immense help to me.

Contrary to popular opinion, I don't think dedicated exercise is necessary to a healthy life, but personally it's helped me. Even just a couple short workouts a week, 30 minutes to an hour.
Click to expand...
Yep a nasal spray of Vitamin B12 and some iron has really helped my energy levels. I'm no longer living on a fast food college diet either. I take pleasure in cooking my meals now.
 
mblitek said:
You people, yes, "you" people are f'd. I suffered a C-4/5/6 spinal cord injury the night before I moved into residence at University and as a Quadriplegic I still enjoy life. Granted it is a shit load harder and a lot harder than you can imagine but why be a washed up...nevermind.

There's more to life than you think, and if you're posting here on the internet from a computer device you likely have an education and a computer with a roof over your head. I challenge you to live in Sierra Leone then report back on your view of life.
Click to expand...
"Yeah you piece of shit, why the fuck would you even think like that you should feel horrible about it"
 
Vire said:
Yep a nasal spray of Vitamin B12 and some iron has really helped my energy levels. I'm no longer living on a fast food college diet either. I take pleasure in cooking my meals now.
Click to expand...
Haven't tried nasal sprays myself so can't speak on them, but I've had good results from taking generic B complex pills twice a day and also with slow-releasing niacin (I think it's simply called SloNiacin).
 
a friends family member recently tried, seeing how much stress its caused people, me and her totally feel its an extremely selfish act. As the guy has a wife and kid. Thank God he now realises he needs help.

I Pray the Op gets help.
 
Most days I think about it but I have been feeling better the last few days. What's your current situation OP and what are you constantly worrying about?
 
Vire said:
Cowards are the ones who commit suicide.
Click to expand...

Spoken like someone that has never contemplated suicide or had clinical depression.

Not every suicide is done out of "I can't deal with the pain" feelings.

Some suicides are done because the person feels the world would be better off without him/her.
 
You guys realize calling someone contemplating suicide a coward and other pejoratives is not a good way to help them, right?
 
Crunched said:
You guys realize calling someone contemplating suicide a coward and other pejoratives is not a good way to help them, right?
Click to expand...

People would rather get mad and judge. Trying to understand the thoughts/feelings of a suicidal person is much harder than being a judgmental asshole.
 
Obsessed said:
People would rather get mad and judge. Trying to understand the thoughts/feelings of a suicidal person is much harder than being a judgmental asshole.
Click to expand...
Apparently so :/

One more thing, OP: getting enough sleep each night is a must. My seratonin levels were fucked when I tried offing myself, and I'm 99% sure that was due to not getting enough sleep. Obviously this differs person to person, but the general 8 to 9 hours a night is a solid guideline.

I've got them back to normal now without taking any anxiety medicine or antidepressants. I consider that proof enough that simple lifestyle changes can often make a big difference.

What sucked for me is, the less sleep I got the harder it was to fall asleep the next day. So I was in this cycle of insomnia for months at a time. Tried taking melatonin, but that made me feel like I'd been laid out by a train. Everyone else I've talked to says it either does nothing or works perfectly with no side effects, but it gives me tunnel vision and makes me feel exhausted for like 30 hours after taking it. Not recommended.

Things didn't ever get right until I started exercising weekly and eating better.

Again, I don't think healthy living is a universal cure-all, but I'm a big proponent of giving it a shot.

Getting a good night's rest will also help you eat better, because it aids your biological "hunger switch" in functioning correctly. I never get full when I don't get much sleep.
 
Crunched said:
Apparently so :/

One more thing, OP: getting enough sleep each night is a must. My seratonin levels were fucked when I tried offing myself, and I'm 99% sure that was due to not getting enough sleep. Obviously this differs person to person, but the general 8 to 9 hours a night is a solid guideline.
Click to expand...

Seratonin levels were off? Gee, it almost sounds like suicidal depression were a biological condition caused by chemical imbalances in the brain.

Nah it couldn't be. If that were the case I'd have to get off my high horse and stop going "you're in the first world! spoiled, ungrateful asshole" and "selfish coward."

Plus there was a time I was kinda sad once, and like I got over it by willpower. Being sad is like the same as clinical depression right?
 
Vire said:
Think of all the wonderful games, books and art you'll miss out on, the beautiful women you may meet, the places and world you could see. There is adventure in this world to be had, you just have to go and find it.

Please please don't ever consider it again.
Click to expand...
All irrelevant if you don't have money, confidence, and/or family/friends. 'Living' life is easier said than done in that case.
 
