Against my better judgment, I had skipped up to five days of Week 3 last week and spent that time ruminating. Yesterday I decided to just clear my mind of all my thoughts and meditated, getting rid of all that excess junk that was taking control of my head. In my previous attempts, a setback like this would've prompted me to restart the whole program again since it's a rather major loss of exercise. But I decided that I was going to finish the program since that was the whole reason for this Leans routine in the first place: Just managing to finish P90X. Do my best regardless of the setbacks and forget the rest.
With that in mind, I woke up early today for the first day of Recovery Week, Yoga X. As I had expected, it was far more uncomfortable than my last time. It was like going back to very beginning of the program, where my body wasn't as strong and my joints as flexible. But I cleared my mind completely of all those thoughts while doing each pose, only thinking of my breathing and reaching. I even made a conscious effort to even clear my thoughts of the next routine or even when the current routine was going to end, only staying in the present moment. I really didn't do much of that previously, and I had positive thoughts going through my head like how well I was doing compared to the last time. But as I was going through all that today I had the realization that stuff like that was also keeping my mind off the things that I should be doing (a realization that I cleared out immediately). It was still painful and I still had problems doing Prayer Twist, Half Moon, and Right Angle pose sets, but I just paused for a second when I actually felt pain, stopped to breathe, then jumped back in. At the end I managed to hold my form better and longer than I did in my previous routines, and more importantly, really cleared my head and refocused myself. It turned out to be more of an meditation routine than an exercise workout, which I really needed.
This morning was the first half, and I'll do the second half before bed so that I can clear out my thoughts and get a good night's rest.