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[Haly]

T-minus 7 days.

 

[Blood Diamonds]

T-minus 7 days.

oh my god

i really wanna believe i can do this, it'll be my personal journey.

 

[Dany]

I have dediced to stop

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masturbating

for a week and see where that leads. Wish me luck gais

ur already dead bby

 

[umop_3pisdn]

I have dediced to stop

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masturbating

for a week and see where that leads. Wish me luck gais

A week is easy and I'm practically hypersexual. The second week is a killer though. I keep trying to practice sexual continence for Taoist-y/Buddhist-y reasons and it is fucking hard.

 

[AlexMeloche]

Well, I went on my first date with a guy ever last night and oh my god, it was amazing

We were suppose to go to a party, but it got cancelled, so we just decided to go see Mission Impossible (and both of us finally got the confidence to hold hands towards the end of the movie) and then he decided to take me out to the dinner and paid for it (which I feel bad about still, since I'm broke and I still haven't gotten paid for a month's worth of work)

We ended the night by me dropping him off at his car and we gave each other a few long hugs (he is taller than me, so I had to get on my toes to hug him...which is a first lol) and I think we're going to go out again on Sunday and yeah, I'm just really excited for it

Tbh I'm jealous, why can't I get nice dates like this?

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But niiiice.

Well I can't very well hit you up now, can I? I mean clearly if you're correct (which of course you are I totally forgot the rules I'm sorry forgive me) then today proves I'm straight

Guys I'm cured I want the boobs!

Even as a gay man I can understand why people are into those squishy balls of fat.

 

[Blood Diamonds]

ur already dead bby

ik

A week is easy and I'm practically hypersexual. The second week is a killer though. I keep trying to practice sexual continence for Taoist-y/Buddhist-y reasons and it is fucking hard.

What's the longest you've gone without doing it?

 

[umop_3pisdn]

Like twenty days I think? I was aiming for a month but I got kind of arrogant. I recently figured out that by focusing on my perineum (or "huiyin") in meditation I can generate quite a bit of "bliss" and "joy" (or piti-sukha) and that attenuates craving because you basically go through your day feeling really good for no reason, so you're not wanting for anything. So I'm going to try again knowing that.

 

[Blood Diamonds]

Like twenty days I think? I was aiming for a month but I got kind of arrogant. I recently figured out that by focusing on my perineum (or "huiyin") in meditation I can generate quite a bit of "bliss" and "joy" (or piti-sukha) and that attenuates craving because you basically go through your day feeling really good for no reason, so you're not wanting for anything. So I'm going to try again knowing that.

You were so close! One month sounds crazy but if there's anyone that could pull it off it's probably you tbh

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God, hot hispanic guys with brown skin that answer questions correctly in class out loud are so hot

 

[Kevyt]

I have dediced to stop

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masturbating

for a week and see where that leads. Wish me luck gais

Best of luck!

For me now it's really easy, I can go more than a week without chocking the chicken.

I can also look at porn and porn gifs without feeling anything. It's incredible, my self control is amazing. I couldn't do this when I was younger.

I guess it's normal as you get older.

 

[Monocle]

God, hot hispanic guys with brown skin that answer questions correctly in class out loud are so hot

Right?

 

[badrang]

I have dediced to stop

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masturbating

for a week and see where that leads. Wish me luck gais

I tried to make a similar commitment... I lasted 6 hours.

 

[Dany]

God, hot hispanic guys with brown skin that answer questions correctly in class out loud are so hot

quench yourself.

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but not by yourself

 

[Sai-kun]

did you get an A?

whoa. what kind of pictures do you take in the game? are they of animals or architecture or...? is it going to be for iOS or is it just for a school project?

you do! I've liked everything I've heard from you so far tbh

i think we got a B on our project. but we passed so w/e!

And I think it's supposed to be of strange animals that he's creating, but I'm not sure if he's entirely set on that yet. The game is still super super early in production. It's probably for PC primarily, and it's just for a portfolio piece, he's not in school anymore.

