Let's talk about how awful our lives are and recent low points

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loosus said:
Hey, at least you're failing just one class. I'll be lucky not to be put on academic probation for the shit I've pulled.
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Already on that from the last quarter because I failed 2 classes because the burasars office wouldn't give me a stick for my id even with half the my fees paid, couldn't withdraw in time because i was told this was not going to be a problem/it would be fixed in time. :lol

This I should be grateful for:
Alive and healthy
I've got money in the bank
Mother is trying to be extremely supportive
Girl has taken interest in me...might pursue if I don't have to fucking leave.
 
I had a major panic attack and ran out of class today. Then proceed to wonder around the city of Atlanta like a insane manic because I was convinced I was going crazy.
 
I dunno why I'm posting in this thread, but I'm fucking bored.

1. I turned 30 a couple weeks ago.

2. I've had Hep C since I was like 4. I'm not exactly sure when I got it. I have mild hemophilia, so I got a good handful of transfusions growing up (before they started testing for diseases).

3. I'm pretty much an antisocial hermit unless it involves drinking with my older neighbors. I don't have "best friends" or anything. I have work friends who invite themselves over to watch movies because I'm the only single guy in the office.

4. Combining 2 and 3, I have not dated in forever. I whored it up my earlier days in college, but once I started trying to get "real" girlfriends, I had a hard time getting over their reaction to #2. I had one absolutely freak out and tell everybody we knew, even though we hadn't had sex yet. I think the last girlfriend I had was in 1999 or 2000 (lasted a week) and the last time I had full on penis-into-vagina sex was in 2002 with a prostitute at a bachelor party. I have never dated a girl for longer than three months.

5. I'm around $6000 in credit card debt. It all accrued when I purposely failed out of college the third time and had to turn my student job into a contract position for 1.5 years (until I could get hired full time). The pay barely covered my apartment and food. I had to get a credit card plus sell half my shit on ebay just to get by.

6. I drink a lot more than I probably should.

7. Insert comment about being lazy and unmotivated. This has grown exponentially lately because I had to euthanize my dog in December. I've taken it a lot harder than I thought I would and now I feel like I have absolutely no responsibilities in life. I'm the mother fucking king of "oh, I'll just do that tomorrow."

But yeah, fuck it. Either way, I'm pretty content with my life. Whether that's from preference or just a sick mental justification, I don't really know.
 
My low points are pretty minor, I guess. I haven't had a girlfriend in over 5 years, and I'm just now trying to enroll into the University I moved here over a year ago for.
 
I lost a friend with benefits because she actually wanted to be a proper friend. She didn't want to be in a relationship based solely on sex. Her boyfriend isn't too happy about this situation either.
 
Hey. It was my birthday this weekend! I got to spend it all by myself too, cause I don't know anybody who will hang out with me anymore! I actually went to someone else's birthday party the night before in an attempt to maybe meet someone, and as it turns out the only attractive single girl there was my ex; who suddenly stopped speaking to me after three months of dating. I was just standing in the corner trying to avoid eye contact with her and finish the two beers I brought so I could leave. But the place was so packed that I wound up inadvertently boxed in right behind her for like ten minutes. And then this Monday I'd tried to make plans to see a girl for a second date, after a really great make-out filled first date, and I get a text from her as I'm finishing work that she is suddenly "sick". Fuck women, and fuck friends.
 
Big Icarus said:
Hey. It was my birthday this weekend! I got to spend it all by myself too, cause I don't know anybody who will hang out with me anymore! I actually went to someone else's birthday party the night before in an attempt to maybe meet someone, and as it turns out the only attractive single girl there was my ex; who suddenly stopped speaking to me after three months of dating. I was just standing in the corner trying to avoid eye contact with her and finish the two beers I brought so I could leave. But the place was so packed that I wound up inadvertently boxed in right behind her for like ten minutes. And then this Monday I'd tried to make plans to see a girl for a second date, after a really great make-out filled first date, and I get a text from her as I'm finishing work that she is suddenly "sick". Fuck women, and fuck friends.
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I'd be your friend.
 
I've been laid off since January, it took until just recently to get unemployment. I've had one interview (but was sick with strep during it) out of hundreds of applications. Just a couple years ago with no experience fresh out of college I got a good job and good pay, now, there are no biters.

