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[lunch]

Hey dere, I've posted before in this topic about my situation, but I figure I would post again, maybe as a 2013 edition, or to get some rooted honesty on me, my situation, what I think, and what I want. So, for all of those reading this, I only ask that you don't laugh at me, but you can be critical of me;

It sounds like you're mostly interested in charity and personal care work, but have you tried something like tutoring? It's not as intensive as what you're searching for, but in the meantime at least, it would be a way to give back and assist people while you're looking for a more serious, career-oriented path. Depending on where you live, you also might be able to find jobs as a personal caretaker--my university's job bank was filled with jobs from older people needing somebody to assist them for a couple of hours each day.

I'm a bit confused by the rest of your post, so I hope you can clear some things up. Did you just move to Scranton, or are you looking to leave the city? Are you married? You mentioned being defined by what you lack, but what are those things outside of a job and work experience?

 

[Surface of Me]

Seems like everyone been in a relationship except me

Not me, almost 21.


Anyways, the past week or so hasn't been that great for me. I had to drop a class, and I'm stressing out about two essays I have to write for two other classes. There was a girl issue as my post earlier on this page indicated, and I'm having to deal with my dad about me moving out and all the stress that comes with it. Really the worse thing was that I found out my best friend that stayed around here is leaving whenever summer rolls around, I've known him for years and I've had trouble making friends in college, so that was a real blow to hear that. Not even sure what I'm going to do with myself over the summer. So many friends have gone or grown apart in the past few years. I guess that's what college does, but I'm not meeting anyone new, so it just seems like I'm losing all connections with people I have. Sucks.

 

[RionaaM]

Went to the gym Friday, Saturday and this morning. Didn't think I would.

Nice! Guess I'll have to keep my promise and go there tomorrow.

This thread isn't designed for people to try and make it sound like users in this thread DON'T have depression. It's wrong to taint the names of anyone in this thread helping people, regardless of what dani's intentions were for. It doesn't belong.

Also, even though he didn't name any names, some in this thread can probably figure it out themselves.

I agree with this. Whatever happened between Dani and the person he's talking about (no point in trying to guess, even though it's kinda crystal clear) should stay between them, as it's irrelevant to the topic of this thread. I don't know who's right, and I won't be taking sides, but this feels like an attempt to make that person look bad.

Not cool man, totally not cool.

 

[Sub_Level]

Seems like everyone been in a relationship except me

Nope. I'm 22 and haven't been in one either. If you look at dating age there's people in their late 20s and older who have never had a gf/bf.

There's no doubt that it can help. A couple friends of mine were fairly depressed (one more so than the other). One has a gf now and the other is dating a girl, and they're way happier now. So I'm not gonna blow smoke up your ass and say that someone else can't make your life better, because it can and does happen.

But that being said, I don't think you need an so, friends, or even family to be happy. A lot of people have an interim where there's nobody else in their life. Takes hard mental work for some people to deal with that interim (I don't think there's anything wrong with people who have a hard time dealing with it). Haven't gotten there myself yet. Good on you for going to the gym, you just inspired me to go run this fine evening

 

[Iph]

Nice! Guess I'll have to keep my promise and go there tomorrow.


I agree with this. Whatever happened between Dani and the person he's talking about (no point in trying to guess, even though it's kinda crystal clear) should stay between them, as it's irrelevant to the topic of this thread. I don't know who's right, and I won't be taking sides, but this feels like an attempt to make that person look bad.

Not cool man, totally not cool.

I feel you but people are upset, drama happens and it has to be let out somewhere/how. Tons of people vent their frustrations with people in their personal life here as a way of getting it out. It's unfortunate that it happens to be about people who both use GAF but I think making negative judgements will just draw out something that is ugly and hurtful for both sides already. (Obviously I said my piece already too, but before I knew what was going on really. Sorry, not trying to step on toes. I just think some peace with this would be best.)

 

[RionaaM]

Nope. I'm 22 and haven't been in one either. If you look at dating age there's people in their late 20s and older who have never had a gf/bf.

