Let's talk about how awful our lives are and recent low points
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This is small in comparison to the rest of you, but venting is always good. I got into a car accident today and it's going to cost me about $1100 all told, plus whatever happens to my insurance premium next year. My savings is weeping, as is the next bonus check I get that will partially go toward replacing the sum withdrawn(My rule is that I have to put back more than I took, so I'll probably end up putting back $1200). My first accident in... uh... many years. =(
Freestyler
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My best friend of 23 years who I've been hooking up with for the last 8 of those years, suddenly decided he was straight and is now dating a girl that I've known and hated for 10 years.
To make it even better, we're not talking (me and the 'friend) - 23 years of amazing friendship completely written off. Haven't spoken to him or seen him in over a month.
But hey, things could be worse and I realise there's plenty of guys out there who aren't gonna give up on cock that easily.
To make it even better, we're not talking (me and the 'friend) - 23 years of amazing friendship completely written off. Haven't spoken to him or seen him in over a month.
But hey, things could be worse and I realise there's plenty of guys out there who aren't gonna give up on cock that easily.
BobFromPikeCreek
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Sad that this thread is bigger than the happy thread and it was made a week after.
evil solrac v3.0
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Danielsan said:
too young still, don't even worry about it yet.
I am incredibly stressed out right now. The next 3-4 months will decide the rest of my life and I'm only 17. I have so much work to do and I don't have a lot of social/emotional support from the people that are supposed to be there for me. I get really into my work and it's my fault for alienating people (especially my parents) due to all the stress I'm under but at the same time I kind of hate them for not taking more of an interest in me. I don't know. I get so confused sometimes but I think I'll achieve all my goals if I stay on course and work hard.
Lower your standards and stop caring so much what other people think.
Danielsan said:
Lower your standards and stop caring so much what other people think.
NaughtyCalibur
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I just made out with three different chicks at my campus. I don't even know who any of them were, but one tasted like strawberries.
Jamesfrom818
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NaughtyCalibur said:
Sorry to hear that you have herpes.
NaughtyCalibur said:
The happy thread is THAT WAY ---> http://www.neogaf.com/forum/showthread.php?t=355724
Freestyler
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NaughtyCalibur said:
Two of them are carriers of viral meningitis - keep an eye out for purple dots on your skin or a stiff neck.
speculawyer
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Well, a recent low point was seeing this picture in another thread . . . but now I at least get the joy of knowing others shared my awful experience. :lol
Well fuck: http://www.cnn.com/2009/US/weather/03/26/floods.north.dakota/index.html
That about sums it up. This shit is crazy, our house has flooded on several occasions in my life. I've spent all week working and haven't been able to help. I just stopped home to move my bed to higher ground, but that's not a lot of help.
I'm currently waiting for the IRS to process my tax return. I got married last year, to a Canadian citizen. She needs a Tax ID. The information we gave them for her wasn't good enough I guess, so now everything is on hold. Now they want her passport. Which she doesn't have. So we have to get her that. And then wait further.
And it's possible she's going to have to find a new place to live. The place she's at might be getting sold. It's month to month which is perfect since our immigration situation is up in the air. So we're going to have to try really hard to find her a similar place in a fairly short amount of time.
And I just got my car back with a $300 bill after being carless for a week.
It's not been a good couple of weeks. Fuck me.
That about sums it up. This shit is crazy, our house has flooded on several occasions in my life. I've spent all week working and haven't been able to help. I just stopped home to move my bed to higher ground, but that's not a lot of help.
I'm currently waiting for the IRS to process my tax return. I got married last year, to a Canadian citizen. She needs a Tax ID. The information we gave them for her wasn't good enough I guess, so now everything is on hold. Now they want her passport. Which she doesn't have. So we have to get her that. And then wait further.
And it's possible she's going to have to find a new place to live. The place she's at might be getting sold. It's month to month which is perfect since our immigration situation is up in the air. So we're going to have to try really hard to find her a similar place in a fairly short amount of time.