Thank you BTW :] Any kind of positive feedback helps me way more than you'd think haha.

I have dediced to stop

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masturbating

for a week and see where that leads. Wish me luck gais

why sis. i would never do that to myself.

although i've done it inadvertently, when i've had super busy weeks in school or in life. but idk if i would do it on purpose. jerkin it is too easy.

 

[RatskyWatsky]

make me a pinata cake cosmic bus

Like twenty days I think? I was aiming for a month but I got kind of arrogant. I recently figured out that by focusing on my perineum (or "huiyin") in meditation I can generate quite a bit of "bliss" and "joy" (or piti-sukha) and that attenuates craving because you basically go through your day feeling really good for no reason, so you're not wanting for anything. So I'm going to try again knowing that.

focus on your perineum? like mentally? hau

I can also look at porn and porn gifs without feeling anything.

I guess it's normal as you get older.

/wrist

i think we got a B on our project. but we passed so w/e!

And I think it's supposed to be of strange animals that he's creating, but I'm not sure if he's entirely set on that yet. The game is still super super early in production. It's probably for PC primarily, and it's just for a portfolio piece, he's not in school anymore.

Thank you BTW :] Any kind of positive feedback helps me way more than you'd think haha.

a pass is a pass whether it's an A or a B, so!

that sounds cool. you'll have to let me know if he ever releases it as a download.

<3

 

[Henchmen21]

Donuts, I've got donuts.

 

[umop_3pisdn]

You were so close! One month sounds crazy but if there's anyone that could pull it off it's probably you tbh

Thanks. I feel like it shouldn't be that hard, but after a while you begin 'testing' yourself for no real reason, probably so you have an excuse to fail

focus on your perineum? like mentally? hau

Mentally, yeah, or it's interoception, rather. You sort of mentally 'tune in' to an energetic sensation there. Then it propagates, generally in proportion to how long you do it for and how stable your attention is. I think it takes a bit of practice though, like I don't think I could do it without prior experience focusing on mental qualities (or experiences) and areas within my body, because it seems to involve a degree of both. It's not quite an ordinary (or gross) bodily sensation, but something you'd call a 'subtle sensation'. Thanissaro teaches a mindfulness of breathing practice where you focus on the subtle sensation of 'energy' (for a lack of a better term) in your body as a product of physiological breathing. It's the same kind of phenomenon ("breath energy"), just in a certain spot with some particular characteristics I guess.

 

[ZombiePlatypus]

I had no idea you were from there!

I know I should just let it go, it won't change any time soon so why bother.

Yeah, best to not focus your emotions on such things. You can't change the world all at once and overnight right?

Oh neat! Is that why you left?

I dunno if it has improved now but when I was living there, if you weren't Kuwaiti by blood, which I'm not, then you were basically a 2nd class visitor and could never be considered an official citizen there. Owning a business, going to college, buying property, etc all had all sorts of extra hoops tossed onto them that you'd have to jump through just cause you were a foreigner. (Assuming you were granted the privilege at all to begin with.) After the first Gulf War happened my parents went "enough's enough" and we left.

Well, I went on my first date with a guy ever last night and oh my god, it was amazing

We were suppose to go to a party, but it got cancelled, so we just decided to go see Mission Impossible (and both of us finally got the confidence to hold hands towards the end of the movie) and then he decided to take me out to the dinner and paid for it (which I feel bad about still, since I'm broke and I still haven't gotten paid for a month's worth of work)

We ended the night by me dropping him off at his car and we gave each other a few long hugs (he is taller than me, so I had to get on my toes to hug him...which is a first lol) and I think we're going to go out again on Sunday and yeah, I'm just really excited for it

This is all too fucking adorable and I hate you.

