So, I wanted to ask for some advice or rather if someone had been in a similar situation. My friends just laugh it off as no problem and I don't really want to talk about it with my family, so here you go, guys. I have to get up early tomorrow, so don't expect an answer in the next few hours. Thought I might as well post it now since it's already done, though.
I think I have some kind of fear of commitment and it's really annoying me lately. See, I've never been in a proper relationship. Because I spent the whole day playing games and watching/playing football in my teens and since I went to university, I've enjoyed the single life and being (more or less) completely independent way too much. In fact, I still enjoy the single life but I feel like I'm missing out at the same time. I'm 22 now, people I went to school with already get married and shit and here I am having not a single experience of a proper relationship.
But while I'd love to start something serious, I can't. Since I've started thinking about it, my head has started to go crazy and I always do stupid stuff lately. Like, if I meet someone at a night out, I "run away" in the morning at the latest. And it's like I'm back to my 14-year-old self when sober in that regard. If there's a girl I'm interested in on a train/class/whatever giving obvious signals, I do fuck all. I don't know why. Hell, there's this girl who I think is cute as fuck in one of my classes for almost two months now, I still haven't done shit. It's not about my confidence, I have no trouble with girls in general but I panic at the thought of "she's nice, that could be working". It's bothering the hell out of me but I don't know how I could change it. Already considered that I could be afraid of getting hurt but I must admit I enjoy being miserably every now and then way too much, so I doubt that's the main problem.
I know there are obvious and simple answers, like "just go for it", but I've been on this for a few months now. And I don't really know what else to expect as an answer but, well yeah, maybe someone has a good idea before I have to go to a psychiatrist :lol