And I just got my car back with a $300 bill after being carless for a week.
It's not been a good couple of weeks. Fuck me.
xS1TH L0RDx
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DarkMage619 said:
Not every day you see a post like this on the internet. Thanks.
gnarkill bill
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I have a court date in mid April that im absolutely terrified about. Prior to last weekend I had never been arrested in my life, never handcuffed, never been to court, and its all because I have an extremely idiotic friend who just took his stupidity to the next level and got me into the whole freaking mess...I just happened to be in for the ride. Everything will probably end up ok but still the thought of being in a courtroom just really scares me.
Baron Doggystyle von Woof
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Marvie_3 said:I had $2000 stolen out of my bank account over the weekend. Got it back though.
I don't even have 2000
Actually i dont even have 200. I'm a poor ass.natethegreat409
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I backed into a parked brand new GMC Envoy yesterday. /facepalm
I'm finding that my life has pretty much sucked since High School ended. It's fucking sad how much I want to be 17 again.
-No social life whatsoever. My "friends" are all people I talk to online. The real life friends I had all seemed to forget about me though I spoke to one recently and apparently they thought I died. WTF?
-I can't remember the last time I met a single woman. Living in the suburbs is killing me in this area.
-No direction in life. The past 2 years has seen me try out several career paths only to quit on them within a couple of months.
-When I turn 22 in May, I'll have no health insurance to go along with an assload of health issues.
-Can't seem to find a job to save my life.
-No social life whatsoever. My "friends" are all people I talk to online. The real life friends I had all seemed to forget about me though I spoke to one recently and apparently they thought I died. WTF?
-I can't remember the last time I met a single woman. Living in the suburbs is killing me in this area.
-No direction in life. The past 2 years has seen me try out several career paths only to quit on them within a couple of months.
-When I turn 22 in May, I'll have no health insurance to go along with an assload of health issues.
-Can't seem to find a job to save my life.
I should be in panic mode right now, but I feel that everything will be ok...
- I have over $30k in credit card debt
- I work in real estate, and deals are falling through left and right. Either that, or I go from almost making $25k in one deal, to scraping by with $5k.
- My parents are pressuring me to both go to church, and settle for a shit salary job that will get in the way of my future.
- I'm in between two girls, and they are both messed up in the head since they are obsessed with other guys. One is my perfect soul mate that tells me she's too messed up to committ to anybody (8 months after the asshole abusive ex she still loves), and the other denies she likes my friend (others tell me she's obsessed), and she's always depressed about life.
Somehow, I haven't been this confident and satisfied in a while though. At least in the Girl-Age department I'm worn out so I don't give a damn anymore.
- I have over $30k in credit card debt
- I work in real estate, and deals are falling through left and right. Either that, or I go from almost making $25k in one deal, to scraping by with $5k.
- My parents are pressuring me to both go to church, and settle for a shit salary job that will get in the way of my future.
- I'm in between two girls, and they are both messed up in the head since they are obsessed with other guys. One is my perfect soul mate that tells me she's too messed up to committ to anybody (8 months after the asshole abusive ex she still loves), and the other denies she likes my friend (others tell me she's obsessed), and she's always depressed about life.
Somehow, I haven't been this confident and satisfied in a while though. At least in the Girl-Age department I'm worn out so I don't give a damn anymore.
Well, I guess I might as well vent and this is as good a place as any I suppose.
1. I hate my job for the first time since I graduated college. I think that maybe 1 other person I work with actually has a college education, my boss is significantly younger than me and doesn't really know how to manage. I guess this isn't really a big deal, I should be happy I have a job, it's just bothersome.
2. I moved from the coast back to my hometown because of a few reasons, like it's cheaper, I would be with my friends and family, etc. Now I am realizing that it may not have been the best idea in the world as my friends are no longer any fun. The low point came when I decided to throw a party and literally NO ONE came. That was good and depressing. A few years ago my house would have been literally packed.
