Let's talk about how awful our lives are and recent low points
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BobsRevenge
I do not avoid women, GAF, but I do deny them my essence.
Danielsan said:
Danielsan said:
Well it's completely opposite for me. I've pretty much lost my trust in the fact that people are inherently good or what they seem to be, so every time I start to get close to someone or interested in someone, I think, "Nah.." and just lose interest.
I mean physically I am attracted to various women and what not, but I can't help but thinking they're all cold-hearted, so I figure I'm better off without them.
Perhaps I'll get over this, someday.
Finaika
Member
- I'm in my late 20's, and been girlfriend-less the whole time; haven't even had a single date yet. Mostly due to my extremely quiet & shy personality. But I'm currently trying my very best to change that.
- I'm kinda directionless in life too. But hopefully that will change too...
- I'm kinda directionless in life too. But hopefully that will change too...
A lot of the times if you focus on your weaknesses and regrets you hold yourself back. It ends up consuming you and you pretty much live in the past. Nobody wants to be around that.
It's hard to change, it really is, but you have to make that decision to let things go in order to be happy and move on with your life. I had to learn that the hard way, I hope somebody gets something out of it. Depression only gets worse if you personally let it.
It's hard to change, it really is, but you have to make that decision to let things go in order to be happy and move on with your life. I had to learn that the hard way, I hope somebody gets something out of it. Depression only gets worse if you personally let it.
eznark said:
Just listened to the story of the runaway girls, and what happened to them isn't as sad as what happened in the end.
Sounds like they eventually straightened out and went to college, got married, etc.
It's depressing because they've had excitement in their lives, and have changed. I feel like I've done neither.
Saturday night, at home, watching 'The Game'.
Whenever I stay at home on a Saturday night, I feel horrible. So I'm self-loathing. Stuffing my face with ice cream and cookies. Good thing this doesn't happen too often.
There is my most recent low point.
Oh, plus this guy I used to be best friends with earlier in life who I've lost contact with, and I found out I go to college with him, and when I see him, he doesn't speak. It's weird.
Whenever I stay at home on a Saturday night, I feel horrible. So I'm self-loathing. Stuffing my face with ice cream and cookies. Good thing this doesn't happen too often.
There is my most recent low point.
Oh, plus this guy I used to be best friends with earlier in life who I've lost contact with, and I found out I go to college with him, and when I see him, he doesn't speak. It's weird.
MrSardonic
The nerdiest nerd of all the nerds in nerdland
Danielsan said:
This is an illusion though.
If you can't be happy without someone else then you're most likely not going to be happy when you are with someone. The issue is the depression and the related negative introversion. I also experienced extreme apathy...which makes it incredibly difficult to pull yourself out of depression. If you deal with the introversion and the negative way of interpreting your experiences then other things naturally improve.
When people say things like, "you'll find a woman when you're not looking for one", they don't mean that you'll manage it by sitting on your arse at home. If you're indifferent but confident, someone who acts naturally and who instinctively makes correct decisions based on what the situation needs (rather than your projected goals or attempts to think of a way to behave) then you are immediately more attractive to other people. That way of being, which attracts others to you and which is not tarred by your pre-desire to do so, is what is meant by "finding without looking".
kozmo7 said:
Sure, but it is also incredibly difficult to avoid that.
pelicansurf
Needs a Holiday on Gallifrey
There's this pretty attractive girl that seems to be in love with me, wants to be in a relationship with me and everything. She is cute, smart, an extremely talented musician/singer, yet I do not find myself swooning over her. I've been sleeping with her for a few days and she is straight-up head over heels with me and I kind of want to stop seeing her but feel too bad to do it. I have a feeling I'm going to pity date her. Fuck.
fistfulofmetal
Banned
pelicansurf said:
wow, you have it so bad. i hope i never have your problems.
reggieandTFE
Member
Does anyone have any sibling/friends/relatives whose awful lives drag them down and don't know what to do? I'm doing alright (live with my gf in Chicago and make enough money to get by), but my older brother (he's 28, I'm 26) is depressing the hell out of me.
He's always been a bit of a loner and antisocial, but he seemed to get his shit together when he moved out a year and a half ago with a friend and had an accounting job downtown.
Six months later he had to move back home because the friend didn't want to live with him anymore (although he won't admit that's why) and two months after that he get fired from his job, but still refuses to tell us why.
