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[Fatghost]

I have never done any drugs. Never even tried smoking.

 

[Amir0x]

oh amir0x, I'm sorry to hear about that. And I like you too. I'm sorry for many of us in this thread, not in a pitying way, but because life is hard and people rarely speak honestly about it. Even when they do on the internet it's usually in an extremely uncomfortable way...but this thread has been pretty moving.

I know what you mean. Internet can be awkward. I mean, that one dude said he had a 9 1/2 inch cock! That shit is nuts and awkward!

But more seriously, we all go through the hard times. So I guess this thread is neat in that way, opens the air.

There sure is a lot of excessive masturbation up in this joint, though. I'm pretty sure it won't make you blind so get back to it.

Hahaha. Well, old habits die hard. Gotta cut back sometime!

DEMI FACTOR FO LYFE, of course.

Word, yo.

 

[snaildog]

- This is because my last girlfriend committed suicide, and soured me on the whole relationship thing!

I'm generally pretty dead to random people's problems on the internet, but my mouth dropped open at that one. Damn that sucks mate, hope you move on soon.

 

[Tommie Hu$tle]

I used to think Alyssa was just another "dude looks like a lady" account, but if the mods say otherwise, I'll let it slide.

Not that it's a secret but,

1. I used to date Alyssa a long time ago.

2. I was the one who invited Alyssa to the forum simply becasue I knew exactly what reaction she would bring to the forum.

 

[Alyssa Hu$tle]

What the hell, this thread is upside down...

u-huh.

pfft it was bound to happen and you know it.
Girl + Sass = eventual ban here in GAFland

Oh, is that what happened??

That makes no sense at all though. She might've been enjoying the thread too much but that's not ban-worthy. Did she do something in another thread?

I don't think so.

?! Man, that ban stick has a mind of its own sometimes.

It appears so.

…-What the hell happened?

I dunno!

Confession: I miss Alyssa.

ohhhhh *kisses*

the banstick works in mysterious ways

Sure does!

- The mods have a tighter leash than my ex who had a fetish for tight leashes.

:lol

Yay Alyssa's unbanned

Ohhhh, *more kisses*

(puts away pitchfork)

*kisses* for you too!

That's a good point, but I think a lot of the hate is unwarranted. Like people actually hating me for my avatar? I mean it's funny for a while and such, but look at some of the things people write (i.e. Foreign Jackass's post). At that point, I believe it's getting out of hand and that these people need to control themselves, they're acting like little kids.

Hate isn't cool, but poking fun is great. There's a difference there. Don't tell me you come to GAF partly because of people hating on each other. It's one thing to watch, but when it's people hating *you* it makes GAF much more unpleasant, especially when you try to play the better man hoping that maybe, just maybe, people would grow up.

Well said Miyuru. You hit the nail on the head.

Ahhh, it's good to be back!

*scratches head, wondering what I did wrong*

 

[Alyssa Hu$tle]

I never made the accusation that you were being patronising....

Oh I know Honey, I was just rambelling on! I was on a roll last night wasn't I? lol

 

[Alyssa Hu$tle]

Not that it's a secret but,

1. I used to date Alyssa a long time ago.

We did more than date Baby!

2. I was the one who invited Alyssa to the forum simply becasue I knew exactly what reaction she would bring to the forum.

Yeah, and you were right Hon, I sure have caused a stir haven't I?

 

[Lambtron]

If I happen to meet people I know exclusively online "in real life," I make them guess my handle. Which is to say, impossible. My reasoning is that I really loathe people referring to others by screen names outside of the context of the Internet. It's not nerdy, it's just really, really, fucking awkward. This isn't the damned Matrix.

A-fucking-men. I met a ton of DDR people and it was the most awkward fucking shit ever. I was called "Lambtron" or "Lammy" incessently for years. Oddly enough, the one guy who never called me it, and the one guy who only calls me it (only because he knows it gets under my skin) are the only people from that group I still hang out with. And I'm pretty close with them. Shit, I like my name. It's Zack. They could've just called me Zack.

I'll add more stuff:

- I feel that most pornography is pretty vulgar and disusting (and fucking unsexy, what's sexy about ass cream pies?), but holy shit, I'm finding myself really enjoying "tasteful" porn. "Porn aimed at straight women" seems to be the best bet. I also love finding the most outlandish, ridiculous porn in order to ridicule it in groups. It's pretty much way more fun than sitting there with a tissue in one hand and yr cack in the other. Usually.

- I hate "male" smells, and do my goddammnedest to avoid them. I use cucumber green tea Dove body wash, Fruit Fusions (I'm too lazy to go look it up) shampoo, and coconut lime hand lotion, and unscented deodorant so I don't cover up the good smells. I like smelling pretty. Axe, Touch, et al. smell like a swarthy car dealer.

- I try so hard to act like I don't give a fuck, but really, secretly, deep inside, I hope people like me. I don't change to get them to like me, but I really hope they do.

- I'm extremely sensitive and scared of confrontation.

- My parents think they've raised me wrong because I support gay rights and am pro-choice.

- My cousin told me that if I'm not going to have kids (which I'm fucking not, I'm not giving up my life), I should join the priesthood. Rofl. I wonder if buttsex jokes go over well at a seminary.

- I find 95% of women guys refer to as "hot" horriffically unattractive. When I see a fake-baked girl with cropped bleach blonde hair, I can ignore everything, and start to find more shit I really dislike about their face. Awesome.

- I could never, ever have sex without being in a loving committed relationship. I'm a one-partner-ever kinda boy.

- I'm too scared to e-mail the Wrens, even though Jerry likes me.

- I wish I was cool.