There's no doubt that it can help. A couple friends of mine were fairly depressed (one more so than the other). One has a gf now and the other is dating a girl, and they're way happier now. So I'm not gonna blow smoke up your ass and say that someone else can't make your life better, because it can and does happen.

But that being said, I don't think you need an so, friends, or even family to be happy. A lot of people have an interim where there's nobody else in their life. Takes hard mental work for some people to deal with that interim (I don't think there's anything wrong with people who have a hard time dealing with it). Haven't gotten there myself yet. Good on you for going to the gym, you just inspired me to go run this fine evening

It does help, indeed. When I "was" with that one girl 2 years ago, I felt much better than I do now, and than I did before that. Of course, it all went to shit pretty fast, but during the month or two that we talked and everything, it was great.

I don't believe that everyone can be happy on their own. I for one know that I can't, knowing that I'll be alone forever and all that. There's a difference between accepting something and being happy with it.

I feel you but people are upset, drama happens and it has to be let out somewhere/how. Tons of people vent their frustrations with people in their personal life here as a way of getting it out. It's unfortunate that it happens to be about people who both use GAF but I think making negative judgements will just draw out something that is ugly and hurtful for both sides already. (Obviously I said my piece already too, but before I knew what was going on really. Sorry, not trying to step on toes. I just think some peace with this would be best.)

I guess it'd be better if we don't touch this topic anymore. I shouldn't have posted that, and instead let this die once and for all. It's no good for any party involved, and this isn't something we asked to hear, nor can we do anything about it.

 

[neojubei]

I know for a fact I'll never meet anyone let alone date. Been looking up suicide groups online tonight. Life hates me so I think it's best we part. Right? Who wants a loser like me anyway

 

[daripad]

Seems like everyone been in a relationship except me

No, you're wrong

 

[Bagels]

There's some discussion that we should have a new thread, so we can have things like the IRC chat, people to contact from the thread, etc. in the OP. this will also prevent people from responding to the 3.5 year-old post from the guy whose thread we've taken over. I don't have strong feelings either way, but a better OP would be nice. What do you think?

 

[RatskyWatsky]

There's some discussion that we should have a new thread, so we can have things like the IRC chat, people to contact from the thread, etc. in the OP. this will also prevent people from responding to the 3.5 year-old post from the guy whose thread we've taken over. I don't have strong feelings either way, but a better OP would be nice. What do you think?

Might as well. People will probably still post in here though unless a mod locks it.

 

[ClassyPenguin]

There's some discussion that we should have a new thread, so we can have things like the IRC chat, people to contact from the thread, etc. in the OP. this will also prevent people from responding to the 3.5 year-old post from the guy whose thread we've taken over. I don't have strong feelings either way, but a better OP would be nice. What do you think?

Yes. With some rules and guidelines, what the goals are and stuff like that.
Stuff that we can use to facilitate recovery and the conversation but still give enough freedom for people to rant once in a while.
It would be great to have an official topic with all our contact infor (for those who are open to it).

Oh, and add me to the list Bagels.

 

[Smiley90]

I'm all for a new OT with proper information. contact/info/trivia/depressionquest/bagels-score/etc. whoever posts in here we can re-direct to the proper/new OT, still.

 

[neojubei]

I've been talking around this issue for a long time and I think if I am going to do it. I better just kill myself and get it over with. Losing weight isn't going to magically improve my life. I'm still going to be this loser who everyone seem to hate. Thought it would be better if I took cynide or something but that's the use of trying to buy those drugs in the first place. I have knives and a samurai sword. Why not just get it done now.

 

[Smiley90]

I've been talking around this issue for a long time and I think if I am going to do it. I better just kill myself and get it over with. Losing weight isn't going to magically improve my life. I'm still going to be this loser who everyone seem to hate. Thought it would be better if I took cynide or something but that's the use of trying to buy those drugs in the first place. I have knives and a samurai sword. Why not just get it done now.

It might at least remove one factor of self-loathing from your life. That's a pretty big improvement if you ask me.