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:O PLS GIVE US UPDATES. T___T

 

[Necromanti]

am I wrong to get all heated up in the Dubai thread? I might be blowing it out of proportion but it infuriates me that place keeps positioning itself as tourist destination while being so damn homophobic, I would feel personally offended if a friend goes there to be honest.

Maybe I am blowing it out of proportion, but it's beyond appalling the stuff they get away with, whole governments have been overturned for less. I know, money rules, but I still fume about it in my sleep.

I always feel a strange sense of validation whenever I see that place get shit on, even if people don't always get the specifics right.

 

[Deleted member 465307]

I have dediced to stop

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masturbating

for a week and see where that leads. Wish me luck gais

May I ask why? Good luck!

 

[Blood Diamonds]

I tried to make a similar commitment... I lasted 6 hours.

you shoudl try again tbh join the week-long anti-masturbation club.

quench yourself.

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but not by yourself

he's just so fucking hot i can't

i think we got a B on our project. but we passed so w/e!

And I think it's supposed to be of strange animals that he's creating, but I'm not sure if he's entirely set on that yet. The game is still super super early in production. It's probably for PC primarily, and it's just for a portfolio piece, he's not in school anymore.

Thank you BTW :] Any kind of positive feedback helps me way more than you'd think haha.



why sis. i would never do that to myself.

although i've done it inadvertently, when i've had super busy weeks in school or in life. but idk if i would do it on purpose. jerkin it is too easy.

I didn't know you were studying to be a video game designer!! that's really cool omg

May I ask why? Good luck!

a bit nsfw

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it just doesn't feel the same anymore... like it still feels good but not as good so i'm taking a break.

 

[Aarglefarg]

Donuts, I've got donuts.

I also have donuts and I don't often do so.

I bought 12 cinnamon donuts for $2.

 

[Bladenic]

you shoudl try again tbh join the week-long anti-masturbation club.


he's just so fucking hot i can't

I didn't know you were studying to be a video game designer!! that's really cool omg


a bit nsfw

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it just doesn't feel the same anymore... like it still feels good but not as good so i'm taking a break.

Yeah doing it all the time tends to dull for me too. If you take a one week break, that next one should be amazing tho

 

[Deleted member 465307]

a bit nsfw

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it just doesn't feel the same anymore... like it still feels good but not as good so i'm taking a break.

Oh, that makes sense to me. I hope things improve for you! If I still prayed, I'd say I'll pray for you.

 

[Dead Prince]

No fap October? Challenge unaccepted

 

[Aeriscloud]

A week? I don't think I have that kind of self control.

 

[Leona Lewis]

I've never masturbated before. I've tried, though.

Wet dreams are inconvenient.

 

[<+)O Robido O(+>]

I've never masturbated before.

 

[Kevyt]

God, hot hispanic guys with brown skin that answer questions correctly in class out loud are so hot

Aren't most of the guys there Mexican or of Mexican background?

I don't do Mexicans...

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I want a hot Mexican bf so bad....

You suck. I was expecting something juicy.

Biscuits and gravy.

I've never masturbated before. I've tried, though.

Wet dreams are inconvenient.

Really? I don't believe you.

 

[Deleted member 465307]

I've never masturbated before. I've tried, though.

Wet dreams are inconvenient.

Basically same tbh.

 

[Leona Lewis]

Really? I don't believe you.

I've talked to people about it. I don't have any moral or health reasons for it, but I just don't. I've tugged during periods of arousal, and nothing happens.

And then once every two weeks or so, comes out all at once :-\

I guess I get off on the fantasy. I close my eyes and don't feel the impulse to touch myself.

 

[RatskyWatsky]

Mentally, yeah, or it's interoception, rather. You sort of mentally 'tune in' to an energetic sensation there. Then it propagates, generally in proportion to how long you do it for and how stable your attention is. I think it takes a bit of practice though, like I don't think I could do it without prior experience focusing on mental qualities (or experiences) and areas within my body, because it seems to involve a degree of both. It's not quite an ordinary (or gross) bodily sensation, but something you'd call a 'subtle sensation'. Thanissaro teaches a mindfulness of breathing practice where you focus on the subtle sensation of 'energy' (for a lack of a better term) in your body as a product of physiological breathing. It's the same kind of phenomenon ("breath energy"), just in a certain spot with some particular characteristics I guess.

