Oh, the horror! SEVEN HOURS A DAY!I was going to make this joke: Obviously you guys missed the part about "7 hour work days." Can you imagine the horror?
But I guess he edited that part out once it was pointed out how pathetic it was.
Oh, the horror! SEVEN HOURS A DAY!
Shit.
My boss works 12-13 hours and his wife literally just gave birth to his third kid. I work 9-11 hours, and we'll probably be switching to 4 10s soon, which means 12-13 hour days for me.
This piss-poor excuse for a human being "indie dev" would literally die if he had to do my job. Physical labor, oh teh noes!
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I'm feeling sick.Titania McGrath said:Activist. Healer. Radical intersectionalist poet. Selfless and brave. Buy my book.
I'm feeling sick.
I'm feeling sick.
Didn't actually know that person. Glad it was a joke.It's satire.
It's satire.
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yesattention white boys, did you kill yourselves yet
attention white boys, did you kill yourselves yet
Night In The Woods co-creator Alec Holowka has died
Alec Holowoka, the co-creator of Night In The Woods, died on Saturday morning, his sister Eileen Mary Holowka has repor…www.rockpapershotgun.com
Night In The Woods devs "cutting ties" with co-creator following abuse allegations
They've cancelled one project and delayed the physical release of Night in the Woods.www.rockpapershotgun.com
Skyrim composer Jeremy Soule and Night In The Woods co-creator Alec Holowka accused of sexual assault
Allegations of abuse have been made against multiple games industry figures in the past 24 hours. On Monday afternoon N…www.rockpapershotgun.com
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Your freedom's not free and dumb
This Depression is Great
The Deformation Age, they know my name
Waltzing to scum and base and
Married to the pain
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So fucking obscene, obscene yeah.
Just want to put this here.
It's worth a watch and I love what she says about it not being a contest, but trying to force it to be. This one is pretty damn relevant.
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It's a joke account.So I'm a monster for denying and I'm a monster for admitting?
tl;dr: Chelsea Van Valkenberg(aka Zoe Quinn) is a crackhead for Twitter and posted many times daily during her stay with Alec Holowka. Additionally, she went shopping for craft materials, went to indie meetups, and even did a podcast interview. Curiously contradicting.On August 28, 2019, game developer and activist Zoe Quinn issued a multi-post Twitter statement detailing abuse allegedly suffered at the hands of former partner and fellow indie developer Alec Holowka. On August 29, the Night in the Woods development team cut ties with Holowka, and within 48 hours, he had committed suicide. The same day as Holowka’s suicide, Zoe Quinn’s Twitter account was deleted, returning shortly thereafter under a protected lock which enabled only a few select people to access the tweets.
A source with access to Quinn’s locked Twitter account has provided The Post Millennial with important history which sheds light on the developer’s time with the now-deceased Alec Holowka.
-The Post Millennial
I can't tell half the time. This radical new world does not pleasure me so.It's a joke account.
Poes law in action.I can't tell half the time. This radical new world does not pleasure me so.
The Suicide of Alec Holowka, starring Scott BensonScott Benson, keeps talking. On kickstarter today:
Alec died last weekend. We found out via twitter, which seems appropriate as that's how I first met Alec. We don't have any other info to share here about it.
I covered most things pretty thoroughly in our last update. There was no dramatic moment we were involved in after that. We just found out the next day that he was gone. The people near Alec tried very hard to keep him alive. Bethany and I weren't in Alec's immediate support group, and indeed when the allegations came out and I approached him about them he quickly disappeared. But others he was close to fought very hard, because they loved him. In the Alec was the only one who could make decisions for Alec.
As I discussed in the last update, my relationship with Alec was very complicated. My time with him was sometimes good, sometimes very hard, sometimes actively harmful. People ask me how I feel and what I feel is angry. Just angry. I'm angry at how last week went. I'm angry at what Alec did to others, and to me. I'm angry with how he handled it. I'm angry that we're left to clean up a mess he left behind. I'm angry we've had to deal with this in public, and that we've been made such a focus of this story. I'm angry with Alec. For a lot of reasons I'm angry with Alec. And I'm angry he's gone.