 

[neojubei]

It might at least remove one factor of self-loathing from your life. That's a pretty big improvement if you ask me.

How so? I'll still wake up a loser. Most everyone hates me anyway. What's the point anymore. I'm a loser no one wants so what the point of losing weight when I am better off dead

When I die I hope I go to hell or worse. I don't think I would be happy in heaven. I hate my family there isn't anyone in it I want to see living or dead.

 

[akachan ningen]

I've been talking around this issue for a long time and I think if I am going to do it. I better just kill myself and get it over with. Losing weight isn't going to magically improve my life. I'm still going to be this loser who everyone seem to hate. Thought it would be better if I took cynide or something but that's the use of trying to buy those drugs in the first place. I have knives and a samurai sword. Why not just get it done now.

Yeah, losing weight won't magically improve your life but it will incrementally improve it. You will learn that you can accomplish something and you can use that momentum to accomplish something else, like talking to girls maybe. The problem with our generation is that we want results NOW or maybe even yesterday. If you think that way, you'll never be satisfied with the little victories because you'll be to focused on the big victories that seem so far away.

Also, if you suspect that people hate you, it's probably because you don't like yourself. You need to focus on feeling better about yourself before you even think about what other people think of you.

 

[Sibylus]

Seems like everyone been in a relationship except me

You've posted this word for word in other places, and ignored all the replies to the contrary then, too. C'mon, man.

 

[Foffy]

It sounds like you're mostly interested in charity and personal care work, but have you tried something like tutoring? It's not as intensive as what you're searching for, but in the meantime at least, it would be a way to give back and assist people while you're looking for a more serious, career-oriented path. Depending on where you live, you also might be able to find jobs as a personal caretaker--my university's job bank was filled with jobs from older people needing somebody to assist them for a couple of hours each day.

I'm a bit confused by the rest of your post, so I hope you can clear some things up. Did you just move to Scranton, or are you looking to leave the city? Are you married? You mentioned being defined by what you lack, but what are those things outside of a job and work experience?

People have brought up tutoring to me, but either I'm humble or I put myself down in that I think I don't have much skills to teach others. I'll try to find a way to find something to work for my needs or else I'm probably going to move where they are applicable, but that's on the extreme. People say I'm smart sometimes, but I just reply with "I'm me", sort of giving the impression I'm not this wisdom sage with things. I think my skills are listening and being at attention when others communicate, as I'm rather introverted and more in tune with the conversation than partaking in it at times.

As to clear up some things, I just moved to Scranton from Brooklyn, I am not married, and I guess I feel that I lack what a lot of people my age have; cars, their own places, tons of relationships both in terms of jobs and significant others. But what I do lack, such as a job to exert myself for others and work experience do leave big holes in me that I feel distraught over it. Here I am with no major expenses or ailments to prevent me from helping others and here I am, in a position where I've not found the means to do such a thing. Is there anything else that I wrote that left a foggy impression on you?

 

[neojubei]

Yeah, losing weight won't magically improve your life but it will incrementally improve it. You will learn that you can accomplish something and you can use that momentum to accomplish something else, like talking to girls maybe. The problem with our generation is that we want results NOW or maybe even yesterday. If you think that way, you'll never be satisfied with the little victories because you'll be to focused on the big victories that seem so far away.

Also, if you suspect that people hate you, it's probably because you don't like yourself. You need to focus on feeling better about yourself before you even think about what other people think of you.

Life definitely hates me and I really don't want to go on any longer, so why do i even exist? why even bother anymore? I hate my family if i died i would not care about them.

There are no reasons to live, least for me. I don't have anyone i don't and will never have kids, God has seen to that. If there is a God and he or she is listening I rather not stab myself with my sword just die in my sleep quietly.

 

[Bagels]

Life definitely hates me and I really don't want to go on any longer, so why do i even exist? why even bother anymore? I hate my family if i died i would not care about them.

There are no reasons to live, least for me. I don't have anyone i don't and will never have kids, God has seen to that. If there is a God and he or she is listening I rather not stab myself with my sword just die in my sleep quietly.

