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Someone pmed me wishing me to post for them so they could remain anonymous. Please give them a bit of advice.

As someone who went from starting a long distance relationship to a no distance to a long distance relationship that ended because of long distance + depression, I have learned a lot about how that works for me. As cynical as it sounds, I wouldn't do it again. This is just what I've learned.

The truth is - having no date to which you can see each other again is difficult. It put the biggest strain on our relationship as we hadn't and wouldn't be able to see each other for a long time. We both needed the intimacy that a long-distance relationship couldn't provide, coupled with my depression, it became a frustrating relationship.

However, we're still extremely close friends and talk on a weekly basis. Did it suck? Yeah, it sucked cause we had talked every day for nearly every day for 2 years (either at night or in the morning), and that had we been down the street from each other, we would still be together, but circumstances just didn't work out.

Long distance relationships rarely work out in the long-term. Especially if there is no concrete solid plan to ever meet up again, or live in the same city. I guess the question I would be asking myself is if the frustration of being long distance is worth the person. Chances are your relationship is evolving past the initial phase of everything is awesome, to something more realistic. The question is what you want in your relationship from now on. What are you looking for?

EDIT: Heldern has a good idea. Thats what we used to do especially when we were on different timezones.
 
Someone pmed me wishing me to post for them so they could remain anonymous. Please give them a bit of advice.

It sounds like a combination of things. I won't even pretend to know how difficult long-distance relationships can be, since I've never been in one, but I do know how much depression and other mental health issues can fuck with your relationships.

It is really unsettling when those feelings come up. It feels like you've done a 180 and you don't know if there's any going back to how you felt before. When this happens to me, I usually put all the blame on me due to my various issues and I internalize it and think things like "If I don't really love this person, who is amazing and wonderful and everything I could ever ask for, then who could I possibly love?" Definitely don't do that. Try not to internalize it as much as you can. I spend a lot of time questioning my thoughts because I don't trust them due to how negative and warped they can be. For example, I can have bad days where I'm really depressed and it's easy to fall into thinking negative thoughts about my relationship. The next day, I'll be okay again and think those thoughts were ridiculous. I've found that if a feeling persists for more than a few weeks, something might need to change.

These things come up in relationships and I think it's totally normal to have doubts especially in a difficult situation like the one you're in. Definitely don't feel like you can't ask for more space, though, if you need it. I understand the concern that you'll become even more distant, but you don't want to feel like you're being suffocated, either.

I will leave long-distance advice to those who know far better than I, but I do understand how upsetting it can be to have those thoughts. I hope you're able to work something out!
 
No one really wins on deathbed scorecards.
No, but you can lose plenty of respect for somebody. She has neither my mother's respect or mine. Or my uncle's.

She is very successful in her career and financially. *shrug* I wish those things translated to being well-rounded, but more often than not they don't.
 
If your fresh, a couple Ambien, about 3mg of Xanax and a couple beers will set you straight. Just drink lots of coffee if you don't want to sleep or energy drinks or something.
This is not a good idea at all. Don't mix Ambien with anything especially alcohol.

If you're looking to simply relax and calm down, yes just Xanax. If you're looking to sleep, then Ambien. Of course, if you're unsure how you react to certain drugs or other medication, obviously consult a doctor. As it's been brought up here before, however, do not take any drugs mentioned her or otherwise you're not sure of until you speak with a professional.
 
First day of the intensive outpatient program went okay. The group aspect is good but I don't know if it is going to accomplish what I need it to. The number of women there who had been raped just makes me hate this species a tad more.
 
First day of the intensive outpatient program went okay. The group aspect is good but I don't know if it is going to accomplish what I need it to. The number of women there who had been raped just makes me hate this species a tad more.

Is there more than just group aspects to the program? Perhaps they will introduce more in given time.

What are you trying to accomplish?
 
Yes I was dependent on Ativan(lorazepam) after my cancer treatment. It was hard to get off it, benzos are amazing for anxiety but are horrible to get off of. What I did was cut the dosage every week by .25mg. It worked for me. :)

For reference when I was doing cancer treatment, I would take 2mg daily, once a day. It took me a few months to get completely off it. Diazepam apparently is easier to get off of since it has a longer half life I believe. Its actually used to help people ween off lorazepam in cases.

Thanks for the reply mate. I was on 25mg per day at my peak so it took a looong time to get down to a single 2mg pill per day. Spoke to my doctor again today and it looks like I'm just going to have to grit my teeth and put up with the withdrawal symptoms until I'm completely off them.

My mother takes Lorazepam for an extreme general anxiety disorder, she doesn't know what causes it, horrible condition :(.

I hope you are now doing better health wise by the way.
 
This is not a good idea at all. Don't mix Ambien with anything especially alcohol.

If you're looking to simply relax and calm down, yes just Xanax. If you're looking to sleep, then Ambien. Of course, if you're unsure how you react to certain drugs or other medication, obviously consult a doctor. As it's been brought up here before, however, do not take any drugs mentioned her or otherwise you're not sure of until you speak with a professional.