I wrote a very personal and very angry thing about my relationship with Alec, and about his abusive patterns that repeated in ways I never knew about until the past 10 days. It's something of a closer and more personal, unredacted version of some things I wrote last update. It also contains some secret history of NITW development that you never knew about, and how that fit into his patterns. It's not a particularly rosy image of Alec, but it's at least honest as far as my experience with him goes and that's the best I can do. It was painful to write. It's painful to link to. But you deserve to see it if you want to. I wrote it because I needed to get it out, and because I know several people who wanted to talk about their similar experiences with Alec but fear doing so in public. So I stepped up I guess. I also wrote it for people that may find themselves in this same situation, as I had been several times even before I met Alec.
Since his death I've talked to... geez, I don't know how many people about him. People who knew him 15 years ago, people who knew him 2 weeks ago, and everywhere in between. Many of us were surprised the things we experienced with him weren't unique to us, and had indeed started long before with others. Alec was doing the things he did going back a very, very long time. And I'm heartbroken about this. And I've talked to dozens of people who have experienced all these things with other people. There are so many of us.
Bethany and I aren't especially sentimental about death. I think just because we've both seen so much of it in our lives. Death and ruin, often in very sad ways. I don't have a lot of great examples in my life of people dying peacefully in their sleep. Suicides, car crashes, drug overdoes, accidents. From a young age, when the kid down the street drowned in the creek behind our neighborhood and I showed the rescue teams where they might find him. For a long time his mother wouldn't clean the window that held a single handprint he left behind. I remember slowly understanding what that meant at age 9. After a while you get a bit less sensitive to the shock is what I'm saying. I'm not at grief yet. Grief will come without warning some afternoon in 2 months when I'm installing baseboards in the house and I suddenly buckle and cry hard for an hour.
All this to say that Bethany and I don't tend to talk about dead friends and family as if they're still there with us, hurt by what we night reveal. We save that consideration for the family. I've wanted to be honest about Alec. And that honesty is sometimes harsh.
Alec struggled with his mental health. I was open about that, admirably. And some of the more difficult aspects of him can be attributed in some way to those things he struggled with. He also did harm to a good number of people, harm that doesn't need any mental health struggle to create it. He could also be really great. It depends on who you were and how/when you knew him. I'm certain many people remember Alec as a sweet and gentle guy. I know that many people remember Alec as a tormentor. Was Alec "good"? People are complicated. I don't know if I'm "good". What's "good"? Alec was loved by his family and many others. Those people are the ones left hurting now.
A lot of people have a hard time grasping that you can care about someone and also be angry at them for what they did to you and others. That you can be honest about what they did to you while still wanting them to be better. I'm angry as hell at Alec. I had a painful history with him, and a distant present. But losing him still hurts. Because he meant something. The pain is a sign it all meant something. To quote Mae, I want this to hurt. It's going to hurt for a while.
I won't be checking comments on this post anytime soon. I'm at a point right now where I can talk about it but not to where I can engage people about it. Just writing this stuff at all is hard, hard work right now, let alone fielding questions and comments. We'll be back and have more to say in our next update, when we have some distance on this.
Final thoughts: if you're in an abusive situation, whether at work or in a relationship, we stand with you. If you are wrestling with mental health issues, we also stand with you. We've certainly been there. We stand with you, for what that is worth. If you're having suicidal ideas, there are resources out there for you. People who will talk with you. No matter what you've done, no matter how hopeless it seems. A quick google will give you crisis hotlines and other resources available in your area. Don't hesitate if you need them. They literally exist to help you. Please stick around.
Thanks everyone. Here's to better days, and to life.
-scott
I know. I guess these days one has to explicitly point it out, will do the next time.This is a parody account.
The new evidence uncovered is not exculpatory. However, it does reveal that Zoe Quinn is no way credible.
The Post Millennial reached out to Zoe Quinn to explain the apparent inaccuracies and inconsistencies in the public statement but was unable to reach Quinn for comment at this time.
Wow, looks like Post Milennial is full of internalized mysoginy for even thinking about it.The Post Millennial reached out to Zoe Quinn to explain the apparent inaccuracies and inconsistencies in the public statement but was unable to reach Quinn for comment at this time.
This even deserves a separate thread, IMO.EXCLUSIVE: Zoe Quinn’s allegations are falling apart
Recently unearthed tweets provided to The Post Millennial reveal inconsistencies in Zoe Quinn’s allegations against Alec Holowka.www.thepostmillennial.com
Wow, looks like Post Milennial is full of internalized mysoginy for even thinking about it.