 

[Zaptruder]

i'm far more sick than anyone knows

You're going to die in a few years right?

That's why you act the way you do, with the attitude of taking the most out of life, before it gives up on you. Well you're a pretty good guy for it... and if its any condolence, you've done more experienced more in your shortish life than most people do in their longer lives.

 

[Boogie]

Fact: I lost my virginity to an escort last night. Prior to that, I've never had a sexual experience -- never even kissed a woman.

(I just turned 30 today.)

*steps back from crystal ball, crying*

- I'm 20 years old, and I've only had sex with 2 girls.

only? You think that a "shocking" revelation? I should slap you.

I really don't hate anyone on here, though I try and feign it. Well, Cyan and Boogie with their militant centrism (Read: Devotion to the Middle) occasionally get on their nerves. Perhaps it might be fault because I view centrism as nothing more than a thought sprung by people who are disillusioned by politics, yet still want to be involved in the thick of "things". Therefore they castigate both sides in an attempt to stay above the fray, which in the end, puts them at the same level as the rest of us.

Then again, I think Cyan and Boogie are cool posters, militant centrism aside.

:lol militant centrism. I like it.

But I'd rather think of it as Not Being An Ideologically-Driven Fucktard.

Or maybe Always Being Right j/k

 

[Companion Cube]

I just ate a whole lot of grapes. When someone asks what happened to all of it, I'm going to lie about it, laugh, and then run away.

 

[Ollie Pooch]

and then shit yourself a few hours later

 

[Ill Saint]

- I wish I was cool.

Anyone who listens to Merzbow and Dalek is pretty fuckin' cool in my books...

 

[Alyssa Hu$tle]

Confession: Tommie Hu$tle was the greatest lover I have ever had in my life.
*sighs*

 

[Gattsu25]

- I feel I am depressed but try my best to never show it
- As a result of this I act different to how I feel in most situations
- The only time I ever feel like smiling is when a funny joke is told...despite this, I smile a lot
- I have never puked due to intoxication...am I missing out?
- Random thoughts of ways my actions can kill me sometimes dawn on me at the worst times
- Someone close to me recently suffered a third mental breakdown...a particularly bloody one that I witnessed ...I can't treat the person the same anymore because I'm reminded of the act whenever I see their hands

 

[Boogie]

okay, I'll actually contribute a confession.

I've never actually been in a "real" fight in my life.

 

[cvxfreak]

- I don't eat vegetables, although I've made progress.
- I religiously collected Pokemon cards in the 6th grade.
- I circulated a petition that overruled my power-hungry principal. WHEE.
- My mom called the police on me because I was REALLY pissed off.
- I was potty trained relatively late (5).
- Before 2004, everytime I meet a new person in real life, I assume the worst. (He/she is a pedophile, has raped a dog, or is a serial killer.)

 

[Mupepe]

Confession: Tommie Hu$tle was the greatest lover I have ever had in my life.
*sighs*

Watching Tommie Hu$stle and Alyssa DeJour was the greatest 5 seconds of my life. Poor Tommie.

 

[Gattsu25]

Meh...some more:
- I disagree with televangelists and atheists equally
- I used to masturbate a few times a week a few years ago...then down to maybe once a month...I haven't since I started going back to college
- I hate needles. No really. I needed 4 nurses to hold me down to get shots for high school.
- I can't hold a grudge
- I'm half white and half black but (maybe a little more than) mildy racist against whites
- I lost my virginity when I was 12 then went on to not having a single relationship until I was 20
- When I moved to Florida I immitated everyone I heard with a southern accent
- I now have a southern accent and hate it
- I almost never curse in real life
- Most of my friends don't even know I play games...none know about GAF
- I hate DnD yet like Bioware games. I also like reading mediaval fantasy

 

[Rlan]

- I try so hard to act like I don't give a fuck, but really, secretly, deep inside, I hope people like me. I don't change to get them to like me, but I really hope they do.

I get the feeling that most people who try and pull this BS are more prone to people suggestions than anyone else. not the best example, but every single year of Big Brother Australia that has been on, half of the contestants come in claiming "I do my own thing, I don't care what other people say, rah rah rah". a couple of hours later the same people are going "Wah wah nobody likes me".

Seriously, some of the best ways to better yourself is to listen to someone else. Take their opinion, see if you agree or not, and give it a think.

 

[Alyssa Hu$tle]

Watching Tommie Hu$stle and Alyssa DeJour was the greatest 5 seconds of my life. Poor Tommie.

Yeah, well it’s not his fault that is dick is so big that when he turned around it knocked you in the head and you were knocked unconscious.

Pity. You missed a great show.

 

[B'z-chan]

I'm a worthless pathetic excuse for a human being if there ever was one.

Oh and i'm a loser in the game of everything of life.

 

[Gattsu25]

okay, I'll actually contribute a confession.

I've never actually been in a "real" fight in my life.

heh...fights...

- My first fight was against a friend...I lost pitifully
- My next fight was against some kid from detroit...I lost miserably
- I was picked on when I was younger by this one kid
- My third fight was against him...I won.
- I continued to fight him after he stopped fighting back and vowed never to fight someone till they bleed again
- My next fight was against my brother...I elbowed him repeatedly and injured his back...yet STILL lost
- My next "fight" was against a kid I used to talk to in high school who one day decided to (both) go goth and racist/redneck. He shoved me, I shoved back, he fell down, I walked away disappointed.
- I haven't fought since

 

[Tommie Hu$tle]

*Comfession*

It wasn't the sex that made me a great lover.

 

[BigZep]

*Comfession*

It wasn't the sex that made me a great lover.

you guys got a sextape?