I agree with the consult a professional part, but kinda not really, I've grown to see psych doctor's as more of a guess work than anything else. And Ambien WILL produce a "high", although it effects everyone differently. Eating, driving unknowingly and whatnot. But for me 2 Ambien ain't gonna kill anybody, you'll be completely drunked out high, and it's actually quite easy to stay awake if you drink enough stimulants even coupled with Xanax.

If anybody wants any advice on how to go about getting perscriptions for any benzo's or sedative-hypnotics give me a shout, you just need to know what to say and how to play the game. That's really all I can offer anybody with mental health issues at this point, my own becoming so bad recently as I've decided to stop all meds except my daily 8-10mg of whatever benzo mix and Ambien around the clock. No more "mood stabilizers" for me, Lithium was the end of it and it's gonna stay that way. I will take whatever I WANT to take, and nothing else. Period. My brain, my choice.

Edit: I'm obviously not advocating just taking a bunch of these pills willy nilly. Educate yourself first, Google is your friend. You'll learn more about a drug, including interactions, by dedicating a couple hours of research online to it than talking to ANY doctor for 15-30 mins, trust me I've been there, done that....a hundred times. The Google method is superior. DO NOT simply rely on some fatherly-like doctor to tell you or consult you to make any changes in your diet without first researching the drugs yourself. Because many of these doctors stand to gain from prescribing certain drugs or simply do not FULLY and adequately describe the side effects, interactions, rare lifelong consequences and so forth. Educate YOURSELF, make your OWN DECISIONS about what you want in your body before you look back and wish you had. Ths is probably the best advice I could ever give to anybody "new" to the mental health "game", as it were.
 
Edit: I'm obviously not advocating just taking a bunch of these pills willy nilly. Educate yourself first, Google is your friend. You'll learn more about a drug, including interactions, by dedicating a couple hours of research online to it than talking to ANY doctor for 15-30 mins, trust me I've been there, done that....a hundred times. The Google method is superior. .

Get out. Seriously. Get the fuck out.

Telling people to rely on Doctor Google is about the stupidest shit I've seen pass in this thread yet. Yes, you could I suppose self-medicate if you are absolutely forced to because you don't have any decent mental healthcare in your neighborhood. But it is still an incredible foolish thing to do. Those interactions you go on about? Those are possibilities. Some more likely than others. The reason that most doctors don't talk about them? Not because they have to gain something about it, but because the more negative lasting ones are _rare_. And that is why you have follow-up appointments. To check whether the negatives outweigh the benefits. This isn't something you can check on yourself. Besides, if the doctor would list every single fucking possible side-effect/interaction, you would be scared so shitless you would never take a pill again. And that is anything but helpful to recovery.

Mental healthcare isn't just about downing a couple of cocktails. Those pills aren't modern miracles of medicine that make mental problems go away. They suppress it. They mute it. And they don't do it immediatly so you have to suffer to a short period of potential drawbacks before. Why go through this? So you can break the spiral. To snap yourself out of it. Not an easy thing to do for sure, but doable thanks to these pick-me-ups.

So fuck off with your "experience". Correlation doesn't imply causation. Just because you had a bad time with "fatherly" doctors, mean that every single one of them is a incompetent simpleton out for your money.
 
I agree with the consult a professional part, but kinda not really, I've grown to see psych doctor's as more of a guess work than anything else. And Ambien WILL produce a "high", although it effects everyone differently. Eating, driving unknowingly and whatnot. But for me 2 Ambien ain't gonna kill anybody, you'll be completely drunked out high, and it's actually quite easy to stay awake if you drink enough stimulants even coupled with Xanax.

If anybody wants any advice on how to go about getting perscriptions for any benzo's or sedative-hypnotics give me a shout, you just need to know what to say and how to play the game. That's really all I can offer anybody with mental health issues at this point, my own becoming so bad recently as I've decided to stop all meds except my daily 8-10mg of whatever benzo mix and Ambien around the clock. No more "mood stabilizers" for me, Lithium was the end of it and it's gonna stay that way. I will take whatever I WANT to take, and nothing else. Period. My brain, my choice.

Edit: I'm obviously not advocating just taking a bunch of these pills willy nilly. Educate yourself first, Google is your friend. You'll learn more about a drug, including interactions, by dedicating a couple hours of research online to it than talking to ANY doctor for 15-30 mins, trust me I've been there, done that....a hundred times. The Google method is superior. DO NOT simply rely on some fatherly-like doctor to tell you or consult you to make any changes in your diet without first researching the drugs yourself. Because many of these doctors stand to gain from prescribing certain drugs or simply do not FULLY and adequately describe the side effects, interactions, rare lifelong consequences and so forth. Educate YOURSELF, make your OWN DECISIONS about what you want in your body before you look back and wish you had. Ths is probably the best advice I could ever give to anybody "new" to the mental health "game", as it were.