This even deserves a separate thread, IMO.
I think updating the OP will suffice.This even deserves a separate thread, IMO.
Just read it.EXCLUSIVE: Zoe Quinn’s allegations are falling apart
Recently unearthed tweets provided to The Post Millennial reveal inconsistencies in Zoe Quinn’s allegations against Alec Holowka.www.thepostmillennial.com
Wow, looks like Post Milennial is full of internalized mysoginy for even thinking about it.
I think women hate liars more than men. Not hard to imagine why.The funny thing about that article is that a woman wrote it. Lol.
I think women hate liars more than men. Not hard to imagine why.
The Antichrist. Or just a sociopath enabled by a twisted new religion.EXCLUSIVE: Zoe Quinn’s allegations are falling apart
Recently unearthed tweets provided to The Post Millennial reveal inconsistencies in Zoe Quinn’s allegations against Alec Holowka.www.thepostmillennial.com
EXCLUSIVE: Zoe Quinn’s allegations are falling apart
Recently unearthed tweets provided to The Post Millennial reveal inconsistencies in Zoe Quinn’s allegations against Alec Holowka.www.thepostmillennial.com
The funny thing about that article is that a woman wrote it. Lol.
I think women hate liars more than men. Not hard to imagine why.
EXCLUSIVE: Zoe Quinn’s allegations are falling apart
Recently unearthed tweets provided to The Post Millennial reveal inconsistencies in Zoe Quinn’s allegations against Alec Holowka.www.thepostmillennial.com
“Gaming” websites:EXCLUSIVE: Zoe Quinn’s allegations are falling apart
Recently unearthed tweets provided to The Post Millennial reveal inconsistencies in Zoe Quinn’s allegations against Alec Holowka.www.thepostmillennial.com
Well, just ask them. There's not unreasonable unlike Resetera.Yeah, I'm not sure how the mods feel about another ZQ thread on page #1 though.
BELIEVE WOME...........oh.Exclusive: Zoe Quinn's allegations are falling apart...
tl;dr: Chelsea Van Valkenberg(aka Zoe Quinn) is a crackhead for Twitter and posted many times daily during her stay with Alec Holowka. Additionally, she went shopping for craft materials, went to indie meetups, and even did a podcast interview. Curiously contradicting.
Exclusive: Zoe Quinn's allegations are falling apart...
tl;dr: Chelsea Van Valkenberg(aka Zoe Quinn) is a crackhead for Twitter and posted many times daily during her stay with Alec Holowka. Additionally, she went shopping for craft materials, went to indie meetups, and even did a podcast interview. Curiously contradicting.
The response to the death of Alec Holowka throws this double standard into razor-sharp relief. The harassment of Quinn and others has nothing to do with concern for Holowka and his family and everything to do with making examples of women and queer people who dare to speak out.
Thoughts and Prayers
RPS has really gone down the shitter, it’s a shameWell, fuck. Guess RPS is off my reading list forever. Fuck those guys.
Yeah there's something deeply wrong when Russia is the one telling us not to engage in mob justice. Is this what we've come to?
