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I watched the whole Matrix trilogy last Friday night and couldn't understand Reloaded nor Revolutions. The funny thing is that I watched them many times and thought I understood them, but there were too many confusing conversations this time. I've been feeling incredibly stupid since then.

Currently I'm in the process of making a RTTP thread about it, which I hope I can finish soon.


As for "real" problems, I'm unhappy about my life, but I also don't know what to do about it. The worst part is that, in the end, it's comfortable and I'm so used to it that I may even be afraid of change or too lazy to do anything about it.

Hell, I'm scared of going to the US alone next year (will be my first time in that country), despite wanting to go there my whole life. For that reason, I haven't begun to plan my trip yet, even though I've been saving money for the past 2 years for this purpose.
 
Just came out of a relationship that I thought was going to end up with marriage and babies. I'm mourning the loss of that future and those babies- and trying to come to grips with the likely reality that children are probably not going to happen for me now because of my age.
I look in the mirror and I see a ton of gray hair and my viability as a suitable mate slipping away- as a woman I feel how much my "value" is tied to youth & beauty and it sucks.
Before the break up I felt like I was doing it right, like my life was going somewhere. Now I'm back with my folks who are ill and aged, I'm under employed and attempting a career change and sleeping on a bed I found on the street because there were significant expenses and furniture left behind. I feel like I quite literally have nothing, and seeing my folks so frail and unwell while burdoning them with my lack of financial ability and mourning my relationship... It sucks and I feel bad for my folks.
Also, gaf has made me have a strong sense of mistrust in men- I know its the internet, but sometimes being a woman just sucks, and makes me feel like the world doesn't see me as a human being. And all the shows I like on TV get cancelled or have shitty endings. Such bullshit!

:< sounds like you're in a rough spot, sis :<

come to GirlGAF sometimes? we try to support each other and there's awesome GAF men that frequent there too :> who maaaaaaaay mend your mistrust in men a bit? hopefully?

coming to terms with a break-up is always hard :< i hope you dont put it too hard on yourself.

hugs are here if you wants any <3
 
I can't stop fucking smoking. I hate me for that. Weak fuck.

Don't stop for yourself. Stop for those great kids of yours.

I'm kind of bummed that one of my best friends didn't ask me to be part of his wedding party. At first he said he wasn't having groomsmen at all, and then a couple weeks ago apparently decided he was since his fiance wanted bridesmaids. I didn't even hear about the change until after the bachelor party this weekend with the wedding a week away, and even then it was second hand through my best friend who is a groomsman.

On the same hand, I probably couldn't afford the attire and going out after the wedding like everyone planned since the bachelor party itself put a huge dent in my wallet, but still. Could've taken out a payday loan and made it happen.

He's just not that good of a friend to you. It's okay, though, better to know this now. He still considers you a friend, just not to the extent you though. Plus, Payday Loans are terrible and you are lucky you did not have to take one out.
 
i feel stunted in my romantic life. im 23 in college, ive had my own apt for for years, own a nice car, and have a steady job and internship which provides me with a good income, so i have my shit together so to say. im finding myself completely turned off by women my own age or slightly older for various reasons; mainly because a lot of women my age or older are too concerned about micromanaging ever aspect of their lives when they usually dont have their shit together. they dont have their own living space, real car, or job and are falling back on their college as some sort of accomplishment, when to me its not, so its been a huge turn off dealing with women who think they have shit together when they really dont.

so instead im basically dating and sleeping with women who are 19-21 from school, and its all pretty shallow, but not much of a hassle. id like a more serious relationship tho, and im finding it hard to meet people who are in line with what i want in a relationship. im starting to get a bit irritated not being able to find someone to date just to have a consistent relationship.
 
I feel like I 'wasted' college in that I didn't make enough connections or figure out what I wanted to do. Now I have a job I don't like with lowish job security and have no idea what I want from the future.

Could be worse, eh, but life is confusing.

I hate people who hate The Beatles.

Fighting the good fight
 
I watched the whole Matrix trilogy last Friday night and couldn't understand Reloaded nor Revolutions. The funny thing is that I watched them many times and thought I understood them, but there were too many confusing conversations this time. I've been feeling incredibly stupid since then.

Currently I'm in the process of making a RTTP thread about it, which I hope I can finish soon.

The first movie is very thematically removed from the other two. Don't mix them together.
 
I'm getting divorced. I lock down the court date this Wednesday. I've run the gamut on emotions. Still have trouble sleeping though.