 

[Rei_Toei]

Heh, Tommie, I've got the book in which your avatar was published . You know who she is?

 

[Mupepe]

-I lost my virginity at a month before I turned 16, and I've had 14 partners... I just turned 19 a few days ago. It makes me feel really slutty sometimes, so I try not to tell people because I think they'll judge me.

-I used to hide my gaming addiction in High School and after High School I said fuck all of them and I play all the time now.

-I do not hate Himuro. He's one of my best friends ever and has always been there for me. JUST SO YOU KNOW!

-When I had girlfriends in High School, I never let them know how big of a nerd I was. A lot of people thought I was really crazy and did all sorts of drugs and partied. This stupid perception of me ruined most relationships. When girls found out how dorky I really was it usually ended right there. Good riddens I say.

-The only time I've ever seriously thought about suicide was the time between the only two women I've ever loved. The first girl was my best friend/lover and I took it for granted. She moved to another city and got depressed. I shrugged it off and got in a fight with her and told her to "just leave me alone." She killed herself a few days later and I never got the chance to say I was sorry. I meant a lot more to her than I thought and now that I know that I want to die when I think that those were the last words I said to her. Especially since I didn't mean it in the least. The second woman is my wife now. She saved my life.

-Most of my guy friends that have never been in love get weirded out when I try to explain being in love with my wife. The people who can't understand the complexity of love are the ones who have never really experienced it. Screw you guys, I know I'm a pussy. :lol

-I once had to use some of daughters wipies because I ran out of toilet paper. I smelled fresh obviously.

-I ordered a 28 inch pizza today, 50 slices, from Mina's Pizza off of Richmond Ave. It was fucking delicious, there's still 44 slices at home. Get this, 20 bucks bitches.... side confession: I work for Pizza Hut :lol

-I hate people who give me shit because I work at an evil corporation, "teh evul Halliburton." (Pizza Hut is a weekend job.)

-I can't watch porn if it doesn't have penetration, seriously, what's the point??? :X

 

[Mupepe]

Yeah, well it’s not his fault that is dick is so big that when he turned around it knocked you in the head and you were knocked unconscious.

Pity. You missed a great show.

I know. =( But how does your butthole feel after that night? :lol

 

[Tommie Hu$tle]

Heh, Tommie, I've got the book in which your avatar was published . You know who she is?

I have no clue but she sure does have a nice pussy.

 

[Rei_Toei]

She's called Birgit Schuurman in case you'd ever want to look it up .

 

[Gattsu25]

quickie before I goto sleep:

- Before I post anything here, I read it. Then re-read it. Then, depending on my mood I either correct or destroy the grammar, add correct punctuation or remove all punctuation entirely, as well as correct spelling or add numerous spelling mistakes. I then remove the insults or inflamitory remarks that I feel are too strong (I do this in the majority of my posts) and re-read the post again. Then I update the thread and see if anything new has been posted and modify my post accordingly. Many times, I consider whether or not what I was going to post is anything that I feel REALLY needs to be said and totally scrap my post at the last minute.

I didn't do any of the above with this post and it shows

- Oh, and people that meet me when I'm tired *ALWAYS* assume I'm on drugs

 

[Mupepe]

- Before I post anything here, I read it. Then re-read it. Then, depending on my mood I either correct or destroy the grammar, add correct punctuation or remove all punctuation entirely, as well as correct spelling or add numerous spelling mistakes. I then remove the insults or inflamitory remarks that I feel are too strong (I do this in the majority of my posts) and re-read the post again. Then I update the thread and see if anything new has been posted and modify my post accordingly. Many times, I consider whether or not what I was going to post is anything that I feel REALLY needs to be said and totally scrap my post at the last minute.

I do this too

 

[shuri]

I really think that the forum is going down in quality of posts, or maybe I'm just beginning to realise that I care less and less about intarweb things nowadays. I barely visit the gaming section of the forum, because I can't tolerate the crap being argued about there anymore.

 

[Chrono]

- I don't have the guts to confess anything serious here. A few other people's confessions apply to me but there are many things nobody even came close to mentioning. Another reason I don't want to write everything on my mind here is that...

- I'm sick of thinking about myself and stuff that happened. Whatever. I'll just continue doing what I'm doing and one day I'll just die and it's over.

- Every time I post in a thread I wonder if I killed the thread. I refresh until somebody posts after me and then feel relieved.

- I just paid over $150 for a used copy of Valkyrie Profile on eBay.

 

[Companion Cube]

I just paid over $150 for a used copy of Valkyrie Profile on eBay.

Ooh I saw that! I was thinkin "this dude is nuts!"

 

[MC Safety]

We did more than date Baby!


Yeah, and you were right Hon, I sure have caused a stir haven't I?

Awwww. How cute. Here's some more attention!

 

[Mupepe]

Last confession...

On the other forum, all my posts have something to do with sex.

 

[etiolate]

There's very little to zero connection to my insecurities to my postings.

*doubletake*

 

[J2 Cool]

Alright, went through this thread. Honest, good stuff. Anyway.. let's go



- Penis.

- Mine is up to 7 inches long. Fine by me. I always somehow expect to measure it and realize I did it wrong before. 7 is pretty good. My height is just under 5'7".

- My real problem comes in experience. I'm not a virgin. Lost that a year ago, at 17. It wasn't the most impressive outing ever. I'd say 3 minutes, she'd say 1. Point is, it wasn't perfect.

- Before sex, everything else I was real good at. Fingering, Oral I was a fucking dentist, or something more exotic and alluring. I don't know. Tooth Fairy? Tongue Fairy..

