Well I have a few different things I want to do, but I'm not sure which is the right path. I want to try and pursue Game Design and perhaps Twitch stream as a pass time, but both of those are difficult with my full time job - so I'm not sure if I should quit/cut down hours a lot to try and get this path done. I also want to move out of my parents house and live on my own, so obviously I can't quit my job if thats something I want to do.
I'm 19 (way too young to have this mentality), but I'm already feeling like if I don't act quick, I'll be fucked for the rest of my life.
Then you're not completely clueless.
Although I do get the feeling you mean of course.
Well I can say from my end, being 8 years older. I've just recently figured these things out and started pursuing them for myself. Most of this happened in the last 3 years, and I'm perfectly happy where I am. So (as you yourself know
, there is time for that. And you might never feel perfectly sure of what the 'right' path is.
I made it this far by trusting my instincts and tracking my dreams and feelings. I do this by stream-of-conciousness writing about how I feel and what I want with life.
I'm still not sure if I'm on the right path. I doubt. But doubting only means you might be on the right path, and that you think what you're doing with your life is important. It's not necessarily a bad sign. And if you start doubting too much, look for the spaces in your life when you feel no doubt and go from there.
And you're never 'fucked for the rest of your life'. You can always change. My father changed his life around after he was 50. (Not that you should wait that long heh)
You'll have to weigh your priorities and find out what feels the best for you. As it seems, it's either cut down on work and maybe be stuck at your parent's for a while longer, BUT being able to pursue Game Design and Twitch streaming (which both sound awesome). Or working diligently for a period longer and holding off on your ambitions while you try to save up for your own place. How long do you think that saving might take you? And how much do you gain by moving out? What EXACTLY do you gain? Could you make your job more manageable or enjoyable in any way? Write about these things seriously.
And what do you gain by cutting down work and starting to pursue Game Design and streaming? Again, write about it seriously. And could you make it manageable to stay at home for a period longer for that to happen? Could it be worth it?
Then weigh those against each other. And take your time. But writing about this stuff, or talking to someone in your life. Maybe a Guidance Councelor or something similar? Or a good friend, maybe someone a bit older, someone you like and trust? Do you have someone like that in your life?
These are just tips and ways that I have handled things in my past. Seemed to work ok.
I hope you come to some kind of conclusion or realization. It's always a bit hard when you feel like you don't know what you want or how to do it. But take small steps and try to organize the progress. And please congratulate yourself for the small things you do, and again, take your time! And keep positive!
Hah, I'm sounding like a badly organized self-help book.
I can't stress enough enough to take yourself and your feelings seriously and try to talk to someone about it. I actually had a small chat about how to organize my studies with a Guidance Councelor at my uni (I think that's the english word...) earlier today and it really helped. Just letting it out verbally can be helpful and someone more experienced with life and more knowledgable about your life situation could really help.
Maybe also listen to this for some positive energy!
Mary J Blige - Work That
