Anyone ever try suicide?
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Jamesfrom818
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I did but then I came back 3 days later
Icanplaythat
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Tapiozona said:
I would normally agree with you, but I have no friends outside of work and only speak to one family member, so I wouldn't exactly be leaving behind a huge mass of grieving individuals. I wish I was tougher, but my not so great childhood has affected every second of everyday of my life. It makes every interaction uncomfortable, always thinking of the torture that I was not able to stop or run from, the memories that I can't shake. I wish I could just wake up tomorrow and say "fuck it"and go on a new man, but I haven't been able to. Therapies not working, pills aren't working, running out of choices.
Broder Salsa
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SalsaShark said:
I know you're a football fan, Robben should be motivation for your balding and happiness!
The Lamonster
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No. I'm scared of dying.Icanplaythat said:
Is suicide your way of coping with the loss of a loved one?
i've thought about it quite a bit since my cancer came back, but i'm not sure where i stand on it. my thought process on it has been that i'm going to die eventually, i only have the choice between having it happen while i'm still of relatively good health and mind, or when the cancer takes over and i'm medicated to the point where i lose my sense of being.
la flama blanca
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I saved my sisters life when she tried overdosing on pills. She was literally awake for nearly a week shaking and talking like a demon had taken over her body, but now she is much better thank god. I don't want to be rude, but killing yourself is a really selfish act, there is ALWAYS time for change.
disappeared
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Icanplaythat said:
check your PMs.
Icanplaythat
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Crunched said:
I would feel terrible leaving a pet alone in my apartment 9 to 10 hours a day.
Mihael Mello Keehl
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hell no..its selfish as hell my family and friends shouldnt suffer from my selfishness
greycolumbus
The success of others absolutely infuriates me.
Icanplaythat said:
And then you feel better when you get home and care after your pet.
disappeared
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Mihael Mello Keehl said:
But that is usually something the suicide-attempter doesn't realize until after the fact.
Hindsight is 20-20.
Life is about making mistakes and learning.
Suicide is simply the extreme of that lesson.
Cats don't careIcanplaythat said:
Very few people seemed to care at all when I tried, and I suspect they still wouldn't.disappeared said:
Sometimes you just feel used or unneeded, that's partly what contributes to suicidal thoughts. You should know this if you were in that position once before.
Most days I wake up thinking nobody needs me or wants me around. I've been in a relationship for six years and am engaged, so logically I should understand that isn't so. But I have a hard time accepting that. "Hard time" is in fact an understatement. I don't know why that is, but I find I am constantly convincing myself that nobody really cares about me or would miss me if I was gone.
It's not logical reasoning, and simply saying "you're wrong," or "that's not the way it is," doesn't fix it.
la flama blanca
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Yo man, just go crazy in a positive way. Seriously. Turn your depression into anger, anger back onto the circumstances that brought you here. The only suicide you should be committing is the daily routine your stuck in. I'd do all the shit I would ever want to do, but was too scared to before I tried killing myself. Also, go see a psychiatrist.Icanplaythat said:
scar tissue
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QFTTapiozona said:
i quit my meds a month ago from one day to the next and i'm fine, but that's because they were weak and didn't do much for me besides making me sleepy and killing my sex drive.
also helps that i'm on vacation and having a great time
going cold turkey if you take strong meds is fucking stupid and has nothing to do with willpower
quitting therapy is even dumber
Icanplaythat
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The Lamonster said:
No, that's another source of self hatred. I don't miss things or people, my grandmother died like 14 years ago, she was the only adult in my family that I loved. I cried when I saw her die, she had cancer and came home to pass, but I can honestly say I have not missed her for one second. That alone makes me feels inhuman.
disappeared
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bengraven said:
And how are you, these days?
Mickey Avalon
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Uhh.....ummm....wow....can't say that's how i'd do it
Admiral Bone to Pick
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Suicide is never a good choice. It's permanent and you can't take it back. You may not think you'll hurt people but you will. When you're depressed, you feel like you're all alone in the world and nobody cares about you. But there are people who care about you. I don't even know you and yet I'd be depressed if I heard you killed yourself. So many people attempt suicide (and fail) and look back years later at how awful a choice it would have been.
Your judgment is being hampered. There was a story about a Chinese man who saved over 40 lives at a famous suicide spot. And if you can become a stronger person, a happier person, you will be the one to help out others in need. Find a purpose. Volunteer and help others.
Your judgment is being hampered. There was a story about a Chinese man who saved over 40 lives at a famous suicide spot. And if you can become a stronger person, a happier person, you will be the one to help out others in need. Find a purpose. Volunteer and help others.
Femmeworth
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D: Even as someone who has attempted suicide, that was hard to read. Goddamn.Icanplaythat said:
Back in January I tried to drown myself, and then in April I overdosed on caffeine pills (heart stopped). Fun times. :\
Icanplaythat
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Crunched said:
I talk to a psychiatrist every 2 weeks for half an hour; it's difficult to open up to another person and not really a great deal of time for really intensive therapy.
Femmeworth
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(Most) psychiatrists in this day and age are really only good for writing prescriptions. If you need someone to talk to, see a counselor/therapist/psychologist.Icanplaythat said:
bggrthnjsus
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the sad/interesting thing about all of this is that people who attempt to kill themselves via methods like cutting/stabbing/pills/etc have low success rates, but at the same time when they survive have high rates of relapse. whereas people who attempt things like guns, jumping have very high success rates, but when they survive have very low rates of relapse. there are some studies regarding impulsivity ratings and prevention of suicide relapses, but there just seems to be something about the personality of a person who would do it in a less 'violent' way that leads to relapse, or something in the violence of the more impulsive methods that prevent relapse if survived.
My dad was suicidal all of last year. One time I discovered the rope and stool he was planning on using to hang himself with in the trunk of his car.
It's an unusual feeling when a loved one is so openly suicidal, and rejecting all help. I used to see him at around launch time for 15 minutes most days, but he lived alone in a small apartment. At the end of each launch I was unsure whether he would still be alive the next day - and when he was late to launch you could do nothing be fear the worst. Ugh.
It's an unusual feeling when a loved one is so openly suicidal, and rejecting all help. I used to see him at around launch time for 15 minutes most days, but he lived alone in a small apartment. At the end of each launch I was unsure whether he would still be alive the next day - and when he was late to launch you could do nothing be fear the worst. Ugh.
disappeared
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ninj4junpei said:
My counsellor, back in theday was a woman named Shelly. She was great. She even visited me once in the psych ward. A strong woman who I still respect to this day. The other one, who prescribed my meds, didn't seem to care. He just talked ona nd on about setting goals. Pointless shit. He never tried to talk it out. So yeah, Shelly was good, the other guy was horrible. After that I just decided I was strong enough to persevere on my own, and now I'm a stronger person because of it.
Lionel Mandrake
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This is the most dangerous thread I've seen in awhile.
dragonlife
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OMGbengraven said:
Why at such a young age?
AbsoluteZero
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SalsaShark said:all i can think about after reading OP is this for some reason
I never understood that movie.
"Imma poke you in the chest!"
"Ow"
*dead*
greycolumbus
The success of others absolutely infuriates me.
dragonlife said:OMG
Why at such a young age?
I can't speak for him, but I too contemplated suicide at an early age. I'm not entirely sure why
disappeared
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Vire said:
But if one survives it, it is an incredible life lesson.
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