- I have a problem not being sarcastic.. It may be because I'm bored and entertain myself. I think so anyway. When I try and get to know someone or impress someone though, I am at like 10% of myself. I feel like I'm under pressure to get someone to like me.

- Vagina.

- Back to the sexual thing though. I think I had sex 3-4 times. Not sure. It was with my one and only (ex)gf. I don't find that sad, but I can't stand to hear her name. It just annoys me. But I had the quick problem that many times. 3 I believe. I find I'm harder before I get to the act too. Likely because my fear. If I nail one time, I'm sure thing would be a hell of a lot better from a sexual standpoint. Think it's all in the breathing. Havent been able to test that though. The thing is, that was a year ago. We weren't going out at the time, and after that, things got weird. I mean, who would come back if it wasn't good sex? I also didn't pop her cherry. Rumor was it might have popped earlier. I felt bad about that also, but I never went deep, it hurt her too much.

- Last summer we stopped talking, because she wanted to hang out with her friends and another guy, who ended up eating out his first girl(not her) while she was interested in him. She never let me hang out with her friends though, as I wasn't as cool or interesting as them, though she didn't know who I was ever because I always tried to please her. I didn't know who I was. A first gf mistake. I seen her but once last summer after she began hanging out with lots of friends, to pick up my computer and stuff from her house once I moved to my new one. She asked "you're not going to stay awhile?" and I said ".... no". As it was, she tried to make me swallow crap on some new guy who became her next bf. Told me he sent her pictures of his "goods", 7-8 inches or whatever. She had his picture and told me her friends want to bang him. I hated that.

- I felt real alone for awhile. I spent a year living next door to my gf from another town at that time. 16 years in my hometown, left for that year. I didn't make friends really because I was too involved in her. I was able todraw though, in class, and it really drove me to push that. When I left though, she went on to friends and a new bf, and I had to pick up the pieces. I moved back to my hometown for senior year. At some point, I really came into my own, had a lot of fun, got to know myself, and kicked ass in some classes. I got to tell a storybook style story about a hooker in a study about rebellion with a sub. Drew it all out Penny-Arcade style and such. Just stuff to crack people up. Got a B+ on it, with the negatives being a little inappropriate, but I was proud I could send the class into a riot, and only broke character snl style for a minute. Had to turn the teacher's chair I used for the class to gather around, towards the wall as I laughed. But I mean, I tried stuff for myself, had a ball, etc.

- I had some girls who liked me but I was scared with the whole sex thing. I need someone who'll give me as many goes as I need to practice... Alyssa, Waychel, L...

- I sometimes checked myspace for my ex's name, out of interest. So absorbed in every part of her life before, I'd get an urge to check. She had +'s and -'s on her likes/dislikes. I seen she loved sex and that made me feel bad. Don't know why it's such a sore spot.

- Contact meanwhile with the ex, went from a every couple days online, once a week, once every 2, once a month, 2, 4... She doesn't know who I am even anymore, and I'm pretty proud of that. Anyway, talked to her on AIM 2 days ago though, she contacted me. She asked me if I'd ever let her see me stupid catch up. Still with this guy for a year now. She's asked me before and I avoided it. I told her not likely this time. She asked me why and I explained how I haven't been one to surround myself with people I don't think of as friends. Told her I tried a year ago to be her friend and she treated me like shit, that I don't want it. She's apologized months back, earlier in the year. She said maybe I'd change my mind if I knew her now but she's really sorry for then. I can't do much else with that, I told her I'd think about it. Then she told me I don't have to if I don't want to. Personally don't want to think about it though. I've forgiven her, the past is long gone, but I don't see where to start a friendship, why, or how. it got me flustered enough to loose my yahoo pool match moments after I ended the conversation the best I could.

- I really want a nice and simple relationship. The girl who liked my Mac & Cheese shirt would do just fine but I was frozen with that.

- I met one girl in high school who I could have fallen in love with easy. She was taller than me, which sucked. 5'7" sucks. Seriously. But she was so weird. I loved it. She wasn't the prettiest perfect girl, but she was gorgeous to me. She didnt have the most toned body though it wasn't bad, but her smile and face.. I was just more alive around her. Maybe the most pure relationship I had with a girl too. Nice as could be.. or maybe just open as could be. I seen her mad, ecstatic, embarassed.. But she was so direct with each emotion. I adored her. Sure never to find one exactly like her either. But we hung out in 2 classes everyday. Did projects together, spent a day at the art show together. In fact.. that was the closest to love I got. I was so open too. I could make her laugh without being at 10% of myself. She smoked weed, told me, she and I should smoke together. I laughed, didn't smoke myself, didn't hold it against her she did. But I mean, it was amazing. I went to this art award show and she was at the door. Seen me driving around for a parking spot 3 times and started laughing. Made my own upon noticing her, and went up to her and some other people who were really cool. Just joked and laughed and joked. We went inside for the awards but mostly to walk around and chill. In fact, we ended up ditching the award show with 2 others, to go sit outside. Eventually though, she told me she had to go find her bf. I knew she had a bf but for a moment I fell in unknowingly without labels of gf's and bf's. Stung a bit that day, before I knew I really liked her. The rest of the year was just fun though. I adored how she voted for my piece in the art show as well, but not without reasoning. She convinced me it stood out even though I knew it was among the best. Another day, she had no Id on cinco de mayo which our school was celebrating, so I had to get her tacos at school. So I do, and tell my buddy I had to sneak em out. Used a teacher who I knew who said she's grab some tinfoil from her room. Then she's in the hallway when I walk out and I mouth "WTF!? Those are your tacos". So she catches up to me and we're laughing hysterically as we get it back to the computer class. So stupid and pointless but it was so oddly fun at the time. She still had her boyfriend though till the end of the year, who had her pissed on a couple of occasions. I knew I had enough emotional tugs with a girl to last years so I let her go. She knew I liked her Im pretty sure, as it was obvious. She gave me her prom picture and wrote "I'm gonna miss our weird ass conversations" on it. I've never regretted anything either, as it was all just good memories. Hope I'll meet her again one day, but if I can live like that for everything in my life, for the innocent and fun, I'm sure I'd be happy.