I also got really bad strep throat and lost about 15 pounds. I was 180, now 165 (I'm 6'2").

My landlord threatened to kick me out of my apartment for "disturbing" noises and having a guest stay more than a week. This means my friendly neighbors are backstabbing me.

I feel like my foot is going to fall off (I don't want to go into details).

My girlfriends birthday is coming up. I have no money to spend.

...
 
Y'know OnLive? A bunch of my friends that graduated with me got a job there. I could have, I'm sure, but I already had accepted a job by the time OnLive was interviewing. My job's great, but now I see this thing and am getting "What if?" envy, y'know? Road not taken... always gets me down.

Also, I've been sick the last couple of days. The project I'm working on ships soon, so every day I take off is a day not spent making the product better. And I really want the product to be good, y'know?

Oh, and the apparently typical business of not really having any friends and no real romantic prospects. Again, if I hadn't hastily accepted my current job, maybe I'd've gone to work at OnLive with a bunch of friends, instead of being in a new city with few people I know outside of work... Le sigh.

And I still haven't gotten around to exercising regularly; according to Wii Fit, I'm almost in the "Obese" category... I don't think I'm that overweight, but the Wii knows best, right?
 
Still incredibly homesick. On Sunday, my partner tried to watch a documentary with me entitled "Hurricane on the Bayou," and I was unable to make it ten minutes without becoming a wreck.
 
Big Icarus said:
Hey. It was my birthday this weekend! I got to spend it all by myself too, cause I don't know anybody who will hang out with me anymore! I actually went to someone else's birthday party the night before in an attempt to maybe meet someone, and as it turns out the only attractive single girl there was my ex; who suddenly stopped speaking to me after three months of dating. I was just standing in the corner trying to avoid eye contact with her and finish the two beers I brought so I could leave. But the place was so packed that I wound up inadvertently boxed in right behind her for like ten minutes. And then this Monday I'd tried to make plans to see a girl for a second date, after a really great make-out filled first date, and I get a text from her as I'm finishing work that she is suddenly "sick". Fuck women, and fuck friends.
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She could, really, be sick.
I know, it seems unlikely but it happens. I had my current girlfriend cancel dates on me TWICE in the first few weeks we were dating, but things actually did happen that prevented her from seeing me. Had I flipped out and lost it because of what seemed in my pessimistic eyes like her trying to not see me would have prevented a really awesome relationship from forming.
 
Mine....
-- Social life sucks. I'm 31 and single with no kids (not complaining, just stating). Everyone I know is married and/or have kids, so they rarely ever hang out like they used to.
-- Even with the social life sucking because of that, I do secretly think I'm winning at life because I still have my freedom.
 
On my birthday I found out that I have either ulcerative colitis or crohn's disease. Happy freaking birthday to me, yay!

Could be worse, though. No biggie, really.
 
An old coworker and friend of mine, who I hadn't kept in touch with but would still see him every now and then, passed away. It happened 6 months ago, I found out last weekend when I dropped by his work place for a visit. Some mutual friends of ours did not tell me about this, so I wonder what kind of terrible friend must I be that something like this can't come up in conversations with a simple 'hey did you hear about so and so...'
 
GDGF said:
On my birthday I found out that I have either ulcerative colitis or crohn's disease. Happy freaking birthday to me, yay!

Could be worse, though. No biggie, really.
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Welcome to the club, you'll be fine it's just a minor pain in the ass.
 
Uh...couldn't kiss my wife today because she has a cold. :(

...so I fucked her "Pretty Woman" style.
 
-I feel like I am "free falling" through life with no direction whatsoever.

-I am over 24k in dept counting school loans and I didn't even finish.

-GF of six years just broke up with me because I am horrible with money and I don't have enough "drive" in my career.

-I haven't worked out in over a month and put on 10lbs.

-My car got ran into by a truck and totaled but the money they gave me for it wasn't enough to get a new one so I spent it on a new HDTV and drive around the smashed up car.

-My job just announced this week we are going to have layoffs starting in 2 weeks. Instead of saving my bonus I spent it on a brand new PC.

-I went out with some co-workers to a bar last week and was doing a bit of dancing, my knee has been in excruciating pain ever since but I.