For the last year he's been living at home rent-free awhile not even looking for a job. Instead he complains about everything: the food my mom makes (despite her working 60+ hours/week), the lower temperature my parents keep the house to save money on heat and everything my little brother does.
He doesn't have any friends and never goes out; I'm 90% convinced he hates my little brother so much because he has friends and goes out on weekends. I've tried to invite him out to things with my friends, but he's so negative and weird that it just makes the events awkward. I'm 99% sure he's never gotten laid and even though he's been unemployed for a year and has a gym membership he hasn't lost any of the 50 lbs of flab he needs to.
The last straw for me giving up on him was when I learned that the money he has been using to pay his bills for the last year is actually my parents. I thought he had been living off savings he was going to use on a condo, but it was actually a gift from my parents to allow him to make a down payment on a condo.
Sorry for the long, ranty post, but I just needed to whine a bit. I've been in the same place a lot of you have been and understand that shitty things often happen to good people , but don't forget to look outside yourself sometimes and not be selfish like my asshole brother who blames the world for problems of his own design.
He's always been a bit of a loner and antisocial, but he seemed to get his shit together when he moved out a year and a half ago with a friend and had an accounting job downtown.
Six months later he had to move back home because the friend didn't want to live with him anymore (although he won't admit that's why) and two months after that he get fired from his job, but still refuses to tell us why.
For the last year he's been living at home rent-free awhile not even looking for a job. Instead he complains about everything: the food my mom makes (despite her working 60+ hours/week), the lower temperature my parents keep the house to save money on heat and everything my little brother does.
He doesn't have any friends and never goes out; I'm 90% convinced he hates my little brother so much because he has friends and goes out on weekends. I've tried to invite him out to things with my friends, but he's so negative and weird that it just makes the events awkward. I'm 99% sure he's never gotten laid and even though he's been unemployed for a year and has a gym membership he hasn't lost any of the 50 lbs of flab he needs to.
The last straw for me giving up on him was when I learned that the money he has been using to pay his bills for the last year is actually my parents. I thought he had been living off savings he was going to use on a condo, but it was actually a gift from my parents to allow him to make a down payment on a condo.
Sorry for the long, ranty post, but I just needed to whine a bit. I've been in the same place a lot of you have been and understand that shitty things often happen to good people , but don't forget to look outside yourself sometimes and not be selfish like my asshole brother who blames the world for problems of his own design.
AlternativeUlster
Absolutely pathetic part deux
Ford Prefect said:
Wait a minute. Ford, are you a girl?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?
Sorry Bus about your arrest. I haven't been arrested yet but someday soon I am sure I will once the government finds me.
Lowpoints:
-I haven't had a steady job well over a year and I have moved twice to look for work (Austin and then Philadelphia) but still nothing. A friend of mine said he could get me a job in Denver so I might do that.
-Driving to Philly I ran over a porcupine and it made my exhaust is dragging on the ground now. Also, my engine light is on and oil change place refuses to change my oil until I get a tune-up which I can't afford.
-I basically have sold all my stuff over the course of the past couple of months including all my noise equipment, comics, videogames, and about 800 records and I am about to sell the rest of my records just so I can have money to live. All I am going to keep is some clothes and a couple of noise tapes.
-Philadelphia is still really cold so I am not losing my winter weight fast enough. I am still 210 and I am usually at least 195 at this point of the year. I am 6'2''.
-When I moved here, I had 22 dollars in my wallet. I have worked one gig for Manpower which got me 80 dollars but that is all the money I have been living on and I don't have anything at the moment. I get paid on Wednesday for working 2 and half days at Greenpeace which I was fired from for not being an efficent worker. I think I am going to spend about 50 dollars of it on coke and the rest on art supplies.
-I miss Austin and sort of wish I didn't leave.
A Human Becoming
More than a Member
-My dad threw fire at me and punched my mom.
-I tried to kill myself.
-I had three panic attacks at school, one of which I was taken away by 911 because I couldn't move.
-A person who I opened myself up to, the first time in a long time, when I was the most vulnerable told me they wouldn't abandon me. They did, telling me to leave them alone. This is the third time something like this has happened.
-I have to drop two classes because I'm doing poorly in them from all the stress.
-I'm pushing people away again because of my social phobia, leaving myself all alone.