Now for the quickies...

- I worry about my discipline with the pencil. I've always been a bad writer, and somehow through much practice I've become a decent artist. Still, my line quality mirrors my writing discipline, and I don't know if it's futile to go to an art school for animation. You have to draw very clean to do so, and I just can't. Every artist I know has a beautiful signature also. I sometimes fear that I can't become what they are, for the simple fact that I've written for 18 years of my life, and practice hasn't change my lines.

- I've never driven into the city or on the expressway by myself. Doing so Saturday to go to Wizard World Comic Con hopefully. If I got balls, a brain, and a ticket anyway. I imagine it could be great knowledge for a future art career.

- I'm incredibly annoyed by my best friend. I can't help it. I think because he's an elitist. He tries to be as responsible and moral and adult as possible, but it really gets under the skin becuase he does it out of pure... I don't know! Like, he calls The Real World stupid and he'd never watch it, citing they don't have any real problems. Not that he does, at least outside the ones he takes on for 'responsibility anyway'. Obviously missed last week too. Not to mention sometimes stupid is just funny. Why take everything serious if you don't have to? He also won't play GTA, because he doesn't get the appeal. How can you without picking the controller up? He constantly tells me I need a job, when I make $50 a week for 1 day and am just fine. He seeks out responsibility and does it to feel adult. I have more required responsibility without question, and I take care of it all. But I don't know. He doesn't mention what you do do, just what you don't. Not to mention, the fucker won't watch Monster! Tried to tell me it's predictable, though it's only cause he asked me to explain the plot and I reluctantly did for the 1st 5 episodes. But anyway. It's just back and forth bicker, think his ego gets in the way, or his self image. Try taking a train the wrong way just because your friend responsibly wants to 'stick to his guns'. Yikes. He has a good side though. :lol

- I feel like I need to shave my legs and ass, and lift weights regularly. I don't want to feel the hair come back though, or see my family's reaction if they see me in shorts. I've been known to have hairy legs though in gym class. Waste up though, the chest isn't bad or nothing. I just don't see a demand out there though for hair on a guy's leg or ass though.

- Speaking of family. I can't stand talking to a girl in front of them. Especially meeting one out of the blue and casual talking before I get her number... Because they're watching

- I pray. I don't force my views onto anyone. I'm very introspective when it comes to religion. I want any conversation between me and god my words, not processed. But usually I thank him for a good day. For the possibilites each day brings, and that I'm priviliged enough to experience stuff and grow each day. I'm thankful for my family, today, tomorrow, etc. I believe if someone gave me the possibility to make any impact on this world, I should thank him for the sacrifices he made to grant me that much.

- Days switch off from when I go to bed. One day I feel like I accomplished a ton, and I wouldn't be the same without this day. Another meanwhile, not a thing changed. Usually, the majority thankfully I feel like things changed. About 20-25% of the days are a bit wasted. I'd like to bring it down to 10-15%. Excited about art college, given there I'll be studying what I love nearly everyday.

- The last chance I had at sex I turned down, because I was pissed at my ex for ditching plans with me for a big friends get together. She didn't want me with. I dont regret it I don't think.

- I really liked Lindsay Lohan at her peak

- I liked Kelly Clarkson's smile and ass. But why did she go blonde? :-/

- Holla back girl was great for the first 7 times.

- I spend a lot of time going in and out of characters around home. See how well I could play them. The quick spoken asshole, the italian idiot, Bill Murray in Stripes, and all my favorite comedians.

- I had a decent looking girl who wanted to have sex with me, a cute girl who wanted to be with me, and a good friend who like me, and a girl I didn't much like physically who asked me to prom. I pretty much lost all of em after high school, though cause I think I was hung on the girl I could have easily fell in love with from earlier. I wasn't into a fuck buddy though, didn't like the good friend the same way, and wasn't eager enough to make the moves on the other. If I don't get a fanclub in college though, I'll be sad. Those were some cool chicks. I'm gonna miss them.

- When I throw up, my balls hurt. Don't know what it means. I'm really freaked out about testicular cancer also.

- I want to spice up my conversations with some people more but I reserve my words. Like one girl looked HOT outside a pool hall, came in, and I knew her. Wasn't as hot up close. Wanted to tell her "You looked hot out there before I knew it was you" but couldnt. She still was kinda hot.. She's kind of nice, kind of an elitist. I hope her niceness wins one day.

- I try to keep good spirited in any humor. So easy to go the asshole route. And there are some funny assholes, but I don't. Missing out on some Gold. For the better sometimes though. I mean, I truly like to make people feel good however.

- Boobs.

- I have no idea how to rank the frat pack. They all rock. Will Ferrell, Owen Wilson, Vince Vaughn, Jack Black... How do you seperate that in order?!

- WTF?!? This is long!

 

[etiolate]

I just realized I have a weird fear.

I am very afraid of being someone's best man. I just don't want to be put in charge of throwing a bacheleor's party. Would I do the whole beer and strippers routine? Is that something I am ok with doing? Is that something a friend of mine would even want? If not that, then what do you do? Movies? That's kind of lame. I just don't want that responsobility.