-When I got out only fat/ugly girls will talk to me which is even more depressing when I actually have sex with them.

-I can't sleep more than 4hrs a night without waking up.

-For some reason my brother and sister haven't returned my calls for months.

-My mother is a religious nutjob who burdens me massive guilt trips if I don't call her everyday and only gives me horrible advice.

-I haven't met my $500 deductible this year so I now owe $300 to my doctor for the allergy shots I have been getting.

-I now have posted my problems on an internet message board to complete strangers...
 
I'm a person who smiles, laughs a shitload, and tries to make other laugh and that apparently makes you gay. Today in class, someone asked my friend if I was gay because everyone sitting around me thought so. WTF

Adding to that, a gay friend of mine who I thought was my friend went down on me as I was passed out on a bed at a Christmas/birthday party. (I got completely wasted--was celebrating the end of a semester) I woke up to him doing that horrified and kicked him off only for him to say that he knows I'm gay and then asked if he could "finish me off". I was shaking and completely disgusted and havent spoke to him since.

Because of that, I've suffered psychologically and now get stressed easily. When I went out to drink with a few buds, my body would shake uncontrollably and I had no idea why, each and every time I was out consuming alcohol. I told a close friend of what happened and she opened my eyes to see that my shaking was a subconscious thing due to the incident above. I've had panic attacks, feel overwhelmed almost to a point of a nervous breakdown when it comes to school and have bad mood swings and get severly depressed from time to time.

Then the girl I was talking to started dating another guy behind my back. I havent had sex and a girlfriend since and now people are actually thinking I'm gay for some reason(the way I act?, or maybe since they havent seen me with a girl in a while?) and I couldn't care less before but that incident keeps popping back into my head. =(. I feel ashamed of what happened. Disgusted. I know its not my fault but I keep going back to that day kicking myself for not taking it easy at the party so that wouldn't have happened.

Others:
My job blows, low pay, bad coworkers and theres nothing available around
Im currently in the worst semester of college ever.
I wonder daily what the hell Im going to do when I get my degree in Anthropology
It's very hard for me to sleep since the incident and am constantly tired.

Ehhh....I just need to get away
 
Full Recovery said:
Welcome to the club, you'll be fine it's just a minor pain in the ass.
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:lol thanks

(yeah, I've lived with it for years, just didn't have a name or diagnosis to go along with it. Nothing's really changed as far as I'm concerned)
 
One of my best friends is going to jail for 4 months on drug charges.
Another is shipping off to Iraq.
God I'm going to be so lonely this summer.
 
I didn't get the job as a pastry chef even though the chef and boss said I was the number one choice. They didn't like that I would be leaving in the middle of summer to go back to school.
 
High School:

I got tempa banned from my school email for replying to a friend with "lol are you fucking serious?"

Little did I know that swear words in our school email got sent off to the administrator; so I'm without formal email for a month, got a shit load of attachments to download; oh, and did I mention that I sent the naughty email from home?

Meh, my school has a download limit of 100 MB for the term; so fuck them up their stingy arses.

Anyone got any NEW proxies so I can browse NeoGAF from school? <3 <3 <3
 
JadedOne said:
I'm a person who smiles, laughs a shitload, and tries to make other laugh and that apparently makes you gay. Today in class, someone asked my friend if I was gay because everyone sitting around me thought so. WTF

Adding to that, a gay friend of mine who I thought was my friend went down on me as I was passed out on a bed at a Christmas/birthday party. (I got completely wasted--was celebrating the end of a semester) I woke up to him doing that horrified and kicked him off only for him to say that he knows I'm gay and then asked if he could "finish me off". I was shaking and completely disgusted and havent spoke to him since.

Because of that, I've suffered psychologically and now get stressed easily. When I went out to drink with a few buds, my body would shake uncontrollably and I had no idea why, each and every time I was out consuming alcohol. I told a close friend of what happened and she opened my eyes to see that my shaking was a subconscious thing due to the incident above. I've had panic attacks, feel overwhelmed almost to a point of a nervous breakdown when it comes to school and have bad mood swings and get severly depressed from time to time.
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i'm sorry but:lol :lol :lol :lol :lol
 
pjberri said:
My life mostly consists of a single low point with intermittent irregularities. But I just put on some UGK, so I can deal.
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Fuckin' A. This is pretty much the story of my god awful work life. Outside of work my life is pretty good, but work is a black hole that eats up one third of my life.