ROUGH DATE | ZOE'S CLAIMS | POST MILLENNIAL FINDINGS | CONCLUSION |
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PRE-MARCH 2012 (Zoe goes on to say this she meets Alec "one month after the assault", so we can place this around about February-ish) | Abuse from an Unnamed Assailant [zoe notes: paragraph 2 & 3] | No comment in the PM article on this | No conclusion - zoe doesn't name this abuser, and quickly mentions that "this isn't about him. I've forgiven him." We can ignore this claim, for now for the purpose of this Alec case. PM doesn't mention it. |
START OF MARCH 2012 | Give that Zoe's notes gives us a rough date of the previous abuse at Feburary, she meets Alec "one month later", placing that around march. We can conclude that they start chatting around here. | PM found multiple snippets from a podcast in which Zoe goes on to explain how she met alec, via DMs on twatter. | |
MARCH 2012 | Zoe doesn't specify when she gears up to go to Winnpeg to live with Alec in the zoe notes source. | PM found, from archived tweets, that Zoe was preparing to go to Winnipeg around March | We can conclude that Zoe prepared to leave Toronto for Winnipeg in March |
MARCH END / APRIL START 2012 | As above, zoe doesn't specify when she moves to Winnipeg | Using dozens of archived tweets from Zoe's twitter, PM very reliably places the move date around this time | We can conclude that Zoe moves from Toronto to Winnipeg around the start of April (if not the end of March) |
APRIL START TO MID APRIL 2012 | During this period, zoe claims a bulk of things done by Alec in the zoe notes [paragraph 7] Part of Zoe's claims during this period is that Alec isolated her and locked her away from the 3 unnamed friends during this period. | Around this time, Zoe and Alec appear together on a Podcast, explaining how they met on twitter, their relationship, and their project Not Ok Cupid (never released). Obviously, no mention of abuse happens on the podcast. Alec mentions that he spent some time on OK Cupid before meeting zoe. Hence the project. There are dozens and dozens of tweets detailing their time through-out april in Winnipeg. Including arranging a meet-up, shopping, and so on. | We can conclude that Alec probably did not shut Zoe away and isolate her, at least for the most part, because they often tweeted about their movements. Assuming the tweets are true, for now. NOTE: There's alot of say-so about Alec's mental instability (including gossip of his own posted in 2016). We can assume that he wasn't very stable. We can probably assume that the relationship wasn't all that easy, either. |
MID APRIL 2012 | This is around the time (2 weeks later) that zoe would of moved back to Winnipeg after staying with Alec, as they supposedly agreed, according to the zoe notes source [zoe notes: paragraph 3] Zoe would by the ticket there, Alec would by her the ticket back. They were supposed to live in an "indie house" with 3 others (unnamed) this was what they agreed pre-zoe's-departure. She would claim to stay for a full month | There's no real mention of the 2 week plan in the PM article. | We can conclude that she definitely stayed longer than two weeks. What's debatable here is: was that the original plan? Was the "two week" plan a lie? |
END OF APRIL/ MAY START 2012 | This is probably around where Zoe claims to have come back (one month later) using air miles provided to her by a friend, since Alec refused to buy her a flight back as they previously agreed. She claims to have flown back with no mention of other travels. As if escaping. | The PM article has screencaps of a tweet dated May 2nd, that details a going to a Winnipeg meet up, then going to Montreal and Toronto (she heads to Toronto on the 4th) | By Zoe's tweet, we can conclude that she did travel back to Toronto around a month later. She PROBABLY didn't use a friend's air miles to escape Winnipeg, as she obviously travelled to Montreal as well. |
MAY 10th 2012 | - | Is the last known tweet between Alec and Zoe, as detailed in the PM article | I can't conclude much here, apart from they stopped communicating. Could be because of the "amiable break up email" Zoe claimed to have sent after arriving back in Toronto |
POST MAY 10th 2012 | In the zoe notes, she claims that here Alec "banned her from an indie gaming community he ran, banned himself, asked other industry leaders to help him commit suicide" | None of this is detailed in the PM Article. But it does mention Alec's mental instability, and other people agreeing that he was suicidal. | We can conclude that Alec is capable of lashing out like this given a history of instability. We can perhaps conclude that the "community" in question is the indie meetup they arranged together called Windiepeg. |
GAMERGATE START (earliest account, August 2014 ish, but we don't know what Zoe regards as the start of GG) | Zoe claims that multiple people came forward with claims of Alec's abusive behaviour. | No mention of this in PM. | We can conclude here that, using evidence of Alec's instability, that perhaps some people did contact Zoe about his behaviour. The 3 unnamed friends or one of the ~38 devs attending Windiepeg would be viable candidates |
August 28th 2019 (now) | Zoe's statement about Alec's alleged abuse. Multiple people back her up in variable degrees, such as Laurie Pennie, and the other devs of Night in the Woods, to a very small degree Alec's sister also | During this phase, Zoe deletes her twitter account only to reactivate it days later as "protected", someone archives lots of tweets and feeds them to PM, as part of the article. The article mentions that many tweets around the period specified in this timeline was DELETED, but managed to get screencapped in a video, sent to PM as part of the article. | Alec commits suicide some time after. The vast majority of games news outlets just mention "died"; being unusually respectful. Zoe goes into twitter damage control, deleting tweets from the period with Alec, but she's too slow. The two other devs also delete their accounts, perhaps for the same reason. Though now their accounts are back online [1] [2] |