 

[Companion Cube]

When I throw up, my balls hurt. Don't know what it means. I'm really freaked out about testicular cancer also.

You might want to get that checked, they're trying to escape.

"You know, you're starting to be a jackass." My dad told me that when I was 13 or something. I've been the most self-conscious person in the world ever since then.

Someone needs to get a blog.

 

[pollo]

Alright, went through this thread. Honest, good stuff. Anyway.. let's go



- Penis.

- Mine is up to 7 inches long. Fine by me. I always somehow expect to measure it and realize I did it wrong before. 7 is pretty good. My height is just under 5'7".

- My real problem comes in experience. I'm not a virgin. Lost that a year ago, at 17. It wasn't the most impressive outing ever. I'd say 3 minutes, she'd say 1. Point is, it wasn't perfect.

- Before sex, everything else I was real good at. Fingering, Oral I was a fucking dentist, or something more exotic and alluring. I don't know. Tooth Fairy? Tongue Fairy..

- I have a problem not being sarcastic.. It may be because I'm bored and entertain myself. I think so anyway. When I try and get to know someone or impress someone though, I am at like 10% of myself. I feel like I'm under pressure to get someone to like me.

- Vagina.

- Back to the sexual thing though. I think I had sex 3-4 times. Not sure. It was with my one and only (ex)gf. I don't find that sad, but I can't stand to hear her name. It just annoys me. But I had the quick problem that many times. 3 I believe. I find I'm harder before I get to the act too. Likely because my fear. If I nail one time, I'm sure thing would be a hell of a lot better from a sexual standpoint. Think it's all in the breathing. Havent been able to test that though. The thing is, that was a year ago. We weren't going out at the time, and after that, things got weird. I mean, who would come back if it wasn't good sex? I also didn't pop her cherry. Rumor was it might have popped earlier. I felt bad about that also, but I never went deep, it hurt her too much.

- Last summer we stopped talking, because she wanted to hang out with her friends and another guy, who ended up eating out his first girl(not her) while she was interested in him. She never let me hang out with her friends though, as I wasn't as cool or interesting as them, though she didn't know who I was ever because I always tried to please her. I didn't know who I was. A first gf mistake. I seen her but once last summer after she began hanging out with lots of friends, to pick up my computer and stuff from her house once I moved to my new one. She asked "you're not going to stay awhile?" and I said ".... no". As it was, she tried to make me swallow crap on some new guy who became her next bf. Told me he sent her pictures of his "goods", 7-8 inches or whatever. She had his picture and told me her friends want to bang him. I hated that.

- I felt real alone for awhile. I spent a year living next door to my gf from another town at that time. 16 years in my hometown, left for that year. I didn't make friends really because I was too involved in her. I was able todraw though, in class, and it really drove me to push that. When I left though, she went on to friends and a new bf, and I had to pick up the pieces. I moved back to my hometown for senior year. At some point, I really came into my own, had a lot of fun, got to know myself, and kicked ass in some classes. I got to tell a storybook style story about a hooker in a study about rebellion with a sub. Drew it all out Penny-Arcade style and such. Just stuff to crack people up. Got a B+ on it, with the negatives being a little inappropriate, but I was proud I could send the class into a riot, and only broke character snl style for a minute. Had to turn the teacher's chair I used for the class to gather around, towards the wall as I laughed. But I mean, I tried stuff for myself, had a ball, etc.

- I had some girls who liked me but I was scared with the whole sex thing. I need someone who'll give me as many goes as I need to practice... Alyssa, Waychel, L...

- I sometimes checked myspace for my ex's name, out of interest. So absorbed in every part of her life before, I'd get an urge to check. She had +'s and -'s on her likes/dislikes. I seen she loved sex and that made me feel bad. Don't know why it's such a sore spot.

- Contact meanwhile with the ex, went from a every couple days online, once a week, once every 2, once a month, 2, 4... She doesn't know who I am even anymore, and I'm pretty proud of that. Anyway, talked to her on AIM 2 days ago though, she contacted me. She asked me if I'd ever let her see me stupid catch up. Still with this guy for a year now. She's asked me before and I avoided it. I told her not likely this time. She asked me why and I explained how I haven't been one to surround myself with people I don't think of as friends. Told her I tried a year ago to be her friend and she treated me like shit, that I don't want it. She's apologized months back, earlier in the year. She said maybe I'd change my mind if I knew her now but she's really sorry for then. I can't do much else with that, I told her I'd think about it. Then she told me I don't have to if I don't want to. Personally don't want to think about it though. I've forgiven her, the past is long gone, but I don't see where to start a friendship, why, or how. it got me flustered enough to loose my yahoo pool match moments after I ended the conversation the best I could.

- I really want a nice and simple relationship. The girl who liked my Mac & Cheese shirt would do just fine but I was frozen with that.