-I have uvulitis, which for several days cause a sore throat, which made it painful to eat.
-I had no appetite for an entire week, in which I ate less then half of what I usually eat.
-I have been dizzy for the past two weeks off and on.
-I had insomnia during spring break (still have sleeping issues now), along with stomach pains and chest pains.
-I tried to kill myself.
-I had three panic attacks at school, one of which I was taken away by 911 because I couldn't move.
-A person who I opened myself up to, the first time in a long time, when I was the most vulnerable told me they wouldn't abandon me. They did, telling me to leave them alone. This is the third time something like this has happened.
-I have to drop two classes because I'm doing poorly in them from all the stress.
-I'm pushing people away again because of my social phobia, leaving myself all alone.
-I have uvulitis, which for several days cause a sore throat, which made it painful to eat.
-I had no appetite for an entire week, in which I ate less then half of what I usually eat.
-I have been dizzy for the past two weeks off and on.
-I had insomnia during spring break (still have sleeping issues now), along with stomach pains and chest pains.
A lot of guys in here seem to be thinking a girlfriend make them happy, they will for a bit, but it's best that you're happy with yourself.
If you aren't happy with yourself? Buy some new clothes, exercise, take up a new hobby, build bridges with old friends, try to kick your habits, sort your life out! Anything can help your self confidence, if you don't like something about your life find a way to change it, don't get stuck in a rut.
It's been said already here, but once your happy with yourself and not worrying about looking for women/friends, they'll turn up.
If you aren't happy with yourself? Buy some new clothes, exercise, take up a new hobby, build bridges with old friends, try to kick your habits, sort your life out! Anything can help your self confidence, if you don't like something about your life find a way to change it, don't get stuck in a rut.
It's been said already here, but once your happy with yourself and not worrying about looking for women/friends, they'll turn up.
Jamesfrom818
Banned
I don't think they'll just turn up but I do agree that you should be happy with yourself before even attempting to look for a relationship. If you don't like yourself, how do you expect someone else to like you?
Well, lets see. My father died last month and i have no money to pay for the funeral. Hopefully the insurance money comes through or i am fucked. It was all pretty sudden so its still fucked my head up.
On the plus side, the Mrs is 9 months pregnant and we are having a daughter next monday (planned c-section)
On the plus side, the Mrs is 9 months pregnant and we are having a daughter next monday (planned c-section)
I run 2-3 miles every couple of days (I would do more, but knees get to sore)....I read more...I smoke and drink probably 1/4 as much as I was doing last year. My weight is down, though it was never really over 155 anyway..FFChris said:
That said, my outlook on life is generally as bad or worse than it has ever been. The problem with this sort of superficial self-improvement is that at the end of the day you're the same person. Just the same person with a few different habits. I guess it's nice that I'm living better, but at the same time the major problems I have don't seem any less serious or crippling.
You seem to be missing the part about new hobbies and reconnecting with friends. I don't think exercise is the answer to anything but obesity. Put yourself into a different environment. Find distractions, even if you don't like them at first. Without some kind fo change, nothing will change for the better. You could join a volunteer group. Assist at a local community center, take an elective class to learn a new skill. There are tons of productive activities that will better you as a person while also exposing you to new people and environments. The real key to improving your situation is creating perspective by putting yourself in a different situation.border said:
Girlfriends lead to wives, which lead to pending children (June), which leads to incredible stress about money / time commitments / lack of personal time / inlaws wanting to visit all the time / work concerns / etc etc.
And then knows what the heck life will be like with child, I'm sure I'll be a good dad, and do all that stuff Im supposed to, but its freaky as hell to know that in 2 months Im no longer a responsibility-free 'kid' (im 31) and will have life insurance (my first 'dealing' with my own demise :lol )
Its all catch 22, ALL OF IT!
And then knows what the heck life will be like with child, I'm sure I'll be a good dad, and do all that stuff Im supposed to, but its freaky as hell to know that in 2 months Im no longer a responsibility-free 'kid' (im 31) and will have life insurance (my first 'dealing' with my own demise :lol )
Its all catch 22, ALL OF IT!
My girlfriend who has been pretty much living with me dumped me.
My grandfather died.
This happened on my birthday.
So the day after my birthday, i was completely alone as my parents had flown to see my grandfather during his dying days, my gf left (she actually moved away which is why we broke up) and my best friend was on vacation.
