Yeah, the Zen jazz.
How does one end up spending two weeks doing that?
Well, I've been affiliated with this monastery for over a year, and they allow residency after you've gone through student training. I liked my time back there in January which was for one week, so I figured I would try two. I was originally planning an entire month, but by being a member of the precariat I lack the income, so I worked out two weeks with them.
I've been interested in Zen and Vedanta as disciplines because they focus on 'nondualism' which, to give the tl;dr, is a better way of understanding the mind and illusions of divisions, which is almost always where suffering occurs. Our society is one where we assert divisions, and bam, out comes conflict; the GOP is literally a platform for this. My support for UBI actually stems from this position, as work is more than what we divide it to be as "real" with jobs. Work is all sorts of activity, and so long as we cut that up and only say "X is canon" this will be a real mess. I am reminded of the following poster every time I reflect on it.
What pushed me here was the suffering I had in my own life: the fear of death and feelings of deep dualism. It might be hard to believe, but if you spoke to me five years ago and even suggested my organism was connected to fish via evolution, I would have been physically triggered. I was that caught up in the illusions of isolation, that I really was a fixed special snowflake, and through time and practice, I have become aware how loose such views are, but I always remember how hard those illusions felt when I was trapped in them. That's one of my motivations to be of service to others, and why when the topic catches my attention on places like GAF and other, I try to challenge the illusions of self and "me-ness" we think are things but are really only thoughts and ideas. Just reading this, countless cells in your body have come and gone. Where is this fixed "supervisor" to your reading this? We think it's there, and that creates an ocean of problems. This 'think' is not a 'thing' like an organ.
Vocationally, I used to work in hospice, but I saw I dealt with pain of the body, and suffering of the mind was kind of off limits; it's preaching in that environment, and not a position I can challenge. My frustration there was the motivator to try another life direction with this more as the foreground and less as the background, which I've been juggling for almost two years now. I'm stuck in the "selling water by the river" paradox: there's nothing to learn or gain with where I'm going or what I'm doing. It's all inquisition and realization, and not acquisition. How do you teach people their default ways of mind that have been overlooked?
No idea if I want to be a monk, though. I struggle with the idea of living in refuge. If self and other go together, who is really winning if I am hiding from the rest of you in society as the shitlords bomb decency off the map? One of the reasons I harp on accountable policies is because the alternative is what we have, and this is a bridge to disaster. We're going to hit Ecological Debt Day while I'm gone, and that's just one of the many problems forced onto us by the way we live!
Hope my rambling was helpful in explaining what it is and my motivations. I would be happy to share more in PM if asked; don't wanna clog the thread with this stuff. We got policies to be concerned about.