- I met one girl in high school who I could have fallen in love with easy. She was taller than me, which sucked. 5'7" sucks. Seriously. But she was so weird. I loved it. She wasn't the prettiest perfect girl, but she was gorgeous to me. She didnt have the most toned body though it wasn't bad, but her smile and face.. I was just more alive around her. Maybe the most pure relationship I had with a girl too. Nice as could be.. or maybe just open as could be. I seen her mad, ecstatic, embarassed.. But she was so direct with each emotion. I adored her. Sure never to find one exactly like her either. But we hung out in 2 classes everyday. Did projects together, spent a day at the art show together. In fact.. that was the closest to love I got. I was so open too. I could make her laugh without being at 10% of myself. She smoked weed, told me, she and I should smoke together. I laughed, didn't smoke myself, didn't hold it against her she did. But I mean, it was amazing. I went to this art award show and she was at the door. Seen me driving around for a parking spot 3 times and started laughing. Made my own upon noticing her, and went up to her and some other people who were really cool. Just joked and laughed and joked. We went inside for the awards but mostly to walk around and chill. In fact, we ended up ditching the award show with 2 others, to go sit outside. Eventually though, she told me she had to go find her bf. I knew she had a bf but for a moment I fell in unknowingly without labels of gf's and bf's. Stung a bit that day, before I knew I really liked her. The rest of the year was just fun though. I adored how she voted for my piece in the art show as well, but not without reasoning. She convinced me it stood out even though I knew it was among the best. Another day, she had no Id on cinco de mayo which our school was celebrating, so I had to get her tacos at school. So I do, and tell my buddy I had to sneak em out. Used a teacher who I knew who said she's grab some tinfoil from her room. Then she's in the hallway when I walk out and I mouth "WTF!? Those are your tacos". So she catches up to me and we're laughing hysterically as we get it back to the computer class. So stupid and pointless but it was so oddly fun at the time. She still had her boyfriend though till the end of the year, who had her pissed on a couple of occasions. I knew I had enough emotional tugs with a girl to last years so I let her go. She knew I liked her Im pretty sure, as it was obvious. She gave me her prom picture and wrote "I'm gonna miss our weird ass conversations" on it. I've never regretted anything either, as it was all just good memories. Hope I'll meet her again one day, but if I can live like that for everything in my life, for the innocent and fun, I'm sure I'd be happy.

Now for the quickies...

- I worry about my discipline with the pencil. I've always been a bad writer, and somehow through much practice I've become a decent artist. Still, my line quality mirrors my writing discipline, and I don't know if it's futile to go to an art school for animation. You have to draw very clean to do so, and I just can't. Every artist I know has a beautiful signature also. I sometimes fear that I can't become what they are, for the simple fact that I've written for 18 years of my life, and practice hasn't change my lines.

- I've never driven into the city or on the expressway by myself. Doing so Saturday to go to Wizard World Comic Con hopefully. If I got balls, a brain, and a ticket anyway. I imagine it could be great knowledge for a future art career.

- I'm incredibly annoyed by my best friend. I can't help it. I think because he's an elitist. He tries to be as responsible and moral and adult as possible, but it really gets under the skin becuase he does it out of pure... I don't know! Like, he calls The Real World stupid and he'd never watch it, citing they don't have any real problems. Not that he does, at least outside the ones he takes on for 'responsibility anyway'. Obviously missed last week too. Not to mention sometimes stupid is just funny. Why take everything serious if you don't have to? He also won't play GTA, because he doesn't get the appeal. How can you without picking the controller up? He constantly tells me I need a job, when I make $50 a week for 1 day and am just fine. He seeks out responsibility and does it to feel adult. I have more required responsibility without question, and I take care of it all. But I don't know. He doesn't mention what you do do, just what you don't. Not to mention, the fucker won't watch Monster! Tried to tell me it's predictable, though it's only cause he asked me to explain the plot and I reluctantly did for the 1st 5 episodes. But anyway. It's just back and forth bicker, think his ego gets in the way, or his self image. Try taking a train the wrong way just because your friend responsibly wants to 'stick to his guns'. Yikes. He has a good side though. :lol

- I feel like I need to shave my legs and ass, and lift weights regularly. I don't want to feel the hair come back though, or see my family's reaction if they see me in shorts. I've been known to have hairy legs though in gym class. Waste up though, the chest isn't bad or nothing. I just don't see a demand out there though for hair on a guy's leg or ass though.

- Speaking of family. I can't stand talking to a girl in front of them. Especially meeting one out of the blue and casual talking before I get her number... Because they're watching

- I pray. I don't force my views onto anyone. I'm very introspective when it comes to religion. I want any conversation between me and god my words, not processed. But usually I thank him for a good day. For the possibilites each day brings, and that I'm priviliged enough to experience stuff and grow each day. I'm thankful for my family, today, tomorrow, etc. I believe if someone gave me the possibility to make any impact on this world, I should thank him for the sacrifices he made to grant me that much.

- Days switch off from when I go to bed. One day I feel like I accomplished a ton, and I wouldn't be the same without this day. Another meanwhile, not a thing changed. Usually, the majority thankfully I feel like things changed. About 20-25% of the days are a bit wasted. I'd like to bring it down to 10-15%. Excited about art college, given there I'll be studying what I love nearly everyday.

- The last chance I had at sex I turned down, because I was pissed at my ex for ditching plans with me for a big friends get together. She didn't want me with. I dont regret it I don't think.

- I really liked Lindsay Lohan at her peak

- I liked Kelly Clarkson's smile and ass. But why did she go blonde? :-/

- Holla back girl was great for the first 7 times.

- I spend a lot of time going in and out of characters around home. See how well I could play them. The quick spoken asshole, the italian idiot, Bill Murray in Stripes, and all my favorite comedians.

- I had a decent looking girl who wanted to have sex with me, a cute girl who wanted to be with me, and a good friend who like me, and a girl I didn't much like physically who asked me to prom. I pretty much lost all of em after high school, though cause I think I was hung on the girl I could have easily fell in love with from earlier. I wasn't into a fuck buddy though, didn't like the good friend the same way, and wasn't eager enough to make the moves on the other. If I don't get a fanclub in college though, I'll be sad. Those were some cool chicks. I'm gonna miss them.

- When I throw up, my balls hurt. Don't know what it means. I'm really freaked out about testicular cancer also.