I also got banned from gaf that day :lol
The worse part is that i'm not making this up.
My grandfather died.
This happened on my birthday.
So the day after my birthday, i was completely alone as my parents had flown to see my grandfather during his dying days, my gf left (she actually moved away which is why we broke up) and my best friend was on vacation.
I also got banned from gaf that day :lol
The worse part is that i'm not making this up.
I'm 24 and have no real friends. :\
I work and go to school but I haven't met anyone yet who I really gel with. Well there was this one girl at work but I fucked it up by falling in love with her. I'm kind of used to being alone growing up without siblings, but it wasn't until I met her that I realized just how truly lonely I felt. Before I was able to just get by always doing my own thing and keeping busy. But now I find myself depressed and drinking a lot.
I usually attract weird people as friends at school too, and I hate it. I'm a pretty normal person. I guess weirdos find it comforting to be around a normal person or something.
I'm a shy person by nature so I don't usually put forth that effort to reach out to peopple when I maybe could.
I work and go to school but I haven't met anyone yet who I really gel with. Well there was this one girl at work but I fucked it up by falling in love with her. I'm kind of used to being alone growing up without siblings, but it wasn't until I met her that I realized just how truly lonely I felt. Before I was able to just get by always doing my own thing and keeping busy. But now I find myself depressed and drinking a lot.
I usually attract weird people as friends at school too, and I hate it. I'm a pretty normal person. I guess weirdos find it comforting to be around a normal person or something.
I'm a shy person by nature so I don't usually put forth that effort to reach out to peopple when I maybe could.
JaseMath
Member
In between jobs and I need a job desperately. I've redid my website MrGroffcom - posted some new work, a new resumé, but no one has bitten yet. I have crazy bills that I can't pay and I'm freaking out, having panic attacks and having thoughts of my death. 
FML.
FML.
Lost my job over a month ago, but haven't put any effort into looking for a new one and probably won't for a while.
Will turn 30 at the end of the year and haven't done anything with my life at all. (Everyone my age from school is married, has children, moved to other parts of the country and have high paying jobs. I constantly think about what I could have done differently knowing full well I will never actually be able to change it.)
Still live at home with my parents while my three younger siblings have all moved on.
Never had a job that would even allow me to move out if I wanted to.
Don't even have any idea what I want to do, and I don't want to go to school for something I might not even want to do. Even my brother who is in culinary school is at the point he doesn't even think he wants it anymore. School is expensive and I'm not going to spend money I don't have to learn shit I don't care about. But even then, I don't even know what I want to do!
Haven't gotten laid in over 2 years, and then only twice in total. Both times half-sucked. (Though together, they add up to one kinda good time.)
I'm not social at all. None of my friends invite me anywhere to hang out, nor do they want to put in the effort to hang out with me. And I can't go out myself and hang out socially because I get horrible anxiety attacks.
I get depressed a lot.
My parents don't believe in me. I'm planning on going on a cross-country road trip to the opposite coast in September, which is a huge change for me. Something I would never do. But half my family doesn't think I have the guts to and it depresses me to the point I'm starting to get scared to do it.
I can't get a girlfriend for the life of me. Hell, I can't even get a date. Mainly because of my anxiety.
I can't even get a fat/ugly girl to go out with me, and the only girls I've ever been out with were overweight.
I keep a candle lit for a girl who broke my heart and I will never be with ever in a million years because she never said "no" rather she said "maybe". Which is pretty much a no. But I can't let go! Worse part is she isn't looking for anyone because she doesn't think anyone would find her attractive. But I don't have the confidence to actually take charge. Even if she said yes, I don't even know what I would do for our date, so I don't even try.
I also have trouble sleeping lately. If I go to bed at 10PM or so, I never sleep past 2AM. At which point I am unable to sleep until 6AM or 8AM then end up sleeping to 4 or 5PM and even then I'm still tired. Last night was the first and only real sleep night (8 hours) I've had in over a month.
I don't have debt because I don't have a credit card. And I don't have a credit card because I don't have credit. And I'm afraid if I get credit, I will spend too much thus causing me severe debt. I don't trust myself.
I've had three close friends come out to me. And once they did, the friendship never stays the same. Two males and a female. One was never expected. One was kind of expected and the last was hopefully not. (The female was the last.)