Educating yourself - good.
Psychiatry - difficult, but hardly "guess work." And it needs to be said over and over that most people complain about is (this language isn't used much in psychiatry, but whatever) "primary depression" - that is, depression NOT due to another underlying medical condition. There are plenty of things with simple treatments that also cause mental health changes as side effects, from medications, to infections, to hormone levels, etc.

Depression isn't usually called primary or secondary because it's generally such a complex interplay between biological, psychologist, and social factors, making it harder to treat. Anyway, it's not just guess work. There are treatment algorithms, some drugs are known to work best for certain forms of depression, picking an appropriate therapy program is not about guessing, etc.

"Educate YOURSELF, make your OWN DECISIONS" is kind of good advice - make informed choices, yeah. But you're offering to help people score very addictive drugs. Around the clock benzos and ambien?? The things is, both meds act at the same receptors, which is also where alcohol acts. For starters, you shouldn't be driving. If you are, please don't. Second, coming off of benzo abuse is consistently described as worse than coming off of heroin. And while heroin withdrawal generally won't kill you, coming off of alcohol or benzos very well can. You've found your thing and I won't dissuade you, but this is not a good path you're on.

The modern paradigm is providers partnering with patients for treatment. It sounds like BS, and some old docs cling to the "do what I tell you" model, but that's not how things are taught now. It's just very hard when patients want something potentially hazardous, or are lying to get it. Benzos are great drugs when taken as needed. Taken for fun, they're highly addictive.

And education is also great - patients know more and more. But there's a reason medical training takes longer than an afternoon of google searches. This is the case where a little knowledge can be a VERY dangerous thing.
 
I second the IRC chat advice if you have no one to talk to. I was really down a few weeks ago and it helped. It's also anonymous, so you won't have any awkward feelings later if you spill your guts. I had a friend talk me down recently but I feel bad putting that person in that situation The IRC chat works wonders if you've never used it before.
I'm glad someone has found it helpful. :D I'm in there most of the time, talking to anyone.
 
I'm not sure what my doctors got out of prescribing drugs to me, as most visits and meds were no cost. I'm down at PAP every single time I visit.

I think waiting three years for a proper diagnosis is some negligence on their part. I'd say that. I was very forward and truthful about all of my problems. There was no dilly-dallying. It got to the point where I had to look up some kind of possible diagnosis because the treatments were only mildly effective. That's simply process of elimination, and not something a patient should be forced to do.

But that's the way things get done sometimes. I find that when you work with the system you really have no advocate but yourself. Your social worker/case worker - nope. Your counselor, if you can snag one - nope. Your doctor - nope. They help, but in my case they were very reluctant to take on tougher diagnoses.
 
I did pretty bad on my ethnic studies exam yesterday. I hate stating this over and over again because I shouldn't compare myself to anyone other students like you guys and my friend told me. But when I over heard my teacher telling the student that if the test was easy, and she said "yeah". I was disappointed in myself because I've been studying for 3 hours yesterday and 2 hours on Wednesday, the day before the exam. I did bad because I've over looked some topics, and I'm missing some important topics on my notes that I was unable to answer some questions on the exam that I'm unfamiliar with. This is why my note takings sucks.

Today I'm going to meet with my instructor to see what grade I got for my first essay. If I do bad on it, then this week has been the worst for me.
 
Ambien is something I would think most people should not mess around with. I've taken Ambien a few times and never had negative experiences with it and even had it where it didn't do anything for me, but some people report loss of memory and hallucinations. There's even been a thread or two that had people going through the motions as they were typing up posts.

I'm going on my second full day of Facebook closure. I still get the urge and go to FB even though my account is deactivated out of force of habit more than anything. But, I don't really feel any strong urge to log back in which is good. It may help my self esteem out a small minute at least so I don't have to know what's going on with everyone else. I had already deleted 82 friends from it a couple months ago and haven't looked back.
 
I know its not a switch you can flip, but give yourself some credit, you were good for months. And so you will be again. and despite feeling hurt man, its not your fault at all, and they must have some defects too. To "let it go" does well here

stay logical as you can

Yea thanks, I just had a few bad weeks, things been going well again.One of the friends in the group apologize to me over text a few days ago and explaining that he was just mad because we haven't hang for awhile. I accept his apology, but I'm still going to confront him in person and still tell him his actions weren't the right way to do things.
 
Ambien doesn't work on me unless I take like 5 of them, at which point bad things happen. If I need to sleep and can't, I double up on my Saphris dose. The only problem there is it costs ~700 bucks a bottle.

Edit: Ah actually it's my other drug that's 700 beans a bottle. Saphris is just like 300-400.
 
Small update on some of the more "background" activities.

The Mumble server has moved to a new host. Connection details can be gotten through the usual channels (Twitter/IRC).
 
Get out. Seriously. Get the fuck out.

