How horrifying to hear that your dumb, shallow friends are dragging you down from achieving your full potential. I'm sure they're the real reason you're not a world-famous philosopher right now.
I guess I'm dumb and shallow, too. I even put "friends" instead of "friend".
If he wants to dump his personal problems onto us while claiming to respect this forum, I think it's perfectly fine to criticise him. He's openly invited criticism, as well.
His friends may be detrimental to him, but only because he's so dependent on them and not because they're drug-users. I agree with the advice that he should find new peers, but that implicitly says that his current friends are the issue, when the issue lies in his choices. Blaming them for his current state is shifting the responsibility away from himself.
Anyway, I refuse to indulge the OP in his self-centred cries for attention any longer. I cannot respect someone who is aware of his own selfishness but rationalises it away by saying, "everyone else is selfish, too!" instead of correcting it.
No matter what you do, it will always be rooted in selfishness.
But you're right. I'm shifting the blame and insulting the friend I said I love.
It's not a good look. However, the blame doesn't lie solely on me.
Our course of action isn't something that's decided on in a bubble.
It's something that's affected and determined by everything acting on you.
One thing that reading plenty of long GAF threads thoroughly has shown me is that even though people might argue, and even directly clash, they're all correct in some way.
And every single post together paints the complete picture.
Well, you'd need everyone in the world to weigh in to get the COMPLETE picture, but I'm sure you get what I mean.
We don't have it all on our own.
The Isla Vista shooter thread was an especially good read if you're looking to see that.
People always hate on the fact that some on GAF will defend anything, but we need that.
We need all sides. (Even the people hating on the defense forces.)
That's why I said I respect all of you.
THE TORN PACKET
Tomasooie has a friend called James. He overhears James lecturing someone about the evils of addiction after swearing off drugs. Tomasooie and James are both high on MDMA. Tomasooie sees hypocrisy in James, symbolised by the purchase of cigarettes. Tomasooie destroys the pack of cigarettes dramatically. James gets angry. Tomasooie needs validation so obsessively texts his friend Katherine about the incident.
ASKING FOR HELP
Katherine gives Tomasooie some moral support. Katherine finds the science building. Tomasooie reflects on his relationship with James and gets depressed. Tomasooie thinks everyone is similarly broken. Katherine suggest therapy and describes her positive exerpience with it. Tomasooie resents the idea of therapy and dismisses Katherine's experience. Katherine asks Tomasooie to help with her assignments. Tomasooie takes umbrage at her request in light of his pain.
BEING UNIQUE
Katherine tells Tomasooie to STFU and sleep. Tomasooie explains how society is killing itself with selfish lies and rational thought. Tomasooie feels sad about this. Katherine suggests therapy again. Tomasooie is dubious anyone will understand his insight. Tomasooie takes comfort in art. Tomasooie considers his text conversation with Katherine to be art. Tomasooie describes all of this to GAF. GAF tells him to keep his phone battery charged and get therapy.
I consider all text to be art.
Look at what you just wrote, and how you wrote it.
Can't you see my point of view? Art isn't just the Shakespeares and Van Goghs.
It doesn't have to be a painting or a play. It can be a doodle or a forum post.
There doesn't need to be a deep meaning.
You come off as so needy and an all-around terrible person in that exchange with Kat. Is this how you normally interact with others? It wasn't my intent to put you down but I found myself getting angrier and angrier the more I read.
That was to an extreme. First, Kat and I are both needy with each other.
She does just as bad, or even worse, while sober.
Maybe that's where I got the screencapping conversations thing from.
I've probably read over a thousand screencaps she's sent me of conversations with her friends.
It's fine.
Of course you'd rather people see the art. This whole thread was your way of saying 'hey look at me! I took drugs! And I'm an artist and really clever and sensitive!'. You're not interested in support, you just want someone to like your writing and your pictures.
I capitalised them for Emphasis. It's a Victorianism. I Like It.
What if it's both.
And what if someone liking either my Writing, or my Drawings, or even any of my bare Ideas is part of the support I need,
because I have almost no one to share it with,
and even the few friends I used to share it with brushed it off and told me I suck at Everything I Do.
Well I know I don't.
And thanks to this thread, I will see a therapist, and I will stop taking drugs.
I'm really thankful for every bit of criticism. I know I have a strange way of thinking (like everyone else).
But there is something in there.