Every decision I make seems to end up the wrong one in the end. So I try to make opposite decisions, which in turn end up being the wrong decision once again. It's like I can't make any kind of life forwarding decision to advance myself because it ends up crashing down anyway. Hense my trip across country. A life changing trip would do me good, but as September quickly arrives I find myself more and more paranoid that something is going to prevent it from happening... once again. Sometimes I feel I'm self-destructive and am doing this to myself. Even subconsciously.
I'm not attractive. I wear glasses. But without glasses I look great. I tried to switch to contacts last year but learned that I didn't have the ability to put them in or take them out myself because I couldn't for the life of me consciously put my finger close enough to my eye surface to get them to stick. It took me two trips all the way to Yardley to learn this, then another trip to pick up the new glasses after I failed.
I don't even have unattractive women fawning over me. 6 years ago a girl showed interest in me, and I thought she was cute, but I was so xenophobic I ended up pushing her away even though she made every effort to get with me. I didn't realize this until 4 years later when I found notes she had left for me at work. (That I apparently suppressed in my mind) "Jason, you're cute! Have fun! <3" Completely devastated me. I now live day to day hoping for the same thing to happen again so I can act on it this time.
I once told another one of my friends whom I knew in early school but lost touch with for 13 years that I liked her. She's beautiful, but doesn't think so herself. I tried to get with her, but not knowing a thing about being a guy since I was a self-isolated xenophobe for 24 years, I failed. She was showing interest, but I blew it. We're still friends, but she doesn't make any effort to hang out with me anymore, and has gotten with a new boyfriend on and off for the last year and a half. Every time I turn around she's either "In a relationship" or "Single" again. She buys new pets to console herself. And all I want is to be friends again.
I've never kissed a girl. Not even the one I slept with. Except on the cheek. Which makes it more of a hook-up than a date.
In 1999 my dad talked me into a pyramid "Work at home web business" scheme. I spent a lot of my hard earned money to get nowhere. Last year my dad tried again before I said no. He and mom got into it and got friends into it. But I haven't heard anything about it in months. I'm pretty sure it was another failure and I'm glad I didn't go with it this time. But I wish they would stop getting suckered into those damn things!
In 2002 I broke my foot at work and had three months paid leave compensation. During those months my sister gave me the phone. A telemarketer had called for me, and of course I was half asleep and HOME and they made it sound like I was a winner, I ended up giving them my debit card number for subscriptions to magazines I never wanted. I cut them off multiple times, but they called all the time, even at work. Eventually we stopped answering the phone. When I cut them off I owed about $200 of the total I was supposed to pay. A couple years later (A few months ago) I got a call on my cell phone (I don't even give that out) from an unknown number. Usually I don't answer, but for some reason this time I did. Sure enough it was the collectors. They had decided in order to settle the whole thing they agreed to only charge me $80 of the $200 I owed. I just wanted it over with, so I let them have it. It's over. And I have learned never to let them in again. I'm just happy to know I don't have to worry about this biting me on the ass later on if and when I ever do get credit.
I applied to be a dispatcher for 911 in August of 2007. In the interim I quit my job at Kmart (Twice, the first time because of the unrequited love, second because Kmart sucks) and got a job at a supermarket. In January of 2008 I got paperwork asking me to come in an try out for the job. I blew it off because I lacked confidence and didn't think I could handle the multitask aspect of it causing loss of life so I stayed at my supermarket job, which in turn ended up disappearing a year later.
My brother was held up at gunpoint the other day in Philly because he decided to be a nice guy and take a female friend her iPod. They got his wallet (Complete with $9 cash and credit cards that were immediately deactivated) and a really nice phone. (Which was immediately deactivated) His college gave him a free hoodie for his trouble. Not that that has anything to do with me.
The only thing that keeps me going is the idea that when I turn 40, there will be other 40 year old desperate women out there who might actually go out with me and probably stay with me out of desperation, and I'm actually looking forward to it.
I keep thinking I should go to my parents church and sign up for a singles group to meet a girl. Who would probably withold sex until I marry her.
This isn't the first time I've put so much personal shit in a post on a forum full of complete strangers, and might not be the last either.
God, I typed too much.