Telling people to rely on Doctor Google is about the stupidest shit I've seen pass in this thread yet. Yes, you could I suppose self-medicate if you are absolutely forced to because you don't have any decent mental healthcare in your neighborhood. But it is still an incredible foolish thing to do. Those interactions you go on about? Those are possibilities. Some more likely than others. The reason that most doctors don't talk about them? Not because they have to gain something about it, but because the more negative lasting ones are _rare_. And that is why you have follow-up appointments. To check whether the negatives outweigh the benefits. This isn't something you can check on yourself. Besides, if the doctor would list every single fucking possible side-effect/interaction, you would be scared so shitless you would never take a pill again. And that is anything but helpful to recovery.

Mental healthcare isn't just about downing a couple of cocktails. Those pills aren't modern miracles of medicine that make mental problems go away. They suppress it. They mute it. And they don't do it immediatly so you have to suffer to a short period of potential drawbacks before. Why go through this? So you can break the spiral. To snap yourself out of it. Not an easy thing to do for sure, but doable thanks to these pick-me-ups.

So fuck off with your "experience". Correlation doesn't imply causation. Just because you had a bad time with "fatherly" doctors, mean that every single one of them is a incompetent simpleton out for your money.

Really? Adhoms and ignorance. Nothing to really reply to here.

How long have you been in the mental healthcare "game" and how many psych visits have you had? I've been in mental healthcare since 6 yrs old, and had 19 psych visits throughout my adult life, two were state hospitals which were 6 months and 8 months. So talk from "experience", not your ass.

Educating yourself - good.
Psychiatry - difficult, but hardly "guess work." And it needs to be said over and over that most people complain about is (this language isn't used much in psychiatry, but whatever) "primary depression" - that is, depression NOT due to another underlying medical condition. There are plenty of things with simple treatments that also cause mental health changes as side effects, from medications, to infections, to hormone levels, etc.

Depression isn't usually called primary or secondary because it's generally such a complex interplay between biological, psychologist, and social factors, making it harder to treat. Anyway, it's not just guess work. There are treatment algorithms, some drugs are known to work best for certain forms of depression, picking an appropriate therapy program is not about guessing, etc.

"Educate YOURSELF, make your OWN DECISIONS" is kind of good advice - make informed choices, yeah. But you're offering to help people score very addictive drugs. Around the clock benzos and ambien?? The things is, both meds act at the same receptors, which is also where alcohol acts. For starters, you shouldn't be driving. If you are, please don't. Second, coming off of benzo abuse is consistently described as worse than coming off of heroin. And while heroin withdrawal generally won't kill you, coming off of alcohol or benzos very well can. You've found your thing and I won't dissuade you, but this is not a good path you're on.

The modern paradigm is providers partnering with patients for treatment. It sounds like BS, and some old docs cling to the "do what I tell you" model, but that's not how things are taught now. It's just very hard when patients want something potentially hazardous, or are lying to get it. Benzos are great drugs when taken as needed. Taken for fun, they're highly addictive.

And education is also great - patients know more and more. But there's a reason medical training takes longer than an afternoon of google searches. This is the case where a little knowledge can be a VERY dangerous thing.

The point I was trying to make about it being a sort of guess work as you have said, it's a complex interplay of all kinds of factors for each complex individual making it IMPOSSIBLE to adequately treat or even at times diagnose the source or deeper causes. So it is...guess work to a large degree. No matter what methods of practice are being used you cannot predict or determine how a drug like Zyprexa will interact with X person's brain chemistry and thusly side effects or even lifelong issues that will be caused by that drug...you can't 99% predict it. It is not a mathematical science, where you can predict things down to the exact decimal placement. So my advice was, it's guess work to a very large degree considering how the drugs are administered, overseen and even allowed into the market through the FDA. Surely you're aware of the scandals there. So please don't try to convince me that there's some secret methodology than what I've experienced in units and in doctor's offices firsthand. But my other point was, educate yourself first, you'll find a VAST storehouse of knowledge, firsthand accounts, side effects, drug interactions, and rare side effects simply by researching it yourself, rather than relying on a doctor to do it for you. That way, you can make more positive, well informed, proactive decisions about a drug or even just be able to ask the doctors the needed questions that most patients wouldn't know to inquire about.

And yeah, I've been a benzo addict for about 8 years now, heavily and prescribed by my psychiatrist. The consensus was, I was less of a danger to myself and others on them than without them, since my psychopathy and homicidal/suicidal tendencies are and have been medication resistant since I was a child. Nothing works, quite simply except getting me loaded. And even then, my "Prick levels" goes from 10 off benzo's/Ambien to about 7 on a good day with them. And yeah, I've been driving for years on benzo's they barely effect any kind of motor skills now, I'm that tolerant at this point. I'd need 20mg of Xanax to even start making me bump into walls anymore. And to sleep, I drink, or I pop a couple Seconals.
 
Folks, please calm down. Seriously, I understand debate and argument but at least I would like this thread to really not have name-calling or insults thrown around. As many of you know, I left this thread a few months back because there was a bit of hostility, some of which was directed at me and it got pretty ugly. I didn't think I was going to return because this thread was one place I held "sacred" on GAF. I decided to come back recently because I had given some thought and realized certain things through recent circumstances as well as people like Bagels supporting me.

