I've had sleep paralysis four times, maybe five times, but four that I can clearly remember
-First time I just faintly could hear my mom and sister talking in the living room while my door was like 97% closed, only enough to know it's not fully closed, and I felt like something paralyzed me, and I could not breathe. I yelled at what I thought was really loud, calling "Mom" but nothing, it was all in my mind that I was crying out for help I guess. My eyes were unable to open despite all my will to break from this 'lock' and I woke up breathless, like I had just barely surfaced up in time from a deep lake.The second time this happened I actually dreamed I was drowning in a lake and again woke up breathless, like my lungs were without oxygen for minutes. Both times I think I was sleeping on my back to some degree
-The second, third, and fourth times were the most interesting, but I'll admit they were the most traumatizing. Two of them felt 'demonic' and like something I had never experienced before and I hope to God I never have to again. I don't really care to go into too much detail, but I essentially 'heard' what might have been a frequency that was so piercing, that all I can describe it as is something that had me feeling like my very being/essence/soul was in jeopardy and I cried for God and said "Please God" "God" over and over again until I was freed from that horrendous experience. It was instinct that I chose those words. This didn't feel like a dream or a nightmare btw, it was like I was suspended in some reality I cannot describe when I felt and 'heard' that vicious sound. It was one of the worst things I've ever experienced. It didn't just feel like I was in danger, I KNEW I was in danger. I can't describe it well. I had at least one of those sleep paralysis incidences like that, with the 'screams' if I can even call that noise a scream...it felt like, imagine a scream, a piercing noise so loud that it caries over three cities or so, the noise is that loud and that piercing and high pitch. I swear it felt like I was about to lose my soul or some shit that night, trippy as fuck experience. I thought everybody was going to rush my door because I was screaming 'God' with all my might like my life and soul depended on it. I woke up startled, a bit clammy or sweaty I think, very alarmed and pretty frightened. After I waited nervously about 10-15 seconds and nobody came rushing my door I had realized it was sleep paralysis again. I think I read my notes on my ipod touch for as long as I could even though I pretty sleepy, and eventually I fell back asleep into rest again after idk maybe 20-40 min or so. I think
-(this is the 4th time) One time I woke up when the sun was very bright one morning, very early in the morning at like 5:15am or something, I caught a glimpse of something blue on top of me, no lie, sucking me off. Angled towards my left leg at an angle this entity 'performed' I guess was what it was doing. The moment I got a look at its skin complexion and face maybe even eyes I was already back to sleep in an instant. But I remembered what I saw, or what I believe I had seen. If I can try to recall what my intuition was telling me at the time when I had recalled what might have been the case that particular experience, I was tired and feeling so good like I was about to bust a fat fucking nut, I momentarily wake and look at the source of the pleasure and see the blue being, I can recall blue skin complexion, I can recall eyes of some sort that seemed ethereal as in otherworldly quality (not human or even close to) and it was all in the blur of a moment before I was back to sleep. I'll never know if that entity was real or not, but I swear it felt like reality, I don't think that was my mind imagining things, I swear, in the moment that I was awake/conscious to realize what situation I was in--it felt all too real
I can go into much more detail on the second / third sleep paralysis experience. I left out the dream portion that took place before calling upon God. All this happened, or at least I firmly believe it had happened and was reality. I'm trying to think back, for some reason I have a feeling that sleeping close by a window might have had something to do with these occurrences. There's no reason for me to be thinking that really, but I just realized that every time these took place, I was fairly close to a window or two while sleeping. Closed, locked, and blinded of course, but still, I was resting near one window or more nearby every time these sleep paralysis episodes took place
I think I've shared these before in a similar thread, but just wanted to share it again, gather my thoughts so I don't forget. Sleep paralysis is something else... wish we had more information on it than what we do now, but how do you research something that happens so rarely?