3. This is the worst one. My GF of nearly 7 years is spiraling further and further into alcoholism. She is to the point where she is waking up and drinking everytime I see her in the morning, in the evening she will have been drinking for so long that she is basically incoherent and will just pass out randomly. Furthermore, she is gaining weight and I am starting to be completely not attracted to her anymore. It has been more well over a month since we have even had some semblance of sex.
4. My career path has hit a complete dead stop, I guess this ties into #1, but it just is depressing.
I am debating starting completely over and just joining the Air Force. I would at least enter as an officer, my goal would be either to be a helicopter pilot or an air traffic controller. At least then I would feel like I am doing something worthwhile.
1. I hate my job for the first time since I graduated college. I think that maybe 1 other person I work with actually has a college education, my boss is significantly younger than me and doesn't really know how to manage. I guess this isn't really a big deal, I should be happy I have a job, it's just bothersome.
2. I moved from the coast back to my hometown because of a few reasons, like it's cheaper, I would be with my friends and family, etc. Now I am realizing that it may not have been the best idea in the world as my friends are no longer any fun. The low point came when I decided to throw a party and literally NO ONE came. That was good and depressing. A few years ago my house would have been literally packed.
3. This is the worst one. My GF of nearly 7 years is spiraling further and further into alcoholism. She is to the point where she is waking up and drinking everytime I see her in the morning, in the evening she will have been drinking for so long that she is basically incoherent and will just pass out randomly. Furthermore, she is gaining weight and I am starting to be completely not attracted to her anymore. It has been more well over a month since we have even had some semblance of sex.
4. My career path has hit a complete dead stop, I guess this ties into #1, but it just is depressing.
I am debating starting completely over and just joining the Air Force. I would at least enter as an officer, my goal would be either to be a helicopter pilot or an air traffic controller. At least then I would feel like I am doing something worthwhile.
Chamber said:
I can relate to pretty much everything you wrote except replace high school with college.
The last point about jobs might apply to me within 6 months from now when my company will probably go belly up.
Seems like only people in their early 20s contribute to this thread.
And to those of you with job or g/fs, no matter how sucky the situation is: at least you have them.
I think I will.
This has been a pretty crappy week.
#1. Epic fail on trying to tap some ghetto booty. She was fly but the clever hood rat got me to spend $180 on a date that included dinner, drinks, clubbing, and no putang. Well played woman... well played. :^/
#2 My favorite woman in my stable (beautiful woman, great personality and sex) looked up into my eyes yesterday and said 'I want a relationship!' and I looked down and whispered 'No'. Followed by 3 hours of tears and emotional conversation. We are no longer dating. I really liked her to. I just can't commit to anyone right now.
#3 This beautiful lawyer I have been playing phone tag with in order to get a date wants nothing to do with me since I drunk dialed and texted her last weeekend. :-/ The ones that I really want always seem to get away.
#4 I rewatched the BSG finale with other girl that I am seeing and we got into a stupid argument that lasted until 5AM. >_<
This week has been horrible for me with women. I can't wait to go home drink some Red Stripe and play L4D and RE5 all weekend.
#1. Epic fail on trying to tap some ghetto booty. She was fly but the clever hood rat got me to spend $180 on a date that included dinner, drinks, clubbing, and no putang. Well played woman... well played. :^/
#2 My favorite woman in my stable (beautiful woman, great personality and sex) looked up into my eyes yesterday and said 'I want a relationship!' and I looked down and whispered 'No'. Followed by 3 hours of tears and emotional conversation. We are no longer dating.
I really liked her to. I just can't commit to anyone right now.#3 This beautiful lawyer I have been playing phone tag with in order to get a date wants nothing to do with me since I drunk dialed and texted her last weeekend. :-/ The ones that I really want always seem to get away.