Even though this current argument does not involve me (thankfully), I don't want to see anyone here on either the sending or receiving end of this kind of aggression. So please, I ask if this can be kept civil. I know we're all angry or upset in some way or another about something and want to take that aggression out, but here in this thread I don't feel is the right place.

Some c'mon guys and girls, let's try and keep it civil here, okay?

Mumble is a voice chat, you can get the client here. Details for connecting to the server are provided in the IRC chat.
Ah okay, thanks on that. I was just in the IRC chat and man, is it busy there! I don't have a mic so I don't think I can use Mumble.
 
I did pretty bad on my ethnic studies exam yesterday. I hate stating this over and over again because I shouldn't compare myself to anyone other students like you guys and my friend told me. But when I over heard my teacher telling the student that if the test was easy, and she said "yeah". I was disappointed in myself because I've been studying for 3 hours yesterday and 2 hours on Wednesday, the day before the exam. I did bad because I've over looked some topics, and I'm missing some important topics on my notes that I was unable to answer some questions on the exam that I'm unfamiliar with. This is why my note takings sucks.

Today I'm going to meet with my instructor to see what grade I got for my first essay. If I do bad on it, then this week has been the worst for me.

Im feeling the same. Whenever I sit next to a friend of mine and ask about how ___ test went and most of them say it was easy. What really gets me on the edge is when I see people who clearly don't do work and end up performing well on tests. It's literally an insult to studying and although I try and get over it, every time I see them lounging around it always reminds me of those moments.

And to top it off with that, im currently doing only 3/5 courses I planned on doing because I failed courses last semester and 2 of them were pre reqs for the 2 this semester. I still haven't gotten back up to speed and have talked to various counselors about this and mostly it was time management, motivation and confidence. I got 2 essays and a final project to do before finals and even though I lessen my amount of work, I still am not doing what I expect myself to do. I try to avoid putting myself down but it's an automatic response. I gotta get my self esteem back as well.

Well, hope for the best I guess. SAWAP everyone.
 
I retract the statements and claims I made about coconut oil a few months back in this thread. Something else happened to me, an anomaly or some neuron connection forged by good habits.

I had to goto court for a hearing a month ago where I had to speak in front of a judge and a few people with pending hearings, I drank a coconut oil concoction and it didn't reduce my anxiety by much. my voice was still shaky, but eventually said whatever needed to be said and got the job done. But yeah certain situations still make me pee my pants and coconut oil doesn't help.

I am much better off now compared to before, but I think it was a combination of long term exercise and a good diet that suits my body well and not coconut oil.
 
I'm going through a bad period of pain. The same thoughts always cross my mind during these, especially as they get worse. Why am I here? What am I fighting for, exactly? A life of more of this? Sometimes, when the pain is at its worst and none of the usual meds are helping, I just lie on the floor and cry out to an unlistening God.

It's weird. I went to Los Angeles not having a great deal of hope (it was my mom's idea, after all) but maybe there was a little bit there after all because the aftermath has been devastating. When we're sick, we just assume that doctors can fix us. It never really crosses our mind that there are certain situations where they're helpless (terminal cancer aside, of course). Hell, I've even been told by one doctor that there's nothing wrong with me because if there was, he'd be able to fix the problem. Not that my own ego isn't gigantic-sized (being a musician and all) but good lord. At least the specialist was honest and admitted that there was nothing more that could be done for me.

I'm shutting down and I know it. I can't go on without hope. Unlike last winter, I've managed to control and internalize it in a way so I'm not taking it out on others but that's small comfort. That just means that I'm less toxic, not less of a time bomb. I don't want the last memories people have of me to be this super angry, super bitter person who goes about systemically sabotaging his relationships. I can control that much, at least, until I can take it no more..
 
Oh man, I'm having a panic attack. It just happened all of a sudden when I went to bed. I feel incredibly worried and can't relax. I can't recall the last time I had one. Freaking out.
 
Hi GAF

Finally giving this topic a go, so please bear with me.

Been suffering with depression and anxiety for quite a while now. Have been coping as best as I can now for the last few months with cycling and anti-depressants prescribed by my doctor.

For a while I felt like I had made some good progress, but have fallen in to a bit of a slump lately. My long-term girlfriend broke up with me on Valentine's Day, and so I am currently coping with this new emptiness in my life. Coming home to an empty apartment, waking up to an empty bed. I'm not used to feeling lonely.

I'm still taking the pills, and cycling when possible (the weather here in the UK is awful right now). I'm trying my best to contact friends and arrange events/days out, but I'm finding it difficult to make plans.
 
Ambien is something I would think most people should not mess around with. I've taken Ambien a few times and never had negative experiences with it and even had it where it didn't do anything for me, but some people report loss of memory and hallucinations. There's even been a thread or two that had people going through the motions as they were typing up posts.

I would never sleep without Ambien. When I take it, its the only part of the day my brain is not overflowing with anxiety. Sometimes I do have loss of memory, but Ambien (rather, being able to sleep) has really made my life better and gives me some sense of normality.
 