Will turn 30 at the end of the year and haven't done anything with my life at all. (Everyone my age from school is married, has children, moved to other parts of the country and have high paying jobs. I constantly think about what I could have done differently knowing full well I will never actually be able to change it.)
Still live at home with my parents while my three younger siblings have all moved on.
Never had a job that would even allow me to move out if I wanted to.
Don't even have any idea what I want to do, and I don't want to go to school for something I might not even want to do. Even my brother who is in culinary school is at the point he doesn't even think he wants it anymore. School is expensive and I'm not going to spend money I don't have to learn shit I don't care about. But even then, I don't even know what I want to do!
Haven't gotten laid in over 2 years, and then only twice in total. Both times half-sucked. (Though together, they add up to one kinda good time.)
I'm not social at all. None of my friends invite me anywhere to hang out, nor do they want to put in the effort to hang out with me. And I can't go out myself and hang out socially because I get horrible anxiety attacks.
I get depressed a lot.
My parents don't believe in me. I'm planning on going on a cross-country road trip to the opposite coast in September, which is a huge change for me. Something I would never do. But half my family doesn't think I have the guts to and it depresses me to the point I'm starting to get scared to do it.
I can't get a girlfriend for the life of me. Hell, I can't even get a date. Mainly because of my anxiety.
I can't even get a fat/ugly girl to go out with me, and the only girls I've ever been out with were overweight.
I keep a candle lit for a girl who broke my heart and I will never be with ever in a million years because she never said "no" rather she said "maybe". Which is pretty much a no. But I can't let go! Worse part is she isn't looking for anyone because she doesn't think anyone would find her attractive. But I don't have the confidence to actually take charge. Even if she said yes, I don't even know what I would do for our date, so I don't even try.
I also have trouble sleeping lately. If I go to bed at 10PM or so, I never sleep past 2AM. At which point I am unable to sleep until 6AM or 8AM then end up sleeping to 4 or 5PM and even then I'm still tired. Last night was the first and only real sleep night (8 hours) I've had in over a month.
I don't have debt because I don't have a credit card. And I don't have a credit card because I don't have credit. And I'm afraid if I get credit, I will spend too much thus causing me severe debt. I don't trust myself.
I've had three close friends come out to me. And once they did, the friendship never stays the same. Two males and a female. One was never expected. One was kind of expected and the last was hopefully not. (The female was the last.)
Every decision I make seems to end up the wrong one in the end. So I try to make opposite decisions, which in turn end up being the wrong decision once again. It's like I can't make any kind of life forwarding decision to advance myself because it ends up crashing down anyway. Hense my trip across country. A life changing trip would do me good, but as September quickly arrives I find myself more and more paranoid that something is going to prevent it from happening... once again. Sometimes I feel I'm self-destructive and am doing this to myself. Even subconsciously.
I'm not attractive. I wear glasses. But without glasses I look great. I tried to switch to contacts last year but learned that I didn't have the ability to put them in or take them out myself because I couldn't for the life of me consciously put my finger close enough to my eye surface to get them to stick. It took me two trips all the way to Yardley to learn this, then another trip to pick up the new glasses after I failed.
I don't even have unattractive women fawning over me. 6 years ago a girl showed interest in me, and I thought she was cute, but I was so xenophobic I ended up pushing her away even though she made every effort to get with me. I didn't realize this until 4 years later when I found notes she had left for me at work. (That I apparently suppressed in my mind) "Jason, you're cute! Have fun! <3" Completely devastated me. I now live day to day hoping for the same thing to happen again so I can act on it this time.
I once told another one of my friends whom I knew in early school but lost touch with for 13 years that I liked her. She's beautiful, but doesn't think so herself. I tried to get with her, but not knowing a thing about being a guy since I was a self-isolated xenophobe for 24 years, I failed. She was showing interest, but I blew it. We're still friends, but she doesn't make any effort to hang out with me anymore, and has gotten with a new boyfriend on and off for the last year and a half. Every time I turn around she's either "In a relationship" or "Single" again. She buys new pets to console herself. And all I want is to be friends again.
I've never kissed a girl. Not even the one I slept with. Except on the cheek. Which makes it more of a hook-up than a date.
In 1999 my dad talked me into a pyramid "Work at home web business" scheme. I spent a lot of my hard earned money to get nowhere. Last year my dad tried again before I said no. He and mom got into it and got friends into it. But I haven't heard anything about it in months. I'm pretty sure it was another failure and I'm glad I didn't go with it this time. But I wish they would stop getting suckered into those damn things!