#4 I rewatched the BSG finale with other girl that I am seeing and we got into a stupid argument that lasted until 5AM. >_<
This week has been horrible for me with women. I can't wait to go home drink some Red Stripe and play L4D and RE5 all weekend.
ElectricThunder
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Was told last night, as casually as you can possibly imagine..like "yeah, I got some milk at the gas station" casual...that my aunt died early yesterday afternoon.
You just don't do that shit, I mean, damn.
You just don't do that shit, I mean, damn.
Cimarron said:This has been a pretty crappy week.
#1. Epic fail on trying to tap some ghetto booty. She was fly but the clever hood rat got me to spend $180 on a date that included dinner, drinks, clubbing, and no putang. Well played woman... well played. :^/
#2 My favorite woman in my stable (beautiful woman, great personality and sex) looked up into my eyes yesterday and said 'I want a relationship!' and I looked down and whispered 'No'. Followed by 3 hours of tears and emotional conversation. We are no longer dating.
#3 This beautiful lawyer I have been playing phone tag with in order to get a date wants nothing to do with me since I drunk dialed and texted her last weeekend. :-/ The ones that I really want always seem to get away.
#4 I rewatched the BSG finale with other girl that I am seeing and we got into a stupid argument that lasted until 5AM. >_<
This week has been horrible for me with women. I can't wait to go home drink some Red Stripe and play L4D and RE5 all weekend.
At least something -anything- is happening in your life.
half a moon
Banned
No sympathies for troubles caused by being a player.Cimarron said:This has been a pretty crappy week.
#1. Epic fail on trying to tap some ghetto booty. She was fly but the clever hood rat got me to spend $180 on a date that included dinner, drinks, clubbing, and no putang. Well played woman... well played. :^/
#2 My favorite woman in my stable (beautiful woman, great personality and sex) looked up into my eyes yesterday and said 'I want a relationship!' and I looked down and whispered 'No'. Followed by 3 hours of tears and emotional conversation. We are no longer dating.
#3 This beautiful lawyer I have been playing phone tag with in order to get a date wants nothing to do with me since I drunk dialed and texted her last weeekend. :-/ The ones that I really want always seem to get away.
#4 I rewatched the BSG finale with other girl that I am seeing and we got into a stupid argument that lasted until 5AM. >_<
This week has been horrible for me with women. I can't wait to go home drink some Red Stripe and play L4D and RE5 all weekend.
I have OCD and plumbers just came and turned off my water to repair a leak. No water for the weekend. I also just cut back on my SSRI.
TIME TO STOCK UP ON WIPES & HAND SANITIZER. :lol
Other than that it's not so bad, no health problems at the moment thankfully. I'd rather have this than another surgery.
TIME TO STOCK UP ON WIPES & HAND SANITIZER. :lol
Other than that it's not so bad, no health problems at the moment thankfully. I'd rather have this than another surgery.
Scarecrow
Member
Whenever I'm having a awful day, I always take stock of everything that isn't going wrong and usually am cheered up. For instance, I know I'm a loser, but at least I have a grip of really good friends by my side. My vehicles are in great working order. I'm not sick. I've got a good stockpile of money for emergencies. I've got a secure job in this recession. Schools going fine. etc.
The point is that it's never as bad as it seems. Any low point in your life will make whatever is better seem that much more sweeter. Whenever you have a stack of problems, just take care of them one at a time. Be persistant. Be grateful.
The point is that it's never as bad as it seems. Any low point in your life will make whatever is better seem that much more sweeter. Whenever you have a stack of problems, just take care of them one at a time. Be persistant. Be grateful.
Scarecrow said:
True.
I've got a roof over my head.
I've got (half) a job.
I've got money in the bank.
My parents are alive.
I have at least 3 good friends.
My car runs (but needs oil changed).
