The game is not worth the time, and I've been too blind all this time, playing for the social element regardless of the game actually being enjoyable. I feel like an idiot for keeping falling in the loot bait all of this time. I can't even play this right and all the time I've been just the load being carried. Every time I have accompanied somebody to an activity I've felt like crap, unable to do anything on my own.
I hate this game. I simply have deluded myself into thinking it was enjoyable because it did not feel as a lonely experience. But it is not worth the rage, suffering and cost of replacing hardware. I have deleted the install already, wiped most of the accumulated friend list and I will resell the game while they still take it.
It was fun while it lasted. But it just makes me feel miserable and hate it more than actually loving it.
It got worse as hours / days accumulated.
First things first. I love every October in New Jersey, as that is our apple season. Nothing better than a Stayman Winesap apple. OH MAN
Second. I have a SERIOUS love hate relationship with this game. I am your twin, even down to the classic explosive over reactions. I've deleted the game once already.
I HATE PVP. I HATE IT HATE IT HATE IT HATE IT. I hate that I suck. I hate that even after practicing I SUCK.
But you know what? It's fun. It feels good. The people here are the BEST PEOPLE I've ever played with. I've lived on the earth 4 decades. (gulp) And I've not played with a finer bunch. They keep me coming back. Maybe they keep me young, or I make them insane.
Take the time you need and breathe and even vent or rant. But realize it is only a game, if it frustrates you don't play, but also realize that those times that suck?
A 28 or 32 that goes sideways
A raid that doesn't end
A PvP round that you end negative
They feel sucky if you let them.
I played with Navy and Purg3 the other night. Nightfall. We wiped because I had no elemental primaries. I felt like crap. But we tried a few times and made it through. (YEAH!!!) Believe it or not, they haven't deleted me from their friends list.
Once Fig Noomi and I did Skolas for FIVE HOURS. FIVE. Just Skolas. It was AWFUL. I incurred the wrath of Fig. She was getting really rattled. Noomi had to work the next day. That was not a great experience. But we hung in there and got it done!!!, and I would go to the mat for either of them. That takes a special kind of crazy. These people are my kind of crazy. I HEART DGAF.
Give it time, play some other games, and come back when you feel like it. I get the feeling we'll still be here.
Congrats man!!! On your job! Anything good? Are you a PvP instructor for helpless noobs?