I'm in a bit of a pickle and I feel like it's a dumb thing to do but at the same time I don't give a fuck and want to do it anyways. Would like to get another girls opinion on this.
So I'm currently sharing a condo with one of my best friends, I've known the guy since I was 10 (I'm 24 now) and his fiance lives with us, I've known her for 2 years. We'll call her Amy
I met Amy's best friend a little after meeting Amy. We'll call her Kay. Kay liked me the second she saw me I'm told. Kay's a bit of a slut. Every single boyfriend shes had shes cheated on. A couple weeks after meeting Kay, Amy was trying to convince me to tell Kay to dump her boyfriend and date me. I refused. I always said that if she wasn't happy with her relationship, she had to do it on her own terms, and then me and her "might" date. I did not want to be responsible or the sole reason for them splitting. I also refused to fool around with Kay. Felt wrong, I'm not like that.
Fast forward to now. I've hung out with Kay a bit and I really like her. Shes fun to be around, very pretty and great to talk to. Since we moved into this condo together (1 1/2 months ago) I've hooked up with Kay twice. She still has the same boyfriend. I stopped caring. Alcohols been involved both times, and it doesn't get a long with my penis very well. So no sex. I'm still a virgin and have yet to have a girlfriend. I'm tired of being alone. It's been 24 years and I want some lovin, naturally.
Amy doesn't want me to date Kay anymore. She's convinced it wont work out (because she cheats) and will be unable to have Kay over if I'm around. Amy has convinced me if I do date Kay she will eventually cheat on me. It's the way she is.
Amy had the night off, Kay was over with her boyfriend. Drinks were had, some drama between Amy and her man started. Sitting outside smoking with Amy and Kay. Kay kept telling Amy how she can't talk to her about the whole trust thing because shes obviously had problems with it in the passed (her constantly cheating on boyfriends and what not)
Kay and her boyfriend leave, me being drunk and feeling a little pissed off at my loneliness, sent Kay some texts, complaining about said loneliness. She told me I need to stop worrying about what other people want me to do, and do what I want to. I told her we should get some coffee one night and talk, she has agreed.
Deep down, I don't give a fuck. I want to throw caution to the wind and just go for it. I also want to tell Kay I know about her passed and that I really don't know if I can trust her. That's a terrible way to start a relationship off, with no trust. I don't want to be that boyfriend, whose constantly worried when she hangs out with other people and I'm not around. But after what she said last night, makes me wonder.. can this work? is she done cheating? Cheats with you, she'll cheat on you? Fuck I hate this part of my life right now. I need a damn girlfriend, I can't be alone anymore. It's driving me crazy.
I'm on a dating site, Amy has tried to hook me up with her other friends. Nothing has worked out. Me and Kay get a long really well.
Thanks for your sacrifice Devolution.
