I tried. I failed. My posts about it are here somewhere in this thread. But you know what, I can't even be bothered to find and link them. I don't care anymore. It doesn't matter. Nothing matters. Forget about it.
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I spent most of my life with 0 friends. In elementry school I spent a lot of time in the bathrooms or on the playground doing not much, in middle school I'd just walk around or do nothing and in high school I would do laps around my school because there was no one I could really talk to. Friendly with, sure, friends, not so much. I definetly understand how you feel.
My junior year I was lucky enough to find a pretty good two friends which I only grew closer to as time went by. We ended up going to different colleges (they went to mine but dropped out after 1 and 2 semesters, respectively). I was incredibly lucky to take a super intro physics course and be stuck with a group of four that would later become my housemates and friends. Without them it'd be too much to handle, slowly slipping away from those I care about.
I guess what I'm saying is it's actually more about luck than anything else. There are good people who want someone like you to chill with, I guarantee it. If you put yourself out there for long enough you will find at least one friend, and to be honest thats all you need. More helps, a relationship helps as well, but you don't need those things, just one person who you can actually talk to and chill with.
If you live in or near ABQ I'd love to have a beer with you (so to speak), but if not there are others elsewhere that can be equally helpfull. It'll never be easy but you can't give up.
Stay strong <3
Haha... I wish there was anonymous posting.
There is, sort of... the anonymous confessions thread in November. I've posted in them for as long as I've been on GAF, one year with something happy, another with something not so much. Probably not the best place for anything too heavy, as the people in the thread are looking for shock posts.
Honestly here is probably the best place, everyone in here is messed up some way, either mentally or physically. Also there's PM's which are anonymous for everyone but two parties, and a chat, although I'm not sure how busy that is. I'm always available for. PM, as are many in this thread. You can check the first OP for that info.
Whatever you have to say I'm sure there are people on this board who have gone through simmilar circumstances, so it can't hurt.
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Hey y'all. An update, even if you don't know or remember me.😃
I've been doing amazingly well the last 6 weeks on a combination of medication, my doctor, psychiatrist and therapist. Everything is going according to plan. I am a transgirl, so because my team and I agree I am in a very good and solid place mentally, I am going to sign the informed consent forms for hrt, or hormone therapy. I will begin transitioning physically now, and I am so excited! I don't know if that's appropriate for here... but that is necessary for my physical and mental well-being overall and obviously will always be an ongoing process. Life long , but that's okay. I will be fine.
I know you all will be too.
I know I didn't make many posts here, but when I did, I always got the help and support I needed, and for that, thank you all.
Damn, you go girl! I'm so glad to hear that, good news is always welcome here, cause there's never enough.
Also identity issues I'm sure are welcome here. They cause a lot of people a lot of pain because of the confusion they cause within yourself for a while, and the way you are treated by society.
If you ever have something to post about, negative or positive, about being transgender or anything else, you're always welcome here, at least that's my opinnion : p