As an aside, if you haven't heard the song featuring UGK from the new Slim Thug album ("Leanin'") do so immediately.
 
MWS Natural said:
-My car got ran into by a truck and totaled but the money they gave me for it wasn't enough to get a new one so I spent it on a new HDTV and drive around the smashed up car.

-My job just announced this week we are going to have layoffs starting in 2 weeks. Instead of saving my bonus I spent it on a brand new PC.
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JadedOne said:
I'm a person who smiles, laughs a shitload, and tries to make other laugh and that apparently makes you gay. Today in class, someone asked my friend if I was gay because everyone sitting around me thought so. WTF
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I'm the same way and I get that a lot, too.
 
I don't know if anyone else views this thread similarly, but I find all this to be incredibly uplifting. I often whine about my own circumstances, but reading the above posts makes me thankful for what I do have.

To all those depressed, good luck. I've been there.
 
RevenantKioku said:
She could, really, be sick.
I know, it seems unlikely but it happens. I had my current girlfriend cancel dates on me TWICE in the first few weeks we were dating, but things actually did happen that prevented her from seeing me. Had I flipped out and lost it because of what seemed in my pessimistic eyes like her trying to not see me would have prevented a really awesome relationship from forming.
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I met her from a dating site, and I live in NYC. She's not sick.

Regardless, I have send some BS consolatory message back and pretend like I don't know she's lying on that minuscule off chance she isn't. Why must women always pull this passive, cowardly shit when they blow off someone? Why do I have to play the patsy because you have some pathological fear of being disliked by the guy you rejected?

So, don't worry; I don't flip out. I just know not to bother ever contacting her again.
 
My family has a history of depression and I've fallen into it. I can't stop thinking about how everything I do and all the struggles I've endured in my life are for nothing in light of me becoming convinced there is no god. I constantly feel like killing myself, probably cause I have nothing to do at home other than browse GAF and occasionally walk the dog. No car yet. I can't find anything meaningful to do, although I'm considering joining the army though to die that way or to box to death. I've also considered returning to school to finish my IT degree up and then go back fro STEM cells. But mostly, I fel like killing myself, and I would instantly if it weren't for the fact my family, my dad specifically, the only person I've ever really liked, would be devastated. Does anyone know if prozac works well and if it won't fuck me over with side-effects because I've been prescribed it. Thanks.
EDIT: I only did this cause I have no one to talk to in real life. Plus anonymity is better for objectivity.
 
Man, I'm too paranoid to post my personal issues, but...reading your guys' posts really made me wish things get better for some of you :'(

Also:

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I met this girl at a nightclub two months ago. Over the next few weeks we built up relations, and just as it seemed like she wanted to get serious, she stopped hanging out with me. What pisses me off about the whole thing is that despite being a club girl, I thought this one would be different and not full of bullshit. Of course, I was wrong.
 
just right now...

about 20 minutes ago, I got pulled over and got my car impounded for having an expired registration and license. ya its my fault but its still shitty to get caught. so now I have no way of getting home at midnight when I get off of work, and also I got written up last week with my final warning for tardiness which mean one more day late and I'm fired. Also I got a letter in the mail today stating I have to pay $1.5k in traffic fines or my wages will be garnished..
FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I never learn until something like this happens to me.....
 
I go to a school I hate and have no friends there at all. I have people I'll wave to if I walk by them. That's as close to social interaction as happens to me during the day. I hate all my classes and got so depressed earlier in the semester that I'm failing fucking GE humanities. I just want to leave. I'll go days on end without sharing a single word with anyone.

My folks got divorced and my mom moved to a sad dark windowless condo next to the freeway and is raising a three-year-old in it, where playing outside to a kid means riding your bike at the Jehovah's Witness parking lot or going down to the gas stations or Dennys to get food. There are crack houses down the block from the place. My dad ekes out a miserable, painkiller-addled existence in their old house in a family-oriented neighborhood.

I lost $300 because my bank never processed an ATM deposit I made, gave me a temporary credit which I was forced to spend, and then failed to find the money and charged me overdraft until I could pay it off. The only money I have right now my grandpa gave me.

