Basically she went out Thursday night with some people from her course, just to the pub apparently. She gets nervous when she's not drunk, so she drank, we were speaking fine at half 10, she rang me when she was on her way, last words I've heard her voice say was 'love you, speak to you later'
Don't hear from her again until I text her at 12 the next day asking how her night went, she texts back saying she had sex with someone, she's really sorry, I deserve to be with someone better, she can't tell me to my face because she hates seeing me upset and she's a coward, that whatever we do from here is up to me. And its basically a long line over three and a half years where we've broken up a few times, where there's been hiccups and speedbumps - always on her part - , but never anything horrifically serious, she's never cheated on me before you know? Like a few years ago we had this period when we were broken up where she did fuck someone else, and only the other day in the car we were talking just and she stressed she didn't cheat and I agreed and then we went to the zoo.
Just came out of the blue. So I just told her okay, don't talk to me please and that was it. Haven't spoken to her or heard a word from her. Usually I'm trying to think of any excuse to see her, but I'm just fucking angry and drained from it all.