- I want to spice up my conversations with some people more but I reserve my words. Like one girl looked HOT outside a pool hall, came in, and I knew her. Wasn't as hot up close. Wanted to tell her "You looked hot out there before I knew it was you" but couldnt. She still was kinda hot.. She's kind of nice, kind of an elitist. I hope her niceness wins one day.

- I try to keep good spirited in any humor. So easy to go the asshole route. And there are some funny assholes, but I don't. Missing out on some Gold. For the better sometimes though. I mean, I truly like to make people feel good however.

- Boobs.

- I have no idea how to rank the frat pack. They all rock. Will Ferrell, Owen Wilson, Vince Vaughn, Jack Black... How do you seperate that in order?!

- WTF?!? This is long!

wow dude you're really pouring your heart out. :lol

 

[demi]

I think Lambtron is cool. Since he gave me Valkyrie Profile!

I think everyone is cool really, until I eventually meet them and probably think otherwise. Jerk.

 

[=W=]

Yesterday, I masturbated to the Ali G "SPYZ" movie from the special features (season 1, disc 2).

 

[distantmantra]

-I love nice clothes, I mean REALLY love nice clothes. And shoes. God, do I love shoes. Basically, I obsess over my appearance and make sure I'm always looking "to the nines" even though I never understand why people think I'm attractive. There is some great flawed logic on my part. If you saw me in the real world, you would have no idea that I love building giant robots and playing weird ass cutsey games from Japan and post on message boards. Sure surprised my fiance when we started dating. I always get funny looks when I go into game and anime stores because I don't fit in. I also get funny looks at indie record shops, I swear every time the clerk at Easy Street must expect me to bring up the latest Top 40 hit, but when I ask about some weird ass obscure new release, they get flustered. I'm like the real life version of Kohsaka from Genshiken, although I would never turn down sex to stand in line to buy a game.

-I hate calling people on the phone that I don't know, I get intimidated for some reason. It's easier when I'm in a position of authority (like at work), but still pretty damn hard.

 

[haunts]

- I got real nervous when Catzgirl came into Gamestop.

- LyteEdge lives right across the street from me but I see him like 2x a year.

- Raoul Duke was my boss for about a year.

 

[Musashi Wins!]

- I got real nervous when Catzgirl came into Gamestop.

- LyteEdge lives right across the street from me but I see him like 2x a year.

- Raoul Duke was my boss for about a year.

I'm having a hard time imagining Raoul as a boss.

LyteEdge has every game known to man, you should be better friends.

I hear Catzgirl is hawt.

 

[Tamanon]

I'm having a hard time imagining Raoul as a boss.

LyteEdge has every game known to man, you should be better friends.

I hear Catzgirl is hawt.

That she is, hah, even if she was a dirty Nintendo rep.

Is there some sort of huge GAFlanta community here?

 

[dskillzhtown]

Well, here are mine. Everyone else is doing it, why not.

- I once beat up a bum in Downtown Houston because he grabbed the purse of the girl I was with after I declined on giving him any money. It was an easy beat down as he was drunk, but I left him bloody after I kicked him in the face a few times. I totally snapped and even scared myself. The girl didn't want to have anything to do with me afterwards.

- From the ages of 17-26, I worked in high-level positions at Exxon, Telecheck, Compaq/HP, Chase, and now Baker Hughes. Because of that, I take having a job for granted and fuck off ALOT. This is even after being unemployed for months early this year. I also have some idea that "everything will work out" because of early success and don't try nearly hard enough to insure that things will work out.

- Probably because of the money, I have had sex with some of the hottest chicks I have ever seen in life. But I also know that the hottest ones had the most fucked up psyches in the history of life. So, I prefer an "average" looking girl for a relationship. I find them to be alot more grounded and relatable.

- Looking back on it, I probably have only had one true romance in my life. It lasted 5 years, from the ages of 18-23. I feel alot of guilt in not pulling the trigger on that one and settling down. My life would be 100% different if I did. Her life would be totally different now as well. She is living in section 8 housing with a husband that beats her, sometimes in front of their kids. He also cheats on her, actually buying presents for his other women. The one thing that stopped me from settling down was one of those hot chicks I talked about before. The possibility of marrying a hot chick that I barely knew, stopped me from settling down with someone I really connected with. Total regret on that one.

- I used to do the web site for and help run an escort agency. Talk about weird experiences. Meeting women who sell sex anywhere from 2 times to 10 times a day was pretty weird. Some of them had boyfriends and were insanely jealous if they thought he was cheating. I never understood that crap. They would call the sex they give up for money, "work", but he is "cheating". I was making good side-money doing this, but I met a girl who was really pretty, very smart, well-read, thought that she could make some quick cash for school. She ended up making a ton of cash, but got into weed, then coke, then crystal meth, then heroin. Really sad story and convinced me to get out of that entirely. And contrary to popular belief, I feel that those "working girls" were more clean than girls I have met in a club or at a store or wherever. Atleast the "working girls" forced a guy to wear a condom. I would say 70% of the girls I have met, didn't care about a condom or anything. That is really eye-opening. But I did learn alot about women in general during my time there. Don't regret that at all.

- Because of all my experiences, travels, people I have met, jobs, etc., I could die tomorrow and feel satisfied with my life. The only thing that really would make me want to live longer is if I had a child.

- An EA employee is the one that told me about GAF.

- The internet is becoming less and less fun. I liked it when it seemed to be a lil secret not many people knew about.

 

[J2 Cool]

wow dude you're really pouring your heart out. :lol

Yeah.. i gotta confess.. I was just typing to myself.

- I like spicy buffalo sauce with my 3-piece mcnugget. Then I cool it down with some cool ranch and heat it back up again every other bite. My older brother was the 1st I seen do this.