I need some wisdom.
How often do you guys drink? I've never been a big drinker. I have maybe been drunk 20 times in my life. But, as of recently, my drinking has increased drastically. I've been stressed out because of work, school, and life in general so I've been having a couple drinks in the evening to calm my nerves. It helps tremendously. For example, just now while I was watching Attack the Block, I was restless. I could not focus on the movie because my mind was going a million miles an hour. So, I made a drink and instantly started to relax as a result. I don't drink a lot, never enough to get drunk, but enough to have a slight buzz by the end of the night. Helps me sleep too.
This worries me because, due to my inexperience, I have no idea when it's too much. Alcoholism runs in my family and I'm worried that this new discovery of mine could lead me down a dark path. I've tried to justify it to myself with lines of thought such as, "I need caffeine every morning to start my day, what's wrong with having some alcohol to end it?". Do you guys have any tips to pass on concerning this? Perhaps personal experience, stories, or tricks you've used to self monitor/regulate? Any help would be appreciated. Thanks fam.