Mental Health |OT| Depression & Co.
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Nature of the beast. Have to keep putting one foot in front of the other no matter how hard it is... Just know that, in the end, you're probably a lot stronger than many, many other people out there.
Lately it's been too hard. No amount of distractions helps. At the end of every day I feel a little more broken, and nothing helps make me feel whole. It's too frustrating.
It's how things are, unfortunately.
People break a little bit each day. I continue to break a little bit each day, but for some reason, I've managed to keep going. Not even my loneliness has been able to get rid of me yet, though it's tried numerous times.
We'd keep the price point loooowwwwww. :S
I'm broke as shiiiiiit. Uni life has not been kind. I'm barely able to afford my commute right now. :/
InsaneZero
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This pomodoro technique is fucking magic at controlling my ADHD. Almost curbed my incessant need to lurk NeoGAF at work today; it's that good.
Now I just need to control my self-consciousness while talking to people and I'll be set. Exercise at the gym really gets my mind of that kind of thing, although I suppose that failing muscles and the heart working overtime would do that to you.
Now I just need to control my self-consciousness while talking to people and I'll be set. Exercise at the gym really gets my mind of that kind of thing, although I suppose that failing muscles and the heart working overtime would do that to you.
The battle of finding, and maintaining any self worth in myself is a losing one. Just feels like no matter what I do, it always ends up with me feeling like a clumsy idiot getting it all wrong. Sad thing is, even if I were to do something well, I probably wouldn't even recognize it. I always need some sort of reinforcement, like a grade, recognition, or feedback from someone else. Even on the personal level, I will question if the feedback was sincere, or a kind lie. If I'm unable to find that on my own, is there much point to keep on going? When nothing I do will ever be enough to satisfy myself.
The loneliness is the biggest killer for me. Not having anyone to talk to whenever about whatever really sucks. That and feeling so disconnected from everyone else really makes me feel all alone out there.
Are you me? I'm the exact same way, and it's super frustrating. I'm always convincing myself I screwed up, or that nobody really cares and they say what they think I want to hear to get me out of their hair.
Agent Cooper
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I know you don't want to hear it and yet I keep telling you to GO STUDY YOU LAZY BUM all the time.
I know you don't want to hear it and yet I keep telling you to GO STUDY YOU LAZY BUM all the time.
Go away.
Didn't reply to my text. Jerk.
I'm with you there as well. I've always felt rather disconnected, probably more so now since I rarely leave the house any more. I find it hard to form true connections with people, by that I mean beyond meaningless acquaintance level. Even with those I do want to bond with, it usually doesn't amount to much. Since there's usually an abundance of other people they would rather invest more time into than me. Absence of charisma and personality will do that to you.
So it's confirmed, you are me! Forming true connections has always been hard for me, and the one time I did it, well, we all know how that ended up. Even if I had the opportunity to make such a connection with someone again, I'd probably end up running. It's so mad how I crave that kind of bond with someone and fear it so much at the same time to the point where I feel I'd rather isolate myself from the world. I just can't win.
Even just the feeling of "not being alone" can be reassuring, even if it is under unfortunate circumstances. I guess in a few different points in my life, I could say I had a close friend. But people change over time, and sometimes you realize they were never right for you all along. I do remember your situation, whilst I've not quite had that level of loss, I know where you're coming from. Like, if you were to form that bond again, it would feel as if there was more to lose. More pressure on yourself to do it better than you did last time. I have that running in the background all the time, that fear of not being enough, and the other person(s) growing tired of you. Feel like I've carried on for too long here. Feel free to PM me more anytime about this stuff, or on Steam. Or anyone else for that matter.
Dude. Every single one of your posts in this thread could have been written by me. Even when good things happen to me, I dismiss them because I think I don't deserve them.
ClassyPenguin
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smokeandmirrors
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I hate how I just stay up for no reason. I just end up listening to music for hours on end and I know I should go to bed...
Also gonna need to buy new clothes this week and that's gonna be a mess. I really need to lose weight :\
Also gonna need to buy new clothes this week and that's gonna be a mess. I really need to lose weight :\
Femmeworth
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Date #4 was pleasant enough, only got a quick hug at the end though. ._. I almost thought she was going to invite me back to her place, but I think she is still building up to it. Also there might be logistical issues. I don't even necessarily want to have sex with her, just some kissing and cuddling would be nice.
Honestly, it's not a bad thing to ask for the kiss either.The rest of gaf will say "OMG YOU'RE SO BETA YOU LOSER" but I swear that's how it worked out both times where dates have gone into relationships for me. "Can I kiss you" at the end of the date might break the barrier if you're both too shy to just go for it.
Words of a beta.
Smiley has had 2 more girlfriends than me. He knows more than me about this, I just never let a chance to tease him (or Bagels) slip me by.