Jubei, man, you know I love ya, but you've got to admit that posting the same things over and over - "I'm fat," "I haven't had relationships," "the universe hates me" - is getting you absolutely nowhere, especially when you don't seem to want to hear what anyone else has to say. If the definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over, expecting different results*, then you've gone INSANE. You've got to get out of this habit of just obsessing over what you see as your failures. Try to go ONE WEEK, posting something positive every day, with no negative posts. ANYTHING POSITIVE, it does not have to be about you, even. Just try something new, man. You've go to break this cycle.

*not the definition of insanity, but it's catchy.

 

[Bagels]

Working on a new OP.

Chat instructions
Suicide Hotlines
Depression all-star contact list

links:
mental illness happy hour
mind over mood
additional books 'n stuff

Some rough guidelines for the thread?

What else?

 

[RionaaM]

Working on a new OP.

Chat instructions
Suicide Hotlines
Depression all-star contact list

links:
mental illness happy hour
mind over mood
additional books 'n stuff

Some rough guidelines for the thread?

What else?

Lots of bolded words saying how awesome I am? Pretty pleeeease?

Also, do you mind adding me on the contact list? I wish I could be of help to anybody...

 

[Smiley90]

Working on a new OP.

Chat instructions
Suicide Hotlines
Depression all-star contact list

links:
mental illness happy hour
mind over mood
additional books 'n stuff

Some rough guidelines for the thread?

What else?

What is depression?
Mention other mental problems related are welcome (social anxiety? Or am I under the wrong assumption here)
"Rules" of the thread. (No juding etc)

 

[Pau]

Working on a new OP.

Chat instructions
Suicide Hotlines
Depression all-star contact list

links:
mental illness happy hour
mind over mood
additional books 'n stuff

Some rough guidelines for the thread?

What else?

not enough batman references

 

[CornBurrito]

Seems like everyone been in a relationship except me

I haven't. I'm almost 24 and I've never even kissed anyone before.

Same here. I'm 20.

 

[Curtisaur]

I wonder if you could set up an email for people that would like to remain anonymous. Something they could send an email to and then get feedback via the forum quoting it.

 

[Bagels]

Everyone is a comedian. :/

Do we want it to be Mental Illness GAF or Depression GAF?

If you have a suicide hotline number for your country, share it! I have US, UK, and Australia as of now.

 

[Bagels]

I wonder if you could set up an email for people that would like to remain anonymous. Something they could send an email to and then get feedback via the forum quoting it.

Excellent idea!

 

[Manu]

I'm still going to be this loser who everyone seem to hate.

As long as you keep thinking that of yourself things aren't going to change. People can feel negativity, even if you think you're disguising it. You're not. A big part of getting other people to have a better perception of you is doing it yourself first. I've been there. It's only in hindsight that I realize I was the one who wouldn't listen to anyone's advice. It's a catch-22 situation until you decide to do something about it.

 

[SpartanForce]

Everyone is a comedian. :/

Do we want it to be Mental Illness GAF or Depression GAF?

If you have a suicide hotline number for your country, share it! I have US, UK, and Australia as of now.

Mental Illness GAF. Make it general, not just for depression, but for anxiety, OCD, Bipolar, etc.

 

[Pau]

Everyone is a comedian. :/

Do we want it to be Mental Illness GAF or Depression GAF?

If you have a suicide hotline number for your country, share it! I have US, UK, and Australia as of now.

Fine fine, I'll give some legitimate advice.

"Where to start when looking for therapy" which I made a post about that I can go find.

Where to find cheap therapy in select cities? I could provide NYC information.

Spoiler

I'm serious about the Batman references. I do think one of the main themes is how you can deal with mental illness and still be a good person.

 

[Sir Abacus]

Jubei, man, you know I love ya, but you've got to admit that posting the same things over and over - "I'm fat," "I haven't had relationships," "the universe hates me" - is getting you absolutely nowhere, especially when you don't seem to want to hear what anyone else has to say. If the definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over, expecting different results*, then you've gone INSANE. You've got to get out of this habit of just obsessing over what you see as your failures. Try to go ONE WEEK, posting something positive every day, with no negative posts. ANYTHING POSITIVE, it does not have to be about you, even. Just try something new, man. You've go to break this cycle.

