Had a job network appointment today. As usual I leave feeling miserable. The woman I now deal with is very nice (and attractive to boot), but my attendance just reminds me of how dreadfully unemployed I am, and kicks my brain into third gear of stressful thinking.
They have a job opening tomorrow that they're sending clients to, though I don't think I'll be attending, even though I originally said I would. It's a place nearby, only fifteen minutes walk, but the job itself is just...packing boxes. Packing boxes with cakes and other assorted crap for ten hours a day, five days a week. Shifts are erratic, and can start as early as 2am.
I'm at the stage now where legally, if I'm to rely on government benefits, I should be taking any job I can technically do. But I don't think I can hack this. I left iView (teleresearch) because the monotonous, soulless mechanical work drove me mental (among other things). I hated being there, felt unstimulated and unchallenged, and loathed the gruelling 9-to-5 mechanical bullshit. This would be the same, only even longer shifts, and even more empty, mechanical work.
But it pays well...and I'm unemployed. At what point am I being a choosy begger? Am I wrong to decline something like this, despite it being close by and well paying, simply because of how I predict it will tax me mentally?
Ugh. I need a job. Or something.
EDIT: And to make matters worse, Nintendo added gold nunchucks to Club Nintendo, and I had spent my stars just last week. Goddamnit.