Share a little secret about yourself, and make it sexual :-)

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I don't want to be alive.

I also hate my face so much that I try to claw my skin off or burn it with chemicals.

These kind of posts scare me. If you really feel that way you should seek help. What's the worst that can happen? I obviously don't know your situation and I hope you don't mind me saying this, but things can always get better, but it's sometimes hard to see.

How does that work?
I don't actually respond to my own remarks, but it's like talking to an invisible mute person I guess.

I'm sure it's because I've always been alone (I don't really care for the company of others much) and a person needs to have an outlet of some kind. This is mine.
 
The girl that I like, who knows I like her, treats me like shit sometimes and for some reason that makes me like her a bit more. She also texts me almost everyday. I don't get her.
 
Venting is what we are here for. No problems mate. Shoot a PM if you wanna talk about it.

Things may have been coming on a silver plate because you have deserved it. You seem like a nice guy and seem to be handling stuff well.

Although, try to find something to do to ease your mind of this girl and to minimize the instagram-looks. You are perfectly off without her and she is the loser here.

Thanks guy. I did make a thread about it a while ago before White Man rule came into effect, and I don't feel like reviving it just yet, lol. If the offer is still open in a night or two, I might shoot you a PM then if you don't mind a rambling tale of my beta-ness.

To be honest, my project car is what keeps me sane, using mindless tasks to clear my brain and give me inner peace, but since I made the mistake of investing hopes and dreams into it before I confirmed it would drive again no matter the time and cost, it now sits in limbo because the frame might be utterly rusted through. Won't know until my uncle's contact can swing by and take a look at the car in the driveway.
 
I once saw an unconscious (maybe dead) person lying on the ground. I was shocked and walked away quickly. Didn't say anything to anyone... I still feel guilty...
 
I once saw an unconscious (maybe dead) person lying on the ground. I was shocked and walked away quickly. Didn't say anything to anyone... I still feel guilty...

I don't like admitting it, but I would propably do the same if I were in that situation. Hey, you never know if it's the patient zero in a zombie virus outbreak and when you go try to see if the person is okay he/she suddenly lungs at you.
 
Talking with people that I don't know makes me extremely nervous and every second of it is pure agony. Calling some place like a bank for example requires at least an hour of trying to prepare myself, sometimes I can't make my words come out. It's very annoying.
 
It was called "T.U.R.K.S.," if I recall correctly. Specialized in Turk fanfiction, which, as you can imagine, is a niche of a niche. :D

It's been defunct since the early 2000s, though. I don't think it exists at all now. Farewell, sweet Turk fanfiction!


Secret #2:

My own fanfiction on this topic is still online and is 47,899 words apparently. *_* That's about 180 page novel...?

wowowow i think i remember that place??? vaguely :O i used to frequent ff7 fansites back when... haha ... there were a few places that fans clustered at.... man, nostalgia *__*

.... no no no now you have to tell me this fanfiction of yours :O which pairing? :O does it involve ... whathisface the red-haired turk guy? Reno?
 
I'm 28 and I constantly fantasize about having super-powers and fighting demons and stuff like that. I think I do this because I always had trouble falling asleep because of anxiety, so thinking about stuff like this makes me feel more relaxed somehow.
 
Talking with people that I don't know makes me extremely nervous and every second of it is pure agony. Calling some place like a bank for example requires at least an hour of trying to prepare myself, sometimes I can't make my words come out. It's very annoying.
I'm a very sociable person, but I fall apart on the phone, don't know what it is, there's just something really awkward about it. I don't have too many problems if it's something like calling the bank because I was forced to get over business calls when I did IT work, but I will avoid any other type of phone conversation like the plague. I'm perfectly fine on Skype though.
 
I often wonder if it's "okay" to be a friendless yet content shut-in. Without personal contact with other people, am I really "living life"?
 
I used to write fanfiction. Erotic fanfiction.

I used to steal a bunch of crap like Hot Wheels or Yugioh cards from Walmart when I was young. Now I work there. -__-

I like crappy B movies more than most of Hollywood's offerings.

I'm quite shy irl.

I refer to myself in third person whenever I'm alone.
 
I talk to myself when I'm alone. More of a way to just organize my thoughts aloud.

I used to swipe Yu Gi Oh, Pokemon, and Magic cards from stores when I was a kid.
 
I fart on my kittens head at every possible opportunity.
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Second secret: I'm a hermit / recluse at heart.

At work I act normally and nobody suspects anything, but outside of work I prefer to spend my time completely away from other people. You know...meditating in the park, exercising, taking spontaneous vacations...that kind of thing. It's like the moment I leave work I disappear and people have a hard time getting in touch with me.

I've seriously considered permanently becoming a female monk / nun in a Buddhist monastery...to the point where I even took a couple of years off from normal life to become one on a trial basis. Something stopped me from fully committing...but I'll always have that core inside me.



I also have dreams of building a cabin in the middle of the forest and living off of nature, returning to the world of the living once every year for supplies. Maybe I'll make it happen one day.
 
Second secret: I'm a hermit / recluse at heart.

At work I act normally and nobody suspects anything, but outside of work I prefer to spend my time completely away from other people. You know...meditating in the park, exercising, taking spontaneous vacations...that kind of thing. It's like the moment I leave work I disappear and people have a hard time getting in touch with me.

I've seriously considered permanently becoming a female monk / nun in a Buddhist monastery...to the point where I even took a couple of years off from normal life to become one on a trial basis. Something stopped me from fully committing...but I'll always have that core inside me.



I also have dreams of building a cabin in the middle of the forest and living off of nature, returning to the world of the living once every year for supplies. Maybe I'll make it happen one day.

Sounds fun, but i'd miss technology too much i.e. the internet
 
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