Femmeworth
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Messaged another person on a dating site, don't think my first attempt is going to go anywhere.
Mental Health |OT| Depression & Co.
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Hey DepGAF, it's stat/name101 from the IRC chat here.
You guys have really helped me over the last week. Helped getting stuff out of the way especially the anxiety which strikes and always gets worse like a snowball rolling down a hill.
Anyone up for possibly forming a DepGAF crew for GTAV (360)?
You guys have really helped me over the last week. Helped getting stuff out of the way especially the anxiety which strikes and always gets worse like a snowball rolling down a hill.
Anyone up for possibly forming a DepGAF crew for GTAV (360)?
GTA online is depressing
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wants to fuck an Asian grill.
Have you tried counseling? Would be good for a few weeks to gauge if you need meds. I have been going for the last 4 weeks and my doubts that I needed meds have been reinforced; the counseling works well enough on its own for me. You might be the same.
ClassyPenguin
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What if you never found it in the first place? I don't think you can lose what you don't have.
It's been a shit day for me too.
It's been a shit day for me too.
Gonna miss a test AND a lab tomorrow as I somehow got a fucking throat infection that is kicking my ass around the block and back right now. Fuck my fucking worthless life. I feel pathetic. Pathetic for getting sick, pathetic for missing a test and lab, pathetic for attending school when I probably shouldn't be, pathetic just because I am pathetic. I want to curl up into a ball and just forget the world and die or something. I don't know. I don't know what I want anymore.
User 100115
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Bagels: Finally was able to listen to the podcast, and you guys did amazing, I loved it.
njean777
Member
Just keep at it. It may take awhile, but eventually you will get a date.
We are looking to get more gaming going. I think FillerB made a post in our Steam group with some ideas. We've done several games of Cards Against Humanity, which has been great fun. It's a fun way to get to know people in mumble.
More suggestions are always welcome!
velociraptor
Junior Member
I don't know what to do with my life.
Help.
Help.
Speaking of which, what's the Steam group name? I don't see it listed in the OP, although it might just be me not paying attention.
Hey there. Do you want to tell us about it?
We're here, in IRC, and on Steam. Let us know what we can do.
velociraptor
Junior Member
It's probably pointless for me to try and apply to any old job - because after a year of trying, it's gotten me no where. My degree is in Biomedical Science and I've decided the best course of action is further study into a career where I can use this underlying science.
In the UK, we have an exam which goes alongside your application. It's called the UKCAT. I did pretty well thankfully but I've got a choice, apply to medical school or dental school.
I really don't know what to do.
I realise this post sounds incredibly stupid. But seriously, I don't know what to do.
Freeza Under The Shower
Member
since you will basically be doing a public service paid for by the state (the NHO is state-funded, right?), you could also 'solve' this by asking which your country or relative area needs more.
If you want straight up money (in another country), dental. But I suspect dental is sort of boring compared to the many different things you could come across in medical school.
note that I know absolutely nothing about either field in practice.
Out of Working Order
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Thanks everyone. Counselling sounds the most appealing, if any is to be.
I am still working up to that myself. The more you do it the easier and less bothersome it should be, though.
Here's a great paper discussing more or less every aspect of drug therapy for anxiety:
BIG LONG TITLE BUT IT'S OKAY
Table 5 has side effects for more or less every type of drug you'd see used, if you start looking under table 6, you can see what has been shown to work acutely and in the long-term for individual anxiety disorders. There's some discussion of psychotherapy, too, but this paper is mainly about the meds.
This is the kind of stuff you'll find on the @depressionGAF twitter, which we're trying to use a little more to link articles and news. Unlike my personal twitter, you will find zero discussion of my fear of sharks, penis jokes, or jokes about my fear of shark penises. We keep the official account focused.
BIG LONG TITLE BUT IT'S OKAY
Table 5 has side effects for more or less every type of drug you'd see used, if you start looking under table 6, you can see what has been shown to work acutely and in the long-term for individual anxiety disorders. There's some discussion of psychotherapy, too, but this paper is mainly about the meds.
This is the kind of stuff you'll find on the @depressionGAF twitter, which we're trying to use a little more to link articles and news. Unlike my personal twitter, you will find zero discussion of my fear of sharks, penis jokes, or jokes about my fear of shark penises. We keep the official account focused.
What was the dose and how fast are you stepping it down? I think the main thing is to go as slowly as you can. Cut pills in halves and thirds if you need to.
An important detail to note here is his fear of shark penises. Multiple. Because sharks got two of them. Luckily without dickcheese.
What is there to go nope about?
I was on 40, now at 20, next week 10, then alternating between 10 and nothing the next week. Might this be too fast? I've been on them about 8 months but seems like I'm screwed either way: on them I was tired, ground my teeth when asleep and had loads of vivid dreams and off them it's the same minus the tooth grinding but with added mood swings and weird occasional shudders. Very frustrating.
Yeah - it's so hard when it isn't the med for you. You have all the effects of the illness, plus coming off the drug. Try going a step slower. 20->15 for a week, then 10, then 5. That's about the best you can do. 40 ->20, cutting the dose in half right away, is a big change, you know?
Everything. =/ I am just so apathetic today.
=( Maybe decorating and recoloring your clam will help cheer you up a bit.
Maybe Prax will give me a pretty bow on top? ._.
Bel Marduk
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You don't seem to eat much.. have you tried protein shakes or something like that? I've had that problem before and it definitely aids in feeling physically/emotionally terrible.
