I can't talk about it. The pain is too much for me to handle. It's more painful than Jesus kneeling.
we will find her, rvy. no matter where she goes. we will find her. in a place with no frontiers. no matter where she goes. we will find her. if it takes a thousand years.
she will come to us when we least expect it. when we're not desperately trying to find her. she will pop up. there will be an unrelated link on not a porn site, but a regular sfw site. and that very link will lead us to her.
for now, she is our white whale.
but soon, she will be that one poem. everyone has that one poem inside of them.
she will be ours.
soon.