Is it really true that you shouldn't use Ambien long-term? Or is that something they just say because it wasn't FDA tested beyond taking it for more than a few weeks or something?
 
Hi GAF

Finally giving this topic a go, so please bear with me.

Been suffering with depression and anxiety for quite a while now. Have been coping as best as I can now for the last few months with cycling and anti-depressants prescribed by my doctor.

For a while I felt like I had made some good progress, but have fallen in to a bit of a slump lately. My long-term girlfriend broke up with me on Valentine's Day, and so I am currently coping with this new emptiness in my life. Coming home to an empty apartment, waking up to an empty bed. I'm not used to feeling lonely.

I'm still taking the pills, and cycling when possible (the weather here in the UK is awful right now). I'm trying my best to contact friends and arrange events/days out, but I'm finding it difficult to make plans.


Hey there!

Sorry to hear you've been having such a tough time lately, especially on Valentine's Day a break up is really hard to have to go through. Try not to be too hard on yourself about the slump. You are keeping active, and doing the best you can, which is good by itself.

It sounds like you are on the right track, by contacting your friends. Maybe see if there are any clubs or classes you could join? Or you could make plans to travel by yourself? Just keep putting yourself out there where you can and the loneliness should get a little easier.

Keep your head up, things will get easier :) (Also, as a fellow Brit, I know what you mean about the weather xD)
 
I would never sleep without Ambien. When I take it, its the only part of the day my brain is not overflowing with anxiety. Sometimes I do have loss of memory, but Ambien (rather, being able to sleep) has really made my life better and gives me some sense of normality.
I hear you. I'm the same way but I don't have access to Ambien so I normally have to suffer with insomnia. It's going to get worse now that we're headed into summer.
 
anyone got experience with psychiatrists? Got my first appointment on monday
 
anyone got experience with psychiatrists? Got my first appointment on monday
Only with state run psychiatrists and from my personal experience, they don't care much. They just want to write you a prescription and get you the hell out of there.
 
Only with state run psychiatrists and from my personal experience, they don't care much. They just want to write you a prescription and get you the hell out of there.

Im lucky enough this is going to be private so even if he doesnt care he will probably act like he does :D, im just nervous about the experience, its an hour session with a half hour follow up.
 
anyone got experience with psychiatrists? Got my first appointment on monday
In my experience, most of them are terrible. They don't have the time or interest to do anything besides writing prescriptions. If you don't have any diagnosed conditions it will likely be better to see a psychologist first.
Im lucky enough this is going to be private so even if he doesnt care he will probably act like he does :D, im just nervous about the experience, its an hour session with a half hour follow up.
That sounds promising. Good luck.
 
Im lucky enough this is going to be private so even if he doesnt care he will probably act like he does :D, im just nervous about the experience, its an hour session with a half hour follow up.
I never had a psychiatrist spend an hour with me so yeah, you'll be alright. I understand being nervous but this is to help you out and as long as you don't tell him you're suicidal (or homicidal) or that you're currently hearing voices, there's nothing to be worried about. Try to be as honest with him/her as you can. I'm embarrassed about a lot of things so I haven't always told them some things but in your case, you have a psychiatrist who seems like they're willing to help you analyze your issues so I would tell them everything. Hell, even let them know you're nervous about speaking with them. I'm sure they will do more than reassure you. Again, you have nothing to fear unless you plan on hurting yourself or others.
 
For interest what would happen if one was suicidal? I am not, but its curious people mention that being a hot button issue.
 
For interest what would happen if one was suicidal?
They'd probably first send you to the hospital in what they call a Legal 2000 for 72 hour observation at a regular hospital and if you're still suicidal, they take you to a mental health facility. Or, maybe in a case like your's where you're speaking with a psychiatrist, you'd go straight to the mental health hospital. I've only ever been in the 72 hour observation at the regular hospital and it was not fun. I heard that being in the mental hospital is even worse. However, if you truly feel like you're going to hurt yourself (or others) at the time you speak with the psychiatrist, you should let them know for your own benefit.

Edit: Going by my experience in Legal 2000, nobody actually gave a shit about you. They only cared that you don't hurt yourself but they don't care if you're depressed. I had people laughing at me, asking me what the big deal was, etc. when I was crying there. You're not allowed to have any possessions - no phone, no magazines.... nothing! You're put in an alcove with just a bed and there's a shitty communal television from around the Regan administration with crappy reception. It sucks bad.
 
Does anyone know where I can take a test that tests for mental disabilities and/or just a simple IQ test that would cost me nothing? I'd really like to know exactly what is wrong with me and how retarded I am. I would love to do it from home, online, but it needs to be 100& legitimate.
 
Does anyone know where I can take a test that tests for mental disabilities and/or just a simple IQ test that would cost me nothing? I'd really like to know exactly what is wrong with me and how retarded I am. I would love to do it from home, online, but it needs to be 100& legitimate.
A comprehensive IQ test would need to be administered personally. I wouldn't consider anything free online valid.

