Ok, so about a month back I had this potluck dinner with a bunch of friends (all of whom are LGBT identifying) and I kind of hit it off with this one guy. Well I feel like we hit it off I'm very socially awkward and he just seemed very friendly to everyone in general. But anyway, we talked for a few hours, talked shit about people we both hate, and had a really deep discussion about spirituality and our place in the world. He's tall and cute too, and posts very flattering selfies on facebook it's annoying.
A few days later I was talking to a friend (Ai) and casually mentioned how I would let this guy
in me and Ai freaked the fuck out. Apparently he's off limits because he (hot guy) dated our mutual friend Mark a few years back and they were pretty serious. I like to think that Mark is a very close friend and I'd never want to hurt him so I asked about his relationship with the hot guy and he basically just wants me to be happy. He gave me his blessing to pursue (which I have no experience doing because again I'm awkward as fuck and lack basic social skills). I haven't seen the hot guy since that dinner, although he was at a few events I was invited to that I didn't attend. But me and my friend Ai are planning another get together soon so I'm sure the hot one will be coming.
This is so stupid none of this has a point lmao. I don't think I've ever experienced a crush before until now. And I don't know how to make it known I like him I'm dainty like a flower I break easily.