*not the definition of insanity, but it's catchy.

I've been in a PHP program for a while (anxiety not depression) so I'll try to help here. Breaking the cycle is more than just finding the positive. It's about breaking through the cognitive distortions that shape a person's view of reality. When you've learned some particularly bad distortions they can be extremely hard to break.

The essence to beating depression is self-compassion. Only when we show ourselves compassion can we start to heal from the shame which causes depression.

Now there are three components to showing yourself self-compassion.

The first is being kind to yourself. Think of a problem that a friend might have. Think of how you would talk to a good friend. Then look at how you talk to yourself. You wouldn't talk to a friend how you talk to yourself, would you? Then why do it. Talk to yourself a little kinder like you would talk to a good friend.

The second is to embrace common humanity. All humans are imperfect. Everyone has problems. The thing about humans is that they're very good at projecting an exterior that's either perfect or close to perfect. But they've all got problems in one way or another. Once you realise that you're not alone with these problems you can start to see yourself that you still do belong to the group of humanity despite your flaws.

The last thing is mindfulness. Notice things but don't judge them. You should have an attitude of curiousity and acceptance. Stay in the moment. If you are sad notice that you are sad. But don't resist it. They say suffering = pain x resistance. If you try to resist your emotional pain you will suffer from it. The key to not suffering is acceptance rather than resistance.

There are many programs around that can help teach mindfulness and many other intensive PHP style programs that can help you break the cycle of depression. Look into different ones around your area and see what they can recommend. It's hard to break out of the cycle but it can be done. Because I've watched people do it.

 

[Bagels]

Mental Illness GAF. Make it general, not just for depression, but for anxiety, OCD, Bipolar, etc.

I think you're right, but it's going to take a lot more work. I want to have some definitions and resources for common diagnoses. Keep suggesting stuff and I'll add it. If you can help me with resources for bipolar disorder, anxiety, OCD, and whatever else, it'll help. I have my depression resources ready to go, but that has really been my focus.

An OP needs artwork, obviously. I have no idea what, but any help I can get there will be most appreciated.

 

[KevinCow]

Why even bother making a new depression thread? It'll just be the same thing.

Most of the thread is people saying that they're miserable, but they're usually not popular enough posters for anyone to care to reply.

The rest of the thread is full of lies like, "Don't worry, hold on and keep trying, things will get better."

What's the use?

 

[CornBurrito]

Bagels you are an awesome dude.

The rest of the thread is full of lies like, "Don't worry, hold on and keep trying, things will get better."

There's not that much that can be said to people who consider treatable depression a lie.

I truly believe that depression can be treated. It takes a lot of effort, or a lot of luck. Maybe a mix of both.

 

[Smiley90]

Everyone is a comedian. :/

Do we want it to be Mental Illness GAF or Depression GAF?

If you have a suicide hotline number for your country, share it! I have US, UK, and Australia as of now.

I was being serious also Mental Illness GAF seems better. It still wouldn't be too big to get cluttered and doesn't exclude anyone.

EDIT: On second thought... let me think about this some more.

 

[ClassyPenguin]

Fine fine, I'll give some legitimate advice.

"Where to start when looking for therapy" which I made a post about that I can go find.

Where to find cheap therapy in select cities? I could provide NYC information.

Spoiler

I'm serious about the Batman references. I do think one of the main themes is how you can deal with mental illness and still be a good person.

ooh, I could do the same for the Los Angeles area.

Also, I do want to do a Media Guide to Mental Illness that provides how pop cultures handles the issue, good and bad as a side project.

 

[Bagels]

Why even bother making a new depression thread? It'll just be the same thing.

Most of the thread is people saying that they're miserable, but they're usually not popular enough posters for anyone to care to reply.

The rest of the thread is full of lies like, "Don't worry, hold on and keep trying, things will get better."