I've been drinking almost every night, I can't sleep, when I sleep my dreams consist of driving through the California farmlands going nowhere. That's the only dream I have. Also I can't afford cigarettes.

Also I have no career path and hate my major and want to do creative writing, a screenplay, songs, whatever, but suck at it and it's a horrible dream and nobody would support me if I attempted it.

Edit - In better news, I have a reliable truck that works, and the whiskey works.
 
Mar_ said:
Not really nice to laugh at someone who was sexually assaulted and is suffering because of it.
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viciouskillersquirrel said:
Dude, he just told a story about how he was sexually assualted by someone he trusted. That is not funny.
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Borci88 said:
Respect lost, not cool dude.
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I didn't find the part where he is all depressed and paranoid funny.

I thought the part where he joked around and people thought he was gay funny

Well, i'm posting on this thread already so lets give it a shot:
Today i found out that i fucked up my community college schedule so i might have to stay here for more than 2 years =( Really fucking sucks ass. Also, i barely have any friends at college (this is my 2nd semester) because it is 40 mins away from where i live and i can't be hanging out with them. I barely see my old friends anymore.
 
MWS Natural said:
-My car got ran into by a truck and totaled but the money they gave me for it wasn't enough to get a new one so I spent it on a new HDTV and drive around the smashed up car.
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I'm picturing you pulling in to your work parking lot :lol . Dude, you got a new HDTV you should post this in the high points thread.
 
Fuck, this thread is depressing.

I have suffered from depression for years and my current inability to get a job is not helping. My wife and I are currently living in her parent's house while they are out of the country. That in and of itself is something to be grateful for, but we've been here since last August and still no jobs. You see, we are 2 hours north of San Francisco and to more efficiently search for jobs we should be much closer. But, of course, to be able to live closer we need jobs. So, it's as if I'm stuck in some weird limbo. Add in my 6 figures of loans coming due in May and we are in for some pain.

Sigh, part of me recognizes things could be so much worse, but it fucking feels horrible and I'm just tired of it all.
 
Every since I was a little kid, I was a voracious reader. I loved reading about heros, about chivalrous knights and kindly gentlemen. I heard this was a good thing to be, so I modeled myself after these characters and strove to be kindly, gentle, clever, loyal and an all around good guy.

I've also been in love with one girl for a good long while.

Subsequently, I've started to find out everyone I know either thinks I'm gay or impotent because I won't nail the first thing with breasts. Those that know of my attraction think I'm stupid or pathetic.

It's depressing the find out that, when you try to do what everyone tells you is right, when you try to be the kind of person people told you girls liked and people looked to for advice and looked up to in general... it's just depressing to find out all it leads to is ridicule and loneliness.

And having gay guys try to "pick me up" doesn't help matters much.

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Then again, my condolences to many in this thread. I suppose I should be grateful for what I have. I really do wish everyone in here struggling the best, whether it involves a change from within or without.
 
Rayo said:
i asked a girl on a date, she said yes, then later changed her mind
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I think girls have some sort of chicken game they play against each other to see who can cancel at the latest moment.
 
I got dumped six months ago. Today I met up with my ex and we fucked like three times. Now I'm alone and drunk in my room and posting messages on a fucking internet gaming board.
 
ltse1 said:
I'm picturing you pulling in to your work parking lot :lol . Dude, you got a new HDTV you should post this in the high points thread.
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This one chick I met saw my car and was like =/ then came to the crib and was like =O...I guess it's a low and high point for me :lol
 
Talka said:
I got dumped six months ago. Today I met up with my ex and we fucked like three times. Now I'm alone and drunk in my room and posting messages on a fucking internet gaming board.
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Your random fucks are a short-term solution to the bigger problem - that being you don't know what you want because your life compass is fucked. Any direction seems like a good direction though, as long as it get you away from here.

Randomness aside, keep your chin up. The only moper is you and the sooner you move on the sooner you'll get happier again. I spent nearly a year in severe depression, isolating myself from life-long friends because I was so overcome in losing a girlfriend (3+ years seems even longer at 17). It was the worst time of my life but I learned more about myself than I could've hoped. Take some time to think about what you want and push yourself to grow from this shittiness.
 
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