You can take pre-screens for mental disabilities easily enough, but you wouldn't know for certain unless you were diagnosed. Even then, there's the chance of a wrong diagnosis. Best bet (which I haven't done) is get multiple opinions from psychiatrists.
 
Found this in the funny pictures thread.

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Call it garden planning (or wishful thinking considering the "still winter" season I'm in right now) but I've started a blog that relates to flowers, gardening, perfume, aromatherapy, comic strips (hopefully daily, and eventual featuring my own).

I am very much a scent/smell person. It's not a be-all, end-all solution to my woes but being outside in the dirt and sun, physical activity, tending to wonderful smelling plants and growing my own food always keeps my spirits up. It's kind of like my meditation.

I'm also planning to get back to boxing/kickboxing starting this week. Can't wait. These are all little things I do with my time to deal with depression, anxiety. and restlessness.

|| the colour mint ||

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Really? Adhoms and ignorance. Nothing to really reply to here.

How long have you been in the mental healthcare "game" and how many psych visits have you had? I've been in mental healthcare since 6 yrs old, and had 19 psych visits throughout my adult life, two were state hospitals which were 6 months and 8 months. So talk from "experience", not your ass.

The point I was trying to make about it being a sort of guess work as you have said, it's a complex interplay of all kinds of factors for each complex individual making it IMPOSSIBLE to adequately treat or even at times diagnose the source or deeper causes. So it is...guess work to a large degree. No matter what methods of practice are being used you cannot predict or determine how a drug like Zyprexa will interact with X person's brain chemistry and thusly side effects or even lifelong issues that will be caused by that drug...you can't 99% predict it. It is not a mathematical science, where you can predict things down to the exact decimal placement. So my advice was, it's guess work to a very large degree considering how the drugs are administered, overseen and even allowed into the market through the FDA. Surely you're aware of the scandals there. So please don't try to convince me that there's some secret methodology than what I've experienced in units and in doctor's offices firsthand. But my other point was, educate yourself first, you'll find a VAST storehouse of knowledge, firsthand accounts, side effects, drug interactions, and rare side effects simply by researching it yourself, rather than relying on a doctor to do it for you. That way, you can make more positive, well informed, proactive decisions about a drug or even just be able to ask the doctors the needed questions that most patients wouldn't know to inquire about.

And yeah, I've been a benzo addict for about 8 years now, heavily and prescribed by my psychiatrist. The consensus was, I was less of a danger to myself and others on them than without them, since my psychopathy and homicidal/suicidal tendencies are and have been medication resistant since I was a child. Nothing works, quite simply except getting me loaded. And even then, my "Prick levels" goes from 10 off benzo's/Ambien to about 7 on a good day with them. And yeah, I've been driving for years on benzo's they barely effect any kind of motor skills now, I'm that tolerant at this point. I'd need 20mg of Xanax to even start making me bump into walls anymore. And to sleep, I drink, or I pop a couple Seconals.

I don't know why you felt the need to establish your mental health cred with Filler. You don't know anything about him, A. B, is there a contest? Is the person with the most time in treatment the winner of any argument? We want to welcome all sorts of posters, with all sorts of experiences, and have great discussion, but we draw a line at ANY advice that is going to hurt people. We've been very prickly about it in the past. We'll be prickly about it in the future.

Your whole point about talking from experience is a real problem in healthcare. Patients with problems that are particularly difficult to treat (or with bad experiences with healthcare) can end up personalizing the disease(s) to an unhealthy degree. Your experiences are your own. They matter more than anything to you, but it's very frustrating when people who, say, responded poorly to Prozac, pop up in every fucking thread to go "NEVER TAKE PROZAC, BRO!" You get by on a level of benzos that most physicians would shit themselves about. It works for you? Alright. People got a little prickly when you made the leap to "ask me how to score benzos, that's really all that works." I'm not you. FillerB isn't you. No one else is you. When we advise from personal experience, we should be very clear about that. I try to wear the different hats of someone with some healthcare experience, who has done research in receptor biology and addiction, who just cares about people in here in general, and as a sufferer of depression. I TRY (but certainly fail at times) to say "The research demonstrates x," vs "My experience with x was...," vs. "x really worked for me, and based on what you've told me, I think it might be a good option for you..." vs. "In the clinic, we would do x..."

The suggestion that the complexity of psychiatric disorders makes them "IMPOSSIBLE" to treat or diagnose is ludicrous. If the standard for a drug is to be able to predict, with 99% certainty how it will affect you, healthcare is done for. Nothing is that good. Not even close. BUT! It's getting better in all areas of medicine. "Individualized medicine" is the buzzword. In some areas it's more a dream than anything, but even in psychiatry, genomic testing has come into standard practice. You can look at cytochrome p450 variations and know how their body will break down all sorts of drugs. Will the drug get rapidly degraded, meaning you need a higher dose? Or will it linger way longer than it does in the average person, meaning normal dosing is going to be a disaster? There's more work on genetic polymorphisms in receptors, enzymes, etc etc going on.