What's the use?

Do people honestly think it's about popularity? I can name well over a dozen people who read every single post in here. But the ratio of people asking for help and offering help is well over 10:1. It's very, very hard to answer everyone, and as you say, plenty of people don't want to hear what people have to say anyway. It's tough, and it's very draining, but we're all doing our best. And honestly, the "popular" people tend to be more active in the skype, steam, and chat communities, so they mostly get help there. The same is actually true for many people who ask for help here. I have 1100 PMs, almost exclusively about stuff in this thread. If someone needs to talk, which is often the case, I send a PM and we go on skype. This thread is a launchpad for much more help that other people in here won't necessarily see.

I get that the thread gets shit up sometimes, but I still think it's way better than it has any right to be. And hopefully some better suggested guidelines in a new OP will help people keep this thread more positive and helpful.

People get angry and frustrated, sure. But just complaining about the thread is counterproductive. The only way it ever gets better is when people decide to take the time and energy to do so. And it can be a fucking thankless job (not necessarily for me - you don't have to thank me for anything - but the people trying to help take a real beating from having people twist what they say, ignore it, or just plain watching them suffer, etc). The criticisms are valid, but it fucking sucks when you pour your heart and soul into this community and people only see the bad stuff.

 

[Pau]

ooh, I could do the same for the Los Angeles area.

Also, I do want to do a Media Guide to Mental Illness that provides how pop cultures handles the issue, good and bad as a side project.

Oh I'd be really interested in helping out with that! :O

Why even bother making a new depression thread? It'll just be the same thing.

Most of the thread is people saying that they're miserable, but they're usually not popular enough posters for anyone to care to reply.

The rest of the thread is full of lies like, "Don't worry, hold on and keep trying, things will get better."

What's the use?

I think calling the thread lies is pretty disingenuous. It's not like those trying to help haven't gone through similar things. What people say may not be what you need or want to hear, but plenty have come in and posted about how much reading the thread has helped.

I do always wonder how tasteful it would be to post about progress in a thread like this because it might bring down other posters in the thread. On the other hand, it might be a good way of showing how things that seem really bad can turn around. Not instantly, and not perfectly, but it's possible.

 

[lunch]

People have brought up tutoring to me, but either I'm humble or I put myself down in that I think I don't have much skills to teach others. I'll try to find a way to find something to work for my needs or else I'm probably going to move where they are applicable, but that's on the extreme. People say I'm smart sometimes, but I just reply with "I'm me", sort of giving the impression I'm not this wisdom sage with things. I think my skills are listening and being at attention when others communicate, as I'm rather introverted and more in tune with the conversation than partaking in it at times.

As to clear up some things, I just moved to Scranton from Brooklyn, I am not married, and I guess I feel that I lack what a lot of people my age have; cars, their own places, tons of relationships both in terms of jobs and significant others. But what I do lack, such as a job to exert myself for others and work experience do leave big holes in me that I feel distraught over it. Here I am with no major expenses or ailments to prevent me from helping others and here I am, in a position where I've not found the means to do such a thing. Is there anything else that I wrote that left a foggy impression on you?

You can tutor at the grade school level though, and it would just be something to get your feet wet.

Why did you move to Scranton? And that clears most things up--I should say that I asked if you were married because you mentioned your mother-in-law, and I usually associate the phrase with married men. Are you a full-time student then?

You might end up being forced into taking jobs that you don't find fulfilling, if only to gain some experience and show that you're trustworthy, and try supplementing that with volunteer work to make the job less soul-crushing. I think the issue with the line of work you want to go into is that, outside of tutoring and providing medical care, careers don't really exist (as I'm sure you've well realized). You mentioned attempting to get a hospice internship--is there anything else you had in mind?

 

[Foffy]

You can tutor at the grade school level though, and it would just be something to get your feet wet.

Why did you move to Scranton? And that clears most things up--I should say that I asked if you were married because you mentioned your mother-in-law, and I usually associate the phrase with married men. Are you a full-time student then?