Femmeworth
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No kiss. I'm not reserved when it comes to being physically intimate, I just need clear signs.
Being direct is bad according to DatingGAF. ¯\_(ツ
_/¯Remember the bio midterm I was freaking out over? Fears were kinda justified. 64.4% . (Then again I read only chapter 1 and it was on all of chapters 1 and 2, three sections of chapter 3 and two sections of chapter 5, so I didn't read the majority of the stuff I needed to know... Low motivation sucks.) Should be a wake up call, but my motivation is still crap. How do I restore it?
. (Then again I read only chapter 1 and it was on all of chapters 1 and 2, three sections of chapter 3 and two sections of chapter 5, so I didn't read the majority of the stuff I needed to know... Low motivation sucks.) Should be a wake up call, but my motivation is still crap. How do I restore it? eddfromtheriver
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Man, i must be a relative of Birdman (cartoon character not the rapper), because this cloudy days severely affect me.
Started seeing a therapist yesterday. Guy thinks part of my issues are due to tech. So, tomorrow, I'm "Freeing" (to a point) myself from tech. I'll still use my iPhone for calls, weather, my sleeping app, and my planner. Other then that, I wont have my DS, or PS Vita, and wont use my computer, at all tomorrow.
Edit: I'm 100% sure this isn't the problem, and I'm gonna prove it.
Edit: I'm 100% sure this isn't the problem, and I'm gonna prove it.
I don't believe tech use to be a considerable factor in feeling worse. It only becomes a problem if these things are overused to the point of not doing much else in your life, or a feeling of strong dependence. Whenever I've had lengthy internet drop outs, or went on holiday my use of these devices were really cut down. I guess it was nice to focus on other things more than I normally would with internet related distractions, but I didn't feel any better because of it. So if you're going to do that, have a think about some offline activities you've been meaning to get around to. It may give you a temporary productivity boost.
Since it's tech related, I got around to deactivating my facebook, maybe permanently, not sure. Not been in the best of spirits, so not too jazzed about my upcoming birthday as a result. Seeing these people I never speak to giving me fake, generic birthday messages would only make me feel worse.
CheesecakeRecipe
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I am beginning to consider this option. It hasn't done much in the way of helping me feel connected to anyone and if anything has contributed more to any compounded misery I've had built up. No one readily acknowledges much of anything I do or say on there except for the same two people who I talk to via other means anyways. I find myself reacting with bitter frustration at every status update I see about meaningless drivel or life progress alike, cause the moment I post anything of the sort it goes completely ignored. Most recently I've been trying to campaign for support to help my writing and the 100% lack of response has been enough to put me off of eating in the mornings. Completely destroys your sense of self worth when your friends and family act as though you don't exist already.
Social networks have their place and use, however i'm starting to accept that it's really only slowly killing people like me.
Also, Hi DepressionGAF. I've been shy to speak about my own problems but lately I've felt the lowest I've been in quite some years. Hope to stick around some and be a good friendly ear for any who need it.
A couple of bad memories attached to this song.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yyPMWWjzMG8
Enjoy, DepGAF.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yyPMWWjzMG8
Enjoy, DepGAF.
But being direct can be sexy!No kiss. I'm not reserved when it comes to being physically intimate, I just need clear signs.
Being direct is bad according to DatingGAF. ¯_(ツ
^Most of the time, I feel like I don't know people mean or are trying to get at unless they are direct with me. Being direct isn't always as bad as people make it out to be. Go with what makes you most comfortable, I say. If the other party is right for you, they will be fine with it and understand the communication route you took.
Femmeworth
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Just presented a model that kind of was my exam. Everything was right there but it was missing content. There was this.team that made it perfectly. Now I feel like shit and not able to do anything. I still have an exam in an hour but I just can't are about it because I know something will go wrong.
Cameron122
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Ladyfriend of mine is going through a depression and I dunno what to do. Hate seeing her like this
ClassyPenguin
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ClassyPenguin
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Talk. Be a friend. Be supportive.
Watch QI? Easily my favourite show on television currently, and it's hosted by Stephen Fry. 50% learning, 50% funny. Fantastic.
ClassyPenguin
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Love QI, 8 out of 10 cats, and Nevermind The Buzzcocks.
Love those two shows as well. They are awesome.
It's off-season but if you enjoy those shows, Would I Lie To You (start at season 3) with David Mitchell and Lee Mack is hysterical.
ClassyPenguin
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Love that too!!
ThoseDeafMutes
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Darkmakaimura
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Haven't been in this thread for awhile but not too much to talk about. I have come to the realization I'm pretty lonely. Okay, who am I kidding. Of course, I am. But in that significant other way especially. I feel kinda stupid.
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If she's a lady friend like me, offer to bring a random delicious and fattening item and marathon a favorite show.
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