That still doesn't stop me from wanting to throw a pity party where I'm the one attending this weekend. What's good music to listen to for when you just want to sit in a dark room, alone, crying, and drinking cheap wine. (Ok, maybe not crying)
Scarecrow
Member
You could always go onto Itunes radio, find a genre you like, and listen to a random internet radio station that plays that type of music. That's how I've found out some new music to listen to. Perhaps you might click on the "Ambiant" tab and try out "Limbik Frequencies" for some relaxing in the dark music.2DMention said:
~Devil Trigger~
In favor of setting Muslim women on fire
- Im a Illustrator/Cartoonist, working in an office/9-5/answer phone calls Boring.ASS.Job. I keep cuz i need the money.
- Money for my 20K college loan. For bills, bills, and whats left of a social life.
- women? LOL, my best shot the past 8 months tried to get me in to her church...
- My art soul is Fucked these days, can barely concentrate and draw something for more than an hour.
- my old college friends are still around, still talk, but hanggin out is a fuckin trip cuz Everybody is so fuckin busy trying not to Default on loans, drama with girlfriends, working on shitty schedules...
- and Hip Hop(fav genre of music) FUCKING SUCKS nowadays.
- Money for my 20K college loan. For bills, bills, and whats left of a social life.
- women? LOL, my best shot the past 8 months tried to get me in to her church...
- My art soul is Fucked these days, can barely concentrate and draw something for more than an hour.
- my old college friends are still around, still talk, but hanggin out is a fuckin trip cuz Everybody is so fuckin busy trying not to Default on loans, drama with girlfriends, working on shitty schedules...
- and Hip Hop(fav genre of music) FUCKING SUCKS nowadays.
This thread is so depressing.
I'm not horribly off by any means, but life could be better. School isn't going great, but bad either, just not doing as well as I wish I was. I have 1/2 of a social life (don't have tons of friends, but the ones I do have I do hang out with regularly, and talk to regularly), but the sad parts are that I don't have a job, and I really need one, because I need money, but every job I apply for (close to 50 in the past 2-3 weeks) yields nothing. no e-mails, or calls back. x_x.
And then there is my cousin. We used to be so awesomely close-tight until close to two years ago. It's always been really rocky because we'd have awesome times, but I'd always be used by him. It was cool because when things were good, they were great, but when they weren't I always felt sad. And he knew that, so he would pick a dumb reason to get mad at me to make me do something he wanted to do. Anyway, he got a job, and he has money now, which he lacked earlier in life, so he now has tons of girls hopping on his dick and he has tons of new friends, but doesn't have time for me anymore. Which is cool because it wasn't always good, but whenever I see him, I get sad, because I wish I wouldn't have wasted so much time on him, and I could be living that life. Instead, I spent so much time with my 'best friend', that I totally ignored tons of people so I could continue to do things for him and hang out.
I'd be so much more socially developed if it weren't for only hanging around one person for a period in time. And now that he has effectively dropped me, I have a hard time trying to get close to people without fear of being dropped again and wasting time. I really wish I could just rewind 10 years and do everything different, but then I wouldn't have learned all this early on in life. I'm really depressed writing this right now, but I'll be fine once I finally get a job, so I don't have to spend so much time worrying about stuff I need to pay for, and school will be out for the summer soon, so I can focus on developing myself socially, and I'll be able to go to bars and pick up girls soon too (21 in Oct), so this should be a relatively good year if I can just get some form of employment soon.
And like someone else said, cheer up people, life could be tons worse! At least we're all living, have somewhere to live, and (hopefully) are trying to get ourselves back on track.
I'm not horribly off by any means, but life could be better. School isn't going great, but bad either, just not doing as well as I wish I was. I have 1/2 of a social life (don't have tons of friends, but the ones I do have I do hang out with regularly, and talk to regularly), but the sad parts are that I don't have a job, and I really need one, because I need money, but every job I apply for (close to 50 in the past 2-3 weeks) yields nothing. no e-mails, or calls back. x_x.