In 2002 I broke my foot at work and had three months paid leave compensation. During those months my sister gave me the phone. A telemarketer had called for me, and of course I was half asleep and HOME and they made it sound like I was a winner, I ended up giving them my debit card number for subscriptions to magazines I never wanted. I cut them off multiple times, but they called all the time, even at work. Eventually we stopped answering the phone. When I cut them off I owed about $200 of the total I was supposed to pay. A couple years later (A few months ago) I got a call on my cell phone (I don't even give that out) from an unknown number. Usually I don't answer, but for some reason this time I did. Sure enough it was the collectors. They had decided in order to settle the whole thing they agreed to only charge me $80 of the $200 I owed. I just wanted it over with, so I let them have it. It's over. And I have learned never to let them in again. I'm just happy to know I don't have to worry about this biting me on the ass later on if and when I ever do get credit.
I applied to be a dispatcher for 911 in August of 2007. In the interim I quit my job at Kmart (Twice, the first time because of the unrequited love, second because Kmart sucks) and got a job at a supermarket. In January of 2008 I got paperwork asking me to come in an try out for the job. I blew it off because I lacked confidence and didn't think I could handle the multitask aspect of it causing loss of life so I stayed at my supermarket job, which in turn ended up disappearing a year later.
My brother was held up at gunpoint the other day in Philly because he decided to be a nice guy and take a female friend her iPod. They got his wallet (Complete with $9 cash and credit cards that were immediately deactivated) and a really nice phone. (Which was immediately deactivated) His college gave him a free hoodie for his trouble. Not that that has anything to do with me.
The only thing that keeps me going is the idea that when I turn 40, there will be other 40 year old desperate women out there who might actually go out with me and probably stay with me out of desperation, and I'm actually looking forward to it.
I keep thinking I should go to my parents church and sign up for a singles group to meet a girl. Who would probably withold sex until I marry her.
This isn't the first time I've put so much personal shit in a post on a forum full of complete strangers, and might not be the last either.
God, I typed too much.
Jasoco said:
This is what sucks for me. I don't want to quit my job cause I need money (even though its shite) but I can't move out, which I feel would be a big boost for my social life.
I don't like the idea of rooming with some strangers though. Although maybe being that far out of my comfort zone would do wonders for me. I dunno.
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i have this requirement for one of my medical school classes to do 9 sessions of volunteering or shadowing in 'alternative' medical fields...i thought it was going to be due at the end of april (when we are finished with school), but apparently it is due today...and i have two more 3-4 hour sessions left. they gave me a 2 week extension though, and thankfully i have something lined up for wednesday. this came after pretty much nonstop frantic phone calling for the past 4 days. i have literally talked to 50+ people/groups about shadowing and volunteering, and this is the FIRST one that even made it seem possible to do on short notice. i never realized it would be so hard to volunteer on short notice.
the whole thing is stupid though, because while i'm in this 'alternative sites' track, others are on a straight shadowing track with a single preceptor, and i hear tons of anecdotal evidence that most of the preceptors are incredibly busy, and usually just sign off on all 9 shadowing sessions on the first visit. granted, i brought this upon myself by complacency, but to make this an important part of our passing requirement is stupid. there's no reason to try enforce a standard on something that is inherently so poorly standardized. ugh. well still, i brought it upon myself, and i'm glad that i should (hopefully) finish the requirement on wed after all this stress.
the whole thing is stupid though, because while i'm in this 'alternative sites' track, others are on a straight shadowing track with a single preceptor, and i hear tons of anecdotal evidence that most of the preceptors are incredibly busy, and usually just sign off on all 9 shadowing sessions on the first visit. granted, i brought this upon myself by complacency, but to make this an important part of our passing requirement is stupid. there's no reason to try enforce a standard on something that is inherently so poorly standardized. ugh. well still, i brought it upon myself, and i'm glad that i should (hopefully) finish the requirement on wed after all this stress.
JasonMCG said:In between jobs and I need a job desperately. I've redid my website MrGroffcom - posted some new work, a new resumé, but no one has bitten yet. I have crazy bills that I can't pay and I'm freaking out, having panic attacks and having thoughts of my death.
Really great stuff on your website man.
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