From my main research, which was on the receptor that nicotine binds to in the brain (we focused mainly on the form that your body uses to make your muscles work - the body reuses stuff like mad!), for hereditary myasthenic syndromes (basically inherited conditions in which the muscles fatigue very rapidly) it was once a crapshoot with the drugs. Interestingly, at the receptor level, two completely opposite problems give rise to the same phenotype. If you have a fast-channel syndrome, the drug that blocks your channels does wonders. If you have a slow-channel syndrome, we could potentially kill you. So...not great. Our lab developed a simple blood test for the particular polymorphisms you find in these families with these conditions. So now, you take a blood test and we give you the exact drug you need. It's pretty magical.

Beyond all this crazy awesome "THE FUTURE IS NOW!" stuff, there isn't any top-secret medical knowledge your doctor has, beyond intensive, broad training. A psychiatrist takes the same boards a neurologist does, which makes sense, but he or she also has to know, and spend time practicing in, all the other specialties.

Some doctors do just shoot from the hip, and they like prescribing certain drugs for whatever reasons (contrary to popular opinion, you are not paid based on the drugs you prescribe. Drug companies get up to some icky stuff, but the existence of scandals doesn't mean you write the whole enterprise off, does it?), but there are algorithms and tested methods. You can look at the Texas Drug Algorithm and the STAR*D methodology to start. In the podcast we made for this thread (which I'd like to revive, but it's taking some work), I talked about some papers discussing how you use the side effects of antidepressants to guide your prescribing. Paxil is notorious for increasing appetite. If low appetite is a problem, you use that to your advantage.

At the most basic level, you look at what meds have worked in close relatives. That doesn't give you 99% assurance of success or failure, but you're already well ahead of just rolling some dice.
 
They'd probably first send you to the hospital in what they call a Legal 2000 for 72 hour observation at a regular hospital and if you're still suicidal, they take you to a mental health facility. Or, maybe in a case like your's where you're speaking with a psychiatrist, you'd go straight to the mental health hospital. I've only ever been in the 72 hour observation at the regular hospital and it was not fun. I heard that being in the mental hospital is even worse. However, if you truly feel like you're going to hurt yourself (or others) at the time you speak with the psychiatrist, you should let them know for your own benefit.

Edit: Going by my experience in Legal 2000, nobody actually gave a shit about you. They only cared that you don't hurt yourself but they don't care if you're depressed. I had people laughing at me, asking me what the big deal was, etc. when I was crying there. You're not allowed to have any possessions - no phone, no magazines.... nothing! You're put in an alcove with just a bed and there's a shitty communal television from around the Regan administration with crappy reception. It sucks bad.

Jesus Christ, what a disgusting experience. It really bothers me that this is how people are treated. Gee, I can't understand why people don't want to talk to anyone when there's that horrible possibility floating around. The laughing at part I think is what is the worst, you're already on the brink and then you have everything taken away from you so people can make fun of you? Fantastic...
 
Hey there!

Sorry to hear you've been having such a tough time lately, especially on Valentine's Day a break up is really hard to have to go through. Try not to be too hard on yourself about the slump. You are keeping active, and doing the best you can, which is good by itself.

It sounds like you are on the right track, by contacting your friends. Maybe see if there are any clubs or classes you could join? Or you could make plans to travel by yourself? Just keep putting yourself out there where you can and the loneliness should get a little easier.

Keep your head up, things will get easier :) (Also, as a fellow Brit, I know what you mean about the weather xD)

Hey, thank you for taking the time and responding to me. It means a lot.

I'm trying my best to be out of the apartment as much as possible. I find myself feeling very lonely when I'm here.

Funny that you mention travelling, because I am heading down to London for a weekend to go to a gig. I'm really looking forward to it, and am hoping it'll be a great distraction.

I'm moving out next month to a new house, and whilst I will still be living alone, it won't be a home with memories and items belonging to my ex-girlfriend. It'll be my place and a new start. I may also look to get a pet to keep me company.
 
Im feeling the same. Whenever I sit next to a friend of mine and ask about how ___ test went and most of them say it was easy. What really gets me on the edge is when I see people who clearly don't do work and end up performing well on tests. It's literally an insult to studying and although I try and get over it, every time I see them lounging around it always reminds me of those moments.

And to top it off with that, im currently doing only 3/5 courses I planned on doing because I failed courses last semester and 2 of them were pre reqs for the 2 this semester. I still haven't gotten back up to speed and have talked to various counselors about this and mostly it was time management, motivation and confidence. I got 2 essays and a final project to do before finals and even though I lessen my amount of work, I still am not doing what I expect myself to do. I try to avoid putting myself down but it's an automatic response. I gotta get my self esteem back as well.

Well, hope for the best I guess. SAWAP everyone.

Good luck with your courses. I sent an email to my instructor to know my grade for the exam on Ethnic Studies class, and I got like C/C-. Not happy about it, but at least it's a passing grade.
 
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