You might end up being forced into taking jobs that you don't find fulfilling, if only to gain some experience and show that you're trustworthy, and try supplementing that with volunteer work to make the job less soul-crushing. I think the issue with the line of work you want to go into is that, outside of tutoring and providing medical care, careers don't really exist (as I'm sure you've well realized). You mentioned attempting to get a hospice internship--is there anything else you had in mind?

I moved here because that's what my dad wanted. He never owned a house, just an apartment, and I felt that had to do with the fact he had children and had to cover those expenses (he went from working at the World Trade Center to working for the Sanitation Department of New York to have more time at home) so in a way I feel indebted to him. He also asked me to move with him, so I jumped on board. The mother in law is from who my sister married a week before my mother-in-law died, which they did just for her (she went into a coma the day after the wedding). Right now I'm in NEET status; like I said before, I was ready to start rocking this shit in January, and I have to wait until the fall. I did also mention I emailed the college in question about my personal desires. I've been a full time student since the fall of 2008, so this is my first period where I'm doing nothing, and it bites.

I figured what I wanted doesn't really have a career path in mind, but like I said I don't have any expenses, so I can even just take up volunteer work as my main outside activity until the fall as money isn't an issue, so I figure meaningful work for me would only create more opportunities. As for what I have in mind, I think that's a drawback of me being a rather easygoing person; I honestly don't care as long as it's helping someone on more than a material level. That's why the hospice care notice caught my attention; I'd rather help those suffering than working at a radio station or cleaning up floors, for example. As what I want to be doing doesn't seem to have a career path that people can roughly follow, it leads me to feel a lot of fear. I fear that it will always be something I want to do but can't for one reason or another, and the stuff on offer in terms of work seems so disposable to me in comparison to just improving the quality of life to another person in a direct, in contact sort of way. What I envision of a society is far different than what we currently have, and it makes me feel so disconnected to the norms and current trends that I feel what I want is pure fantasy at times. I think I have quite the hill to climb.

 

[Prodigal]

I don't know why, but nothing feels worse than having everyone forgetting about your birthday. You'd think a person suffering from severe depression would look forward to such an occasion but it always turns out the same way.

 

[Smiley90]

I don't know why, but nothing feels worse than having everyone forgetting about your birthday. You'd think a person suffering from severe depression would look forward to such an occasion but it always turns out the same way.

I am not looking forward to my birthday at all, so I feel ya.

Happy Birthday to you though!

 

[Prodigal]

Thank you!

 

[SpartanForce]

I think you're right, but it's going to take a lot more work. I want to have some definitions and resources for common diagnoses. Keep suggesting stuff and I'll add it. If you can help me with resources for bipolar disorder, anxiety, OCD, and whatever else, it'll help. I have my depression resources ready to go, but that has really been my focus.

An OP needs artwork, obviously. I have no idea what, but any help I can get there will be most appreciated.

I can help with the Bipolar part and Anxiety part. I have some books and some good old wikipedia pages.

For the image I sugest:

http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/commons/a/a7/Aubrey_Beardsley_-_Edgar_Poe_3.jpg

a person both depressed and with anxiety. plus is poe work

 

[Foffy]

I don't know why, but nothing feels worse than having everyone forgetting about your birthday. You'd think a person suffering from severe depression would look forward to such an occasion but it always turns out the same way.

Today is your birthday? Happy birthday! How old are you? :3

 

[Prodigal]

Today is your birthday? Happy birthday! How old are you? :3

25. Feels like life is moving too quickly

 

[Foffy]

25. Feels like life is moving too quickly

It only feels that way when we're busy, or when we're looking back at highlights. Trust me, that's a long time.

 

[Bagels]

25. Feels like life is moving too quickly

Happy birthday!

 

[Sibylus]

I don't know why, but nothing feels worse than having everyone forgetting about your birthday. You'd think a person suffering from severe depression would look forward to such an occasion but it always turns out the same way.

Happy birthday! And perhaps I'm strange, but I'd forget my birthday if it wasn't for family and the special meal reminding me. Unpleasant marker otherwise.