I don't have any energetic sensations there though :/ or anywhere else tbh

I dunno if it has improved now but when I was living there, if you weren't Kuwaiti by blood, which I'm not, then you were basically a 2nd class visitor and could never be considered an official citizen there. Owning a business, going to college, buying property, etc all had all sorts of extra hoops tossed onto them that you'd have to jump through just cause you were a foreigner. (Assuming you were granted the privilege at all to begin with.) After the first Gulf War happened my parents went "enough's enough" and we left.]

Oh, I see. Hm. That sounds shitty. :/ I'm glad you guys now live somewhere more accepting!

 

[Blood Diamonds]

Destiny TTK is literally so good and so addictive fuck

 

[Thequietone]

Feeling really conflicted right now. Ex boyfriend texted me out of the blue. He ended it because he was too busy to keep giving our relationship the attention it needed. I feel like I have moved on for the most part, but I do care for him still, like his family has a history of heart attacks at a young age and I worry about him as a result of this and I think of him often. I've been texting with him tonight and he hasn't said what exactly that he wants, but guessing he wants me back. However, I am not sure if I should since his family's medical history could easily take him early and it'd be more difficult for me if I get close to him again.

 

[Sai-kun]

Me having my degree in game design is why I hate video games so much

It's something I'm unlearning, but it's hard to turn off the part of my brain that constantly criticizes and critiques things.

 

[umop_3pisdn]

I don't have any energetic sensations there though :/ or anywhere else tbh

That's what I mean by practice. Meditation, at least from the novice to intermediate level, is largely about observing and identifying various phenomena and experiences, some of which fall within one's ordinary waking norm, but many others are at least a little bit outside of that category. 'Subtle sensations' are one of the many things you begin to notice once your mind has calmed down a bit through meditation. If you take up the practice it's probably one of the first things you'll start to notice. It's just that in the beginning these experiences are pretty fleeting and subtle and you have no idea what you did to 'cause' them to appear. So you can experience it without much trouble at all, it actually helps if you're not looking for it, because then you can delude yourself about what you're experiencing, and you tend to get excited the first time you notice it which breaks your concentration prematurely. Actually working with these sensations consistently and generating them at will is more of an intermediate skill, though. But I don't really know what they are, I figure they must be some kind of information being passed through your nervous system that's just a bit below the 'gross' level of perception, maybe even a kind of subtle 'noise' or something, but I don't know why it's so pleasurable or why it's something you can 'work with'.

 

[Monocle]

I've never masturbated before. I've tried, though.

Wet dreams are inconvenient.

Honey... that's like ignoring the car radio when you're driving alone. You're sleeping on one of your most entertaining built-in features!

It's so easy when you're uncut, just saying. The good lord anticipated the invention of Tumblr and equipped us accordingly.

Me having my degree in game design is why I hate video games so much

It's something I'm unlearning, but it's hard to turn off the part of my brain that constantly criticizes and critiques things.

One of the reasons I'm wary about trying to get into filmmaking.

 

[Kevyt]

You guys are missing out if you aren't in the Skype Chat!

[12:37:54 AM] Feeble cursed one: I feel like we should care more about character and personality
[12:37:57 AM] Feeble cursed one: rather than looks
[12:38:00 AM] Feeble cursed one: but then again...
[12:38:09 AM] Feeble cursed one: I guess I'm a hypocrite
[12:42:02 AM] Barrylocke: [12:37 AM] Feeble cursed one: <<< I guess I'm a hypocrite >>> I was gonna say I'm glad you noticed that since the focus of who you were looking for with guys a few months back was other men in the gym

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This was too good to pass.