I'm mostly over everything but I'm feeling a bit overwhelmed by the finality of this life change. This compounded with work and school stress has led to an alarming health screen I took on friday for work: my blood pressure is 170/110. I'm 31. Kinda scared tbh :/
 
I'm tired of SJW stuff being discussed everywhere, all the time, no matter what the original subject was. Everything has to turn into a sjw discussion. Everything.
Yep, this is close to the top of my list. Some of my opinions on matters are not accepted amongst the SJWs and rather than be called a bigot/homophobe/racist/misogynist/etc, I just stay out of the discussion since there is no discussion to be had. Threads just turn into echo chambers and anyone with conflicting opinions get either banned or lambasted.
 
I have a super duper hang-nail that won't go away and pulling on it makes me bleed like crazy. F u whoever thought hang-nails were a good idea.
 
Yep, this is close to the top of my list. Some of my opinions on matters are not accepted amongst the SJWs and rather than be called a bigot/homophobe/racist/misogynist/etc, I just stay out of the discussion since there is no discussion to be had. Threads just turn into echo chambers and anyone with conflicting opinions get either banned or lambasted.

What interesting opinions you seem to have, good sir.
 
The first movie is very thematically removed from the other two. Don't mix them together.
I never realized that, as I never watched them back-to-back before. Morpheus changed completely in the sequels, turning from a cool mysterious character into a crazy religious dude who goes against what logic dictates.

Need a ship to save Zion? Nope, Morpheus needs it due to some weird prophecy that may or may not be real. It's also funny how most people seem to play along with him. Several ships have been destroyed thanks to Morpheus' actions? Doesn't matter, Neo will take yet another one to the heart of the machines' city -the same machines that they need the ships to protect themselves from.

And I don't think the Merovingian spoke a single important or understandable word in the whole trilogy.
 
I'm getting divorced. I lock down the court date this Wednesday. I've run the gamut on emotions. Still have trouble sleeping though.

I'm mostly over everything but I'm feeling a bit overwhelmed by the finality of this life change. This compounded with work and school stress has led to an alarming health screen I took on friday for work: my blood pressure is 170/110. I'm 31. Kinda scared tbh :/

I went through a divorce. It was hard and I know everything you're going through.

What helped me was working out. I got into shape and all the stress and anxiety over that situation in my life melted away. I focused on myself and I feel 95% better.
 
I have a huge fucking interview in silicon valley next week. And it starts out with an hour long presentation. I've given the most awkward fucking public speeches previous to this one. And it's taking a lot of prep to make the most meaningful of the lot be the first where I actually act like myself.
 
If I don't find a job soon I am not going to able to go back to school by my planned ETA.
Fall is coming, so I should expected to get sick soon.
 
Yep, this is close to the top of my list. Some of my opinions on matters are not accepted amongst the SJWs and rather than be called a bigot/homophobe/racist/misogynist/etc, I just stay out of the discussion since there is no discussion to be had. Threads just turn into echo chambers and anyone with conflicting opinions get either banned or lambasted.

i can understand that, you definitely have to pick your words carefully in some those threads, or else people will easily misinterpret what your saying. there's also certain things Gaf is more open minded to that i find hard to always agree with or understand.
 
I'm a drain and a burden on everyone around me. I really just deserve to be alone and away from people because I do nothing but bother and annoy them.
 
Threads just turn into echo chambers and anyone with conflicting opinions get either banned or lambasted.

If you present good arguments in a respectful manner, you're going to be reciprocated with the same. If you examine those who have been banned in the past, it's usually due to either their lack of sensitivity or foresight, or their hostile and inflammatory attitude.

Basically, if you genuinely want to hear the reasoning behind the sentiments you disagree with, politely ask for it instead of provoking people into a response. That would lead to a lot of unnecessary anger, and you'd likely leave with your questions still unanswered.
 
Back in 2003ish I spent a ridiculous amount of money on Magic The Gathering : Online digital cards. I didn't keep track, but it was probably near a grand.

To add insult to my foolishness, I no longer remember the email address, username or password to that account.
 
I'm switching roles within my company at the end of October. I've lost all drive and I'm literally doing next to nothing at work now.
 
wise

o the poor dear

hope it bandaid much so can get better soon and be kawaii again~

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Hang tight little buddy :(

If everyone could send their prayers to my buddy here thx
 
I have difficulty conveying my thoughts in an online forum. In person? No problem. Online? It seems I have a difficulty getting across coherent syntax. It is quite maddening.
 
I think my mother-in-law is cool as mother-in-laws go, however there are times that she's demanding, authoritative, short and pushy with me when it's not necessary at all. Point in fact, it's whenever her ex-husband comes to visit, or thereabouts (to see his daughters and grandchildren).

She's taken her anger out on me plenty, to the point where my wife has told her as much. My father-in-law is coming up this weekend, and it's already starting up. Might not be able to take it this time.
 
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