I want to apologise.
Until about a couple years ago, I think, I was under the impression that racism was mostly over in western society. Me having a black mother and a black brother, and seeing them live without any issues in England made me think that black populations in other parts of the world shared some sort of blame.
Man, I don't know. I am mixed raced, a little lighter than say Bruno Mars. I don't have a variety of experiences with racism that is obviously directed at me. But since keeping up with this election cycle, since following BLM and the news they address, I am so fucking sorry I ever thought like this. It wasn't even blissful ignorance.
I am so fucking sorry to hear that Trump is President Elect. I am so fucking sorry to hear that Rudy motherfucker Guiliani may be Attorney General.
And now with Trump and Brexit, I'm noticing racism directed towards me, and I see it in the eyes of the black girl I had launch with recently. Hearing that pain and frustration at the bullshit still in this world that people like to believe is a thing of the past while niggas are choked to death by cops and the KKK marches to celebrate their White Supremacy empowerment.
I don't feel like I even deserve to be as angry because I've got to be so blind for so long. I'm sorry for not having a single clue how to improve anything for the lives of others subject to this, and that I can't even help myself through it.
My ex, who is Japanese, is scared as fuck to visit FL for this cruise she wanted to go with me as others who went there are reporting BS that's happening to them. And I feel afraid for her to go alone. I feel afraid to go myself. And I'm the lightest dude in my own family.
I don't know. If I should shut up, I get that. I keep replaying this election result in my head. How we could have been cheering progress and protection from bigotry instead of watching GAF flood with the sort of account-suicide bullshit just because someone wants to express their hate of dark skin.
Fuck this.