I am the wrong person to talk to about psychologists but I would say that is the opposite of the truth.
Oh I know, that's why I thought I'd share that. It's totally bizarre. The general impression of the guy is that he didn't want to actually do anything. I won't be seeing him again.
I tried to get my Gran to see a counsellor many times. She asked her GP numerous times, and he didn't do much about it either. I think the other resources are a better option. I'll be going through Veteran Affairs to find someone good for her.
I think what he was probably looking for is a, yea life currently sucks but I would certainly like it to be better. Fake that shit and he would have believed that you actually do want to help yourself and improve your life. It sounds fucking stupid to say that, But to a lot of people there's no point helping out someone who doesn't seem like they actually want the help. Even though we here know you would love life to be better.
That's the weird thing, I don't get turning away someone asking for help. He's not the only option out there for advice, but I just wanted to see what he'd say or do. He knows me through my Aunt and the whole family situation, so he knows that I've been through a rough time recently. I know my Uncle has had words with him (which have painted me in a very bad light), so I think that is influencing his reluctance to give me assistance.
After seeing his lack of interest in helping me, I wasn't going to spill my guts and tell him how bad it was. It was quite transparent what was happening.
I do somewhat wish that you would take shitty jobs. I know that's an odd thing to say, But for me it's what helped me get up in the morning. There's a good chance you could meet some outstanding people (along with fuckwits). You could be working a shitty position but the company could be excellent. I dunno, Search for new experiences I guess when it comes to a job. Don't think of it as just another shitty job but as a new experience with different people. I wish I had done that when I was younger, bounce from random ass job to random ass job. I might have actually had friends by now D: and I may even have had some interesting stories to share by the time I'm 50.
I can handle a job that isn't great, hell I told everyone here about my last job experience. I stuck it out until the end and handled it fine. It's the monotonous jobs that I couldn't handle, my mind wanders and not to a good place. That's the type of thing I'm trying to avoid. Does that make sense?
There's certainly some mistakes we have all made in life. Mine was spending 4 years playing WoW while not working because I believed I was better than what was out there and that the world owed me something. It took me a while to realise planet earth doesn't owe me a fucking thing, I owe it everything.
I've had long unemployment stretches in the past, I acted like the world owed me something also. I started doing drugs and ended up in a very dark place. I won't ever be doing that again, I've learned my lesson and turned my life around.
I lapse into depression from time to time when things don't work out, but often they're short periods, like an hour or so and I'm able to pull myself out (most of you who have seen my outbursts have encountered those times). But when things get as bad as they have gotten recently, those periods stretch out for much longer, lasting days or weeks and it gets very, very bad. I know what I need to do to break they cycle, struggling to do that amplifies the emotions. At least I'm not lapsing into substance abuse, and I never will again.
I had a visit from an old friend today, which has significantly lifted my spirits. I just finished tuning up his PC for him. He's looking into the vacant position at my local JB I mentioned here as he knows the new manager there, to see if he can help me out. He asked about my back, but I'm just going to soldier on if I get the position. I can afford to pay for physio to improve the muscles around my back to minimise the pain and discomfort.
Danoss you can get the Medicare Mental health scheme going. Call the state numbers I listed last night. See another gp. You can get in, despite what one gp says.
He was clearly a jerk who either didn't want to put in the effort, or is intentionally avoiding helping me. From what my Uncle told him, he believes that I intimidate and terrorise my Gran so she is afraid of me and I can control her (please don't anyone say that they think I am capable of this, or that it's a likely story). Because of this, I shouldn't be surprised by the result of today.
I'm seeking a new GP anyway as I need to get on those waiting lists ASAP. I'm not discouraged by it, mostly stunned and appalled. I'll see how I go over the next couple of days before contacting any of those lines, I'm feeling decent at the moment. I know occasional times of feeling good are often possible with depression and then the bottom falls out and you're back to where you were, or worse. Being able to climb out of this hole on my own (with some assistance by someone I know) means a lot to me. If I fall flat on my face again, I'll get right on it. I called Beyondblue on my own accord last time, I'll do it again this time if I have to.