And then there is my cousin. We used to be so awesomely close-tight until close to two years ago. It's always been really rocky because we'd have awesome times, but I'd always be used by him. It was cool because when things were good, they were great, but when they weren't I always felt sad. And he knew that, so he would pick a dumb reason to get mad at me to make me do something he wanted to do. Anyway, he got a job, and he has money now, which he lacked earlier in life, so he now has tons of girls hopping on his dick and he has tons of new friends, but doesn't have time for me anymore. Which is cool because it wasn't always good, but whenever I see him, I get sad, because I wish I wouldn't have wasted so much time on him, and I could be living that life. Instead, I spent so much time with my 'best friend', that I totally ignored tons of people so I could continue to do things for him and hang out.
I'd be so much more socially developed if it weren't for only hanging around one person for a period in time. And now that he has effectively dropped me, I have a hard time trying to get close to people without fear of being dropped again and wasting time. I really wish I could just rewind 10 years and do everything different, but then I wouldn't have learned all this early on in life. I'm really depressed writing this right now, but I'll be fine once I finally get a job, so I don't have to spend so much time worrying about stuff I need to pay for, and school will be out for the summer soon, so I can focus on developing myself socially, and I'll be able to go to bars and pick up girls soon too (21 in Oct), so this should be a relatively good year if I can just get some form of employment soon.
And like someone else said, cheer up people, life could be tons worse! At least we're all living, have somewhere to live, and (hopefully) are trying to get ourselves back on track.
Jamesfrom818
Banned
DMeisterJ said:
Don't wait for callbacks. Be assertive.
Got this bombshell email yesterday:
HI TO YOU CAN YOU LOOK IN ON KITTY? WE WILL BE GONE FRI-SAT - SUN. DO YOU KNOW THAT YOUR MOM IS MOVING IN WITH JAIME IN ABOUT A MONTH? SHE WILL BE HOME LESS, BAD DEAL FOR SURE. DAD
Christ, we all agreed she had to hit rock bottom herself after twenty years of denial, failed interventions and sucking everyone down in a melodramatic pit of despair with her, now my sister apparently is taking my mother in with promises she going quit cold turkey by herself after 25 some years of alcohol and drug abuse. This is going to get ugly. I cant believe her boyfriend is taking this too well, last time he met her she was threatening to end her life so he broke her window to get in and she started hitting on him. Ugh I dont think she can get SS until 62, two more years, by then my sister will be insane.
HI TO YOU CAN YOU LOOK IN ON KITTY? WE WILL BE GONE FRI-SAT - SUN. DO YOU KNOW THAT YOUR MOM IS MOVING IN WITH JAIME IN ABOUT A MONTH? SHE WILL BE HOME LESS, BAD DEAL FOR SURE. DAD
Christ, we all agreed she had to hit rock bottom herself after twenty years of denial, failed interventions and sucking everyone down in a melodramatic pit of despair with her, now my sister apparently is taking my mother in with promises she going quit cold turkey by herself after 25 some years of alcohol and drug abuse. This is going to get ugly. I cant believe her boyfriend is taking this too well, last time he met her she was threatening to end her life so he broke her window to get in and she started hitting on him. Ugh I dont think she can get SS until 62, two more years, by then my sister will be insane.
Witchfinder General
punched Wheelchair Mike
~Devil Trigger~ said:
When I used to work in a bank and in retail I was exactly like you. My art suffered deeply due to having my creativity crushed my a thankless 9-5 office job. I quit all that to get a Uni degree and get my art back on track. Now I'm halfway through my degree, I have focus and my art has improved.
I'm free.
You need to quit and follow your dreams. Don't regret on your deathbed.
hydragonwarrior
Member
Let's see...