You have said this twice, and both times I don't get it.

Edit; wait nevermind I think I get it

Biscuits and gravy.

 

[Henchmen21]

Well I don't and now I'm hungry.

 

[RatskyWatsky]

That's what I mean by practice. Meditation, at least from the novice to intermediate level, is largely about observing and identifying various phenomena and experiences, some of which fall within one's ordinary waking norm, but many others are at least a little bit outside of that category. 'Subtle sensations' are one of the many things you begin to notice once your mind has calmed down a bit through meditation. If you take up the practice it's probably one of the first things you'll start to notice. It's just that in the beginning these experiences are pretty fleeting and subtle and you have no idea what you did to 'cause' them to appear. So you can experience it without much trouble at all, it actually helps if you're not looking for it, because then you can delude yourself about what you're experiencing, and you tend to get excited the first time you notice it which breaks your concentration prematurely. Actually working with these sensations consistently and generating them at will is more of an intermediate skill, though. But I don't really know what they are, I figure they must be some kind of information being passed through your nervous system that's just a bit below the 'gross' level of perception, maybe even a kind of subtle 'noise' or something, but I don't know why it's so pleasurable or why it's something you can 'work with'.

how do you know the sensations are real or if you're just concentrating so hard that you're making it all up

 

[Vazra]

Seath you are forgetting that what happens in the chat stays in the chat.

 

[umop_3pisdn]

how do you know the sensations are real or if you're just concentrating so hard that you're making it all up

Because it's basically like a paresthesia. On a very fine level you can be confused about what you're experiencing, but at some point it crosses a threshold and becomes distinct.

You're also not concentrating hard or deliberately creating an image. It's more like your mind is calming down and collecting itself which is conducive to noticing. Usually these sensations are a side effect you're not looking for. When I started meditation it wasn't on my radar at all, I only began to investigate them when I saw that they might be useful. Even when you're working with it deliberately, while whatever you're noticing may be subtle enough in the beginning that it's ambiguous what it is you're noticing, given some time it tends to become distinct, at which point it's clear that you couldn't be 'making it up' because it's as clear as any experience is. In the case of piti-sukha it can actually be more intense than the majority of experiences.

 

[Kevyt]

Seath you are forgetting that what happens in the chat stays in the chat.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V_ozofiGPJo

Biscuits and gravy.

 

[_Isaac]

Chad Michaels looking flawless.

 

[Blood Diamonds]

okay so getting hard isn't considered cheating when you're trying to not masturbate for a week right?

 

[Henchmen21]

okay so getting hard isn't considered cheating when you're trying to not masturbate for a week right?

Nope. As long as you don't spank it, it's not cheating.

 

[Blood Diamonds]

Nope. As long as you don't spank it, it's not cheating.

that's all i needed to hear

let's do this

 

[Kater]

I guess I get off on the fantasy. I close my eyes and don't feel the impulse to touch myself.

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I believe you but I wanted to post this.

 

[DOWN]

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I believe you but I wanted to post this.

That doesn't look like a cinnamon roll

 

[Deleted member 465307]

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I believe you but I wanted to post this.

Cinnamon rolls are my weakness. I probably get more positive sensations from one of those than anything else in life. I'd say that's my version of self-pleasuring.

Generally, though, I prefer mine to be a bit denser and with a greater amount of cinnamon. I want that cinnamon-frosting hybrid goop oozing out of every bite.

 

[DOWN]

Congrats on the good date how was the food tho

Good enough

That's great to hear! How'd you guys meet btw?

He is friends with friends I made in summer classes so he's been at a bunch of the nights out

That's an interesting date, to cook...

How was the food?

How did it go besides him looking hot cooking?

It was nice. The food was not my thing but good enough and then we watched Lucy

Congratulations on the second date going well.
What'd he cook?

It was a bunch of things I don't know names of. Caprese? And some various chicken and seafood