Crunched said:
"Yeah you piece of shit, why the fuck would you even think like that you should feel horrible about it"
Click to expand...

Not at all, I came off too harsh but having been through hell & back and having bad luck for the past while I never once thought about it. Correction, when I was in ICU the first time the Dr. gave me my patient rights and effectively said "you probably won't walk again and your ;ife will not be the same. That said, I can leave you on life support and you can battle it out and we the Dr.'s can & will do our best to save you. Or, I can take you off life support and you will die." It hit me like a tonne of bricks, errr more like the tree that fell on me. Then immediately I thought if I choose yes to stay alive I can't back out halfway. I'm 19, is it really worth it? Then I immediately thought of my family and felt so guilty for the situation they were in. They didn't deserve it nor did my friends or acquaintances. I spent the next 60days in ICU on life support, with a tracheotomy, stomach tube, chest tube, nose tube, a tube up my pen0r, IV etc. I also had the severe painful feeling of a tube going down the hole in my tracheotomy hole about every 45mins to suck out the mucus. It hurt sooooooo bad.

Fast forward another 40 days of being in the Neurology ward and another 6months in rehab hospital. I cried a lot at night but tried to think my way around it. I developed a bond with my Neurosurgeon and she said don't go through this alone, try anti-depressants, psychologist and/or a support group. Realizing she was right I got some anti-depressants which worked on the first guess (some people don't react to certain ones). They helped immensely and I went to the Psychologist thinking no one could help me but me. Wrong. Even though I did most of the talking it worked somehow. I'm still on the antibiotics albeit a lesser of a dose.

Now I feel like a prick for being so harsh and quick to judge. I apologize. That said, please appreciate how lucky you are despite what bothers you. You can & will feel better despite what you currently think. Go to a Doctor, tell him/her your issue and try some anti-biotics. It may take a few trials to get the right dosage and/or type. Then get a recommendation to a Psychologist or a Psychiatrist or even a support group. Vitamins will also help and exercise.

Once again, I apologize. It took me awhile to respond because I type via an onscreen keyboard.



Aside
 
The fact that you couldn't finish the job obviously means you still want to live. Enjoy life and when it's time for you to die you'll die, so just sit back and enjoy the ride.
 
yRb66.gif
 
i think about killing myself every day, but i lack the will. schade

all one can do is just laugh, laugh at the absurdity of life. like the Comedian from Watchmen!
 
I've never understood the 'only cowards commit suicide' talk. Do you realize how much fortitude it must take to willingly try to kill yourself? I don't want to sound like I'm glorifying suicide or something, but it must take an insane amount of willpower to stare death in the eye and choose death.

I've been depressed and had suicidal thoughts constantly in my life. However, I've never been able to actually inflict harm on myself. The thought alone of inflicting pain upon myself turns me into a coward.
 
mblitek said:
Not at all, I came off too harsh but having been through hell & back and having bad luck for the past while I never once thought about it. Correction, when I was in ICU the first time the Dr. gave me my patient rights and effectively said "you probably won't walk again and your ;ife will not be the same. That said, I can leave you on life support and you can battle it out and we the Dr.'s can & will do our best to save you. Or, I can take you off life support and you will die." It hit me like a tonne of bricks, errr more like the tree that fell on me. Then immediately I thought if I choose yes to stay alive I can't back out halfway. I'm 19, is it really worth it? Then I immediately thought of my family and felt so guilty for the situation they were in. They didn't deserve it nor did my friends or acquaintances. I spent the next 60days in ICU on life support, with a tracheotomy, stomach tube, chest tube, nose tube, a tube up my pen0r, IV etc. I also had the severe painful feeling of a tube going down the hole in my tracheotomy hole about every 45mins to suck out the mucus. It hurt sooooooo bad.
Click to expand...
I used to cover the SICU and MICU for dietary at a local hospital, and I hated seeing people in this position. It's why I stopped going to those floors and one of the reasons I hate hospitals.

I was sick for nearly my entire childhood, but never injured to the extent you were. I can't say I understand what you went through, or what you're going through now, but I feel for you.

Glad you're still enjoying life.
 
Status
Not open for further replies.

Similar threads

Anyone ever see Electric Callboy?
10
241
AJUMP23 replied
  • Locked
Tried to commit suicide Friday....failed
27
1K
DGrayson replied
You ever try to have deep conversations with Ai?
2
70
5K
Paasei replied
Virginia Giuffre commits suicide
31
1K
DAHGAMING replied
Has anyone tried Meta AI Glasses?
17
2K
StabbyStabStabStabStab replied
Top Bottom