1) I'm unemployed (living on my own tho, cool roommates)
2) I can never seem to talk to new people normally enough to get and keep some sort of bond going - so as of now my social life is fucked (the socially ineptness with ppl my age is due to high school harassment (only asian guy in all white school in country side + 5 years + only friend who turned out to be real POS) although thanks to waitering for a good 10 years I'm completely comfortable with talking to ppl 10+ years older lol
because of this, I only land aquaintances but haven't had any luck with friendship - to be honest, I think i've forgotten what it's like to have one lol
3) uni i just ended up keeping up the isolation - but no racist jackasses so it's good; but hearing ppl having fun at night vs me stuck playing quake 3 to drown that out or doing hmk was torture
and the expectation I kept hearing that I should be "having a blast on Fri/Sat nights" just made myself feel even more shitty
4) rarely got invited to a party or somethin fun thanks to 2
5) thanks to 2 again, finding a girl at a bar or club just isn't happening for me (and I've tried going solo several times - usually end up standing there being self conscious); funny thing is that being a virgin isn't what bothers me - it's the lack of a sexual outlet and that's masterbation which I don't like doin much anymore anyway (leaves me completely tired).
6) finished a badminton tournament yesterday but staying in the same level (I ended up losing that one game that could have lead me to moving up a rank). Nearly stubbed my toe on the tree I was kicking lol
7) stuck playing an mmo (Ragnarok Online) that's my current "keep me happy" base although I knoew it's a waste of time, and even more so it's detrimental because the time waster prevents me from doing things that could kind of help 1 to 6
8) i keep waking up at 4 freaking pm in the afternoon which messes up my eating schedule (thanks to 7 i sleep at like 6 am - last night I went to sleep at 9 am lol)
9) Another needle treatment for keloid on my chest next month *ugh*
Aight, i'm all emo'd out... But man, it feels good to get that all off my chest lol
1) I'm unemployed (living on my own tho, cool roommates)
2) I can never seem to talk to new people normally enough to get and keep some sort of bond going - so as of now my social life is fucked (the socially ineptness with ppl my age is due to high school harassment (only asian guy in all white school in country side + 5 years + only friend who turned out to be real POS) although thanks to waitering for a good 10 years I'm completely comfortable with talking to ppl 10+ years older lol
because of this, I only land aquaintances but haven't had any luck with friendship - to be honest, I think i've forgotten what it's like to have one lol
3) uni i just ended up keeping up the isolation - but no racist jackasses so it's good; but hearing ppl having fun at night vs me stuck playing quake 3 to drown that out or doing hmk was torture
and the expectation I kept hearing that I should be "having a blast on Fri/Sat nights" just made myself feel even more shitty
4) rarely got invited to a party or somethin fun thanks to 2
5) thanks to 2 again, finding a girl at a bar or club just isn't happening for me (and I've tried going solo several times - usually end up standing there being self conscious); funny thing is that being a virgin isn't what bothers me - it's the lack of a sexual outlet and that's masterbation which I don't like doin much anymore anyway (leaves me completely tired).
6) finished a badminton tournament yesterday but staying in the same level (I ended up losing that one game that could have lead me to moving up a rank). Nearly stubbed my toe on the tree I was kicking lol
7) stuck playing an mmo (Ragnarok Online) that's my current "keep me happy" base although I knoew it's a waste of time, and even more so it's detrimental because the time waster prevents me from doing things that could kind of help 1 to 6
8) i keep waking up at 4 freaking pm in the afternoon which messes up my eating schedule (thanks to 7 i sleep at like 6 am - last night I went to sleep at 9 am lol)
9) Another needle treatment for keloid on my chest next month *ugh*
Aight, i'm all emo'd out... But man, it feels good to get that all off my chest lol
border said:
Quoted for Truth. This is actually a big misconception.
Reality check: Good things don't automatically happen to people who deserve it.
If you want something, make it happen. Don't sit around feeling sorry for yourself, hoping God or karma or whatever is going to fulfill your every wish. And if you don't know how to fix it, at least try to better yourself. Anything is better than living a lethargic life.
I'm 28 and I'm talking from experience here. The last few months of my life sucked, but at least things were happening.
Also:
Pink Floyd" said:
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