I'm making some amends to people right now. I'm feeling hopeless and I don't think I need to go any further but I think you know where I'm headed.
It's both due to my finances, living situation and health. Sorry but that's how it is and it sucks.
(I'm saying how I feel not necessarily action)
Nah, man, it's not all that bad. I like your posts. Maybe just stay off the net for a bit. At least social media. I'm thinking of doing the same. Deleting FB already. Orwell was right, we don't want to live in a society like this, but it's our choice what our life is really like.
One of my most inspiring quotes, is by Buddha, "It is your mind that creates this world."
Doesn't matter who you are, a believer, an NPC, a conspiracy theorist, an atheist, a flu bro, a failure, a winner, (or a loser like me too!) you can find peace in this life.
The birds are alive outside my window, the sun is shining, I know I can say prayers and make amends too. I can practice meditation, I can read. I know there are people in the world like me, better people too, we're not lost, we can only be found, it just takes time.
Edit: I saw your other posts about how serious it's gotten for you. Sorry then, I guess as you're dealing with all that, just know that life can change for the good in an instant.