Femmeworth
Banned
I had three hard boiled eggs from the university food court. If I never post again, you know what happened to me.
Charles Foster Kane
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Femmeworth
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I have been burping them up, so this is how it ends.
I think I preferred overdosing on caffeine pills.
Taking my protein shake (2-3 scoops of the powder + milk) usually ends with me sitting on the toilet for a while... :/
Collete
Member
I had it somewhere along my life....
Think i'm just too far gone.
I just don't think I was meant to be born in this time period.
Please tell me you called. It's someone from outside your normal life to talk to.
I didn't call. Therapy session went okay enough today even though it started off seeming like it wouldn't. I am just wondering for future reference. I dunno how many times I have the number dialed but never hit send because I'm worried they'll only be there to track my location and send the police to take me to a hospital... sometimes I just want someone to talk to.
smokeandmirrors
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I know getting off my ass and losing a few pounds (then 80) will make a huge difference in my life, but I just can't ever get the motivation to :/ it's a fucking awful cycle of wanting to, being motivated, and.... just not doing anything for some reason. Gah.
I'll let you know.
Today was good. Tonight was fucking terrible.
I went to the counseling services of my college to look into some long-term therapy since I haven't talked to anyone since January. The psychologist who did my intake was super nice and understanding and made me feel comfortable and hopeful that this was a good step.
At night I had an assignment due at 9:40 and because I'm dumb and first sent the email to the wrong place, I didn't get it in until two minutes later. So naturally I freaked out like hell and started crying. Then my sister came in and got mad at me because I wasn't taking her advice (which was basically: "Undue all the shit you got from our parents about making mistakes and feel better this instant!") and made me feel worse. She got mad because apparently I'm not working hard enough to feel better and then made it about herself saying I'm impossible to talk to because I never follow her advice or don't know how to respond. Her response to me crying and feeling bad was "Yeah well, what are you going to do about it right now?" Again and again.
I went to the counseling services of my college to look into some long-term therapy since I haven't talked to anyone since January. The psychologist who did my intake was super nice and understanding and made me feel comfortable and hopeful that this was a good step.
At night I had an assignment due at 9:40 and because I'm dumb and first sent the email to the wrong place, I didn't get it in until two minutes later. So naturally I freaked out like hell and started crying. Then my sister came in and got mad at me because I wasn't taking her advice (which was basically: "Undue all the shit you got from our parents about making mistakes and feel better this instant!") and made me feel worse. She got mad because apparently I'm not working hard enough to feel better and then made it about herself saying I'm impossible to talk to because I never follow her advice or don't know how to respond. Her response to me crying and feeling bad was "Yeah well, what are you going to do about it right now?" Again and again.
Velcro Fly
Member
Feeling euphoric today because of Pokemon leaks and realizing I was actually able to transfer pokemon from Heart Gold/Pearl to Black or Black 2. Really dumb but I get excited about game stuff from time to time. It used to be WoW which explains why I was addicted to that game so hard for so long. I found myself a few times today getting up and walking around for no reason other than having a ton of energy. I wish I had a gym membership. Going to be up all night since I slept for 12 hours the night before.
Been a rough go lately. Leaves and weather changing reminds me of how much I miss being in school.
Been a rough go lately. Leaves and weather changing reminds me of how much I miss being in school.
Femmeworth
Banned
I was just lying there, in the early morning, trying to sleep. My feet were tingling. My ass was throbbing. My legs were burning. And then, just seconds later, everything shifted. Now my elbows were tingling. Ass continued to throb, in time with my heartbeat. Back started to stab, over and over. I couldn't take it anymore, felt the tears starting. Barged into the bathroom, sat down in front of the toilet, just stared at it. Grabbed its sides. Big, wracking sobs. It doesn't matter. There's no one around to witness this. No matter who is in my life at any given moment, this is the most alone I've ever felt.
Moved into the kitchen, desperately opened my cabinet. What would help? Nine containers of drugs. No one should have this many fucking drugs in their kitchen cabinet. I just stare at them, incoherent, making sounds that shouldn't be coming from anything living. Took a muscle relaxant, gave serious thought to taking everything at once. Time stopped. Closed the cabinet, time resumed, but at a snail's pace. It will be a very long morning, the hours will stretch out. And then it will repeat.
In the day, I'm the one laughing, joking, trying to make my friends feel better, trying to make my family feel better. I'm the one who is sitting there on the examination table, trying to make my doctor feel better because she feels like she's failed me. When the sun lowers, when all the expectations have been met, this is who I really am, where I'm really at. And there is no one who can make me feel better.
Moved into the kitchen, desperately opened my cabinet. What would help? Nine containers of drugs. No one should have this many fucking drugs in their kitchen cabinet. I just stare at them, incoherent, making sounds that shouldn't be coming from anything living. Took a muscle relaxant, gave serious thought to taking everything at once. Time stopped. Closed the cabinet, time resumed, but at a snail's pace. It will be a very long morning, the hours will stretch out. And then it will repeat.
In the day, I'm the one laughing, joking, trying to make my friends feel better, trying to make my family feel better. I'm the one who is sitting there on the examination table, trying to make my doctor feel better because she feels like she's failed me. When the sun lowers, when all the expectations have been met, this is who I really am, where I'm really at. And there is no one who can make me feel better.
Damn your feelings about it, we're going to try cheer you up any way.
Hah. If they try that put on your best British accent and put the scallywags in their place. Deny you entree? We shall see about that!
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